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Chapter 16: Phase One
I watched in silence from the kitchen counter as Rose and Oliver went over their initial plans for infiltrating ARGUS. I marveled at how calm and rational they both had become over the past hour. Rose had felt shocked and I suspected slightly betrayed when Oliver came blasting through the door looking as if I'd already died. His face would haunt my dreams for the next few months I'd never seen him look so broken, so defeated, I'd never seen him look so lost. He'd moved past the door and had me wrapped in his arms within minutes of his proclamation to Rose. My head fit perfectly underneath his chin as my face snuggled into his chest inhaling deeply feeling safe and secure. I always felt safe in his arms, I always felt protected as he gently rubbed his hands to and fro over my back, I always felt loved whenever his lips touched my skin. My lips gently pressed against his throat each time he took a heaving breath, I used my hands to pull him back to reality as I moved them up and down his back savoring the feel of his muscular body against my own. The last thing I always did whenever in his embrace was to close my eyes, once they shut the world seemed to slowly fade away until there was nothing but him and I and the strong beat of our hearts.
My reverie was broken when Rose's hand descended upon my shoulder. "Felicity I'm heading home now so Oliver can explain what our next steps are going to be." I nodded as I reached up to lightly grasp the hand on my shoulder in appreciation for the risk she was about to take. She responded in kind as we stood there for long seconds holding the other's hand attempting to use anything but words to convey our confusing feelings. Breaking away first she headed towards the door with her usual ease and proficiency.
"Rose…" Her head turned as the hand on the door knob stilled stopped by my still anxious sounding voice.
"Thank you for doing this for me… for us… I mean Oliver and I…not there we aren't an us but I mean we're both you know…"
"Felicity stop and take a breath." I did inhaling and exhaling slowly and deeply attempting to keep the nervous babbling at bay. Her face was passive but calm as she took in my body language which was currently teeming with anxiety over our next very dangerous steps. "You and I we have a common connection a bond and by helping you I'm honoring the woman I once was." She paused but only to step forward reaching out for my hand which I willing gave. She spoke as she gave my hand a tight and short squeeze. "I'm doing this for my family, I have children who I one day hope can respect me and love me despite the choices that I've made. I want you to one day look back on this time as a good and bad dream. I want you to wake up in his…" Her head tilted to Oliver's form as he leaned against the wall taking in the scene before him. "arms with your own children quietly sleeping down the hall. I want you to have the life that frankly you deserve." With that she released my hand and moved to the door once again turning the knob and walking away leaving me feeling grateful for our first meeting that was thankfully not our last.
Holding two glasses of red wine Oliver walked into the family room where I was sitting going over their plans for the next coming days. Handing me the glass and putting his own on the small coffee table before him he sat down beside me as his hand lightly tangled in my hair as his fingertips traced small patterns against my neck. Savoring his touch my head tilted to the side leaning harder into his soft ministrations. "I really love it when you do that; just finding little ways to touch me or be near me whenever we're together." My eyes closed as he continued his soft and gentle assault massaging the tight and sore muscles no doubt filled with stress and strain given the past few days events.
"Well I really love that you're so receptive to my touch, I never have to wonder how you feel about me because you're every sound and movement tells me exactly what I need to know." I smiled as he continued to work out the kinks in my neck and then moaned a little bit when he turned me and began to use both hands to massage my shoulders. "It's not fair, it's just not. Are you bad at well anything?" I was in heaven he used his hands perfectly as they kneaded with the right amount of pressure into my aching body. Once my shoulders felt loose and relaxed he moved his hands down to my upper back using one hand to hold me while the other fisted against my scapula once again finding the right amount of pressure to elicit a feeling of pleasure that ran straight through my otherwise weary body. He had repeated the same movements to my right side as he had the left once he was satisfied he once again moved his hands down to my lower back as he once again used one hand to steady me as his fist moved in even and concentric circles against the muscles until my entire body felt slack with relaxation.
When he was done I felt myself being pulled back until his chest was against my back. Moving further into his otherwise iron hold I rested fully into his waiting arms as they clasped around my stomach his hands entwining with my own. "This is your thing isn't that's why so many women fell at your feet, forget the sex all you had to do was give them a backrub and they'd be putty in your hands." My eyes had closed when I felt his lips gently ghost across my temple laughing when he pulled back. "Yes you've guessed it all the stories of my notorious past it was all made up I just gave them all back rubs no sex was involved." I chuckled knowing from now very personal experience that sex was indeed involved. "No seriously you're well I'm sure many women have commented on your um…performance but that massage well baby that was heavenly. Thank you." I snuggled against him as I brought my legs up closer to my body shifting slightly to once again read over the plans for tomorrows first step.
"You're welcome… As for the other women's appraisal of my performance well none of them were as beautiful as yours." I smirked once again as I kissed his bicep and tilted my head towards the papers on the table before us. "Enough stalling lover boy I need to know what's going on tomorrow if I'm going to be even slightly involved." His sigh of defeat indicated that I was right on both counts. He was stalling and he really didn't want to have this conversation right now in this moment. "Most women after that would usually be on their backs thanking me just for your information." I glared upwards attempting to move out of his strong embrace. His arms tightened around me preventing any idea of escape that I had previously planned. "Don't even think about it you're not leaving my arms until I'm good and ready to let you go." I slumped against him in mock protest waiting for him to fully explain my part in the morning's plans.
"Well beautiful tomorrow you're going to work as usual remember nothing on the QC side is going to change it's just going to be business as usual." I nodded against his chest as he continued his voice creating a steady even rhythm against my ear. "Rose and I are going to walk into the ARGUS front building at 9am. From there she is going to call it in keeping everything on the up and up. According to Rose once she places the call Amanda will have a tactical team on site to retrieve me within 10 to 15 minutes." A small sound of apprehension escaped from my lips. 10 to 15 minutes such a short yet long amount of time for everything to go very very wrong. His lips once again made contact with my skin lightly reassuring me that this plan was going to work, that nothing was going to go wrong, that tomorrow night his body would once again be tightly wrapped around my own. "Once Rose makes the call another team will be sent to you, they'll be on site in about the same amount of time. Now Felicity this is crucial to our next steps you have to go with them with hesitance and reluctance. As far as they know you have a crush on me but that's it. Remember from here on out you and I no longer have contact in the outside world our relationship as it really is doesn't exist anywhere but here or in the lair." I nodded in understanding dreading the disconnected feeling that being with him but not really being "with" him was going to create.
"Alright so once they have me in whatever they bring to retrieve me that's when I activate the tracker so Rose well be able to track my location until all three of us are in the same location once again." This time he nodded against my forehead his scruff lightly scratching against the delicate skin. "Then the real show begins…so do you think Amanda or anyone will really buy that we're just friends?" He had to know why I was asking I mean the office was abuzz with chatter about how some blonde IT geek had snagged the billionaire prince. The gossip rags on every cover with the words taken splashed across his face. Kate had made multiple references to our growing relationship even before we'd even shared a kiss. I could feel his breathing change from slow, steady and almost calculated to slightly rapid and maybe a bit frantic. "Oliver what are you thinking your heart rate just jumped about 20 beats per minute in the past 5 seconds, so give what's up?" My voice was light and curious as I asked using my thumb to lightly trace over his taught skin.
"I just realized that you have a point I can barely keep my hands off you even when we're with other people. I also realized that I don't want to hide what I feel for you, I've been hiding for the past five years I don't want to hide anymore especially not when I have you." My body turned in his arms so that my chin was now resting against his chest allowing me to look into his now slightly tortured face. Bringing my hands up I lightly grasped the sides of his face, his chin dropped his gaze questioning our entire plan. "Then we'll amend it." His confusion was evident in both his eyes and face not grasping what exactly I wanted to amend. I smiled lightly and continued still keeping my hands pressed against his skin.
"Instead of hiding our relationship we'll use it to our advantage. Her entire plan for me rests in getting Damian's attention well what better way to attract a father's attention then having her date an infamous playboy." His eyes lit up with understanding. "You're suggesting using our relationship as part of the plan." I nodded and elaborated before he either came to the wrong conclusion or worse he just rejected it out of fear for me safety. "During you "deal" talk with Amanda instead of bring me in as your trusted friend bring me in because of our already publicized "relationship". The media and most of QC already think that we're together so use that angle to bring me in. Her end game is HIVE's leader who as we now know has a great interest in me." Understanding graced his beautiful face.
"She'll have to unwilling give us more information and thus more access to her overall plan. But that means…"
"Yes instead of Rose calling only you in I want her to call us in. Remember what Rose said she wants you broken and bound to them, she also wants Damian dead. Well what better way to break you than making you watch as the woman you love is killed. She'll take the bait she can say I died because the mission went wrong. She won't pass up the chance to have everything she wants offered up on a silver platter." I was nervous watching his expression change from horrified understanding to I hoped reluctant acceptance. I waited for what seemed like a lifetime as his deep blue eyes grew stormy and dark as feelings of anger and sadness crept in. When he broke the silence he did so with a soft voice filled with his own hesitation; I could almost feel his anxiety building as he spoke the words coming out in a rapid fire of emotion.
"We do this…Felicity you have to do exactly as I ask with no questioning of my orders…"
"Oliver I understand I'll follow your lead I promise." I'd repositioned my body so that our chests were touching as my legs wrapped around his waist. I could still see the storm building in his eyes his heartbeat still pounding away rapidly in his chest. "Hey Oliver… Oliver look at me." Using my hands I pulled his gaze back towards mine since he kept looking away never once truly meeting my gaze since he sort of said yes to my requested change. I let my fingertips run softly up and down his face learning the panes and the contours of his face as I waited for him to willing meet my sure and steady eyes. Once he did I took my chance knowing that I may not get another. "Oliver Amanda is smart you and Rose both said that while you two were over here huddled together planning this assault. She's going to see right through me baby I can't hide what I feel for you it's basically written all over my body. Rose saw right through me weeks after our first meeting. Amanda is going to see us together, working together she's going to see what we mean to each other. Baby this whole plan depends on me getting into the ARGUS files; Oliver she has to trust me for that to work. She has to believe that I'd do anything to help you including fully joining ARGUS myself."
I knew that was the part of the plan that he had been dwelling on as Rose had stated before while I was still standing within Oliver's warm and comforting embrace.
"Oliver the plan will work I'll bring you in, you can make you case but Oliver she'll want Felicity as well." His hold had tightened on me in that moment as she continued now speaking to Oliver who was running other options in his head. "Felicity is the key here, Amanda needs her for both parts and she won't take you without getting her allegiance as well. She'll accept nothing less as you well know."
I allowed my mind to think back over those moments running them back and forth through my mind looking for any other signs of resistance that Oliver might bring up in argument form. I missed when his eyes shifted and changed, I missed when his hand shifted against my skin pulling me closer to him, I didn't however miss the feelings that shot through my body when his lips crashed into mine. My body reacted almost completely on instinct as my lips adjusted against his welcoming each kiss, and nip until his tongue brushed against my own. Feelings of warmth and comfort welled up inside me crashing over and over again like a tidal wave crashing against the shore. He pulled back first leaving me panting wanting more but knowing that he wouldn't give it not yet. "I'll do it… I'll call Rose and we'll have the meet with Amanda be with both of us not just me." I smiled leaning forward pressing a chaste kiss to his lips.
"It's going to be alright Oliver you'll be with me the whole time and I've already agreed to follow your lead." He nodded leaning against my forehead breathing deeply as if memorizing the light smell of perfume that I'd worn everyday since we met.
"Alright to new plan; tomorrow morning we'll meet with Rose together and she'll make the call. Once Amanda's team shows up they'll put me and perhaps you in restraints don't resist and do as you're told. You might also be blindfolded so don't panic if they shove a bag over your head once we're in the vehicle." I nodded against our still joined foreheads as he continued my attention now focused solely on the sound of his strong and commanding voice.
"They'll bring us in but we'll most likely be separated. Rose won't be there to help you so remain silent don't answer anything just respond with one simple phrase." With my eyes closed and my breathing finally calm I responded knowing he was checking for my attention to detail.
"I know my only response is I only speak with Amanda Waller in the presence of my partner Oliver Queen." That had been drilled into me by both he and Rose for a better half of the evening.
I could hear the smile in his voice as he continued now using his thumbs to gently rub against my cheeks. "Good then once we're together we make the pitch. Our story is simple you did your job and we connected per their request. However the connection went deeper than either one of us thought it ever would. You ended up slipping one evening telling me everything in a moment of pure insanity. I decided to join ARGUS on one condition that once their special mission is done then so are we. If she agrees we position you with complete and total access to their systems, that's when you bring in her un-redacted file along with Rose's and Damian's. That should be enough to show her you're a threat that she'll want working for her and not against. Then it's out of our control."
Opening my eyes and searching his I found that he'd made up his mind and nothing was going to change between now and tomorrow morning. Pressing another kiss to his lips I moved grapping the two empty glasses and taking them to the sink. I returned to see he was gathering up the files and stacking them neatly in a pile at one end of the coffee table. I smiled at this small gesture of domestic bliss. "I love you." I just said it with no thoughts of the impending doom that awaited us beyond this one night. My voice was light and happy as I said those words again coming closer to his body craving the warmth I always felt down to my bones whenever he held me.
"I love you" I spoke the words once again when he'd picked me up and carried me to my that was now our room. He bypassed the bed completely moving to the small bathroom softly kissing me as he moved with complete ease past the door to the first flat surface he could find.
"I love you" This time he said the words as he pressed my back against the wall. The pressure building between us with each long languid kiss he pressed to my lips. I could feel the roughness of the wall as he peeled off the light blue blouse leaving my back bare and exposed as his chest pressed solidly into mine. My breath hitched when his hands released their hold on my body moving down to remove his pants. Our heated stares matched as I lowered my body to the ground removing any vestige of clothing that remained. His naked form still stopped me dead in my tracks. He was beautiful his entire body was a testament to his strength and haunted past. The scars that littered his upper body being the most beautiful of all; timidly I reached out my hands letting the pads of my fingers trace along the deeper scars. My breathing increasing as I felt the deep, puckered flesh healed so long ago but still leaving the last reminder for all to behold. Once I'd traced one I leaned forward softly kissing them as I moved on to the next repeating the same pattern as before. His breathing became more rapid and ragged as I moved along his chest my breasts coming to rub gently against his skin once I moved to his back and down until each one had been touched.
Lowering my hand I first lightly palmed and then more forcefully gripped the taught naked skin of his ass feeling powerful as he released a low guttural growl from within. "Felicity…" He murmured my name like it was a prayer as I kissed over his shoulder blades continuing my assault against his body moving my own matching my rhythms with the grips of my hands. Pressing my bare chest into his back I released his ass moving my hands towards the building erection. I rubbed my hands up and down the still lengthening shaft with more speed and pressure with each passing pull and rub. His breath sped up as he braced his hands against the wall his hips thrusted forward. I moved against him my own breathing speeding up as well with each pounding thrust he delivered against my hands. His moans kept coming louder and faster so that I'd lost track until he paused whirling around his mouth latched onto mine as his hands came down grabbing my hips hoisting me up and back around until my back was once again against the wall.
He thrusted forward until he was completely sheaved inside me filling me so completely that I screamed. I kept screaming his name as he thrusted again and again pushing me higher with each hard pulsating movement. His own screams were muffled as his mouth latched onto my neck sucking and caressing my skin with his tongue leaving his mark everywhere his mouth had gone. My legs tightened as I neared my release, my body thrusting and writhing against his own again and again as the force of his shaft pushed me higher and higher until I finally shattered screaming his name as he did mine as he chased his own shattering release.
He'd blown my mind again once we'd entered the shower this time he'd pressed my body against a wetter and slightly firmer wall as his lips and tongue descending down past my abdomen to my wet already engorged clit. His lips and tongue were used in perfect harmony as he pressed, licked and sucked against me as his hands gripped hard against my hips steadying me as I bucked forwards against his very talented mouth. I came once again screaming his name using his shoulders to support my weight as my legs gave out beneath me. Not wanting to leave him wanting I repaid the favor as my lips came down latching over his enormous length. I moved my mouth up and down slowly licking as I moved feeling him grow and lengthen once again. His own release came as he loudly groaned out my name his hands tangled in my hair and hips thrusting against my touch. He pulled me up as I smiled feeling a sense of pride at giving him the same kind of pleasure the he had given me. After kissing me quite soundly we both took turns washing the other hands moving and exploring as we went. I decided in that moment that I would never shower alone again.
We'd finally made it to the bed as he'd taken his time gathering even more knowledge of my likes and dislikes. He'd kissed his way up and down the length of my entire body stopping to lightly suck and nip my skin when I moaned his name. I did the same finding that his breathing sped up whenever I licked a path over one of his many scars. However when my mouth was against his neck the sounds he made caused my heart to burst with pure and utter joy. He had used his hands to tease and massage my clit as I used mine to tease and elongate his penis each of us moving against the other feeling our way to each other's breaking points. I was so aroused when he finally pushed inside me that I almost came then and there. Unlike all the other times he moved slowly not gaining any speed until almost the very end. I felt him everywhere as he slowly and almost painfully slid into me over and over again filling me fully each time. My legs widened and clenched against him until I finally broke apart feeling every cell spark to life as I gave into him to the organism that he sent rippling through my very sated core. His release came shortly after as he shouted my name his own organism taking hold. We were lying arms and legs entangled with the other as my head rested atop his chest.
"Oliver?" His fingers paused as I distracted him from the lazy path he'd been drawing up and down my naked spine.
"Hmmm…" His response was sleep laden and heavy indicating that I wasn't the only one who was exhausted from the night's earlier excretions.
"Was it like this with the others? Were you like this with Laurel?" I knew I shouldn't be asking about the past but my only real relationship had been with Cooper and even then our encounter's hadn't held half the passion nor the intensity that I felt every time Oliver's body entered mine. Afraid to look up I just looked down keeping my gaze on his chest moving my hands over his abdomen in slow patterns fear taking over my mind with each silent moment that passed.
"No it wasn't." I exhaled slightly feeling some small amount of relief but sadly my mouth and my brain wanted more.
"What was it like? I mean I've had sex before but it was never this intense or this…"
"All consuming?" His retort finishing mine. "Exactly with you I almost feel like our souls are attempting to connect with each well timed thrust our bodies make against the other."
I blushed realizing what I'd just said but he just chuckled slightly pulling me closer as he gently nuzzled my hair. "With the others I was mostly drunk and looking for someone to empty my negative feelings into. It was a distraction from my life, I usually had a good time but didn't really remember much in the morning. Hell most of the girl's names I never even knew which now makes me sick to my stomach."
I nodded against his chest still not quite believing I was still on this line of questioning. "But what about Laurel I mean you loved her, you kept her picture as your personal beacon of hope for five years. You must have felt something for her that was somewhat close to what's between us." He stiffened against me as I silently begged to go back in time and erase that last question. "Oliver you don't have to answer that. I'm sorry I sometimes just go to…"
"Felicity stop you have a right to ask we're in love and about to risk our lives to stay together you should feel comfortable asking me about anything you have a concern about." I nodded lightly kissing his chest as he answered my noisy question.
"You're right I did love her and yes she was my beacon on the island. But it wasn't real." I looked up in confusion not quite understanding his last statement.
"What do you mean not real?"
His eyes were filled with warmth and a trace of regret. "I cheated on her with Sara her younger sister which I'm guessing you already know." I nodded in agreement. "I did it because well I knew Sara had a crush on me and Laurel wanted a commitment that I wasn't ready to give."
"Like what I mean she wasn't talking marriage was she?" I was truly interested now since getting Oliver to talk about his past was like pulling teeth. I mean I'd attempt to get an island story and return with a slightly bruised heart he just wasn't the most open man on the planet.
"She wanted to live together and I was 22 and not ready so I…"
"Took Sara on the Gambit knowing that once Laurel found out you'd be released and free to well do who you pleased." That earned me a light smile and a laugh.
"Yes so when I ended up on Lian Yu I made our relationship better than it actually was, I remembered the good but not the bad, I saw a version of who I used to be and realized that he wasn't enough. So Ollie died and Oliver was born. She was the glimmer of my past that got dimmer and dimmer the closer I came to home."
"So when you got back why didn't you go back to her?" I knew that was stupid but hell I had the shot so I took it.
"I thought about it I really did but then I met you and you just well…you changed everything. I could see you I mean really see you and Laurel was just so full of…"
"Baggage." I stated finishing for him. His body was still wrapped around mine as we spoke making me feel that maybe we really could have an honest conversation about our pasts and maybe one day we'd both let each other all the way in. His eyes sparkled down at mine as I finished his sentence.
"See Laurel could never do that. She could never read me as well as you do. She couldn't finish my thoughts she just never fully saw me not the way that you do. You see all the good and you disregard the past. But that wasn't your original question." He paused and exhaled and I hoped that the answer was still no. "I won't lie to you it was good with Laurel, we connected and it was more than sex but no it was never this intense. I could keep my hands off her, I could be away from her for days and not really miss her, I still love her but I don't think I was ever in love with her at least not the way I am with you."
My heart was aglow at that answer I thought it couldn't get any better but once again Oliver proved me wrong. "I hate being away from you, I think about you constantly even when I surrounded by you I'm still thinking of you. Touching you calms me down; I've never wanted someone so much in my life. When we finally made love I knew I'd never get enough of you. Clearly my performance today has proven that. I love you, I'm in love with you and I can't imagine what my life would be like without you in it." I kissed him soundly and continued to long into the night as our bodies once again found their own natural rhythm once again coming together as one.
Olive had passed out long ago but my mind was still reeling from the past few days and the sheer amount of sex that I was still coming down from. Gazing at his soft innocent sleeping face was becoming my new favorite hobby. He was relaxed in sleep his worries and cares seemed to ebb away causing all the tension and anger to ebb away. I had been tracing my fingers up and down his face just watching as he slept. I nuzzled down into his chest once more and stated to softly speak saying all the words that I held in my heart without fear of feeling stupid or rejected. Although after tonight the fear of rejection should have been erased completely.
"I love you, I'm in love with you and I think I have been since the day we met. I never meant to feel anything for you but I did. I fell for your smile, your warmth, your kindness, and your heart. I miss you when you're not with me; my thoughts all revolve around you and how to stay within your embrace. I want you even when you're buried inside me, I've never felt such an intense connection to another human being before and I don't want to feel it for anyone else ever again. I want us to be forever, I want my future with you, I want to be your wife, and I want to be the mother of your children, I want everything with you." With that I kissed his chest before finding my own slumber.
What I didn't know what the Oliver had been awake perhaps he had woken to the sound of my voice but had I been aware I would have heard his response that was in agreement to mine. "I want everything with you too."