I had always known I was gay, or rather that I was different. I never had that "boys have cuties" stage or got my first crush on the pre-teen boys of early Disney.
But I did develop those feelings towards women.
My first real celebrity crush was p!nk, with her edgy style, great hair, and just amazing music, I fell in love. She stole my little 11 year old heart.
I hid my feelings for a long time, pretended to be straight, even forgot about it for a while, but that didn't last forever. I finally admitted to myself I was a lesbian when I was 15, I came out to my family and thankfully I was met with love and caring.
But now I have seen the most beautiful woman ever.
"Leah" her name bounced around in my head and seemed to sing to my soul. Her grey seemed to pierce straight into my soul and steal my heart. She was everything, my everything, my world was her now, and I knew I would be there for her forever and always.
"Any!" a voice yelled in the distance. "Come one any get up" the voice persisted, aided by shakes.
Then I felt a slap strike across my cheek, waking me up almost instantly.
"ahh" I moaned out, opening my eyes to greet the worried gaze of Sammy and the rest of the 'pack'. I shook my head, trying to clear the fogginess from my brain.
"What happened?" I asked, rubbing the fading bump on the back of my head.
"I was introducing you to everyone and then you passed out." Sammy said ,concern evident in his features.
I looked up at all of the faces surrounding me, remembering their names as I peered at their faces. My gaze finally settled on Leah, and to my surprise, and my pleasure she was looking at me with an almost more worried expression than Sam, nothing but love in her eyes as she looked at me.
"Oh" I said quietly to Sam's explanation. That's when he noticed how Leah was looking at me and I her. Realization dawned upon his features, a wide smile broadening his face.
That's when I remember something else he told me when he was filling me in about the legends. Imprinting, how the wolves find their mates, and at that moment I knew Leah was my imprint.
I finally stood up giving everyone a small smile, keeping quiet and too myself.
"Okay everyone, the foods ready." Em said, drawing the attention away from me, erasing the knowing smirks from some and the quizzical looks from the rest. The pack of boys mad a mad dash to the kitchen, attacking the food that aunty Em made.
She trailed behind them, turning to give me an encouraging smile.
I turned towards Leah; she was still standing there, looking at me with curious and amused eyes. I gave her a sheepish grin.
"Uh hi." I said, the greeting came out shy.
"Hi yourself" She smirked, giving me a crooked grin that made my heart skip a beat.
She studied me for a minute, looking me up and down. Finally she settled on the words she wanted to say.
"Do you want to take a walk with me?" She asked hopefulness evident in her eyes.
"Yeah, I'd like that." I said, giving her the biggest smile I think I had ever put on.
She gave me that heart stopping grin again and turned around, exiting out of the house, I followed her almost immediately. We walked along the trails that lead from Sam and Em's to the beach in silence. I couldn't stop looking at her, she was just so beautiful. She seemed to feel my eyes on her and she caught me staring. I blushed under her gaze, caught red handed.
We continued on in silence until we were far away enough from the house that no prying ears could hear us. Once we had made it far enough Leah turned to me.
"So, your Sam's niece?" She asked, looking me in the eyes.
"Yeah." I said "His brother is my dad, Thomas Uley. He and my dad have the same father, Joshua, but different moms, so their half-brothers, but they are close." I finished.
"That's cool." She said, giving me a smile.
"So Seth's your brother right?" I asked.
She nodded "Yeah, my only sibling. We live with our mom, her names Sue, she's actually on the council."
"Really? That's pretty awesome." I said smiling. "What about your dad?" I asked. Her smile fell.
"He actually passed away about 6 months ago." She said, sadness emanating from her being.
"Oh I'm so sorry. What happened? If you don't mind me asking?"
"He had a heart attack." She answered "It happened the first time I phased, it's not normal for girls to phase, plus once I phased my brother followed almost immediately, it just was too much for his heart to handle." She said, tears brimming in her eyes.
I reached out, grabbing her hand giving it a reassuring squeeze. "Sweetie I'm sure it wasn't your fault of Seth's, you didn't cause it. Please don't beat yourself up over it." I pleaded, giving her a reassuring smile.
Our hands remained clasped together as we made our way down the beach. It felt just so right.
"Tell me about your family." She asked, asking for a subject change to which I happily obliged.
"Well my parents' names are Bryn Uley and Thomas Uley; I have a 5 year old sister named Madison. We live in forks because it's closer to where my mom works, my dad hates not living on the reservation, but he understands." I told her, smiling thinking about my parents.
"Where dose your mom work?" She asked, giving me a curious look.
"She's the museum curator at the historical museum."
"Oh? That's actually really cool." She said giving me a small smile.
"How old are you?" I asked abruptly, looking up at her again.
"19" She replied. "Why? How old are you?" She asked, giving me questioning look.
"I'm 17" I said "But I'm turning 18 in about a month." I added.
"Oh? When's your birthday?" She asked
"July 16th" I replied happily.
She just smiled at me and we continued on our walk. Finally I broke in with the elephant in the room, or rather the beach.
"So we're imprints hu?" I half asked, looking for any sign of distaste in her reply.
"Yeah I guess we are." She said smiling.
"So, well I mean it's abrupt to ask, but or you a lesbian?" I asked her, watching her reaction to the question.
"Yeah." She said in a sigh "How about you?"
"I'm a lesbian." I replied, giving a grin.
We spent the rest of our walk talking about everything and anything, our hopes and our dreams. I told her of how it was my dream to become a veterinarian, and she commented on how ironic that was. I found out her favorite band was Five Finger Death Punch, the same as mine. We actually had a lot in common, and we fell into easy conversation. After a while I notice the sun starting to go down and remembered I needed to head home. Leah offered to run home with me, and I happily accepted.
We swung back to Sam's house and told the guys I was heading home. I got a hug from Em and Sam, giving everyone else a smile.
Leah and I walked to the woods and began to undress, my back to hers. I caught a glimpse of her form out of the corner of my eye and was just astounded by how beautiful she was. I quickly undressed and Leah and I phased. I let the heat roll through me, landing on my paws with a muted thud.
I looked over at Leah and was memorized by her wolf. She was a light grey color that almost glowed in the fading dawn. She projected back at me a picture of what I looked like. I was a jet black color with lighter gray ears; my paws were all a white color as well. I looked beautiful.
We took off running together, letting our minds be quiet, only focusing on where we are going. Finally we made it back to the edge of the woods by my house. We phased back and redressed in silence. I turned around right as Leah pulled her shirt down.
"You're beautiful." I said, blurting out my thoughts to the world.
"Ha-ha thank you." She said with a genuine smile. "You are beautiful too." I blushed at that. I looked up at her, she had moved closer to me, now she was just about a foot away from me. I looked up at her, captured in her eyes yet again. Before I knew it she began to lean in, closing her eyes, I closed mine as well and stretched up to meet her lips.
Once our lips met it was like the fourth of July and New Year's all rolled into once. It was instant fireworks. She wrapped her arms around my waist and I reached up locking mine behind her head. We moved as one, our mouths in since. It was like noting I've ever experienced.
When she pulled away I let out a very animal whine, startling myself with the sound.
"You had better head inside." She said "Your mom will probably begin to worry."
"Yeah." I said, but my voice was huskier and softer.
"Do you want to come over for dinner at my place tomorrow?" Leah asked, giving me a hpeful smile.
"I would love too, is 6:00 good?" I asked questioningly.
"6:00 is perfect, I'll pick you up." She said smiling. "Bye Any."
She leaned down and gave me another small kiss on the lips and then when I opened my eyes she was gone. I made my way out of the forest, touching my lips, remembering how hers felt on mine. My only thought was of how much I want tomorrow to come.