31st August, once again.
Albuquerque, New Mexico - unfortunately.
Me again. Who else?
I'm sitting here, in my bed, under the covers, trying to get to sleep. It seems like I can't. I've been trying to get my eyes to close for hours now, and sleep just won't come. It's one of the most frustrating things, and yet, I'm slightly happy about it. Because it gives me time to think.
Over the most part of today, I was dreading tomorrow. But I've come to the conclusion that whatever happens, I'm here and I'd just better like it. My mother says we won't be moving any time soon, but that is something I highly doubt. So to be honest, I'll only have to live here for a short time it seems - something I rejoice in.
Okay, I guess I'm looking into this a little too much. I've only been here, what, 2 days, and haven't met any of the people I'll be around, or been to any of the places I'll be spending my time. I've not tested the Albuquerque waters yet, so I can't judge. Even though I do. But I just can't help it. I miss my old life, and I don't like feeling I'm be pushed into a new life.
My old life was fine, thank you very much.
Today, once I'd kind of stopped worrying, I checked my email on that dodgy connection to the internet I have. It took about half an hour to sign in, but at least it worked. I found many emails from my friends back in LA, and before that I'd never really thought of how much I'd missed them. I'd been wallowing in self pity, and never really thought about how it might be affecting them.
It seems they miss me very much.
I almost cried over some of the emails they sent. They said the sweetest things; about how everyone was missing my company, and apparently school wasn't the same without me there. Yes, they are my friends so they are supposed to comfort me. But to tell you the truth, I don't think some people would even notice I'm gone.
I told you before I was a no-one, so the only people that could possibly miss me are the people in my group of friends. But they are the people who matter most. The people I love more than anything and anyone in the world. The one's back home.
Gosh, I need to leave this place. It isn't where I belong. Technically, I don't really have a home - because of all the travelling, but still. It felt like home. This just feels like another universe all together. I'm beginning to really regret coming here.
And tomorrow, I've got to get up at a God forsaken hour, and go to my new school. They'll probably hate me, and I'll have no friends. Except I'll have Kelsi, so it might be okay.
Tomorrow shall tell, I guess.
Wish me luck!
A/N; I thought I'd give you two updates today, just because I'm nice like that. Please review, once again.