It was just all a coincidence.
It was a coincidence that they looked alike. It was a coincidence they were born on the exact same birth date. It was a coincidence that their parent's names were the same. It was a coincidence they always went to the same house together.
They weren't twins. People who were related to each other, who had come from the same womb, couldn't love each other the same way they did.
That was why they weren't twins. Because they loved each other as lovers, not as twins. Twins shouldn't feel this way about each other.
And yet, Rin and Len still did.
It couldn't be helped. They both didn't know when this affection began. But they both began to wonder why they felt so odd when they took baths together, when they walked in on each other dressing and undressing, when they pressed too close to each other.
They were twins. They shouldn't be doing this.
Before either knew it, they were alone in their house. Their parents had gone out. Len was changing clothes when Rin walked into the room then.
Rather than apologize and leave the room, Rin stood, shell shocked, watching. Len had changed. If only a bit. His body was morphing into something more masculine. Len noticed, and with a red face, he stared back, his only cover was his under garments. They had a silent staring contest, and neither knew who it was that moved first. But when they did, their bodies acted on their own.
Lips brushed against each other, hands gripped shoulders and hips, bodies pressing together.
Time slowed down and sped up. It warped and it stood still. Neither knew how long things went on for. All they were aware of was the other half of them in front of them.
The transition from standing to sitting on the bed was unknown. A subconscious move.
So, as Rin sat on Len's legs, both sharing their warmth and spilling their hearts, souls, and minds to each other, something began to blossom. A love surpassing the boundaries of friends, family, or twins. It was a lover's love.
Something forbidden. But wasn't it true that the forbidden fruit was the best? It satisfied you, leaving you quenched of everything. And yet, it was poisonous, it would get back at you later, slowly eating you from the inside out.
When the two separated, they realized what they had done. There was no way to go back now. Only to march forward.
Rin quickly leapt off Len and rushed out the door, her face scarlet. Len sat, dumbfounded, yet… satisfied.
They were relieved and terrified when they heard the door open, and their beloved parents call out an "I'm home".
It was impossible to sleep now.
Both refused to look at each other. They couldn't. They feared they'd lose all self-control with one glance.
They knew it was wrong. Their brains said so. So why did their hearts disagree? Logic contradicting emotion, an endless raging internal war. But emotion was soon winning. All too soon.
That was when they began attempting to seek love in other people. But they fell in love with the same person. One in secret, one in full publicity.
They fell in love with the same girl. The same broken and scarred girl. The one they called a friend.
Len didn't understand. He was in love with his twin, and with another girl.
Rin didn't understand. She was in love with her twin, and with a girl.
Of course Miku was oblivious to Rin's affection. It was wrong for a girl to love another girl. But wasn't it wrong for family to be in love with each other?
Len and Rin were aware of their feelings for each other, and the same girl. That couldn't be helped either.
But Rin watched from the sidelines as Len attempted his luck with the girl they both fell in love with. She knew she wouldn't be able to do anything. She'd have to watch, watch as her brother and her momentary lover, her twin, won over the girl she loved. Because their love was normal. But both of the people she loved, why was it that it was so irregular?
Rin couldn't take it. It hurt. Why? Why was it that the people she loved, the people she cared for so much, why was it that it was wrong? She knew she had earned herself a ticket straight to Hell. Even though she believed in neither Hell nor Heaven, God nor Satan, Sun nor Moon. She knew it. She knew it was a sin. She knew it. But did she stop? No. She couldn't. It hurt so much, but felt so… good. She was conflicted.
She felt it as she was passionate with Len. She knew it when she held Miku close. She knew it. It was a cycle of pain. Len and Rin wouldn't be able to contain themselves, would be shameful afterwards, seek out Miku, and then become pained. And the cycle continued.
But she couldn't stop. Not now, not ever. As much as it hurt, she couldn't. She loved both Len and Miku too much. So many nights she lay awake. So many days she stood still.
It hurt, it hurt so much, it was a fist, breaking through her rib cage, gripping her heart, and suffocating it. Every gentle word Len spoke to Miku, every smile Miku gave to Len, any interaction. It hurt, but it couldn't be helped.
Jealousy and envy constantly flowed through her veins, wondering why she hadn't been born of the other gender, so she could be with Miku.
Up to this day, Rin still felt the same, even as Len had long given up on Miku and opted to be with Rin instead. She didn't know why these feelings persisted. Why?
She had attempted desperately to rid herself of Miku, for she was fearful, that if Miku came to her for comfort – which had become less and less likely these days – Rin wouldn't be able to control herself and act on impulse. She'd betray Len, Miku, and herself. She'd betray the two people she held so dear. She could care less about herself; she had already betrayed all sense of right and wrong.
It hurt her to treat Miku like she did, but she had to. She had to distance herself. She had to create a bad image of Miku, and maybe then this forbidden love would end. Possibly with only one love that wasn't right, she would be able to handle things easier. At least Len was a boy. It wasn't that weird, right? She didn't know anymore. She always allowed herself to be carried by currents of passion, riding it out.
Surely she would be able to rid of her feelings for Miku. Surely there would be no more pain. Surely she would feel human again. Right?
Wrong.
A/N; #ShortandLateChapter. Sorry~. On the bright side, school is only three days from being over! ^^ Sooo. Here's some Rin and Len. I was debating whether making it incest or not... Then I was like, "LOL. MORE FEELS. YOLO." So yeah. Then there was Eli-chan, and her persistence in me updating. And Anthony-senpai, and Lucy-chan, my little kouhai... Oh yeah, and Eli's "persistence" includes constant jabs at me. xD I still have a mark from when she unintentionally stabbed me with a fork... Hmm. But yeah... Anyways. I'm sorry, I had to make Rin even a little gay. I had to. HAREM FOR MIKU. WOO. Hehe. See Miku-nee, everyone does love you, you and Luka are just so fantabulous that everyone has to hate. I was also catching up on the feels in Akuma no Riddle. Jesus fucking CHRIST, that is painful as fuck. CHITARU AND HITSUGI. *Sobs grossly* I SWEAR. I'M GOING TO DIE IF ISUKE-SAMA DIES. SHE AND HARUKI NEED TO MAKE BABIES PRONTO. AND THEN HARU BETTER NOT FUCKING DIE. IT'S SAID THE NIO KILLS HARU BECAUSE SHE LOVES TOKAKU. BUT ALAS, TOKAKU'S HEART BELONGS TO CURRY! I mean... Haru... *Coughs awkwardly*
OH. AND READ AT THE END FOR A VERY VERY VERY SMALL AND TEASING PREVIEW OF THE NEXT CHAP :D
On another note...
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Whatever.
I've been meaning to do this but never got to it, soooo, here ya go! I'm finally replying to your Reviews, because I read and reread and rereread them over and over again. Your Reviews mean so much to me, you guys don't even understand. C:
Let me start from...
Chapter 1:
Aerosophical: I'm usually one to avoid these types of stories, and here I am writing one! D: Thanks for your support on this, though.
Sora: Gosh, I remember reading your Review, squealing like a little girl, then abruptly stopping and realizing I had to, A., continue the story, and B., meet up with people's expectations... And the cried. xD Thanks for your Review, though, it seriously means so much to me for people to take time out of their day, read my story, and drop a comment.
Guest: Guesties are my besties~ Yes they are~. Alright, just for you Guesty, I will make sure to see this through to a fantastically tragic end... I mean... to the end... who ever said anything about tragic?! Luka isn't going to die... Oh crap. N'ah... Kidding.
Yamsassi: Ehehehehehe. *Pats back* Don't you worry child, Eri-sama will make it all better... er... that sounded weird... I mean... story wise... Ehehehe...
AlphonseAl: Yeah... I'm not a fan of these types of stories, and somehow I'm writing one... and people think it's good?! Ehehehe... Yeah... My A/N's tend to become a little... uh... creative... Ehehehe...
Chapter 2:
Aerosophical: Glad to see you again! :D Well... your name... eh... Anyways, yeah, everyone's pretty much fucking evil in this... What the actual fuck is wrong with me, I wonder? And yeah, no good teachers... I see that too much. More evil! :D Ehehehehehehe... I should die... ._.
wave: Oh my gosh. *Blush blush* No... I don't blush that easy... anyways, glad you enjoyed my story rather than studies? xD I do the same... I have a bunch of art pieces I have to finish, but then I get lazy and barely pass the year. xD Yeah... I'll explain all the stuff later ehehehe... Read onward! Woo!
Yamsassi: Yo! cx Um... I laughed... yeah... Neru is my bae... but I made her bitchy here... Sorru~ ^^; Um... (Yeah, I wrote "Sorru" on purpose.) I'm glad I can make you feel the feels. Oh Glob... Yeah. I'm done... I'm just having word vomit here.
Sora: Nice seeing ya this chapter too! c: Yeah... when I have some motivation, I tend to update lickity split. Eh... I relate to Miku too, yo. Neither of my parents wanted me, but you might've read that in the A/N... I'm a mistake and proud! Hehe...
Asagi shiro: Ah, why thank you! I'm trying my hardest on this story. Yeah... Miku isn't the "diva" she's usually portrayed as. She's the secluded little woobie you want to hug and just... I dunno... Luka is a sweety pie and no one will ever defy that. Ever. Ah, don't feel sorry, yo. I'm fine most of the time. cx But thanks for your concern at any rate. Hehe. c:
Chapter 3:
Aerosophical: Still on here? Awesome! :D Um yeah... I was so eager to update I just... it happened... Ehehehe... ^^; Yeah... Luka is just... I didn't want her to seem like with no problems, y'know? And Neru... Neru is just Neru, because Neru is Neru. xD Pfft, if Miku's friend even like touch Miku, Luka'll go bat shit fucking crazy on them. She'll pound their tiny asses into the fucking ground... Hehehehe... See you soon! ^^
One-x-Three: Sorry... I wanted to update quicker but... I got side tracked... y'know... Neru is just... usually portrayed like that, but they usually don't give a reason as to why, in the next chapter, you'll catch a glimpse as to why, and you already read it, but since I'm answering old ones... y'know... Neru-nyan must live... For Haku... Don't worry, I can sometimes be all like "Neruuuu, why?!" Ehehehe...
Yamsassi: Hello again! c: Yeah... creating LOTS of Neru hate... xD Um... you'll see why next chap, and you already read it so... ehhh. Thank you so very much, and of course, I must march on with the NegiToro - and other side couples *Cough cough*.
Chapter 4:
Aerosophical: Hellooo~ Hehe. Quite loyal to this story, ne? :D I MADE THIS CHAPTER FOR THAT VERY PURPOSE. NO MORE NERU HATE- SORT OF... Ehehehe... Those will come right up! :D I'm glad you are! Makes me oh so happy~.
Guest: I dunno if you're the same Guest as before but... *Hugs* Oh gosh... I... I didn't expect people to like this story... I expected every to just... eh... y'know... But... ugh... I can't even... *Hides in corner with face in pillow* Oh yeah, and thanks... I tried to make it from my very emotions... I guess it worked? I'm glad you like it though... c: *Continues hiding in corner*
One-x-Three: YES. YES IT IS. AND HI AGAIN. :D
ReinerRubin-desuka: Oh stop it you... I'm glad you were moved to tears... I mean! Not glad you cried! Just glad this story had enough emotion... Ugh... y'know what I mean, right? .n. Will do! No worries! c:
Chapter 5:
sgtranglin: Ah... thanks... Ehehehe... More is now! Yeah! :D Woo!
Guest: I swear, Guesty, if it's you again... I still love you and every other Guest. Umg. Screw lectures! ... Sometimes... ^^; It shall go on! It shall go on!
One-x-Three: Yooo~! I thought so too, y'know? Thanks to your Review, I know exactly what I'm gonna do... :3 Hint; the smut is in chapter 8! :3 It'll be up soooon~. I promise! See ya next chap!
Acturus: I know... it's painful to write too... ;^; I will make sure Miku and Luka will get better... untilthetragicend *Cough cough cough* Hmm... I've been coughing a lot... Mustbekarmaforwantingtokillanyoneinmystory... *Cough cough* Hmm... Thanks... Ehehehe. C:
chaosrin: Oh of course, I'm not gonna have smut only a while after they met and befriended, y'know? Oh yeah, and thanks to your Review, I know what I'm doing for the next chap. 030 Thanks very much~! I know the whole drill. Only a few more years and I'm out of jail. Heh. Cheers indeed, dear reader~!
music96ninja: Oh gosh, I got kinda excited when I saw your Review. o3o 'Cause I like your story, "A Ninja's Gotta Do What A Ninja's Gotta Do". And then you Reviewed in my other crappy story, and I was like, "Damn, I owe them a Review..." Because I do... Hmm... Thanks very much, I enjoy your story too. c: Ehehehe...
AlphonseAl: I KNOW. FINALLY SOME SLIGHT FLUFF. IF ANY. WOO!
JDMackinaw: I have no clue why but I love your pen name... Hmm... Anyways... thanks very much... everyone is gonna just kill me with their exciting and kind Reviews. Jesus. Hehe... Look forward to the next chap, ne?
mukyuuuuu: I agree. I really hate boring colors... And dark grey does emphasize a more coming of the darkness, seeing as it leans closer to black than white. Light grey seems like the process on cleanliness... I'm sorry... ehehe... um... there really isn't a specific timeline, but I'd say, every chapter is a day or two apart or so. Unless I state otherwise, of course. And not every chapter is in chronological order. So... yeah...
Now for the preview...:
Luka heard the doorbell ring, and she left the room in which Miku and the two newcomers, Yukari and Aria, were occupying.
She wasn't sure who would be ringing her door, after all, she didn't get many visits.
But by the time she reached the door and opened it, she immediately wished she hadn't.
"Hello Luka." Came the greeting of a unwanted red head with a massive cowlick.
I AM SO EVIL. AHAHAHAHA. VIRTUAL COOKIE TO WHOEVER KNOWS WHO IT WAS AT LUKA'S DOOR.