I was sitting in the very back seat of a black car, ears focused on the soft hum of the engine, the rest of the world fading away around me. The windows were darkly tinted. No one would be able to see in here. No one would be able to see me. That's really what this was all about, this particular car. I remembered thinking I almost felt like special opps when I first climbed in, riding in the backseat of a car like this. Usually I was up front in the passengers seat, or driving.

That had been hours ago. I didn't know how long it had been exactly since we started driving, just that it seemed like forever. Kaname was sitting right beside me, holding my hand tightly in his, our fingers intertwined together-like he was afraid that if he didn't grasp me so tightly I would surly disappear right before his eyes-he was watching me so closely. But I wasn't going anywhere. I was finally right where I wanted to be.

Whenever I asked him where it was that we were going he only told me not to worry, that he was taking me somewhere safe where I would never have to be afraid again.

To me, though, that seemed rather unrealistic. I wasn't going to say that to him. I wasn't going to make him worry by thinking I didn't feel safe with him. I did. I've always felt safe when Kaname was close by. Though Rido was dead and gone I would forever be haunted by my memories, the memories that my Human side so desperately wished she could remember, the ones that my Vampire side longed to forget. You could never erase the past. There would always be something to fear.

I rested my forehead against the cool glass, staring out the window, watching as the world rushed past me, remembering that tearful goodbye back at the Academy. I stood at the bottom of the staircase, a suitcase on either side of me, just staring at the front door while the Headmaster and Kaname exchange a swift farewell, wondering if I'd ever cross through the threshold again-not even caring to acknowledge the fact that the Headmaster had known my fate all along and had kept my past from me a secret. Then he turned to me-interrupting my thoughts. This man was my adoptive father. He took me into his home when I was lost in the unknown, raised me as if I were his own daughter. Never judging me, always supporting me through everything. He hugged me against him tightly-crushing me into his chest, sobbing like a tiny child, blubbering about how much he was going to miss me and that he didn't want to let me go just yet, how I had better call and write him every single day, that I had better not over forget him and the life we had shared together. I was loathe to admit, my eyes misted a bit too. This was my Human side's father. My real father was long dead. I shouldn't miss him. I shouldn't cry over him.

But I was.

I would miss him terribly.

Zero had been nowhere in sight then.

That was probably for the best though.

I didn't question Kaname when he asked me to leave with him, falling to his knees before me and clutching my hands so tightly in his, claiming that he had been alone for so long-that he didn't wish to be apart from me a second longer, that he couldn't bear it if I rejected him. I didn't feel guilty. I didnt feel like I owed him anything in that moment. That's not why I went with him. I went with him because I loved him. Unconditionally. Even before I knew who I really was and who he really was, I loved him since day one. I'd follow him to the ends of the Earth if he asked me too.

I glanced at Kaname shyly, needing the reassurance that this was real, that he was actually here with me, sitting right beside me in the car, my cheeks flooding with color when I saw his body right beside mine. His eyes met mine and he smiled gently, bending down to kiss my forehead softly, without seeming to even think about it, as if it came so naturally.

I closed my eyes against his lingering lips, my heart leaping at the sensations his mouth was causing my to feel.

I opened them when he pulled away, feeling a touch of disappointment. Kaname was staring down at me, smiling gently. He tucked a loose strand of hair behind my ear, trailing his fingers along my jaw.

I looked away, his eyes too intense for me to handle at the moment.

I had just realized, I didn't say goodbye to Yori.

My best friend.

My roommate.

She was so many things to me. And I left her without a word.

I reached into my purse, my fingers skimming across the cool plastic of my cell phone, clutching it tightly.

I could just call her...

We left so many things unfinished, unsaid. Our last year of high school, whether or not she'd finally build up the nerve to ask Zero out, that Kaname and I were finally, finally together-

What would I possibly tell her?

What could I tell her?

I was no longer the Yuuki that she knew.

I closed up my purse, dropping it to the floor by my feet and slouching back against Kaname, giving up on the idea entirely.

"Is something wrong, Yuuki?"

"No." I mumbled, obviously. I felt like a shit friend and a pathetic coward.

He picked up on my lie easily. Somehow, knowing me better then I sometimes knew myself. "Did you forget something back at the Academy?"

I didn't want to talk about it, at least not with Kaname, not right now. I'd probably cry and he'd probably think it was stupid. "I'm just tired of being in the car, is all."

"It won't be much longer..." he reasured me. "Perhaps you're tired. Shall I hold you till you fall asleep?"

I blushed at his out-of-the-blue offer. "Th-that won't be necessary!" I turned back towards the window, trying to ignore his quite chuckling.

I was the stupid one. It didn't matter what it was, of course Kaname would care.