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Chapter 21: First times suck

"Baby use your hips the force comes from there not from your dainty arms." I grunted once again but the sound was stifled as his hands once again squeezed against my body; his fingers digging against my bared midriff as he directed my hips forward and then around. We'd been doing this for well over an hour each time I became slightly more proficient at his chosen task. I had excelled at ducking down avoiding the jabs that he sent in my direction taking great care to avoid my body never once losing his precious self control. My footwork sucked, but I could land a mean kick if I needed to so once I passed that task he'd moved on to the various training dummies near the front of the lair. I punched and jabbed but the solid wooden training tool wouldn't budge. I huffed and puffed swearing beneath my breath in aggravation each time I failed to achieve my given task as copious amounts of sweat drenched my aching body. However my body currently wasn't sweating due to the workout or the energy it required; this reaction was because his rough calloused hands were gripping along my sweat soaked skin. "Show me again…" I was panting heavily as his hands once again rotated my hips my fists flying forward landing the desired punch against the tactical tool. My body slumped against his in utter exhilaration I had landed the punch but my relief quickly turned my body beginning to shudder as my own desire sprung forth once again the fire coursing through me lighting my nerves along the way.

"Keep touching me slowly and purposefully while removing the sweat soaked clothes." I whispered the words into the underside of his jaw my body sliding up and down his carved granite chest.

"I thought if I fucked you again you'd break? I take it you've changed your mind?" I nodded against him as his fingers raked up my sides pulling the sports bra up and over my now raised arms. His fingertips sliding along the heated skin that lay in his path; each breath I took was hard and fast my body now quivering beneath his expert touch. I heard the bra land against the hard cold floor before my attention was once again diverted when he began to palm my breasts while sucking lightly against my neck. I rolled my head to the side as I lifted my arms allowing my fingers to drift through his short hairs my nails scraping against his scalp the heat of his touch searing through my skin as it coursed through my blood. His mouth latched onto my skin again and again as he took my nipples between his index finger and thumb squeezing each one sending a shock of pain and pleasure straight to my core; my screams shattering the silence filled room. "God I love you…" He muttered as his hands drifted down fingers splayed against the thin stretched fabric of my yoga pants. "So baby on or off your choice…"

"Off…right now…this instant before I change my mind." He complied swiftly striping me my body now bared before him as he whipped me around slamming his lips hard against mine. He walked us back into a solid and very ice cold wall. We were all hands roaming and clawing at the other; my fingers raked down his bare back his muscles tensing against my touch as I lifted me up my legs gripping tightly around his solid form. "You…pants… off…now" I panted roughly between each word as he complied yanking down the loose gym pants before he moved his solid shaft filling me in seconds as my back was shoved firmly against the steel frame. I screamed long and loud as he pounded into me my body breaking with each well timed thrust each one crushing the bones in my back. Harder and harder he moved my arms holding the beam above my head for support as his body raged into mine seeking for some sort of peace within my wet and heated core. "I love you baby…I love you" He kept whispering against my mouth as his kisses went from long and soft to hard and short our breathing becoming more rapid and more hurried as my body climaxed every muscle going taught against his body. "I love you…so damn much…" My voice drifted as I screamed the sound echoed his own our bodies releasing and pulsating as we came together before slowly coming down from the shared high.

"One of these days I'm going to understand why I can't get enough of you." I stated plain as day as he laid me down against the mat this time moving against me slowly, his movements controlled and long as he teased and tortured me my orgasm moments from occurring. "Well one day maybe I'll have the same insight." His lips sealed to mine as I imploding around him my moans of pleasure caught in our exchanged kisses my body shuddering around him bringing about his own release. "Alright this has got to stop happening I mean thank god for birth control otherwise I would have been pregnant days ago. Speaking of how is you sometimes have a condom and sometimes you don't? What do you like prepare for moments when you're going to have sex with your…"

His kiss stopped my words and erased my thoughts but apparently not his own his body still moving slowly above me with my feet pressed against his calf's. "No I don't prep and once we're married well the need for condoms might be gone for good." His voice was light and cheeky as he pulled out standing up and then offering his hands to me as I accepted his firm hold pulling me forward straight against his chest. He kissed me lightly before guiding us towards the lair's shower for once the shower was for a clean purpose not the far dirtier one that as of late had become our normal routine. Oliver being the gentlemen that I supposed he could be allowed me to go first which I gladly accepted; my tired aching muscles yearning for the heat and steam only a shower could provide. "Once you're done I'll call you a cab so you can go home and get ready for work."

"No once I'm done you're taking me home where you'll go over the details for tonight's job." I stood on my tiptoes my body still bared before him kissing his cheek as I smiled and waltzed into the bathroom his eyes following me as I sauntered away. The water cascaded down the length of my back the taught muscles relaxing in seconds allowing my mind to drift the mission beginning to weigh heavily on heart. I'd seen Oliver in Hood mode before but this was different this time he wasn't going to be saving my life or attempting to re-write his father's past misdeeds he was going in for the kill. These men were dangerous agents of HIVE and Oliver was going against them alone with only my voice and computer skills for backup. I shivered against the heat from the water my body beginning to shake uncontrollably from the overwhelming sense of fear that slowly slipped through my heart. He could get hurt, he could go too far over the edge, I might see him in a light that could change our entire dynamic, I could lose him…that very thought caused the tears to fall as fear crept up through my body it's small tendrils spindling out until they begun to erode my soul. "Baby shhh, it's going to be alright you just have to trust me, trust us…we'll get through this Felicity I promise."

He must have heard what I thought we're muffled cries but in my distracted fear ridden state I hadn't heard him until his voice boomed against my ear his body pressed against me holding me tightly. I accepted his warm embrace leaning back against his body as he gently swayed us back and forth beneath the waters spray. "You have to tell me when you're afraid or scared otherwise you'll breakdown in the middle of a mission putting us both in danger. You have to talk to me Felicity there can't be any doubts between us tonight…I'll have to do horrible and unspeakable things that you won't be alright with. Trust me tonight I've got more to lose than just my control; tonight I risk losing you."

That grabbed my attention as I pulled away slightly pivoting in his arms his face awash with conflicting emotions that ranged from fear to despair. "You won't lose me and I refuse to lose you so just erase that horrible thought from that beautiful mind and look at me." His eyes had shifted down when I turned to face him shielding the full weight of his emotions from me but; when I told him to look at me my voice soft but controlled he did my heart stopping when his eyes met mine. The deep blue that I'd come to know and love was now a darker stormy grey his heart and mind waging an eternal war between what was right and what was wrong. Reaching up I trailed my fingers beneath his jaw memorizing how his scruffed skin felt beneath my touch; slowly taking my fingers along the lines and contours of his face each movement calculated to ease his troubled mind. "I love you that won't change no matter what you do or how far you go I've seen who you are and I love him as he loves me." I kissed him softly my lips barely pressing against his before I pulled away my last word uttered against his slightly parted mouth "I love you unconditionally."

He smiled lightly pulling me closer his arms banding around me his lips pressed against my forehead before he whispered his reply. "Unconditional love…what did I do to deserve you?"

I just nuzzled closer the water streaming down both our bodies dripping off us in waves as I kissed his chest exhaling in relief as I replied my voice once again calm. "You let me in your life and then into your heart that was enough."

"Felicity…Felicity can you hear me? Oliver goes active in five minutes are you ready to rely the instructions?" I snapped out of my thoughts remembering how the innocent moment turned into one filled with exchanged kisses, and heated touches each of us once again going one step too far.

"Yeah I'm good the com's are ready instructions to be relayed once the asset makes primary contact." Rose's critical gaze settled upon me as she stood behind me her hands latched against the back of the chair my body tense and on edge. "You two sure didn't waste anytime did you?" Her voice attempting to conceal a small smile as she grinned coming to sit beside me my head turning slightly to take in the rare and quite magical site. "I can't stop myself, it's like he's…"

"A magnetic force that you're just undeniably drawn too; you're the moth to his ever glowing flame. I remember those days when love is fresh and new; when every touch ignites the blood; when every kiss starts a chemical reaction. Yeah I remember that feeling and sometimes I even miss the moments of sheer exhilaration as your bodies collide but what comes next that's what make your toes curl, that's what makes your heart burst with joy and contentment." I looked at her my eyes wide begging for her to finish to tell me what more I could have possibly left to feel that Oliver hadn't already given to me in words, touches, kisses and yes mind blowing orgasms.

"And…finish that statement." She smiled again her face once again glowing with an almost youthful energy "When he looks at you do you become lost in the moment? When he touches your skin even if it's in passing does your heart skip a beat? Well if both those answers are yes imagine how you'll feel when you say your marriage vows, when you tell him that you're pregnant, when you celebrate 20 years of marriage. Your heart is going to continue to grow and expand with love until one day you wake and realize that they've become part of you, that their heart beats in time with your own…"

"Until you realize that's what love is supposed to feel like…" She nodded smiling as she did "I heard that you two were engaged seeing you now I can see the rumors were true. No wonder Amanda's been on edge she might be doubting her ultimate endgame."

"I'm sure her killing me would result in…"

"Oliver killing her yes I know but I've known that since your falling out he'd do anything for you and that must have Amanda up in arms." I nodded beginning to speak when the com's crackled and sputtered Oliver's voice coming through loud and clear.

The mission had started Oliver's signal locator became active his vitals displayed before me as I tracked the movements of the little green dot, his path blazing forward brining him closer and closer to his final destination. "Oliver per the file that I "obtained" this afternoon the man you're going after is Ted Hawkes he's a ranking official in the HIVE chain of command but has no real direct contact with Darkh. His superior…" I glanced down to the screen to my left reviewing the hacked files attempting to find his name hidden amongst the endless lines of text. "Cade Weston is the one with contact to Darkh and our next target once Hawkes is out of play."

I waited my teeth slightly chattering my body reacting to the cold stale air of the underground compound that I was currently housed in. My control room as Amanda had dubbed it was about 4 levels below the ground level floor, steel and concrete surrounded me the room bare except for my lone desk, two chairs, and my computer equipment. Needless to say my surroundings left much to be desired. "Copy that base I have visual I'll leave the line open per base opp's earlier request." His voice was short and distinct leaving no room for emotions or even a slight guess at his current emotional baseline.

I waited and waited the moments passing by as if stuck in cement each tick of the clock seeming longer and longer as I waited for Oliver's mission to come to a quick and efficient end. "Base come in…base do you copy please reply on subchannel two." I looked at Rose who smirked reaching to the headset and clicking the second button beneath the first closing the first com and opening the second one. "Base…oh hell Oliver I'm here." That response elicited from Rose a laugh and a chuckled hello from Oliver "baby tonight we're working on mission communications. I'm on site is the plan set?" I looked over to Rose who nodded indicating that our mission was a go. "Yes Rose has the site set and ready to go once you've grabbed him make a scene and take him to the warehouse on 13th and Clover John hopefully will be there and ready to extract him." After my freak-out in the shower Oliver and I spent most of the afternoon attempting to find away to have our cake and eat it too. Taking HIVE and ARGUS down meant a two pronged attack. Oliver would find and acquire the targets and then take them to our secondary location where Digg would be waiting. They would then explain the situation and use the leverage that my hacking had uncovered to turn the agents thus giving us an in for HIVE. My job while Oliver was out getting himself possibly killed was to use the time and my full access to ARGUS's mainframe to build the blackmail file to end all blackmail files. Then we'd strike bargaining killing two birds with one deadly stone.

"On my way target acquired." My eyes shot up once again Rose just smirked my thoughts once again distracting me from the mission at hand. "What did he just fall over in sheer terror? I mean that took you what three minutes I just bypassed the firewall and am now entering the secured ARGUS database now."

"Well baby use the time wisely because I'm in route with an estimated time of arrival of 8:15." Rolling my eyes as my fingers flew over the keys looking for the first personal file that would have some damning evidence. "Fine but remember Amanda's listening to his torture and question session better be good otherwise our plan will be blown."

"Copy that switching back to com channel one…Love you." I smiled but didn't reply as the channel went dead; moving my head upwards I switched back to the open channel with ARGUS the sounds of Oliver's bike racing in the background.

"Rose you better get ready Oliver's almost to the blacksite which means we'll need you at the original site for Amanda's clean-up crew." She nodded in agreement as she stood squeezing my shoulder gently before departing her shoes clicking and clacking until the room went silent. I listened as Oliver's booming Hood persona took control his voice in complete and utter control as the target spit and sputtered what I imagined to be blood his voice cracking with the sound of unmistakable fear. I'll admit the sounds of cracking bones and high pitched screams did nothing but made my stomach turn as my blood turned cold. I knew this was part of the act but this last part was not. I'd acquired the employee files on all active and inactive ARGUS agents for the past 30 years. Honing in on the three inactive operatives that were still located in Starling City just waiting to be found and questioned by the fearsome Hood.

The mission was going according to plan Hawkes was close to caving the location for our next target was in hand that's when everything changed. Oliver's voice paused going from controlled and powerful to angered and violent as he hissed the sounds of gunshots filling the wide space. I shot up straight against the back of the chair my once slightly calm heart racing as I yelled into the com needing to hear Oliver's reply.

"Oliver…please reply…Oliver…OLIVER!"

"Felicity I'm here, I'm alright the bullet just grazed my arm. The target however didn't fare as well. He's dead." I snuck back into the chair my hand covering my mouth in horror. The screams, the yells the cries weren't from Oliver they were from Hawkes, I just realized with alarming clarity I'd just listened to his last moments on this Earth. I'd heard him take his last breath before he came to sputtering end. However my moment of listening had to be better than what Oliver had just endured watching as the man died before him his hopes of gaining Weston's location dying with him. Our plan relied on this man directing us to Weston who could get us to Darkh now we were right back at square one unless one of the three former agents decided that our cause was one worth fighting for. I glanced once again at the name before spotting a fourth one that had recently left ARGUS but that might be the key to our plans success. Her name was Lyla Michaels who was once married to John Diggle…grabbing the files I raced towards the elevators breaking into a brisk jog until I reached the car; I had a new plan and this time nothing was going to stand in my way.