Chapter Forty-Two: Let Me Have Mine
"Derek stop it, I have to go" Addison spoke firmly, but still smiling from the feeling that was running through her body.
"Do you really have to go?" he whispered in her ear huskily as he continued to nibble along her ear and down her neck.
"Yes, I told you I'm meeting Meredith for dinner" she told him now giggling from the tickling feeling that Derek was causing. Over the past 2 months they had begun seeing each other. They were yet to tell anyone about their relationship and more than anything Addison had wanted to tell Meredith. Not to rub it into her but it was the type of thing they always told each other and it felt right now that they had been sorting out their friendship.
"Are you going to tell her about us?" Derek asked spinning Addison around so she was no facing him.
"I was thinking about it. I will see how it goes okay" she told him placing a kiss on his lips.
"People are going to find out eventually Addie" he told her seriously.
"I know but I want to tell Meredith first" she told him. "Now I really have to go, I will see you later" she said giving him one last kiss before heading out the door of her apartment.
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Meredith was already seated at their table waiting for Addison. It wasn't like Addison to be late so she was wondering if she had forgotten about their plans. Her mind was put at ease when she spotted Addison heading toward their table, as glamorous and flawless as always.
"Hey, sorry I'm late" Addison greeted her with a kiss on the cheek.
"It's okay I haven't been here long" Meredith lied not wanting to admit she had been waiting almost 25 minutes.
"So how are you?" Addison asked as she sipped the glass of water the waiter had placed in front of her. Meredith had been down the last few months since Thatcher hadn't made it. She had decided against going to the funeral and had confided in Addison about it all. She had finally begun putting it all behind her but it had only made the two closer again.
"I'm huge!" Meredith exclaimed standing so Addison could see what she meant. The fitted shirt she wore showed off her large baby bump.
"Gosh Mer you have gotten big" Addison agreed. "You've popped."
"Yeah through the night" Meredith told her and went on to tell her what had happened at the hospital.
"Mark is male, you can't expect too much" Addison laughed at Meredith's story.
"Yeah well he is still in trouble, I love watching him try and get me to forgive me" Meredith laughed trying to notice what was different about Addison. "So how is the new apartment?" Meredith asked changing the subject.
"Oh it is so much better than living in a hotel that is for sure, so much more privacy" Addison replied. "I like having something more concrete now that I am staying in Seattle."
"Yeah definitely" Meredith agreed. "I will have to come see the apartment when I get time" Meredith continued.
"Yeah for sure, you and Mark could come for dinner or something" Addison suggested.
"Sounds good, all you need to do is find a guy so that we can double date like old times" Meredith laughed.
Addison let out a nervous giggle. Now would be the perfect opportunity to tell Meredith about Derek but she found herself backing out, she didn't want to risk upsetting their friendship now that it was back on track.
"So when is your next appointment?" Addison asked changing the subject.
"Tomorrow actually" Meredith replied. "We are going to find out the sexes" she told Addison.
"Oh fantastic, my money is on girls, that way I can take them shopping" Addison said with a smirk. "I bet Mark is hanging out for boys" Addison laughed.
"I don't know but he was suggesting girls names the other night so I think he has his heart set on his own little princess" Meredith told her with a smile.
"What about you?" Addison asked hoping the fear of being a bad mother hadn't reappeared. She hadn't mentioned it since Thatcher had been at the hospital.
"I just want two healthy babies" Meredith said honestly.
"Well I'm sure everything will be fine. Have you thought of any names?" Addison asked trying to get onto a more cheerful subject.
"We've been going through a few but knowing the sexes will make it easier" Meredith responded noticing Addison fidgeting, she seemed nervous about something. "Addie are you okay?" Meredith asked.
"Yeah I'm fine" Addison lied drinking more of her wine she had ordered.
"Addison I know you better than that, tell me what is going on" Meredith said firmly.
"Well I kind of met someone" Addison blurted out.
"That's great Addie, do I know him? Where did you meet him?" Meredith asked with a smile a million questions springing to mind.
"Ah I met him at the hospital and we met up again at Joe's" Addison said avoiding the identity of her new male friend.
"Oh come on Addie, I deserve more than that" Meredith urged.
"It's Derek" Addison said softly watching the look of shock on Meredith's face.
"As in Derek….Derek Shepherd" Meredith clarified.
Addison nodded not wanting to meet Meredith's eyes.
"That's great Addie" Meredith said with a fake smile. "I'm really happy for both of you, you deserve to be happy and so does he" she said trying to remain cheerful.
"I am happy" Addison smiled knowing that Meredith was fighting back her concerns.
"Just don't hurt him" Meredith said softly.
"I was waiting for something like this" Addison snapped. "This is why I hadn't told you Meredith because I knew you would be all judgemental, I get it I made a mistake with Jake and Mark but I thought we were past all that" Addison exclaimed at her.
"Addison I didn't mean it like that, Derek is a good guy I just mean that he doesn't need to be hurt again, I hurt him enough" Meredith tried to explain.
"Not everything is about you Meredith, the last 2 months have been great and I'm not going to let you change that. You have a husband and a family on the way, you have your life, let me have mine" Addison cried at her.
"2 Months and you didn't think to tell me, we are supposed to be friends Addison, we used to tell each other everything, I don't care that you are sleeping with Derek" Meredith told her firmly.
"Well it sure doesn't seem like you don't care" Addison shouted at her.
"Whatever, I'm going home, enjoy the rest of your evening" Meredith said bitterly before leaving, the words playing over and over in her mind.