When We Were Younger
I Already Know
Lucas decided to go home alone. He needed to shower and get some fresh cloths and to be honest he needed a little bit of time away from Nathan to clear his head – make sure he really wanted this; that it was more than just hormones. Everything that had happened before could be passed off by hormones, youth, arrogance, testosterone, and confused emotions but not now, not now they were both seventeen and practically adults.
When he stepped through his front door he was more than a little surprised to find Keith cleaning up in the kitchen wearing the expression of a man who was carrying the weight of the world on his shoulders. Lucas knocked on the table softly to alert his uncle to his presence – and Keith turned around, startled.
"Luke," he greeted his blond nephew, noticing that Lucas was wearing the same clothes he had been in yesterday.
"Hey, Uncle Keith. Is mom around?" Lucas asked, setting his bag on the floor and taking a seat at the kitchen table.
"She's still in bed." Keith told him and Luke's eye brows shot up.
"So… you and mom finally took things to the next level?" Luke teased.
Keith looked unamused and pensive. "Oh I'm not the one who's getting some. But apparently you are. So who's the lucky girl? Is it Peyton? Brooke? Nathan?"
Lucas's heart almost stopped with shock. "Keith… I told you that in confidence! A year ago! Why are you bringing it up here – now?" Luke asked.
"You told me in confidence. Yeah I know. But did you tell Brooke in confidence too because I don't think she understood the concept of keeping it a secret – especially from your mom."
"Mom knows? Oh God. And Brooke knows too." Lucas groaned and wished his brother was there with him right now.
"Too? Who else knows!" Keith practically yelled at his nephew.
"Peyton… Haley… Dan… you, and I guess Brooke and Mom too." Lucas confessed.
"And Deb too when your mom sobers up!" Keith bit at Luke who suddenly stood up and went for the phone muttering that he had to warn Nathan. Keith stopped him and made him sit back down, sitting opposite him and giving them both hot coffees.
"Look, your mom found out and got really drunk. She is still sleeping it off so Nathan is safe – for now. But why Luke, why is all this coming out now? I thought you two had stopped this when you joined the basketball team." Keith asked.
"You mean hoped." Lucas said resentfully.
Keith let out a small frustrated sigh. "Well I'm the last person who can judge you for this but yeah Luke, I was kinda hoping that you weren't still having incestuous sex with your brother. You told me you understood that it wasn't a healthy relationship that had any future, and that's not even considering the fact that it's illegal. So please, kid, just tell me what is going on."
Lucas blinked away sudden moisture in his eyes and paused to collect his thoughts before he began. "I thought it was all about power. The first time around. Nathan wanted to control me because he felt threatened by me because Dan was my dad too and I could play at Basketball just as good as he could. But I didn't understand – it wasn't about power or control or even basketball. We were just trying to make sense of our connection… We both felt it. Peyton found some buried evidence of our… relationship and confronted me. I denied it but it didn't take long for her to figure it out with the help of Haley. Dan overheard them talking about it and told us it was ok – that it was the way things should be. That was when things between me and Nathan started up again. I instigated things this time. I came on to him and he reciprocated. But Keith, when I'm with Nathan things fit, it's like we are meant to be that way. And it's not about power anymore, it's about our connection and our… love."
Keith was nodding and excepting Lucas's words and Luke was just starting to feel like it was going to be ok when his mother's voice sent him to Hell.
"That is the most disgusting thing I have ever heard! Do you even hear yourself, Lucas? Have you stopped and thought for a minute about how this sounds? Nathan is your brother, Lucas! You share the same blood – the same father! It's wrong!" Karen raved.
Lucas looked into his mother's eyes, his own filled with anger and guilt and sorrow. "You have the right to feel that way Mom, but you can't change the facts and the fact is that-"
"Don't you say it! Don't you dare say it. The moment you say it you are not my son!" Karen said.
Tears spilt down Lucas's face and his voice broke. "You can't deny love, mom. No matter hoe wrong you may think it is. And I love Nathan."
"Get out!" Karen said and Lucas walked out of his house.
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