I stared ahead. Today was… normal. Not normal for others, but for me at least, it was normal. The Hollow had been in its building for the day, as usual. There was no sign of Tensa, as usual. It was all usual today. Instead of having the one unusual occurrence we all wished to occur, It was simply usual. Nothing special happened here.
Sighing, I jumped down from my pole. The day never ended here. There was no moon, no sun. No real objects of interest. When Ichigo was sad, it would drizzle lightly onto our sides, soaking the ground resembling wall. When he was calm, something resembling a sunset happened, and the buildings went from blue to tinged gold and orange. The worst though, was when he was happy, ironically. The sun beats down on us and the building's shake. It is horrible in here when that happens, and he never comes in here to see what happens.
Ichigo only ever came in here a few times, and during combat no less. While yes, I am a weapon for killing, that does not excuse it. He shies away from his hollow, the only one of us that was not made specifically for killing, because he does not understand the instinct which that creature thrives upon. I merely stand on poles all day, thinking. Hoping he will come in so we can converse, have a few joyous moments here. The building's only shake when he is confused, which makes you wonder why that happens when he is happy. The reason for that is because he doesn't truly accept happiness, and he is confused when he is.
That aside, he never comes in here to train either. He could get stronger, he could learn more, and he could gain a higher understanding of himself. But he chooses not to. Every night, I call out to him as he falls asleep, but he never hears me. Even though he has Bankai, and can talk with Tensa if he wishes, he does not deserve it. The method he went through to obtain it… was cheap. A battle between I and him in the sideways world out there is, innately, no different to one in this world. We exchange blows and he learns one lesson among many others he could have learned. That is what happens in here.
Bankai is supposed to be the 'ultimate bond between Shinigami and Zanpakutô'. So why, exactly did I give it to him then? I do not know that. Only that it has been a long time since then and it is one of my worst decisions to date. He did need it at the time, I suppose, but he did not truly understand me. A few times hearing my voice and seeing my face followed by a three day long fight does not result in a bond that close. Personally, I blame the doll, it likely had some sort of hypnosis on it. Ah well, moaning never solved anything after all. Merely made your blade weaker.
Still, even if he pushes and try's as hard as he can, he would never reach his full potential. He needs us for it after all, a swordsman who trains only himself can only reach half the height he could if he let us help. It would be beneficial to all of us, after all. So why, just why, does he never allow himself to visit? That is a question he is to answer, not I. I can only speculate on what the Tensa thinks when he is here, if he does anything at all beyond compressing our wielders energy. And the hollow never even thinks at all, so it would be a pointless exercise to talk to that beast beyond calling out an attack name with my blade at his snowy neck.
AN, so… since DragonBlaze66 requested it, I continued it. Out of boredom in the middle of the night again, ah well. I guess my body clock doesn't work properly, I'll have to work on that soon.