22nd October 2008
Albuquerque, Glancing New Mexico.
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The last few days have been increasingly hard for me. The fact that me and my new best friend aren't talking anymore just kills me. I was beginning to get used to the rhythm our friendship had, and I liked that I felt normal around him. He wanted difference things at the time, and I knew that, but it didn't seem to matter.
Until it all became too hard for him to conceal.
I feel guilty for putting him through the pain of having to be my friend while he felt so much for me. I would say it was unconsciously done, but I would have to say I was lying because in all honesty, I knew what he was going through, I just avoided it. I saw all the looks of love. I saw him try and contain the feelings he felt for me when he held hands. I saw and felt it all bounce off him. And I just let it happen. I want to apologize; feel like I really should. But right now, my mind is so confused I don't think the words would come out properly. This whole thing is just taking control of my life.
At school. He looks at me often. I look back, but he doesn't look away. This hurts. To know that he wants me so badly it's hurting him. I see the anger enveloping him every time I walk passed him. He thinks I'm doing it deliberately, but I'm not. I just don't have the courage to talk to him.
But I can feel it coming.
I can feel the confrontation.
But I'm not ready for it yet.
And that thought makes me scared.
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A/N; Very short, but I didn't want to make it long. The next chapter, which I promise will not take me as long to write (thanks to the holidays) will be much longer and the pivotal chapter of the entire story. It will also be nearing the end soon, so I want to take this opportunity to thank everyone who has read, and reviewed this story. Thanks for coming along on this journey with me.
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