Well this is just a 'thinking' chapter where Sakura goes over everything that has happened, so that is why I am posting two chapters today because this is basically just her thoughts and someone elses... THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE REVIEWS!

Disclaimer: I don't own any of the Naruto characters/places used in this story and I also don't own the song 'Hate that I love you' sung by Rihanna ft Neyo

Chapter 13 – Hate that I love you

'When I wake up, tonight would have just been a dream. I wouldn't have kissed Naruto. I would have just dreamt that I did. I couldn't have really kissed him. He has Hinata-chan so he wouldn't have even thought of kissing me.'

That's how much I love you (yeah)
That's how much I need you (yeah, yeah, yeahah)
And I can't stand ya
Almost everything you do
Makes me wanna smile
Even I like you for a while (no... oh...)

'I have no romantic feelings for Naruto. Only as a friend, he only likes me as a friend. We would never escalade over that. I stopped myself from liking, loving and trusting anyone, didn't I?'

'Naruto shouldn't be any different. I've only known him for three months; you can't possibly develop deep feelings for someone in three months. That's just insane, absurd, and impossible.'

'It took me a year to find if I really did have deeper feelings for Sasuke-kun. So it can't possibly take me only three months for Naruto. I haven't even gotten over everything.'


But you won't let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did

'I still want my mother to take me back; I still want to think that this was all a dream. I don't really want to be pregnant as I am now. I might have a maternal instinct to love baby-chan, but what will me, a seventeen year old, do with a baby?'

'I'm doing it no good, bringing baby-chan into this world, fatherless. Sasuke isn't the type to want a baby. He wouldn't want a baby. He'd reject baby-chan; tell me to get an abortion.'

'If I did get an abortion, then I wouldn't have to worry about others finding out. I could back to Suna, back to mom and back to Sasuke. I could hide baby-chan from Sasuke; he would never have to know I was even pregnant.'

But I hate it...
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long that's wrong

'Life could go back to the way it was. He and I would go to school dances, go on dates, make-out. Go to collage, have fun, get a degree and then if we stayed together, get married.'

'That would be a perfect life, a life without baby-chan, Tsunade, Minato, Kushina, Tenten, Neji, Shikamaru, Chouji, Kiba, Hinata and Naruto. None of them would matter to me, especially not Naruto.'

She sighed, 'I would forget these feelings, these sensations, I developed for Naruto and I could go back to loving Sasuke. Wouldn't that be the perfect life, if I forgot about Naruto?'


But I hate it...
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't want to fuss... and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you

'If I forgot Naruto, if I forgot how he stopped me from cutting myself. If I forgot how he dried my tears, if I forgot how he became my first friend. If I forgot that he started a bubble war with me.'

'If I forgot how he took me to get that late night ramen, if I forgot how he told me the story behind the whiskers, if I forgot how he first said 'dattebayo'. If I forgot how he held my hair back that time I vomited.'

'If I forgot that time he allowed me to rest on his shoulder during study-hall. If I forgot how he pretended to be my boyfriend that day I had a checkup. If I forgot how we played matchmaker with Tenten and Neji.'


And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...)
I can't stand how much I need you (I need you...)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oooh whoah...)
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so (oooh...)

'If I forgot how he fell into the lake, if I forgot how we spent movie marathon watching High School Musical 3. If I forgot how he took me to the beach, if I forgot how we danced in the water, gently singing the songs from High School Musical 3.'

'If I forgot how he kissed me, if I forgot the sensation, the electricity that raced throughout my entire body as we kissed. If I forgot how we finished each other's sentences that night. If I forgot how he made me feel.'

'Would I be happy?'


And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh


Said that it's not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I love you beyond the reason why (why...)
And it just ain't right

She shook her head; pinkette bangs flying, tears threatening. 'No, I wouldn't be happier forgetting Naruto. I just couldn't be happier if I forgot about him. He saved me, he healed me, and he befriended me.'

'I can't believe I'm only realizing this right now, but without Naruto I wouldn't be where I am right now. I wouldn't be happy. I would be a depressed teen, ready to commit suicide.'

'I would have had an abortion; I wouldn't be pregnant with baby-chan. I wouldn't have called baby-chan, baby-chan. I would have been miserable without him. I wouldn't have survived without him.'

And I hate how much I love you girl
I can't stand how much I need you (yeah...)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so

'Naruto, he cared about me. He cared about saving me. He wanted to save me. He wanted to look after me, and he wanted to make sure he was always there for me. He showed me what it means to be truly loved.'

'Yes, that's it. He showed me what it means to be truly loved. He showed me that I did matter, that I wasn't just some broke, pregnant teen. He showed me that there was always someone that would love me.'

'And you know what? I… I…I… think I love him too.'


One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...

Yeaahhh... Oohh...

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'Tonight it wasn't Sakura and Naruto I saw at the beach,' Kiba thought, face pale. 'It wasn't Naruto and Sakura I saw kissing. It just wasn't because Naruto wouldn't hurt Hinata-chan like that and Sakura wouldn't either. So it wasn't them, it just can't be them.'

'Hell, Naruto isn't shallow like that. He wouldn't two time Hinata-chan. Even if he didn't like her anymore, he wouldn't cheat on her. Sakura wouldn't allow him to. She has morals doesn't she? They both have morals, they both wouldn't do things like that.'

He sighed, 'Maybe it was them. All those rumors going around school. All those loving glances, all that time they spend together. Maybe it really was them.'

As much I love you (as much as I need you oh...)
As much as I need you (oooh... as so much I love you)
As much I love you (oh...)
As much as I need you

'I mean, everyone else has noticed it, we were just waiting for him to break up with Hinata-chan. Then we would all know that he really did like Sakura, not Hinata-chan and I would finally have my chance. Finally.'

'But I don't want my chance like this. I don't want to be Hinata's rebound boy. She'll be distraught if she had to find out, but I'll be there for her. Waiting until she was ready for a relationship again.'

'But will she believe me if I tell her that I saw them, without showing her proof? Would she really believe me? She must know of my crush on her by now. Will she think I'm just trying to break them up so I can have my chance?'

And I hate that I love
You soooooooo!

'I have to get her evidence, prove that Naruto is really cheating on her with Sakura. I've got to follow them this holiday, take photos then show Hinata-chan. Then she'll know that he is really cheating on her, that I'm not just making it up. Yes that'll work. All I have to do is follow them around. Take a few pictures, eavesdrop in a few conversations and then it'll all be good to go.'

'Yup, that's what I'll do.'

'Starting tomorrow, I'm going to stick to them like glue.'

And I hate that I love you soooo
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need ya (cant stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go (but I just can't let you go no...)
And I hate that I love you so

And I hate that I love you so... soo...

'Invisible glue that is.'


OH! Kiba saw them kissing! And now he has a plan... How will his plan unfold huh? Well you'll have to see! And go and enjoy the next chapter!

Lorelock