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For those asking, NO, that wasn't the ending.
Sorry for not updating in forever but it was finals week at uni and i had to focus.
Anyway here's the next chap, enjoy!
ENDING A
CHAPTER 7
"That's not true, your life is beautiful and it's going to be even better, you'll see" Tori said.
"No, I won't see anything, you don't know what it's like to live my life, Tori, it's pretty lonely most of the time, nobody really cares about me, not even my own parents" Jade said sincerely. "Why did you think making live was a good idea after what happened? I honestly wish I had told Nick about the video chat, he would have turned it off, you wouldn't have found me and I wouldn't have to feel this way"
"I'm really sorry you feel that way, Jade but I don't regret saving you, I would do it all over again even if I knew you would feel like this" Beck informed.
"And you say you care..." Jade said with irony.
"Because I DO CARE, I want you to be okay" Beck affirmed.
"If you really cared about how I feel you wouldn't have agreed to keep me in this bed for ten months, you and Melissa and my father, you're all hypocrites" Jade said. "We spent a lot of time together, Beck and I'd like to think you know me well enough to know that I did not want to wake up...ever, I wish you had never seen what happened because it's too humiliating but you did and I really don't understand how you could think that forcing me to live after that was a good idea"
"It was, Jade and because I know you better than you know yourself, I can tell you that things are going to get better but you need to stop feeling sorry for yourself, what happened to you was horrible but you survived and you're strong enough to overcome it, you can overcome everything" Beck affirmed.
"No, I can't, this is different" Jade responded.
"Yes, you can but for some reason you don't want to" Beck said. "You're giving him power over you"
"How can you say that to me? I didn't give him anything, you have no idea how humiliating that night was, I did everything I could to stop him, I fought, I begged, I screamed but he was stronger and he did what he wanted with me, he treated me like a whore and he made sure to remind me how sad my life truly is. You say you care but you couldn't take ONE fucking second to look at the screen or call me back, no, you simply hung up after five seconds, what a nice way to show me that I'm your priority" She said upset and Beck looked down ashamedly."Or maybe I'm wrong, maybe you did see but it wasn't so important, right?" Jade said and he looked at her confused.
"Uh?"
"Yes, maybe you saw what was happening but you didn't do anything because you didn't care, maybe you thought it was consensual because after dating me for three years you still consider me a slut that would go to bed with my mom's boyfriend, right? Don't even try to deny it, Tori told me everything and I know that you used to think Nick and I had an affair" Jade informed.
"No, it's not like that-"Beck started but she interrupted him.
"Maybe that's what happened, maybe you DID see the screen but you either thought I was worthless prostitute for having sex with my stepdad or you realized he was raping me but you didn't care so which was it?" Jade questioned.
"What? Jade, are you listening to yourself? You're hallucinating, you're rambling" Beck commented. "Do you realize what you're asking me? Do you really think I could see you or any other girl for that matter being raped and just let it happen? What kind of person do you think I am?" He questioned clearly offended.
"Then you thought it was consensual? Makes no difference, Beck, you think I'm a cheap whore so you decided to ignore me just like everyone else" Jade said and he shook his head upset.
"Stop it, Jade, I'm sick of hearing Nick talking through your mouth, this is not you, you're just repeating everything he said to you and it's driving me insane. You know that if I had seen what was happening I would have helped you immediately and I would have killed him with my own hands" Beck affirmed.
"Then why didn't you? I called you, I tried to scream..." Jade said. "Was it so difficult to look at the screen? Maybe things would have been different if you hadn't completely ignored me" She said and he looked down. "Do you know why I called you?" She asked but he didn't know what to respond. "I could've called the police but I didn't, I had one call and the only person I could think of was you because I always felt safe when I was with you, I don't know, you just made me feel protected, like nothing could ever happen to me as long as you were there" She said with a tear running down her face and sighed. "But you weren't"
"Jade, I... I'm so sorry, really, you have no idea how much I've regretted not looking at the screen and I know this won't excuse me but I didn't ignore you, I didn't know it was you calling, I was asleep when I picked up and I didn't check the number but I wish I had, god knows I do" Beck responded sincerely. "I'm so sorry that I wasn't there for you when it happened"
"No, Beck, I'm sorry... I shouldn't have said that, don't feel bad, you didn't have reasons to be there" Jade said.
"Of course I did, Jade, you're important to me, you've always been" Beck informed.
"Please stop lying, I'm not the kind of girl a person would have an important relationship with, I'm too messed up, it's too much trouble" Jade said and they looked at each other sadly because she was saying literally what Nick had said to her. "I'm the kind of girl men want to sleep with but nothing else"
"Who are you?" Beck questioned and she stared at him coldly. "I thought I was talking to Jade West but it's like Nick is here instead" He said and Jade looked down annoyed. "Stop it, Jade, I am not going to stand here and listen to you repeating everything Nick said, deep inside you know none of it is true"
"Get out" Jade ordered.
"Where is the Jade we know? Where is the strong girl I fell in love with, uh? This is not her, this is a stranger, Jade would never feel she is unworthy of anything, god, she feels she deserves the world and she is right, she is full of life and dreams, she wants to become a big star and travel the world, she wants to grow up, get married and buy a sick house, she is full of fire and passion and talent and she is going to reach all her goals, that's Jade West, not this puppet controlled by Nick" Beck affirmed. "So where is she? Where is Jade?"
"She died and 'this puppet' is all there is in this body now" Jade responded.
"No, that's not true, I know the real Jade, our Jade, is in there but you don't want to let her out because you prefer to pity yourself and whine about how horrible your life is and about how you want to die like an immature teenage girl, you're being pathetic" Beck said, he was trying to make her mad because he knew that that was the only way to make her react and it was working.
"Get the hell out now" Jade ordered angrily.
"If you want to let Nick win and die, fine, go ahead, I won't stop you this time" Beck said and she stared at him madly.
"You know what? I might take your advice" Jade said.
"What do you need? A knife? A gun? Medicine? A noose? What is it? I'll get it for you or do you prefer to jump off the window?" Beck asked as the rest of the gang stared at him confused. "I'll carry you because I know you can't walk"
"Beck, what are you talking about? Stop giving her ideas" Tori demanded upset.
"Why? She wants to kill herself, she wants Nick to win and that's okay, it's totally understandable, I mean every rape victim does it, right? It's not like it has been proven that women can get over it, she wants to end her life so why not?" Beck commented and they looked at each other confused, Jade didn't even know how to feel about everything he was saying, she knew he wanted to bother her but at the same time she was angry that he was acting like that.
"You don't understand anything" Jade said upset.
"Of course I do, Nick raped you and you DECIDED to let that ruin your whole life, that's okay, I get it" Beck said. "So what do you want to do, Jade? I'll help you" He informed and Jade decided to keep going with him.
"Okay" Jade smiled cynically. "You could start by locking the door because I don't want anyone to interrupt this time" She ordered and he did. "Now, give me a knife...a sharp one and a syringe" She demanded and Beck started looking in his backpack, he pulled out a knife and handed it to her along with a syringe smiling, Jade looked at him slightly surprised that he'd given her the knife but she wanted to push him over the edge, at the end of the day she really didn't care about dying anyway.
"Is that it?" Beck questioned.
"Beck, what are you doing? Why did you give her the knife? She is not stable" Robbie commented.
"Of course she is and she wants to do it, I am just trying to please her" Beck said and smiled at Jade, who only stared at him weirdly and gave him a fake smile.
"Give me that soda, I'm thirsty" Jade said and Beck handed her the soda that was on the table which was Andre's.
"Thanks" She said and drank a little and then she put the syringe inside.
"What are you doing?" Beck questioned confused and she smirked at him as she filled the syringe with soda.
"What does it look like I'm doing? I know how to do this, Beck; do you think I'm stupid? It won't fail" She said excitedly and he looked at her worriedly, he wasn't expecting her to get that far in the game. "Can you guys leave? I don't want you to be here"
"Jade, don't, you know we won't let you die so don't try" Tori said but Jade put the needle into the tube connected to her veins anyway, Beck knew he had made a mistake by allowing her to do it but he needed to find a way to make her react without having to force her.
"Oh wait, there is a little detail in this deal that I didn't mention" Beck said right before she Injected it as he grabbed another syringe and filled with soda.
"What are you doing?" Jade questioned confused.
"I forgot to tell you that I'm gonna do exactly the same you do so...now what?" Beck questioned and prepared the needle, Jade looked at him shocked and worriedly because she didn't want him to die.
"Beck, don't" Jade said but he continued.
"So we inject, right? Okay, here we go" He said as he began putting the needle into his skin and Jade freaked out, she pulled it from his arm and threw it away so he smiled.
"What the hell is wrong with you? This is not funny" Jade commented upset.
"I'm gonna do exactly what you do so..." Beck said.
"No, you won't, you don't have reasons to want to die, you just want to bother me" Jade said madly.
"So do you but we are in this together, baby, you die I die, you live I live, so what is it gonna be?" Beck questioned.
"Don't threaten me" Jade warned. "You know I am capable of doing it"
"I'm not threatening you and I know that you are but I hope you are mature enough to know what's good and what's bad" Beck said. "But don't listen to me, just think, really think and analyze everything; don't remember what happened because it'll only make you want to jump off a bridge. Think about everything else in your life, think about school, your dreams, the life you want, your friends and all the things that are worth living for, then think about Nick, think about everything he said to you, he wanted to destroy you" He said and Jade sighed.
"This is going to sound horrible but he had fun with you, Jade, we saw it and he really did, he did what he wanted with you, he USED you" Beck said and a couple of tears started streaming down her face. "He was happy with what he had done, he felt victorious, he felt that he won but that's not true because you're here, you are alive and he will only win if you let him, if you let what he did to you ruin your whole life then he is winning but if you decide that you're strong enough to get over it, if you get up with your head held high and go back to your life feeling happy because you made it then YOU will win and he will LOSE, it's all in your hands, it's up to you" He affirmed. "And well, if you can, then also think a little bit about me because my life is in your hands too"
Everything Beck said really got to Jade, she was just so angry and confused but she didn't want to let Nick win, she didn't even remember how she'd got to that point because when she'd just woken up she wasn't planning on killing herself but things somehow leaded her to that moment and she had actually considered doing it; after thinking about it for a few seconds Jade sighed and gave him the syringe.
"Leave me alone" Jade demanded but Beck sat down on the bed next to her instead.
"No, I'm glad you realized wasting your life like that was a huge mistake but I'm not leaving until you understand I'm not here out of pity" Beck said. "Look at me" He demanded and grabbed her chin gently to make her face him.
"Jade, you don't know how much I've suffered all this time, from the beginning, when we realized you didn't react I was very worried and after when we went to your house and I saw you covered in blood and about to die, I felt panic, real panic, I understood that my life wouldn't make sense without you, I understood that no matter how much we fight and no matter what we say to each other when we are angry, everything's worth it because I love you and I know you love me, you have no idea how much I've regretted not opening that door even before this happened to you but I could deal with it because I knew you were okay and that was enough for me" Beck affirmed.
"When your heart stopped and I felt your life slipping away, I saw every single moment we've spent together pass right before my eyes and I wanted to die because I knew I would never have that back and you would die without knowing how I really feel, I suddenly realized that I need you, I really do" Beck commented. "And when Tori told us what had been happening to you, I felt so angry with myself because I was never there to help you deal with it, you were alone and then months later when we saw what happened, when I saw him hitting you and raping you, when I saw him saying all those things to you and trying to kill you I just... I went insane, I only wanted to kill him, I wanted to die, I wanted to go back in time, I wanted to explode; I felt guilty for falling asleep and leaving you alone, I still regret it because if I'd been awake I could have stopped him but I didn't and you had to face it alone, always alone as you say, I'm really, really sorry" He said sincerely, by that point Jade had tears streaming down her face and so did Beck.
"Even if what you say is true, what makes you think I still love you or want to get back together?" Jade questioned and Beck looked down.
"Well, I was hoping that you still did... but I understand if it's not that way, I just wanted you to know that I am here because I DO love you more than my own life and that you count on me, YOU ARE MY NUMBER ONE PRIORITY! I don't care if you don't want to be my girlfriend again, my feelings are not going to change and as long as you're fine, I'll be happy" Beck said sincerely and Jade looked down, Beck thought that she truly meant it when she said she didn't love him anymore so he sighed sadly but when he was about to turn around Jade grabbed his hand.
"Do you really mean everything you said?" Jade asked. "Are you one hundred percent sure that you're not here because you feel bad for me or because you feel guilty? Cause I would not tolerate it"
"Of course I'm sure, given the circumstances I understand why you feel this way but I meant every word I said, I've never felt pity for you, ever" Beck affirmed. "When we found you and thought you'd tried to kill yourself I was confused and sad because I never thought you would do such a thing, then when Tori told us about the harassment I was so mad, I just... I felt guilty because I was never there to help you out of it and months later when we saw what happened, I felt I was gonna explode, I was full of rage and sadness and anger, I felt even guiltier and I also felt really sad that you'd gone through such a thing but I never felt pity, the only thing I could feel for you is love"
"Aww" Tori said and Beck and Jade turned to her coldly. "Sorry, just pretend I didn't, I'm not here...just, sorry" she said awkwardly and Beck smiled at her before turning back to Jade.
"So...yeah, that's the truth" Beck said sincerely. "It's up to you, just know that, I love you, I always have and I always will" He said and gave her a long forehead kiss, Jade was so sensitive and to feel Beck's love, to feel wanted and to feel encouraged was all she needed, she couldn't help herself anymore and she hugged him, Jade didn't even have to say anything, everything simply felt okay, they were together and that's all that mattered.
This was so extremely corny and full of Bade yay
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