Hi this is Benji Himura I am starting a new fanfic. I don't own Ragnarok online I also don't own the characters of that story or the plot; taking out the changes that I will make and the characters that I will create. I own Benji Himura and others characters that will show up in the story. It might be violence and sex in the story so if you are underage of seventeen are warned the content might be too improper to your age. Read by your own will and risk. In anyway enjoy the story.

Signed: Benji Himura

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Chapter fifteen: Killing loneliness

"Not that I mind this but why the three of you suddenly decided to sleep together in the same bed as me?" Benji asked seeing the three naked girls walking to his bed were he was lying, Tsugumi and Ruri moved to a different room from them, and Maria was sleeping with Raki.

"Among several reasons jealousy." Haruka answered. "Okay and why Erika is here too?" Benji asked pointing to the stripping priestess behind his three lovers. Layla spins on her heels and sees her friend taking out her clothes. "I thought that was a good time for me to show how I feel too." Erika answered. "And since it is clear that you are keeping more than one lover I thought that another one wouldn't make much difference."

Layla sighed but she smiled, Erika was her best friend and for a while almost lover, she could live with her in the bed too. "Well I don't mind." Layla commented. "I don't really think that I have energy for that right now." Benji said. "None of us." Atsuko commented lying next to Benji. "Sleeping will be fine."

Layla quickly moves to Benji's left side occupying it before Haruka could. Gesturing to Erika to join her Layla smiled as her friend lies between them. Haruka lies behind Atsuko and covers them, Benji sighed inwardly at the lack of movement and space but then why complain when having four gorgeous women on his bed.

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One day had passed with everyone just sleeping off the tiredness of the WoE, Benji was the first to wake, he wasn't all that tired to sleep for so long and the fact that he felt a considerable weight on his chest making hard for him to breath also helped on that.

True he feel temptated to do something with Erika since somehow during the night she climbed on him, but she turned around so her shapely behind was pointed at his face, but Benji decided to not do so, besides the girls were much more tired than he was, leaving the bed was hard but he managed to slip away from there without waking anyone.

Putting a pair of denim slacks and a t-shirt Benji leaves the room; he recalled the mess in the dinning hall and decided to start on the cleaning. He wasn't expecting to find Mutsumi and Saeki already there cleaning the room. "You two are up quite early." Benji said after greeting them.

"We didn't fight as long as the others did." Mutsumi replied. "So sleeping this much wasn't required for our bodies." Benji nodded understanding; one entire day had passed since everyone started to sleep, and it was way past nine in the morning. He was expecting to find the dinning hall reeking alcohol and spoilt food but it was cleaned from that, currently Mutsumi and Saeki are polishing the floor and the tables.

"What you two ate?" Benji asked to them. "We fixed some eggs, bacon and sausages and ate them with bread, milk and juice." Saeki answered. "We can prepare to you if you wish to."

"Thanks but no thanks." Benji replied. "I can do that myself, besides I want to check our supplies." The two girls nodded and Benji moves to the kitchen careful to not disrupt their work, the kitchen was spotless clean indicating that the two were up for more than just few hours.

'They are taking this pretty seriously.' Benji thought taking a smoked sausage from the large refrigerator and taking a bite from it. 'They are working hard to show that they can be precious assets to this guild.'

Benji didn't bothered in fixing something complex or really cooking his meal, a sizable piece of bread, the large smoked sausage and some apple juice were enough to ease his hunger and thirst. He doesn't take much time with the meal; he finishes and leaves the dinning room since his help wasn't needed there.

Benji walks to the inner courtyard where the battle took place; there wasn't even a sign of damage there, as the emperor said the castle was protected by spells that kept it intact even during the most vicious attacks and spells. It was almost like the brutal fighting of just two days earlier was nothing more than an illusion.

All the preparation, the worry and stress felt almost in vain and empty, the castle was almost dead silent, only the rhythm steps of the guardians resounded on the air but even those sounds were dull and fading.

'Months of work and preparation, millions spent in weapons, armor, training, items, ammunition and equipment…' Benji thought looking at the empty space around him. 'Countless hours of training and suffering, all the blood shed for that day and what is so glorious on this?'

Benji leans against the solid wall, the cold stone painted with some kind of varnish stealing the heat from his body. Benji looks at the floor, the stone barely show the extensive punishment that it took, his long hair cascaded down from his shoulders.

'When things changed so drastically?' Benji asked to himself. 'When I stopped having fun and became like this? Why I took this responsibility? When I started to think that I can so easily command so many lives? And why is so easy?'

But no answer came to him, Benji looks at his hands, Mana cradled them when he first felt the weight of killing with ease in the desert he wasn't bothered to kill because it meant his survival, killing for food was okay for him but when killing demi-human monsters for nothing more than experience and fun Benji felt the weight of the taboos imposed on him by his world.

Mana comforted him and helped him to throw those away, killing was something that happened and monsters always reappeared, with humans Benji killed for good reasons so he never regretted or felt the weight of it, Mana's lessons were effective since she also passed to him the way of dealing with death, she was after all an assassin and knew that, her methods of training were everything but orthodox but were painfully effective, he never forgot a lesson that she taught him like that.

She taught him that he should have fun and enjoy his life, he forgot that when leading the guild, when with Atsuko away from the guild the monk rekindled that lesson and Benji had fun with her and they leveled quickly together enjoying the fights and even having fun and laughing when running from a monster that they couldn't kill.

Back in the guild Benji was forced to once again become a stoic leader, the times that he was permitted to relax was when he was with Layla and in a lesser way Haruka. With Atsuko's arrival in the guild the mood was lighter since the monk got along well with Makie and they arranged tons of fun and games to everyone, of course respecting the hours of training and chores.

At that time Benji saw that Layla and Erika shouldered well the responsibilities of being his seconds and his workload and stress lessened considerably and he started to have more fun in the guild, Maria's arrival relieved Benji a lot since teaching the girl and playing with her relaxed both of them, then there was Raki Layla's ten years old sister she and Maria got along well and Maria's ability to speak English developed quickly since they chatted and played together.

Benji didn't had much time to fully know Mutsumi and Saeki, Mutsumi was an honest girl, a bit too naïve and innocent, eager to please and to cheerful in a shy and demure way, she wanted to become a famous adventurer because the legends that she grew hearing.

Saeki was from a family that always served as servants of the royal family, she was prideful of her heritage and duty, very loyal to Mutsumi who was both her ward and best friend, a bit strong willed, stubborn and attached to old traditions and costumes, but she was a nice girl once you get past the shell of tradition, honor, duty, responsibility and servitude.

Benji sighs and slides down the wall sitting on the cold floor, he was feeling tired of the responsibility and missed the days of freedom that he spent with Mana and Shina, the leisure pace that they leveled and the excited movement when they had fun, most of their time were dedicated to sightseeing and tourism, just few hours by day spent on leveling.

A cold wind runs on the castle making Benji shiver, the wall stealing much of his heat so the wind felt much colder, but he didn't really cared about it. (It feels like an eternity had passed since I was sited home typing stories in my computer.) Benji said pulling his left leg close raising his knee, he rests his left elbow on his knee and gazes at the floor but he wasn't looking at the polished stone.

"You aren't alone." A warm and familiar voice said very close of him. Benji looks up and sees Atsuko standing in front of him. "We are here for you." Layla added in a gentle and warm voice, she was just behind Atsuko; they are wearing their normal clothes.

"And none of us will leave you or let you feel loneliness." Haruka said smiling at her savior and lover. "Goshujin-sama why you don't take our warmth?" Atsuko asked offering him her left hand. "We love you and we won't let you go." Layla said looking at him tenderly. "Or our presence is a burden for you?"

Benji saw Erika standing next to Haruka and Layla, behind them was Maria, Raki, Jannine and the other guild members looking at him worriedly. Seeing them worried made Benji wonder why he was so depressed. Benji takes Atsuko's hand and with her help stand up. "Not a burden." Benji said with a smile. "Never a burden."

He can see the worry leaving the pretty faces of his lovers, his friends and his subordinates as they smile back at him. The future that just moments earlier felt cold and dark changed to a warm and bright one, in the oppressive silence of the castle yard Benji felt lonely and forgot that he wasn't alone; he had people in who he could rely on.

He can feel the warmth of Atsuko's hand on his ice cold hand, and that warmth returned the hope that the silent castle sapped from him.

Giving a gentle and reassuring squeeze on her hand Benji gently let go of her hand, with a deep breath feeling the cold air that now revitalizes him Benji said. "Listen up! From now on our path is even harder!"

Benji's voice echoed on the large room as the girls hear in attentive silence. "Just two days ago we showed to the world our strength!" Benji continued. "However solely strength isn't enough to protect our home and our reputation! We have enemies! We have a whole new set of obstacles in our future now that we as a guild gained this castle and reputation! Until now every one of you worked to your hardest and that effort paid as our fame reached every corner of this world! And now we have to work even harder to keep our home, our names and our guild intact! We aren't alone! We only haven't found our allies yet!"

The girls cheered at his words, Benji smiled at them. "Nice words." Layla commented. "Just came to me right now." Benji replied with a smile. "Besides it is true, as you said I am not alone, it just took time to find you."

Atsuko, Layla and Haruka smiled back at him. "That goes for you too Erika." Benji said to the priestess. "I know." Erika replied smiling. "I am just curious to know when I will get my turn. I feel left out." "We can work on that." Benji commented casually.

End of the chapter fifteen: