Disclaimer: I own Sam

I im sorry for the few who were waiuting It' my Beta's falt really she forgot understandable bu it got tired of waiting so I'm posting now

Oh and to all Tolly lovers read Lunar Silver Wolf's story it's going to be amazing

Sam's POV

I look at the newborn baby boy in my arms and feel that ugly feeling of disgust and self hatred for myself.

I will love this baby. But I still love Jason, and Tommy is my best friend we started sleeping together when we realized we where married and it wasn't a crime and we both needed to feel love so much, and for that I hate myself I used the pill he had a condemn sand I pray this baby will never have to go through anything of what his parents did.

Kim's due in a month or two part of me misses her so much another part hates her for marrying Jason but another knows it's the pride that keeps us all from coming back together. We've been through so much together from Diapers to sandboxes and cooties through finding ourselves falling in love, jealousy but falling apart was one no one saw coming I think even the other students were surprised I mean we were well known and for once time wasn't left.

We where Angel Grove's Angels, growing up, we were just your average American kids. It was always like that. If you messed with one of us the rest would come after you. Looking back some things we beat people up for where things we've said to each other but it never mattered and it still doesn't. I can say anything I like about Kim or Billy or Jason or anybody else but someone else says it their dead.

I guess because we knew or at least thought we had each other forever I mean some people really last forever and we thought we could be like that, but we weren't.

"Hey Sweetie" Tommy says it's common ground after all he has called me Sis or Sam since ever.

"Hey"

"How you doing?" he asks

"I'm ok"

"Good and this little guy?"

"He's asleep "

"Hey Sammy are you feeling ok?" I just give him one of my looks and he knows.

"Do you ever want to cal them?"

"Always"

Neither of us needs to say anything he's my best friend and he knows exactly what's going on with me just like I do for him. Whish Is the only reason people think were in a rut and not in love it's almost funny but I don't feel anything no spark just a strong bond

It's Sweet and nice but nothing like what I felt for Jason he's just amazing he would stay up with me and listen to me rant and rave about something stupid, and he even cared sometimes.

There is no way I could ever find another like him, even if I wanted to

Ok that was Sam's POV hope you liked it and review please I have cookies