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Thanks for telling me how Melody looked to you guys! Can you tell me how Natasha looks, pretty please?

You don't understand
What it is
That makes me tick
But you wish you did
You always second guess, wonderin'
I say yes but you just lose out every time

If you only knew what I talk about
When I'm with my friends just hangin' out
Then you'd have the inside scoop
On what to say, what to do
That way when you play the game, baby you can never lose

Don't you wish that you could be a Fly on the Wall
A creepy little sneaky little Fly on the Wall
All my precious secrets, yeah
You'd know them all
Don't you wish that you could be a Fly on the Wall

Fly On The Wall, by Miley Cyrus

Chapter 39

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"I love you very much Mama" I told her one night, as I rested my head on her stomach. My small arms were wrapped around her waist. It was a stormy night and she allowed me to sleep with her. Here we were on her bed, hugging each other. The room was pitch black, but the windows were open, light from the moon streaming in.

She was looking out the open window, her eyes sparkling with tears. The shadows of the tree's branches dawned on her face like bony hands that were going to snatch her away from me. The thought made me hug her tighter. Just seeing her cry like this confused me, because I didn't know the reason why.

We listened as the rain drops splattered on the windows and the wind shook the window frames violently.

I waited and waited for her to say 'I love you' back. Waited and waited. "Mama?" I murmured, looking up at her tear-streaked face. "Mama, why are you crying?" I demanded, my face starting to heat up from the on coming tears. I felt weak every time I saw my mother looking unhappy, but I felt like I would dissolve the way she was crying now.

Bella's hand pressed against her lips, trying to suppress the sobs. "Mama, did I do something wrong?" I asked, pushing myself off of her. "Did I hurt you?" I slid away from her and kneeled on the bed. As far away from her.

Bella shook her head, her shaking hand reaching for me. "You didn't do anything wrong, baby, come here" She said as gently as she could, the way her voice shook. She was frightened, I could very much tell that.

I didn't disobey. Crawling over, she shifted on her side and hugged me to her chest. I laid down next to her, keeping still. I didn't want to make it harder for her by squirming around. Even though she was hugging me until my lungs would burst.

"Melody, baby, I have to tell you something" Bella croaked, stroking my hair soothingly. "I know your still young and you may not be able to understand it, but..." She trailed off.

I kept silent, as I stared at her light pink cashmere shirt. Tracing the patterns of the material with my eyes. "Melody, I have cancer" She said abruptly, but I still stayed silent. I couldn't comprehend what she was trying to tell me. But she was waiting for me to say something.

"Melody?" She pulled away, but still kept her arms around me. She stared at my face full of confusion and sighed heavily. My eyes widened in worry, "I'm sorry mama! Did I make you angry?" I inquired worriedly.

"No, sweetie, I guess you don't know what cancer is..." Bella said breathlessly, brushing the on going tears from her eyes.

"What does it mean, mama?" I asked curiously.

"I'll tell you when your older" Bella said, but once those words escaped her lips. Fresh tears streamed from her beautiful brown eyes.

"I want to know, Mama, please!" I insisted, pushing my bottom lip out.

"I guess you'll find out sooner or later" Bella gave in easily, "It's a sickness Melody. It could kill me if I catch a cold or something like that" Bella explained.

It felt like Fear grabbed my lungs and squeezed the air out. Tears formed in my eyes and Bella's face showed that, that was the kind of reaction she was looking for. "I DON'T WANT YOU TO DIE!" I bawled.

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But she did die, but eventually came back to me in a way I never expected. I sat there under the falling rain, between tree's branches. I remembered the sweet memories when I used to snuggled in Bella's arms during storms and fall asleep, peacefully.

I ran so fast earlier I barely knew where I was going. I ended up in Alaska. Yes, that's how far I ran. While I ran it felt like I needed no air, which was quite odd.

Strands of my hair were dripping over my face, and I was bending over my knees. "Why did I run away..?" I croaked, kicking the mud beneath my feet. I have to take some action, I can't just sit here and let time pass me by.

I need some time to think. A lot of time. I absolutely need to leave, I need time away from the Cullens. I can't figure things out with them popping out randomly. I need to leave.

I sprang on my feet and darted towards the Cullen's house. I had to do some things before I make my departure. I just hope that Bella or Edward isn't there, that'll make things a lot harder.

Then suddenly I felt flashes of my memories enter my head like lightning bolt. It filled my head until it over flowed and I had to immediately halt. I fell on my hands and knees and hissed under my breath.

The thoughts stung like venom and I clutched the mud, wishing it would stop. My left hand shot up and pressed on my forehead, "Stop... stop... stop.." I hissed. I couldn't tell what the memories were, they were going filling my head so fast, I couldn't tell what they were. But I knew one thing. They were painful.

"Please stop.." I whimpered, dropping my head on the muddy ground. Eventually, my hands and legs gave in to the pain and fell as well. I was still mumbling "stop", but they wouldn't listen. What was happening to me?

Then I heard footsteps that were muted whispers and I could hear voices. I could only catch one sentence before I lost conciousness, "Get Tanya and Kate, quick" A beautiful voice said urgently.

Those names sounded familiar, I remember my mother telling me something about them. But I wasn't sure..