So it went day after day he would work at his desk making new memory boxes, while I learned nursery rhymes and letters on the special box he gave me. He would take me angle hunting when I really felt like it but I tried not to. Cousin taught me about choices and how if we don't make them they make us. I didn't want them to make me. He taught me the more you know the better choices you can make. I was very happy with cousin, he was like the best daddy. Every time I called him that though he told me to call him cousin instead.

It was strange the longer I stayed the less I could see all the pretty things cousin says it was the things I learned breaking the brainwashing, I didn't get it. He said it made me more normal but I wasn't sure I looked in the mirror and I looked human but my eyes glow and my skin was pale, I looked like a monster. But I never said that near cousin otherwise he would go on and on about how I was normal.

I started to notice strange things, more and more scary people, or splicers as Cousin called them. When I went to bed I could hear Gramps and Cousin arguing about some guy named Atlas, but cousin said not to worry. But I did.

Then everything fell apart. Cousin and gramps left me behind to grab some things they said only they knew the code so I would be safe. I was playing with the memory box it was talking about something called rainbows when cousin burst into the room breathing hard and slamming the door behind him. "Cousin?"

Cousin looked at me with a scary look "we have to go."

I didn't understand "why"

"Atlas started a war" he said as he went through some desks

War? The memory box said wars were terrible bad things why would there be one in Rapture? I turn to cousin to see him holding a shotgun and my syringe he hands it to me. "Have you looked at the how to fight section of the memory box?" I nod guiltily "good!" he said and I look up in surprise "splicers are coming if any get close stab them!" he hand me my syringe and starts to push a dresser away from the wall. All of a sudden there is banging at the door.

"Curse it they got here faster than I thought" the dresser is moved and there is a hidey hole there.

"Cousin what's happening?"

"No time"

"Where's gramps?"

"No time"

I'm scared he puts me in the hole "but…" I hear a crash a splicer runs towards the hidey hole and cousin shoots him "GO!" he shouts

More splicers come he can't shoot fast enough. I start to come out Cousin sees me and shouts "Amelia Bradly Lutece, leave now or I will shoot myself and make you leave" he's not kidding I cry as I crawl away hearing cousin shouting curses at the screaming splicers. I hide till I can't hear anything anymore.

I don't know how long I cried in the vents, eventually I left and I saw outside our home. There was angles everywhere. No that can't be right. What did Cousin say "Most people see the world how they want to see it. I try to see it how it is." I don't want to see this fake world anymore, I want to see the world like cousin and grandpa saw it. I shake and hit my head and when I look up there are bodies everywhere. Some splicers, some normal people, all dead. I scream, I scream in terror, how could I not know? Is this were angles came from? Why did I see the world this way? I close my eyes, when i open them I see the shining world again but I know it's just a lie.

I wander around clutching my syringe like a life line. I hear something. Please don't let it be splicers. I crawl in a hidey hole, I'm scared but curious I move towards the sound I peek out a nearby hole and see two splicers surrounding a dead body, at least I think they are why can't I see the world as it really is? "this old guy had no adam on him, just a waste of time" one splicer said to the other, the second a girl replied back "well he ain't with us he was against us, one less person to worry about, stay here I'm going to scout ahead" the girl leaves and the guy starts wandering around muttering about adam, defiantly splicers.

I wait till he's close, what did the memory box say about the body? "The head is the most important part"? I think that's what it said. The splicer has his back to the hidey hole.

What did cousin say "choices are what make us good or evil" "good choices are harder to make then good ones" "splicers chose to give up their choice for adam" "bad men can make it so good people have to make bad choices" I scream and practically jump out of the hidey hole. The splicer barely turns around in surprise as I lunge my syringe into his throat. I cry adam filled tears as he chokes to death. I take my syringe form his corpse and turn around.

I see the body they were talking about "Grandpa!" I run over to his body, he never had adam so he wasn't an angel, but maybe that was a good thing. Cousin's memory box taught me what a grandpa was. He was scared of me but he loved me to let me stay. I could only trust him and Cousin, now because of adam he's dead. Adam makes splicers, adam makes monsters, I'm a monster, he's dead because of me. I'm crying so hard that I don't notice the lady splicer come back.

She grabs me and turns me around "what did you do to my mate?" she yells "give me the adam you little brat" the shining world disappears and I see the disfigured lady in front of me like a nightmare, but it's real. She is shaking me trying to strangle me, on instinct I stab my syringe into her stomach and drain her adam. She lets go and backs away in shock. I run behind her and stable her legs, she is on her knees now. Eyes wide in fear and disbelief she looks me in the eye. With a sniff and a sob I stab her in the heart.

I just made two angles. It's like I'm out of my body as I drain her adam. This is what I've been doing? This is what the shining world kept me from seeing? I try not to but I lift the bottle to my lips. I cry the whole time I drink. It taste so good. I want to throw up, why did I drink? Didn't I have a choice? Am I really a monster?

I would have kept crying but I knew more splicers would come. It was hard to see, the shining world and the real world conflicting in my eyes till only the shining world remained. I keep wandering till I see something familiar. The door to my home, it's broken I run in and see dead splicers everywhere, even the shining world can't hide that the place was destroyed. "Cousin? Cousin? Cousin!?" I cry but I can't find him, my foot bumps something, it's the pistol Cousin save me with the first time I hug it to my chest and cry

I'm a monster, a monster! A monster! "A monster is a figment of the imagination" cousin? I run to the next room, but it's just my memory box with cousin's recording "the only monsters around are the one's man makes. To paraphrase Andrew Ryan a man choses rationality a monster obeys instinct." Even know cousin you comfort me. I'm not going to be a monster, I'm not going to let the splicers get me. I grab my syringe, Cousin's pistol, and my memory box. I crawl into the hidey hole and look back. I don't think I'll ever see my home again.