ENDING A
CHAPTER 6
Melissa grabbed her purse and tried to give Jade a kiss but she leaned back so Melissa simply walked out of the room sadly. "Jade, don't you think you were a little too hard on her?" Beck questioned, he understood Jade's feelings but he felt bad for Melissa because after spending all that time with her while Jade was in coma he could see that she truly loved her.
"What are you even doing here?" Jade asked him back. "I don't want to see you, leave!"
"No, I'm not going anywhere" Beck affirmed. "I'm worried about you"
"I'm fine" Jade said but he knew her very well and it was obvious she wasn't fine.
"No, you're not fine, Jade" Beck said.
"So what? We are not dating anymore, it's my life and my problems" Jade commented. "I am sorry for calling you, it was a mistake"
"No, it wasn't" Beck said.
"You hung up on me but I get it, it's none of your business anyway, you don't have to pretend you care about me because I know you don't, nobody does" Jade affirmed.
"I care, Jade, I care more than you think" Beck affirmed as Jade looked down and then she saw the scars on her wrists.
"What is this?" Jade questioned confused and looked at Tori. "What happened to my wrists?"
"Listen, Jade, after Nick raped you he tried to kill you and made it look like you had committed suicide" Tori explained. "Fortunately, we realized you were unconscious during the video chat and went to your house, Beck broke the door and brought you to the hospital, that's why you're here"
Jade looked at Beck and then back at Tori. "If he made it seem suicide then how could you know that he raped me? Was it so obvious?" Jade questioned worriedly that they had seen her naked.
"No, no... At first we all thought you had tried to kill yourself but Robbie realized his computer had recorded the whole thing so we saw what happened" Tori informed and Jade looked down ashamedly.
"Don't be ashamed, Jade, the shame is on that bastard" Beck affirmed.
"And you had to show my mother the video so she would believe that what I said was true?" Jade asked and Tori nodded sadly. "Then I'm glad I told her how I felt, I don't want to see her ever again"
"She is your mom" Cat commented.
"She should have realized that before" Jade simply said. "Where is Nick? Is he in jail?"
"No, he escaped but the police are looking for him" Andre responded.
"They won't find him, he'll get away with what he did to me" Jade said angrily.
"He won't, Jade, the police will find him and besides, he already got his ass beaten by Beck" Robbie commented and Jade turned to Beck.
"I don't understand, Beck, I thought you didn't want problems, isn't that why you asked me to stop saying we still dated? Why did you hit him? Why are you here?" Jade questioned.
"You know the answer to that question, Jade" Beck affirmed and Jade looked up at him.
"No, I don't, you don't give a damn about me anymore and that's understandable" Jade said and he sighed upset.
"Stop repeating his words, Jade, you know that what he said to you wasn't true, every single thing he told you was meant to hurt you and now you're repeating it, stop it" Beck demanded.
"No, he just made me realize a lot of things that are true but I never wanted to see them" Jade commented. "I know he wanted to hurt me but he was right in everything he said, I am nobody's priority, my mom prefers to be with a man rather than with me, my dad doesn't even remember I exist and I have no friends, I'm completely alone" she said upset.
"I'm sure the rest of your family loves you" Robbie affirmed and Jade chuckled.
"My family? Please, all my relatives hate me, they think I'm creepy so they never talk to me, the last time I got invited to one of my cousin's birthday party was when I was eight, my grandma even tried to convince my mom to send me to therapy because according to my loving family I am not sane, does that sound like they would've cared if I'd told them what was going on?" Jade questioned and they looked at each other sadly. "No, they would've called me a liar just like Melissa did, see? I have no one"
"What about us?" Andre asked. "We are your friends"
"No, you're Beck's friends and you started talking to me because of him, you've always thought I'm scary" She said "Or what? Did you think I didn't know that?" She asked him back and he looked down.
"That was before but then we started talking to you and we became YOUR friends too" Robbie affirmed.
"Robbie is right, Jade, you're our friend and it has nothing to do with Beck" Tori affirmed.
"Why didn't you tell us what he was doing to you?" Beck questioned.
"Being harassed by your mom's boyfriend is not something you want everyone to know" Jade responded. "It's not like I could brag about it"
"Not everyone, just us, your friends" Andre said. "We would have helped you"
"It wasn't your problem and I didn't think it was so important, period" Jade said.
"It was important enough for you to spend the day away from your house and lie about it" Beck commented. "You could've told us"
"And what would have you done? Tell me that I have to convince my mom like Tori did? Feel bad for me? Scream at Nick? What a big difference" Jade said sarcastically. "Nothing would've been different if you had known because in the end, I'm alone"
"That's not true, you are MY priority" Beck said and she chuckled.
"What? Are you gonna say that you realized that you love me after you saw Nick raping me?" Jade questioned and shook her head. "No, Beck, I don't need your pity, see? This is exactly why I didn't tell you, you would have felt OBLIGATED to get back together with me to protect me, I didn't need that then and I don't need it now" She said.
"Things are not like that, I wouldn't have felt obligated, of course I would have helped you but that's because I love you, I really do and I've always known it but I never told you because our relationship was going to hell, we always fought and I didn't want that back" Beck explained.
"You won't have it back, Beck, don't worry I'm not going to kill myself for real... You don't need to be with me, we don't even like each other anymore" Jade affirmed and Beck sighed.
"No, you don't understand my point" Beck said. "Of course I want you back, I want us back, Jade, I love you and I know we can go back to when our relationship was beautiful, I know it was in part my attitude that broke us apart, I didn't open the door and that was a mistake but it wasn't because I didn't love you, I was just confused and tired of fighting but I never stopped wanting you, can you understand that? I know that we can fix things because I love you and I know you love me and that's enough"
"No, you're here because you feel sorry for me and I get it, really, I'd feel sorry for me too but I'm not going to become your girlfriend again because of that and you should know that, Beck, I actually find this insulting" Jade commented coldly.
"It's not like that, Jade, Beck's been here since before we learnt about the rape... he's been here all this time because he loves you" Cat affirmed.
"Wait, wait... all this time?" Jade questioned confused and they looked at each other not knowing what to say. "What do you mean all this time?"
"Jade, you need to rest" Tori said trying to avoid her question.
"No, what does she mean?" Jade questioned.
"Just sleep" Robbie said and she rolled her eyes.
"I wanna go" Jade said and tried to stand up but her legs weakened and she dropped to the floor.
"Jade!" Beck exclaimed and tried to help her up but she wanted to do it herself so she pushed his hands away.
"What's going on? Why can't I feel my legs?" Jade questioned disconcertedly and a few seconds later the doctor walked into the room.
"Jade, you can't walk yet" He said as he grabbed her in his arms and put her on the bed again.
"What? Why?" Jade questioned confused and he sighed.
"You need to be strong" The doctor said and they all stared at him nervously thinking that maybe something was wrong with Jade's legs. "Listen, Jade, you were about to die, many things happened within your body and you were in coma"
"Coma?" Jade questioned confused.
"Yes, you were in coma for... over ten months" He informed and her eyes wide opened.
"What?" Jade asked shocked. "I've been here for ten months?"
"Yes and your muscles aren't ready to walk again, you'll have to do some exercises and have therapy but you'll be just fine in a few days" The doctor explained but Jade wasn't even paying attention to him.
"Ten months..." Jade whispered.
"I know it's hard to assimilate but you're fine now, the tension you feel on your legs will disappear eventually and there isn't anything wrong with your health so you just need to get used to the idea and go on with your life" The doctor commented.
"When will I be able to leave?" Jade questioned coldly still assimilating the fact she'd been asleep for almost a year.
"You need to have the therapies and do the exercises to be able to walk again but other than that, you're fine so I think you'll be able to leave next week" The doctor responded and she nodded. "Okay, I'll be back in a few hours"
"Ten months, I was sleeping for ten months..." Jade said and sighed.
"Jade, listen, I know it's hard to assimilate but I'm sure-"Tori began but she interrupted her.
"When did you find out about the rape?" She questioned.
"Like two months after it happened" Andre responded.
"And why didn't you disconnect me from this stupid machine?" Jade questioned coldly.
"What are you saying? You woke up, if we had pulled the plug, you would be dead" Tori commented.
"You knew what had happened to me and you kept me in this bed for ten months anyway, I could be gone now, if you had pulled the plug I wouldn't have to deal with all this crap, why did you keep me alive? Why?" Jade questioned angrily. "Who gave you the right to decide over MY life? Why did you do it?"
"Because we love you and we don't want to lose you" Beck affirmed.
"It wasn't your decision" Jade said.
"We didn't want you to die" Cat commented.
"Nick is such a fucking idiot, he should have finished the job, It wasn't so hard, I wasn't even conscious, he could've made sure that I was dead before he left" Jade commented upset. "It's not like I wanted to wake up anyway"
"Stop saying that, Jade, you should be happy that we found you in time and that you're alive" Beck said.
"You will never know what it's like to be raped or to live my life so don't tell me how to feel" Jade responded and he looked down. "Can you all leave me alone? I don't feel like talking to anyone"
"You want to 'finish the job', don't you?" Beck asked her and she rolled her eyes.
"No, I don't, I just don't want to see anyone" Jade repeated.
"I don't believe you" Beck said and Jade raised an eyebrow at him clearly annoyed.
"Uh?"
"You're a very good liar, Jade, you said you'd hit yourself with the door, lie! You said you had a boyfriend, lie! You've lied a lot and I can't trust you on this" Beck commented.
"I shouldn't even be having this conversation with you; it's none of your business and if I lied is because I had to" Jade said.
"No, it's because you WANTED to, you could've told us what was going on but you didn't, you preferred to lie, that's what you always do, lie! If you hadn't lied to us things would be different but you did and this happened" Beck responded.
"Beck..." Andre said because what he'd just said wasn't exactly good and Beck also realized it right after he'd said it.
"Are you blaming me for it?" Jade questioned upset.
"No, no, of course not, that didn't come out as expected" Beck apologized. "I'm just saying that you've lied before and we believed you, I believed you even though the signs were on my face and something horrible happened because of that so I won't make that mistake again, I can't trust you, especially now" Beck explained. "I think you want to kill yourself for real" He said and she sighed annoyed.
"What if I did? It's not your problem, go home and leave me the hell alone" Jade said coldly.
"No way, I'm not letting you kill yourself now that you've come back to life, I'll handcuff myself to you if it's necessary" Beck affirmed.
"No, Beck, that's not necessary, I told you I'm not gonna kill myself, I'm just saying that I would have liked you to pull the plug or to have found me dead because I had no desires to live after what happened, I remember every second of it clearly, it was the worst night of my life and looking back, I think I would have done it myself but if that had been the case we wouldn't be having this conversation" Jade responded.
"I'm glad he didn't give you the time to" Beck said sincerely and she stared at him coldly.
"You have no idea what you're saying, you don't know what it's like to feel so degraded, so humiliated and so used that you wish you were dead, I remember him all over me, I can still feel his breath and his skin, I can still hear his words, everything he said... I just, all I wanted was to close my eyes and never wake up again, there is no going back, this is not like getting robbed because when that happens you know you can get the material things back but this? No, he took everything from me" Jade said sadly and angrily. "All I wanted at first was to escape, I was hoping that one of you or one of the neighbors would wake up and help me but nobody did and then when I realized that it was all over, that he had done it, I just, I wanted to die I really did, the last thing I remember is standing in front of the desk, he was behind me...raping me, then he covered my face and said 'see you in hell darling', after that everything turned blank and I wish it had remained that way"
"See you in hell darling" Jade whispered and chuckled a little. "It's weird but those last words are in my head and it feels like he is saying it now, over and over again... see you in hell darling" she repeated. "He was right after all..."
"What?" Tori asked confused.
"I woke up in hell, this is it... this is my hell"
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