Chapter Nineteen

My Child

Nessie

I awoke in the morning with one thought in my mind, tomorrow she would see the world, and I would see her. I had only known my small daughter for nine days but already I loved her with all my heart. I smiled at Nahuel fast asleep as my stomach contracted, it hurt a lot but I refused to scream. "Little one be gentle."

I want out Mama and you want me out! I want to see the things in your mind for myself, please let me out.

"You aren't ready wait one more day Amelia, just one I promise." I told her and I felt my stomach expand again.

No I want out now! I can survive I can I know I can. I tried to calm her down sooth her with thoughts of my and her daddies love but she was determined. I felt her pushing at me and I clamped down on another cry, I tasted blood and knew how badly I needed it how badly I thirsted. I needed to wake Nahuel so that he could get me blood. Carlisle was out hunting for me and Amelia.

"Please wait sweetie, just one more day." I said and I felt the spasms redouble.

I want out, I want out now! That voice possessed so much power so much strength that I knew that she was ready. She had grown more then I thought in the night and now both of us needed to live independently.

"Nahuel?" I said and shook him, his head lulled exhausted from taking care of me, thinking that it was safe. I needed him awake not this deeply asleep so deeply that his chest barely rose and fall. "Daddy!" I called out. "Someone, anyone." I called out barely able to move, I saw Nahuel's arm around me and knew that I had to drink, I might not be able to die but our child I feared was. I bit down on his wrist sucking at the blood it gave us both strength I cried out freely. The pain was like a fire throughout my veins and it pooled in my stomach an inferno of flame.

The blood calmed the burning and I cried out again from the pain but it was muffled by Nahuel's arm. His eyes fluttered but then he relaxed again back into that sleep I had no doubt driven him to. He had protected me, I knew through Amelia that he had stayed up many nights for me and her. We had drained him and we take his blood, I have no choice I don't want to risk loosing her. I pushed as Amelia pulled her way through her world, trying to get out into ours.

Mama, I'm scared.

"We can't stop now Amelia." I told her and pushed.

I know, I want to be out in the world, I want to know the feelings you show experience them for myself.

"And you will, keep trying my darling." I told her and we moved together trying to free her both focused on one task and one task alone. I cried out again and finally Nahuel's eyes opened. He looked around disoriented from the loss of blood.

"Nessie?" He asked and I cried out again. He saw that I had his wrist in my mouth. "Take as much as you need Nessie." He stroked my face and my stomach. "Come on little one Daddy wants to see your beautiful face." He was so calm that I found myself calming and I felt her moving inside of me trying to get out.

"Come on Amelia we can do this." I told her pushing as she tried to get out, little elbows came through my passages she was careful not to use her fingernails. I smiled and pushed harder gasping.

"Come on my girls my beautiful girls." He said and kissed me, I was sweating it was cold but sweating all the same. "Breathe in and out, in and out." I focused on my breathing and on my pushing until I heard a laugh delighted and pure.

I am out I am free. I smiled all three of us incredibly weak from the loss of blood but I still wanted to hold my child in my arms. I sat up and gathered her up, she touched my face gently, she looked like she was about six months old, her emerald eyes were shining and she was completely bald. Mama?

"Hello Amelia." I replied my child, Nahuel stared at her as I did the same look of wonder in his eyes that was in mine.

"Hello baby girl." Nahuel said and gently reached out to stroke her.

I love you Mama and Papa." I smiled and cradled her in my arms. Nahuel started to sing holding her little hand.

"For one so small,
you seem so strong
My arms will hold you,
keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
can't be broken
I will be here for you always." I smiled and Amelia laughed delighted at her faverite song from Tarzan. I felt strength coursing through me and a since of protecting overcame me. This small beautiful creature was my, no our daughter. I sat up and got out of bed, Nahuel smiling at me. We walked together into Alex's room and pulled out one of his onsie outfits and dressed Amelia in this.

This is Alex's isn't it? Its not pretty. I laughed and she giggled in reply, thinking how we would get some of the clothing for her that Alice had bought. I suppose I can wait until we get to the house. We laughed again and she held on tightly to Nahuel's finger as we walked slowly into the house, all three of us was tired but Amelia's wide eyed amazement was worth it. It is even better then I imagined. Her voice in my head was purely joyful. I wanted to move even slower for her but I needed blood more then I needed to show Amelia the world. There would be time enough for that later. Blood and food. She agreed and I smiled we got back to the house, we sat on the couch together thankful for it being so close by.

"Rosalie? Daddy? Alice? Jasper?" I called and they appeared staring at us. "This is Amelia." I said closing my eyes for a moment. "Could you get us some blood?"

"Of course, Nessie." My Daddy said and I smiled he was back in a moment with two packets of blood.

"I will make a bottle, you ate and drank milky blood when you were little until you got teeth." I smiled at her looking down at my daughter.

"Would you like to hold her Nahuel?" I ask and he stares at me before nodding and I pass her to him a pang in my chest shows me her loss. She smiled at me and I offered her my finger as I drank from the packet in my other hand. I finished it and smiled as Rosalie brought her a bottle, Nahuel was shaking as he held her so weak despite the blood. She handed him the bottle and he tried to feed it to her, but his head dropped to his chest in the middle and he started to snore. Amelia giggled at her Daddy and reached up patting his face before biting down firmly on the bottle and sucking it dry.

More? She asked and Rosalie went back into the kitchen. She smiled at me and I smiled back. Hold me?

"I would love to honey but I am about as tired as Daddy." I told her and smiled at Daddy. "Maybe your Grandpa Eddy could hold you."

Grandpa Eddy! She agreed and I gently handed her to Daddy. He looked down at her his eyes full of love and devotion.

"She has my eyes." He said and kissed her forehead as Rosalie came back in with the bottle.

Auntie Rosa! Thank you.

"Your welcome Amelia." Rosalie replied and I smiled seeing them together. I put my arm around Nahuel and allowed myself to sleep.

I awoke in the afternoon Rosalie was holding Amelia she was sleeping in her arms. I smiled and realized that Nahuel and I were both lying down on the couch, after having me they had bought a futon. He laid on his side his mouth slightly open lightly snoring and I snuggled closer to him. I was tired but glad to be here with my child close by and my soon to be husband lying beside me.

"Do you know when the rest of the family will get back?"

"It should be pretty soon, Alice ran to find them." Rosalie said to me and I smiled. "How are you feeling?"

"Good." I replied. "Much better in fact but still tired."

"Bella was changed soon afterward but Abigale laid in bed for three or four days, whether that was laziness or tiredness I am not sure."

"I think I will be fine after one more day." I replied smiling and sat up as there was a knock at the door.

My family burst in but quietly, all of them were excited I could tell at the shining expression in their eyes. Mommy saw me and ran to hug me lightly. "She's so beautiful." She said quietly as Daddy came out of his room smiling at me.

"I wrote it, her lullaby, Nahuel can come up with words if he wants to." I smiled back at him and hugged him tightly.

"I am so happy Daddy." I told him and he smiled in reply.

"So am I." He replied staring over at Amelia.

"Can I hold her Rosalie?" Esme asked and Rosalie passed the baby to her, she smiled down at her. "You are my Grandaughter." She said and I smiled. "As no one would believe great grandma." That got us all to laugh, Esme was sweet and kind, a bit shy too around strangers.

"We must be the oldest great grandparents ever or the youngest." Carlisle said looking down at Amelia.

"Maybe a bit of both." Esme said and Emmett took her hand.

"Wait until you get older I'll teach you how to wrestle, like I taught your Mama." He said and I remembered him gently teaching me how to fight with my body. Amelia opened her eyes and smiled at Emmett.

Hi Bearboy. She said and we all laughed Emmett looked delighted.

"Bearboy? Well now aren't you a batgirl?" Emmett asked and she giggled.

No I am not a batgirl, I don't fly and I don't do that sonar thing. She screeched and listened causing us to laugh again. Her screech woke Nahuel who practically jumped up making us laugh even harder. He smiled and kissed me gently on the cheek.

"Nessie I need to talk to you." He told me and I nodded he took my hand and led me outside, he looked nervous this is what he had been hiding from me. "Jacob well, he imprinted on you." He said in a rush and I stared at him. "I didn't want you to worry about it while baring our child but you have a right to know. I will be here as long as both you and Amelia want me, I can't leave even though I think it would be better for you and Jacob."

"I don't want you to go!" I said terrified at the thought of him leaving. "I love you and Jake as well." I told him and I saw that he was crying.

"I love you so much Nessie, it might not have been the first time I saw you but I feel as though we were meant to be together for all of time. I can wait to have a relationship for ninety years so that you can have a life with Jacob. I understand and when he dies I will comfort you I'll never stop loving you."

"I feel the same way Nahuel, when I am with you the whole world seems brighter, its the same feeling I get when I am with Jake. I can't believe how fast our bond was created and how strong it is." I told him. "But we have to go to the pack."

"We will go in the morning, right now we are both tired I think we are only fit to rest and maybe watch a movie with our daughter." I smiled taking his hand knowing how hard that this must be for him, how he could be so honest to me, so wonderful. We went back inside together.

Can we watch Tarzan? Amelia asked eagerly. I can sit up by myself and I want to sit in Mommy's lap.

"Well then sweetie we can watch Tarzan if you want to." I replied and Rosalie put in the video. She sat back against me smiling widely as it started. Wow Mama its diffent now I see it. She said before getting lost in the movie. When it was over we watched another one.

Amelia snuggled against me and Nahuel wrapped a arm around me, those who raised me were all around me and I smiled. This was my family my wonderful family. "I love you guys." I said suddenly and they turned to me in reply.

"We all love you too." Daddy said and I smiled finishing the movie feeling tired I relaxed against Nahuel and allowed the world to fade away.