Dying To Live Chapter 4: The Calm Before The Storm, a twilight fanfic

A/N: Hey guys, this is a fluff update. Next chapter is where the drama will probably lie. What do you think Sue will say/do? Jacob? Bella hasn't even had a chance to sit down and talk to her brother and her pack brothers about anything being newly imprinted all her mind is on is Leah. What do you think/want to happen next chapter? I'm very open to ideas my lovelies. Please review!

"Are you okay Leah?" I asked afraid of her answer. Dad and the guys had long since left the room to give us privacy. Dad left to talk to Harry, and God only knows where Paul was and Sam took my patrol for today. I had sat Leah down and told her I'd answer any question she had and I had done so. I told her about the legends and what I am, about our abilities and basically everything about being a wolf. And then she asked me why Sam was so angry, why she felt suddenly connected to me. I told her about imprinting I didn't want to, but I'd never lie to her and she asked me a question I had to answer her truthfully. She was currently looking down at her fingers in her lap. I wished she would say something, but then I didn't . I didn't want her to reject me. I knew there was a good chance she would, seeing who her mother was I wouldn't be surprised. That didn't mean I wouldn't be devastated and utterly heart broken, but I wouldn't be surprised. I mean she's not even gay, there's no way she'll want me, she can have any man she wants, and even if she was gay im nothing special.

"I'm just confused." Leah's soft voice brought me out of my depressing thoughts. Her voice was small and shaky.

"About what? I'll clear it up for you, what do you want to know?" I asked.

"No I'm just so confused about what I'm feeling. I mean I'm not even into girls and yet I feel connected to you, like we belong together and I never had sexual thoughts about a girl before- not that I'm having sexual thoughts - I mean... Well I just think your so beautiful and I, I don't know what's going on and I'm so... Confused." She admitted shakily. She was still looking down at her lap, I gently placed my hand on her cheek, lifting her face to look at me.

"I know this a lot to take in, it's not everyday you find out your soulmate is A, a werewolf and B, a girl. But all I'm asking you for is a chance. Give me the chance to show you that Taha Aki got it right, that we do belong together, Leah Please." I begged her. I don't think I could survive it if she rejected me. Scratch that I KNOW I wouldn't. Leah wasn't the only off put one right now, I was also confused and scared by my feelings for her. They are so strong, and I've become dependent on her entirely. My life revolves around her and only her. Fear rose into my heart when she didn't say anything back, I kind of started to panic. "I mean we don't have to jump into anything, I can be your friend, the best you've ever had. I mean... I know how your mother feels..." I trailed off. And then she suddenly grabbed my hand.

"Bella, I am not like my mom in that area at all. Actually my dad, brother and I all do not share the same beliefs of my mother. We've tried and tried talking since into her but she doesn't listen, it's even put a strain on her and my dad's marriage. You're one of his best friends daughter and we always seem to hear that she humiliates and degrades you just because you like women. I find it disgusting. Her homophobia is starting to get in the way of all of our lives. Especially Seth, his best friend Kane at school just recently came out and my mom harasses him just as much as dad tells me she does with you. And Bella I am so sorry for the things she has said to you, Please don't pay her any mind. "

I smiled sadly at her.

"So... friends?" I asked hopefully. She smiled at me.

"Of course Bella. Just for now, I've got to figure some stuff out, think these things threw." She told me.

"Of course, I'm only gonna ask that you let me into your life." I told her honestly.

"Bella I don't want you to think I don't see you THAT way, I'm not going to try and kid myself. I know that if you are feeling STRONGER emotions than I am right now, I know we'll probably end up together. And I want to be honest with you, that part doesn't scare me as much as I would think. I just need a little time to myself to process all of this. I know it'll be painful to be away from me, but I swear I'll see you tomorrow night. I just want to go home and think Bella." She told me. I was more than a little upset that she wanted to leave but I understood. This was going better than I ever could have hoped for. She wasn't opposed to having an actual relationship with me, she wasn't homophobic and she actually just told me we'd probably end up a couple. I couldn't wait to get to know her, to reveal even more surprises. I nodded and stood up taking her hand to help her up. Once she was standing, she had to look up at me, the top of her head barely came up to my shoulder.

"I understand. I know this is a lot to take in. And I couldn't ask you to be any more cooperative and understanding than you are being, and I can't thank you enough for that."

"I know it's crazy, but I have a feeling I'm going to miss you, I'll be looking forward to tomorrow night. " she told me smiling shyly.

"I'm going to miss you every second I'm away from you don't worry." I assured her honestly. Suddenly she threw her arms around me. And I quickly wrapped my arms around her tight, never wanting to let her go.

"Do you have your phone on you?" I asked after holding her tight. She pulled back and nodded, pulling it out of the back pocket of her blue jean shorts. "Here, I'm putting my number in here, home and cell. If you need me, call me. Okay?" I asked giving her her phone back.

"I will Bella. See you tomorrow." She looked up at me softly smiling. I leaned down and left a quick kiss to her cheek.

"Tomorrow." She looked into my eyes for a moment longer and then she was gone, walking out the door. I slumped Down on the couch, throwing my head back, and groaning. This was all so stressful.

For the rest of the day And well into the early morning hours I just paced my room thinking about Leah. Wondering what her favorite color was, or food. Or when her birthday was. Or what she was doing, or how beautiful she is. Jacob checked on me before he went to bed a few hours earlier. He talked to me about the imprint, he was happy for me and was sure everything would be okay, I wasn't as easily convinced. I huffed and went to the kitchen to grab a snack. I grabbed a sleeve of ritz and sat on the couch.

"Bells?" I heard dad call out. I turned my head to See him rolling over to the couch. I hadn't said one word to my dad since I imprinted, and he had left before I got the chance, so I still didn't know how he felt. "Why don't you give me a hand? I'd like to sit with you on the couch." He told me. I jumped up and immediately helped him onto the end of the couch. He then opened his arms to me. I didn't even have to think I was in his arms with my head laid on him in seconds.

"You imprinted." He stated. I nodded. "On Leah Clearwater." Again I nodded.

"Are you mad daddy?" I asked. I was so scared he'd be upset, upset that I imprinted on a girl, maybe he thought when I went wolf I would imprint on a guy. That the imprint would turn me straight. He let out a rough sigh.

"Of course not Isabella. I'm very happy for you actually, I'm happy you found your other half. In fact I think Leah will be good for you. You both got a long so well when you were younger..."

He seemed to trail off and I knew there was a but coming.

"But..." I hedged.

"But I know who her mother is as well. Sue is going to give you both a very hard time. That's a fact. She'll try to keep you away from each other no doubt." He said. I shot up out of his arms looking at him with alarm.

"She can't do that though right?! Can't you give her orders as Chief? I mean I IMPRINTED, I can't be away from her dad, I won't!" I was near hyperventilating now. Suddenly I felt myself get pulled from the couch and the house completely. Jacob was dragging me out the back door as quick as he could. I was so busy freaking out I didn't even notice I was shaking like a leaf. I knew I could have almost hurt my dad but I couldn't even think about that right now. All I could think about was Leah. Not seeing Leah, having my imprint taken from me. Jake threw me in the yard just as I exploded. As soon as I was in wolf form I was letting out a pained and desperate howl. Jacob threw his hands over his ears wincing.

"Jeez Bells- Bella!" He started to complain but I was off into the woods, after Leah. I knew where the Clearwater house was I knew where mostly every family on the Rez stayed. I could hear Sam, Paul and Jacob trying to get through to me but I was too busy jumping, ducking, dodging and running. I knew they were yelling at me to be rational, to listen to them but the only thing I could focus on was getting to her. Seeing her for myself making sure she was safe and NOT kept away from me. If Sue kept her from me I don't know what I would do. I know one thing I wouldn't even want to live, I had no life without her. She was everything, everything to me. I jumped over an old fallen tree and skidded to a stop I was now in the woods behind her house. I blocked out he voiced in the pack mind and focused as hard as I could in my hearing and the imprint, trying to FEEL it. I soon located my imprint on her room I presumed sound asleep, My Leah. I couldn't contain my howl of excitement.

Bella stop that! You'll wake the whole damn neighborhood for Gods sake.

When I looked back at her window I almost jumped for joy as I saw her looking groggily out the window at me. Her eyes narrow from sleep went wide when they saw me. She looked a little scared and I whined. My imprint should never be afraid of me, I would never hurt her, it's my job to ensure her safety. When I whined I slunked down laying down with my head on my paws. I didn't want to seem aggressive or scary. She seemed to relax a bit and opened her window. I could hear One of the guys approaching me cautiously but I didn't care I was focused completely on Leah.

"Bella?" She whispered. I barked, happy she knew it was me. "What are you doing out there?" I rolled to the side my paws and legs stretched out In front of me, my head falling to the ground. She turned around and shut her window and I again whined. Why did she close her window? Did she not want to see me? Before I could have a panic attack I saw the Backdoor slide open and out came my princess. I perked up, looking at her expectantly. I wasn't about to move anymore and freak her out. She walked slowly and by her facial expression and heart beat I knew she was at the very least nervous. When she was about twenty feet away she stopped and just stood there. I don't think she knew if it was okay to come closer. So I scrunched down and crawled a little ways out of the trees toward her, my head held low so as not to scare her. I stopped again to let her come to me and she did. She took the last remaining four steps and was in front of me. I let out a small whine and she jumped and then chuckled. "I'm such a scary cat." She then Kneeled down and slowly extended her hand to see if that was okay. Finally I felt her small hand touch my fur. I was so happy she wasn't afraid of me that I turned quickly and licked her hand. "Hey!" She yelped recoiling her hand. "Isabella Black! Do not ever LICK me again, that is so GROSS!" She complained. I barked out laughs and she looked down admiration in her eyes and smiled. I rolled over on my side with my legs laid out in front of me again, my head resting on the ground. "Is...umm, I wondering..." She stuttered out. I barked to encourage her to ask. She sighed and closed her eyes, "can I sit with you?" She asked nervously. If I had been in my human form I would have laughed, what a silly question. I smiled as much as I could and nodded my giant head. She smiled and gently sat down next to me on the forest floor. She shivered and I automatically shifted closer to her, curling myself around her small frame. "I guess you just couldn't wait until tomorrow?" She asked. I plopped my head down on my paws irritated with myself. I had fully planned on giving her the space she asked for, time to think and here I was.

It's not your fault Iz

I heard Paul through the mind link. I sighed again looking up at her with wide apologetic eyes.

"It's okay, I'm glad you didn't wait." She told me. I perked up, ears standing at attention. "I've had enough time to think everything through, you gave me enough time. I hate to admit it but I may have kind of missed you...a lot. She ducked her head. I could have literally jumped for joy in that moment. She missed me. I made a split decision and quickly got up and turned around.

"Bella? Oh my god I knew I shouldn't have said anything. She thinks I'm a creep, I've only just.." I heard her whispering to herself and I rushed pulling on my jean shorts and black sports bra. I came from behind the trees and immediately went to her taking her head into my hands, she gasped looking up at me in surprise.

"I missed you more." I told her honestly. I just couldn't resist anymore. I leaned in and touched my lips to hers very softly giving her the chance to pull away. She didn't. Instead she deepened the kiss and pulled me down, after I was sitting on the ground I found her in my lap, straddling my hips. I moved one of my hands from her lower back to her ass. Leah had a good ass that I had noticed way before I imprinted. Just because I hated her because of her mother didn't mean I was oblivious to one of the hottest girls on the Rez. I knew I was going to get in a lot of fights with the guys for trying to look at my Leah's ass. I couldn't explain what it felt like to kiss her. It was heaven I didn't think this level of happiness existed! All too soon she pulled away to breathe, resting her forehead against mine.

"Bella I don't think I'm going to need anymore time, I know. I want you, you are my soulmate and I don't care about anything else." I beamed at her, she wanted me.

"Good, because after that kiss I'm not going to be able to control the urge to kiss you into oblivion every time I see you." I joked, and she chuckled. Her smile was the most beautiful smile I had ever saw and she was mine, I couldn't believe it.

"You mean the world to me Leah Clearwater. I can't wait to get to know everything about you, and to make you mine." I told her earnestly.

"I'm already yours Bella Black." She smirked at me.

"So...you wouldn't mind sayyyy being my girlfriend?" I asked nervously. Again she smirked at me.

"As long as you'll be mine." She told me. I could have screamed with joy right there. I suddenly had her pinned to the forest ground with me hovering above her just enough that she wouldn't have to feel my weight, and proceeded to devour my girlfriend's mouth.