Written for:
Chocolate Frogs Cards Challenge: Hester Starkey - Incorporate a lunar event.
Writing Bingo: Metamorphagus
Gringotts Prompt Bank: Title: Forgot to Remember You, 2."A diamond in the rough." *NEW*, , Lover, Undo, Pain, Entry, ,
AN: So, for this one, I took on the headcanon that when Teddy writes in his journal or diary, he writes to his parents, because it's the only way he has of feeling close to them, and like they can help him get through things. So this is a diary entry, even though it's written like a letter. Also, Dear Diary is overdone.
Words: 494

Forgot to Remember You

Hey Dad,

So, I wanted to write even though it's long past midnight, because there was a full moon tonight. Do you remember when I used to just know when the full moon was? When I kept track of the cycle like the says of the week, like it was useful and ordinary? When I actually respected you.

Well, tonight, it came as a surprise. I was out in the grounds, by the edge of the forest, when I looked up and saw it. I forgot to remember you.

I don't know what to say except that I'm sorry.

I didn't just forget you, my parents, I forgot everything that you both stood for. Everything I always tried to believe.

I didn't mean to hurt Vic. I know now that I was being an idiot, and all it took was a full moon to realise it. Vic and me were on a break, I know. We were going through a rough patch, and she wanted some space, and I used it as an excuse. It wasn't an excuse. I'll bet you weren't looking down on me smiling tonight.

I should have left Emily alone. Just because she came after me doesn't mean it was a good idea. I mean, we didn't really do anything, we were just messing around, and she's one hell of a lover - it confused me! And...

And there I go with the excuses again.

Everything's damaged now. Between me and Emily, and as soon as Vic finds out (which won't take long in this place), everything between me and Vic. There's no excuse for that, and I need to stop looking for one.

You know, Dad, everyone who knew you calls you a diamond in the rough these days, as if that's some kind of complement. I never saw it. I saw it as a kind of disappointment, a sorrowful line, for a long time. It meant you could have been something, it meant you were close - but you never fully realised it. You died full of potential. That's what they say.

I hated it for a long time. But recently, I've come to realise... I took after you, didn't I?

I keep reaching for my dreams like they're stars in the sky coming down to greet my fingertips, and the I fuck it up. But, dad, I promise you, one day I'll make it. One day, I'll reach out and I won't break anything; I won't cause anyone else any pain; I won't stumble and fall. I'll do what you never did, Dad, and everyone who tells me I walk like you with pride and sadness on their faces will say the best of you lived on in me.

I've just got to figure out how to fix this mess I'm in first, and then I'll be on the right track. For good.

You deserve it, dad. You deserve a son to be proud of.

All my best,

Teddy