Alright guys, so I haven't written FanFiction in quite a while, so here's my first shot after a very long leave of absence. I know it's a little short for an introduction but I'll try to update frequently – I'm currently studying English literature so it should help my inspiration quite a bit. Let me know what you think (I'm a huge BBRAE fan)

R&R

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The Titan Tower stood soaring above the small island, looming over the surrounding salt water. Where the rocks met the shore, a lone bird lay munching upon a freshly caught fish. The smell was drifting, decaying over the time that passed. Where the air once held amusement and enjoyment, there was now silence and a depression that covered the land. In the silence, a quiet incantation sang out from the pale lips of an even paler half-demon.

"Azarath, Metrion, Zinthos…" the lavender eyed woman whispered her chant. Her mind grew numb, shutting out all of the emotions that she could feel raging on from the other inhabitants, regardless of the sleep they surely were getting. She could feel the desperation, the anger, the turmoil, and the despair creeping past the crevices of their dreams. It pierced into her, breaking past her barrier which at one point stood so strong.

Raven was frozen in time. Frozen in memory. It had been five years. Five years without one of their most valuable members – at least so she thought. Five years since Beastboy had abandoned the Titans within the darkness of the night. Had abandoned her, leaving her alone. Five years…and it was all her fault.

-Flash Back-

Robin had his eyes fixated on Slade – his obsession – with hand-to-hand combat completely drowning out the battle that raged on in the background. A black mass of shadows cloaked around the duo, a vain attempt on behalf of the sorceress to ensure the privacy and security of the two men; an assurance that no one would be able to attack her leader from behind.

'Safety is key to survival,' she thought to herself within the moment.

"Starfire, flank the right!" Cyborg's voice boomed across the field while his cannon blasted against a robotic drone. His eye was wild, his energy and fuel levels skyrocketing over the course of time. They were surrounded and he wasn't sure how they were still holding their own.

Emerald star bolts rained down upon the battlefield, showering the drones in Starfire's enigmatic flames. Her infamous battle cry sang past her lips, eyes focused upon the enemies which stood on the ground – lasers firing past their defenses. With each scream, another bolt flung out from her glowing hands.

Beastboy was off, shifting and changing from a big animal to a smaller lithe form. A rhino to a cheetah, dodging and weaving through the exploding bodies. His claws would connect with metallic eyes while his fangs would rip and pierce through robotic throats, ripping out the electric cords hidden within. His senses were alert, his ears pricking to the sudden impending danger that loomed nearby. The progressive danger that grew closer with every moment until it zoned in on the floating witchling dangling in the air above.

"Raven!" He roared, immediately changing his direction of course to head her way. A startling bolt of electricity flew into his side and penetrated the area below his ribcage. Still, Beastboy charged forwards, a feral and protective growl emanating from the green changeling. He pushed off from the ground, flinging himself at the young female.

One second Raven was suspended in the air, the next she was being engulfed by Beastboy's arms and body. It wasn't until that moment that she began to feel the increasing amounts of pain. A searing pain that spread throughout, starting in her side and shooting up her back, spine, head, and throat. Implanting itself within her. Choking her. Gasping for breath that just wouldn't come.

Smoke clouded over the two bodies, hands desperately pressing against Raven's body. Whispers that sounded like screams, "Look at me! Look at me! Are you okay? Hang in there!"

The only thing the other Titans could see was Slade making his great escape the very moment Raven's dome dropped from surrounding himself and Robin. At the sight of the clouded smoke, more of it began to swarm around the green and purple heroes. A cloud hovering in place, rising around the two tangled bodies. By the time the smoke cleared, both of the Titans were missing, leaving behind only the battered remnants of Beastboy's clothes.

-End of Flashback-

Raven maintained her meditative pose, attempting to ransack her mind and memories to dig beneath the surface of what she could remember. After all of these years and time, Raven still couldn't fill in the blanks of what happened after the battle ended. She just knew…she remembered…when she woke up, she had Beastboy's communicator clutched within her hands. She had awoken on the forest floor, alone. She remembered wondering where he was and calling out his name.

The female had been found by the others, Beastboy's communicator having been tracked by Cyborg and Robin. She remembered being monitored for the next few weeks until her body had healed completely. The IV's that stuck out of her arms and the physical training Robin forced her to endure. She recalled everything the others felt. What he had felt that day. What she had felt when he attempted to save her. The pain, the sadness, and the regret that he had left the team without so much of a word goodbye.

And after all of this time, they still attempted to find him. To trace his tracks and figure out where the green glob of happiness and light could have gone. And maybe Raven had taken it the worst. Because as she sat there shuddering into the night and lowering herself upon the grounded rooftop, she felt the frustration seeping into her body.

Frustration in the form of not knowing. Not being able to save the team. Not being able to be focused on that one night. Not waking up in time. Not knowing where he could have gone. Not knowing if she'd ever see him again.

But the worst part…the worst of it all was knowing she couldn't remember.

It was her fault.