ENDING A
CHAPTER 8
Everyone was just staring at Beck and Jade with smiles on their faces because they knew that they really did love each other and it was a shame that they'd been broken apart for so long but now they were together again and that's what mattered. "Here, I have something for you" Beck said as he grabbed the "B" necklace from his pocket and she smiled. "I still have mine" He commented and showed her his "J" necklace.
"Can you help me?" Jade said as she held her hair up while Beck put her necklace around her neck.
"Perfect" He said with a smile on his face and she smiled back.
"Aww you guys are so cute" Tori said happily and Beck smiled at her as he put his arm around Jade's shoulder and then kissed her head again.
"You scared us, Beck, we thought you meant it when you started telling her to kill herself and when you tried to inject the soda into your body" Andre commented.
"Of course I didn't mean it when I told her I would let her die and she knows it, she was playing with me but it got to a scary point and I did mean it when I was about to Inject myself, if she dies I die, I'm keeping that promise up so don't you dare try anything stupid, okay? Now I am aware that you know bizarre ways to commit suicide and I don't exactly trust you on that right now" Beck commented.
"I won't do anything, Beck, at first I was indeed playing with you because I knew you wanted to manipulate me" Jade said. "But then I kind of just went with it, I was gonna do it until you scared me, don't do that again, you could've died because of me"
"Don't worry, as long as you are fine I'll live, I'll glue myself to you if it's necessary but you won't even try to do anything, I swear" Beck affirmed and she smiled. "I just really want you to understand something, it bothers me so much"
"What is it?" Jade asked curiously.
"Listen, Jade, I wish I could go back in time and open that door, really, it kills me to know that I could've stopped Nick long time ago, you didn't need to go through all the harassment" Beck commented.
"I think it was good in a certain way that you didn't open the door, it helped us to see things clearly" Jade responded. "We don't know what would have happened if you'd opened the door, Beck, maybe it wouldn't have made any difference"
"That's not true, if I'd opened the door, you would have told me what was happening and I would have killed him before he laid a finger on you, if I hadn't been so selfish things would be different and he would have never raped you" Beck affirmed.
"I don't want to talk about that, I want to forget it" Jade said. "You said that I need to get over it but you keep bringing it up"
"Yes, you're right I'm sorry but it just makes me so angry...I should've noticed something was going on when we were together but I preferred to fight instead of asking you how you felt, if I'd known..." Beck said.
"Beck, stop, there is no "would have" okay? It happened and we can't do anything to change it" Jade affirmed. "I just want to forget it, I want to go back to my life and forget Nick ever existed"
"You will and things are going to be better, I promise; I'll help you forget this" Beck said as he hugged her tighter and she hugged him back.
"Beck..." Jade said and he broke the hug to look at her. "Can I move with you?"
"What?" He asked surprised.
"I don't know where I'm going to go when they release me" Jade informed.
"Your house, perhaps?" Beck said.
"No, I won't go back to that house" Jade affirmed. "Do you really think I could be in that room again? No, it would just remind of what happened all the time and besides, I don't want to live with Melissa, I meant it when I said I want her out of my life"
"She is your mom, Jade" Beck commented.
"You know what? If you don't want me to move with you, that's okay, I'll just call my dad and ask him to give me some money for a hotel while I get a job, he has to at least do that" Jade commented coldly.
"Jade, you know it's not about that, of course you can move in with me but I don't think you're being fair to your mom" Beck said sincerely. "She is your mom"
"I wouldn't be here if she had believed me, she is as guilty as Nick is" Jade affirmed. "I don't want to see her, period"
"And do you think she doesn't know that? Do you think she doesn't feel guilty? We've all seen her cry for months and ask you to forgive her while you were in coma, she is truly sorry and she loves you" Beck commented.
"I know that she loves me, Beck, I'm not stupid but I also know that for months she put Nick over me and he used that to make my life hell" Jade said upset. "I used to understand her points and forgive her for it because the damage he caused me was minor but things have changed, I don't care if she is sorry now because it all happened and she wasn't there to stop him, he took everything from me, my pride, my peace, my happiness... everything, he left me empty, he left me with nothing but a deep hatred for him, for Melissa and for myself"
"Jade, don't say that" Tori said.
"It's the truth" Jade simply responded. "Every time I close my eyes I see him all over me and I feel disgusted because I know he was inside me, he will always be. I'll never be able to get him off my skin and I hate myself for it"
"Stop it, Jade, it's not like that and you don't hate yourself just like you don't hate your mother" Beck affirmed.
"Stop calling her my mother, her name is Melissa" Jade clarified.
"No, she is your mother, she will always be your mother and no matter what you say, you can't hate her" Beck commented.
"Of course I can" Jade said coldly. "And if you want to keep talking about her, get out because I don't want to hear it" she demanded and Beck sighed, he didn't want to make her mad so he simply stopped talking about Melissa and stayed with Jade.
Next day Beck woke up in the hospital and saw Jade still sleeping, he smiled and walked out of the room to go get some coffee before she woke up but when he was on his way down to the cafeteria he saw Melissa arriving to the hospital so he walked up to her. "Beck, hi" She said nicely and smiled but he noticed that she'd been crying.
"Hello Ms. Melissa" He said politely.
"How's Jade?" She questioned worriedly.
"She is fine, she is still sleeping" Beck answered and Melissa nodded before trying to keep walking but Beck stopped her.
"Listen, I don't think you should see her right now" Beck commented sincerely. "She is very angry and full of rage and sadness; she feels used, humiliated, hurt... and she blames you for it"
"I know and she is right to feel that way, I should've believed her" Melissa commented sadly. "But she needs to understand that I love her and I'm worried about her"
"I know that and she knows that but she feels that you caused what happened to her and she thinks that her life is ruined because of it, just give her some time to assimilate it and think clearly, I think I convinced her to at least try but it'll take a while" Beck commented. "If you go see her now, she'll tell you all the things that come to her mind and she won't care how bad they are or how you might feel because she only wants to get her anger out on someone and she'll hurt you, Jade can be very cruel, especially now that this happened..."
"That's what I want, I want her to scream out everything she is holding inside until she feels better, I don't care if she hurts me with her words, I deserve everything and if that makes her feel better so be it" Melissa commented and Beck sighed sadly.
"The thing is no matter how much she insults you; she is not going to feel better because I know that she doesn't truly feel all those things, she is confused and upset and that's understandable, believe me, just give her some time and when she is more calm, she'll accept your apologies" Beck affirmed and Melissa sighed.
"Fine but please don't forget to keep me informed" Melissa demanded and he nodded, about an hour later Jade's father and his wife walked into Jade's room so she smiled.
"Jade, oh god, I'm so glad you woke up" Richard said happily and hugged her. "I promise that we'll find Nick and he is going to pay for what he did to you" he affirmed and Jade sighed.
"Yes, Jade, what he did to you was horrible" Brittany commented. "I hope this experience taught you a lesson, you can't go around dressed like that, kid, it was obvious this would happen sooner or later" She said and Jade stared at her shocked that she was actually saying that.
"Excuse me?" Jade questioned upset. "Are you saying I caused it?"
"No, of course not, she is not saying that, Jade, but you need to accept that you dress very provocatively" Her father said and she turned to him even more shocked.
"She could run around in her underwear and it wouldn't give any man the right to rape her, what you say is stupid and out of place" Beck affirmed clearly upset.
"Let's not get into that, nobody is blaming Jade for it" Richard commented.
"It sounds like you are" Jade responded coldly.
"No, we are not but let's stop talking about that, I'll give you money to go get new clothes once you're out of treatment" Richard said and Jade assumed he was talking about when they released her from the hospital. "So are you ready to go?"
"Go?" Jade asked.
"Yes, Jade, you're not moving back with your mother, after what happened with the last man she brought into the house I can't trust her" Richard commented.
"You're gonna take me with you?" Jade questioned surprised and smiled.
"Yes, of course" Richard said.
"I thought you didn't have enough rooms" Jade commented.
"In my house? But you're not going there, Jade, you're going to a clinic" Richard informed and her smile dropped.
"What? A clinic? But I'm here, why would I go to a clinic?" Jade asked. "I'm fine, they say I'll be able to leave next week"
"It's not that kind of clinic, it's a place where you will be able to rest and get therapy" Richard informed and Jade looked at him confused.
"A mental clinic? I'm not insane and I don't need to be put in a place like that" Jade affirmed.
"You might not realize it but you do have some issues, honey, especially now that you've been raped" Richard commented and Jade shook her head.
"No, I don't need to be put in a clinic, I can talk to a therapist if you want but I'm not going to live in a mental institution" Jade said seriously.
"Listen, it'll be a temporary thing, Jade, I'll find a place for you in a few weeks" Richard said and Jade chuckled sarcastically.
"So that's the reason, right? You are trying to send me away because you don't know what to do with me and you're not going to take me to your house, ever, right?" Jade asked and he sighed.
"Why do you have to be so negative?" Richard asked. "I'm trying to be a good father; I'm trying to do what's best for you"
"What's best for me or for your wife?" Jade asked. "Forget it, dad, I don't need your help"
"Really? What are you gonna do then? Go back with your mother?" Richard questioned.
"That's none of your business, I'm eigh—nineteen and you can't put me in a place like that if I don't agree so I'm not going with you and don't worry about me bothering you or your perfect wife, it won't happen" Jade responded coldly.
"Jade..." Her father said.
"Thanks for coming, dad, you may leave now and don't feel bad, your very traumatized and mentally unstable daughter will be okay" Jade simply said and Richard sighed.
"Let's go, honey, she will never change" Brittany commented and they both walked out of the room.
"Can you believe it? He wanted to send me to a clinic, he wanted to get rid of me" Jade commented upset.
"It doesn't matter, you're not going anywhere" Beck said as he hugged her. "When they release you, you'll come to my house and then we'll find a way to get an apartment or something, I won't leave you alone"
Days went by and Jade had her therapy, in matter of days she recovered her movement and when she was ready, the doctor released her. "Okay, Jade, you're ready to go" He said and she smiled.
"Great" She said excitedly.
"Just don't forget that your body still has to get used to some things, okay? So you can't run yet and you can't eat everything, you'll have to eat very light things, especially liquids and start adding more and more foods with time until your body gets used to the diet you had before" The doctor explained and she nodded. "Also, don't forget to take your vitamins and anti-depressants"
"She will take them" Beck affirmed.
"Okay, you may leave now" The doctor informed and Jade exhaled happily.
"Let's go then" Beck said and grabbed her hand, they walked out of the hospital and Jade smiled when she stepped outside, it had been so long since the last time she'd been out of the hospital that it made her excited to finally be free.
"Beck, I need to go get my clothes" Jade informed. "Can you drive me to my... to Melissa's house?"
"Of course" He said as he opened the door for her, Jade got in the car and Beck drove her to her mother's house, she walked towards the door nervously and knocked on it.
A few seconds later the door opened and Melissa appeared, as soon as she saw Jade her face lightened up and she smiled happily. "Jade, honey, you're back!" Melissa said sweetly and tried to hug her but Jade stepped back.
"Don't get confused, Melissa, I came to get my clothes" Jade informed coldly and Melissa looked at her confused.
"Your clothes? Where are you going?" Melissa questioned.
"That's none of your business" Jade responded as she entered the house.
"Of course it is, Jade, you're my daughter, where are you going to live?" Melissa asked worriedly.
"That's not your problem" Jade affirmed and Melissa looked at Beck, who was standing behind Jade, he smiled and nodded implying that she was going to be with him so Melissa sighed relieved. "Now if you excuse me, I'll go upstairs" Jade said and started walking upstairs.
"Jade, wait!" Melissa shouted but Jade ignored her and when she opened the door, she stepped back. "I haven't cleaned your room"
Jade stood there staring at the room and at the bed with the bloody sheets on it, everything was just like she remembered it that night. "Jade, are you okay?" Beck asked when he saw her reaction; she was just looking at everything as a couple of tears streamed down her pale cheeks.
"Yes, yes... " She said and stepped inside, she tried to ignore the bed and grabbed a suitcase from her closet, then she started grabbing all her clothes and putting them in the suitcase fast but she couldn't stop remembering what had happened in that room.
"I'm sorry, I didn't even want to be here and with the job and the hospital I never had head to take of this" Melissa apologized sincerely.
As Jade put the clothes in the suitcase she remembered when Nick took hers off that night, she was walking to the closet and back almost desperately. "Jade..." Beck said but she ignored him and continued, she dropped one of her skirts so she leaned down to grab it and Beck tried to help her but as soon as he touched her she turned around and pushed him away.
"NO!" She screamed as she pushed him back and breathed fast scared.
"It's okay, it's okay... it's me" Beck said and Jade closed her eyes in frustration, she simply put the skirt in the suitcase and closed it. "Are you okay?" He questioned and Jade nodded.
"Yes, I'm sorry..." Jade apologized and Melissa shook her head sadly, it made her feel so bad to see how affected Jade was by the rape and the fact she didn't let her help her was even worse.
Beck grabbed the suitcase and Jade simply walked past Melissa, she didn't want to stay in that room because every single part of it reminded her of what Nick had done to her. "Jade, I'm so sorry, honey... please, if the house is the problem we can sell it and buy another one just for you and me" Melissa suggested as she followed Jade downstairs.
"Yes, the house is one of the issues, Melissa but my main problem is with you" Jade affirmed and Melissa looked down sadly.
"Jade, I've asked you to forgive me many times, what do you want me to do?" Melissa questioned sincerely.
"I want you to forget I ever existed because that's what I'm going to do with you, from now on I'm an orphan" Jade commented and lots of tears started streaming down Melissa's face.
"No, Jade, please, I'm your mom... let me be with you now that you need me" Melissa begged.
"You stopped being my mom the day you decided to believe a stranger instead of me, I needed you for a very long time but you weren't there and guess what? It's too late, I don't need you anymore and I don't want to see you again"
Hey guys!
I hope you enjoyed the chapter, don't forget to review!
And also, one of my reviewers here asked me to write a story and i used the idea with some drama in it too haha, i'm sure you'll like it so stay tuned, it'll be called "Brotherhood" ;)