A/N: Hi guys! I've been really busy lately, with school and job and cheerleading (yes, I am a cheerleader, but before anyone says anything on the stereotype, I AM THE OPPOSITE OF THAT! I am the nerdiest, shyest cheerleader in the world! And I don't like sports! Like, imagine Nyotalia Canada and you have me!) So I couldn't update, and I am sorry! But here, I finally made one.
And I wrote this while listening to music, so, though that makes writing a lot faster I accidentally started writing the lyrics a few times, so if you see the lyrics to American Beauty/American Psycho or Na Na Na or something, you know why.
I have not yet gained possession of Hetalia.
Kiku was confused on a number of things:
1) the fact that everything was Arthur's fault somehow (though he had yet to get to interrogating him, even if the Valentine's Day dance had been a few weeks ago)
2) why Heracles hated Sadik so much and why the two constantly fought for this affection even though Kiku repeatedly said he was dating Heracles
3) why Vash Zwingli was so violent when all he had ever heard about Switzerland was mountains and goats and dancing and yodeling
The final question had just barely come to mind when Vash had very angrily (though Kiku got the sense that this was not an anger specifically directed at him) told him that he should stand up for himself and not be such a pushover for louder people, for example Alfred.
This had come up during one of their conversations, since Kiku was assigned to sit next to the prickly Vash. Kiku honestly had no idea how he got so many weird friends, though this is not what he really wanted to spend his time pondering.
His conversations with Vash were always vaguely surreal, mostly because they had very little in common with each other, and Kiku felt mostly compelled to speak with him as Switzerland was geographically close to his closest friends (meaning Ludwig and Feliciano).
Kiku had raised his hand timidly raised his hand, hoping the teacher would see, and, when the teacher had ignored him and he had lowered his hand, Vash said to him, "Why do you never stand up for yourself? You really should if you want to ever do anything. How do you think Japan's government leaders would react if a small timid kid went up to the one day and just said 'I wanted to ask... if maybe I could be recognized as the personification of this country?'"
"Erm, I suppose not very well," Kiku murmured, pulling at the sleeve of his jacket and turning red at how likely that that would be something he would actually do.
Vash smirked briefly when he saw that his point was getting across and agreed, "Damn right it wouldn't, and you need to work on that if it ever happens."
Kiku smiled slightly, and then decided to change the subject. "Is your younger sister still staying here Vash-san?"
"Yes, since my parents disappeared. The stupid principal isn't even dealing with a lot of student's parents disappearing all at once, he is just letting Lily stay with me and Roderich," Vash's eyes lit up for a moment at the mention of his cute nine year old adopted sister, but darkened again when he mentioned the principal.
Kiku nodded, thinking a moment of his other siblings, before saying, "Maybe he just wishes to avoid creating conspiracy theories. It would not be very good if an international school got that kind of attention, so they cannot do anything."
"It's so idiotic, though," Vash muttered.
The class ended, and, for the sake of being mildly friendly (and because Lily was insanely adorable) Kiku asked Vash if maybe he could visit his sister.
Vash was very very overprotective, and anti-social and prickly enough to earn himself the name "Hedgehog", but for some reason that couldn't quite be explained he did not mind Kiku as much as he did everyone else, so, the answer was a hesitant yes.
At the end of the class, Vash marched out the door quickly, Kiku going after him in a rush, picking up papers and stuffing them into his bag haphazardly, making a mental note to organize those later. Vash walked speedily to his room, skillfully dodging past the many students, Kiku trying to stay less than twenty feet away. Finally, when Kiku was beginning to think maybe he had accidentally lost the Swiss, and then he saw Vash had stopped in front of a door, devoid of posters that students tend to enjoy putting up, though it made sense, now that Kiku thought more on it, that it would be Vash and Roderich who did not want to individualize their door.
Vash pushed open the door, and Kiku barely had any time to look into the room before a younger girl walked out the door and up to Vash, saying, "Hello, big brother. How are you? Do you have any homework? I made a picnic for us, if you would like to have one with me," in the cutest voice, big sea green eyes looking up at Vash, her small hands fiddling with the ends of her shoulder length hair. Then the girl noticed Kiku, and she smiled shyly at him, "Hello. Are you a friend of big brother's?"
"Yes," Kiku said, returning her small smile.
Vash shook his head, "Not really, more of an acquaintance if anything. Now, let us in Lily. What have you been doing all day? Please tell me the online classes are still going well."
"Alright. I did my online classes, and then Mr. Roderich came during his break and should me how to play on his piano a little," Lily said, backing into the room and pulling out a chair from the small table to sit on, carefully adjusting her maroon dress.
Kiku walked into the room after Vash, sitting beside beside him on his bed. "So, do you want to do something?" Kiku asked politely.
Vash looked at Lily, hesitating before asking, "Lily, would you mind playing something for us? I would like to know how bad of a teacher Roderich is."
"Alright, I can play a few songs," Lily said, and the nine year old walked over to the piano at Roderich's side of the room.
As she began playing something struck Kiku, and he turned to Vash, whispering, "Vash-san, since you are... does that mean Lily is, too?"
Even though Kiku hadn't said it completely, Vash understood what he was saying. "Yes. She is Lichtenstein," he said, and Kiku looked at the little girl, playing timidly on the finding it difficult to believe that she was hundreds of years old.
Ludwig wanted to help Feliciano feel normal again as soon as possible.
But why did it have to be so damn hard? Feli seemed to go out of his way to make it impossible for Ludwig to know anything about his therapy, and every time Ludwig tried to ask how he was, Feliciano would smile and shower him with hugs and kisses, but not answering the question, just thanking him for asking it. Feliciano did seem happier then he had been in months, but it was making Ludwig nervous that he was spending more and more time with Alfred and Matthew. The three would be seen running all over the school, or at least Feliciano and Alfred would, with Matthew jogging after them, and then every couple days Feliciano and Matthew would walk away from the rest of their squad and talk for some time.
Finally, almost three months after winter break, Ludwig finally decided to ask Feliciano to be somewhat inclusive towards him on the Italian's psychological health. He waited patiently for Feli to get back to their room, and, when he got there, he asked him, "Vould you be okay if I vant to help you vith your depression?"
Feliciano looked confused, then grinned up at his boyfriend and nodded, "Ve~ if you really want to! I just thought it would bother you, and then you would want to break up with me, and then I would be on my own..." his face fell slightly, his strange hair curl drooping a little.
"No, I really really vant to help," Ludwig assured him, running his hand through his slicked blond hair, "I like being organized and in charge, remember?"
Feliciano nodded, "Ve~ I forgot! But I think I have an idea of how you can help!" And he reached into his cat backpack, shuffling through the bag, ruining the papers Ludwig had organized so carefully for him, finally pulling out a pill bottle. Ludwig tilted his head, wondering what it was for, but suddenly realizing it when Feliciano bowed his head, ashamed for some reason. "I- they- th-the therapist, he gave me antidepressants, to help me feel normal, but I have such a bad memory that I sometimes forget, and-" he shivered, looking scared, then recovering just as fast, "I want to know if you could help me remember to take them."
Ludwig walked over to Feliciano's bed, sitting next to him, and the awkward thirteen year old put his arm around his shoulder and tried to comfort him. "Of course I vill help you remember. And vhy do you feel so bad about taking zhem?"
"I feel bad that I can't feel okay by myself. And I'm scared it will change me," Feli whispered.
Ludwig shook his head, arm tightening around the smaller boy's shoulders, "It doesn't mean anything about your strength zhat you need help. And it von't change you, just make you feel more yourself."
"I hope so."
The pair sat for a few minutes in silence, until Ludwig be same uncomfortable and stood up, then murmured, "Ummm, we might vant to head to dinner now. And Gil vants to bounce some more of his 'awesome ideas' of getting poor Matthew to fall in love with him."
Feliciano grinned at something mysteriously, and then stood up and skipped over to his boyfriend, confusing Ludwig. "Ve~ Matthew talks to me a lot! He is very nice! And he told me a secret~!"
"Vhat are you even talking about," Ludwig shook his head.
Feliciano just smiled more and grabbed Ludwig, dragging him out the door, "Oh, nothing important~!"
A/N: air try to keep things as canonically accurate as possible, so I have some explaining to do.
In the official thing, it does mention Italy takes medication for some psychological thing, and I believe that Italy could be depressed, so please do not blame me for making Feli that way.
And, I know Arthur is a huge character in this, but I did not, even from the beginning, want to make this a one main character story, so he will just be a major person every other chapter -ish. But, if you really want to see something happen, just comment the suggestion and I will try to carry it out.
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