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It's late and I'm feeling so tired
Having trouble sleeping.
This constant compromise
Between thinking and breathing.

Could it be I'm suffering
Because I'll never give in?
Won't say that I'm falling in love
Tell me I don't seem myself
Couldn't I blame something else?

Just don't say I'm falling in love

Some kind of therapy
Is all I need
Please believe me
Some instant remedy
That can cure me completely

Trouble Sleeping, by Corrine Bailey Rae

Chapter 33

I felt Bella's hand rub small circles around my back, sending a cold shiver down my spine. "Don't do that" I snapped, reaching back and slapping her hand away. "Get out of here, stop messing with my dreams" I ordered harshly, looking up and staring at her viciously.

"Your eyes are still very eccentric" She said lovingly, stroking my temple and down to my jaw with her hand. "Stop changing the subject, woman" I spit, ducking my head swiftly and pushing myself further down the middle of the bed. She frowned and her eyes were distraught.

"Oh Charly, it's me, really!" She insisted, reaching for my hand.

"No your not!" I disagreed, slapping my hands to my ears, "STOP!" I cried, resting my forehead on my knees.

Someone get me out of this nightmare! There is no way that Bella would do such a thing like this, this is probably some kind of sick joke. I can imagine Edward and the others supressing laughs behind the door. Why, you ask? Because they never ever will give a damn about me!

I heard her sigh sadly, and for some reason I felt bad. "Can you just please go? Your making it more painful, your making my heart break into more pieces" I whimpered, taking my hands off my ears and wrapping them around my knees.

This is the worst dream I had in years.

I felt hands rest on my shoulders, I meant to shrug them off, but I couldn't. Her touch was comforting me. When she felt that I wouldn't pull away, she slid her hands down my sides, before she wrapped them around me. There was an awkward space standing between us, and oddly I wanted it to be closed.

My prayer was answered when she pulled me into an overdue hug. Eventually, I gave in and snuggled against her, the sobs starting up again. But these weren't sad tears, they were relief and happiness.

"I'm here, baby. Shh. I'm here" She said soothingly, stroking my hair and rocking me back and forth like she used to when I was a small child. But I was smaller and I was on her lap. "I'll never leave you again" She promised, kissing the top of my head.

"Are you lying to me mother?" my voice cracking, as I hugged her waist. Yes, she was cold and hard, but I didn't dare to let go. Cause if this truly was a dream, I wanted it to last and make it worth while.

"No, baby, I promise not to ever leave you behind" She said reassuringly, holding my head against her neck, and resting her chin on top. Then it became quiet, not the eerie type, but the type that was comforting. Like I was finally at peace.

We both listened to my sobs as they turned into small hiccups. "I love you mom" I said, reaching up to wipe the tears away with my sleeve.

"Oh, I love you to the moon and back baby" She crooned, surprising me cause she said it like I was a small child, "Cause your mine and Edward's beautiful mistake" She added, with a dazzling smile.

Her last two words stunned my heart, making it skip a couple of beats. I was a mistake?! My breathe caught in my throat and I didn't know what to say, Bella didn't seem to notice my uneven breathing. She just kept rocking back and forth, staring at the wall absentmindedly.

"No, no, no" I whispered, "No, no NO!" My voice got louder, and I pushed myself away. I sprang out of her arms and onto the floor, landing on both my feet. I whipped around to face her shocked face. "NO, NO, NO!" I screamed in agony.

"What's wrong, honey?" She asked anxiously.

"What's wrong?" I repeated in a cry, "Mom, you just told me I was a mistake!" I cried in despair. I didn't know why this came as a surprise, I always knew I was a mistake. But I never thought that she would say so, it was a pretty touchy subject. It hurt to hear her say it, even though she said I was a beautiful one.

I buried my face into my hands and I felt like the room was titling. "Melody, Melody, Melody" My mother called, but I didn't answer. "Melody" She repeated sternly.

Then I felt like my head was going to burst, when someone started shaking my shoulder. "Melody" A different voice said, startling me. I opened my eyes and looked up from my wet fingers.

Alice was hovering over me a concerned expression on her small face. The way she hovered felt like I was on the floor, except I was laying on something softer. "Are you alright, Mel?" She questioned, feeling my forehead. She snatched her hand away, and I knew that I was probably burning.

I knew it, it was just a bittersweet dream. That just brought on more tears. "Oh, Alice" I said, hysterically. Alice's eyes became alert and she scooped me up in her arms. "Aww... What's wrong?" She cooed.

"I.. I had a dream, that Bella remembered.. Who I was" I said, sobbing on her shoulder. I felt Alice stiffen, and I looked up. Her eyes was full of pity, "I don't think I'm the right person to be comforting you right now" She said softly, carefully sliding me back on the bed. "I'll go get Edward"

"No, please don't!" I begged, "Just stay with me for awhile, please?"

Alice pursed her lips and put me back on her lap. She rocked me back and forth the same way Bella did, except it wasn't as satisfying. "Tell me what happened" She said gently, patting my back.

I bit my bottom lip, hesitating to answer. "Well, just before you woke me, Bella told me I was.. was.. a.." I couldn't say it, I just couldn't.

"Yes?" Alice pressed, curiously.

"That I was a.. mistake" My voice craked pathetically on the last word.

"Oh!" Alice gasped, "Now you really need to talk to Edward"

I began to protest, but before I could he already appeared in the doorway. His eyes widened at my tearful state. "What's wrong?" He demanded from Alice.

Alice stood up with me in her arms, walking to Edward smoothly. "Here" She said, beginning to place me in his arms.

"No!" I said through clench teeth, holding onto Alice's shoulder. There was no way in hell that I was going to physically touch this freakin jackass. He didn't matter to me anymore - which I knew was a lie - All he did was knock my mother up, so all he is, is the sperm donator. One of my "creators".