PART I
Chapter Five:
Edward pulled me in for a kiss after he said those words. I had declared that what happens in Hawaii stays in Hawaii and he had agreed, but he had found a loophole. A loophole I was all too willing to take. This kiss was shorter, he stopped momentarily, forehead against mine. He was waiting to see if I would go on. This was our last day, and whatever happened would not leave this island. I knew I should have kept walking away, but I wanted so badly to be with him. It felt like one those now or never situations and I took the now. I brought my lips back to his, this time with no worries of ever parting. We were like that for some time. Kissing, pulling, grabbing. It was beautiful; everything about him felt so goddamn beautiful. I was lost in Edward's arms and the magic that held us together. I didn't want to leave and by his urgency to keep us together I was sure he didn't want to leave either.
Our first kiss was unlike anything I could have imagined it to be. I used to think about how it might have felt like to kiss Edward, but now that it was actually happening, it was unbelievable. To think just not too long along we were supposed to hate each other. Edward and Rosalie, always getting into arguments. I started to actually laugh just thinking about it. Edward's lips pulled away from mine and I opened his eyes. His deep green eyes were looking back at me so amused. When did he get so adorable?
"What's so funny?" He asked, cocking an eyebrow.
"We're supposed to hate each other." I laughed again and this time he joined me.
"Well then, we've got a lot of making up to do." He grinned and winked at me. The look he gave me made me want to fall to my knees. It was too much for my already weak legs from being this close to him and kissing him. My heart should have gave way by now, but it was still beating. I kissed him again, because I could. I could kiss Edward and know that he would kiss me back. It was bliss.
"I hate you," I said through kisses when I was able to break away from his lips. I could feel a smile across his face form, glad that he knew I was only joking.
I was unsure when but at some point we were able to stop kissing and sat down together near a small cliff overlooking the ocean. We sat close enough that we weren't actually touching, but I could feel him there. We didn't talk. We only looked out over the ocean. It was getting dark out. I knew that we had only been gone for at most half an hour but it felt so much longer. So much has happened between then. We sat in silence for a while. I was thinking about where do we go from here. I know we agreed that whatever happened here stayed here but this wasn't going to be that simple.
"What are you thinking about?" Edward turned to me.
"What happens next?"
He nodded his head, but didn't say anything right away. I could tell he was thinking very hard about it. We had two options. Option one: we return home and announce to everyone what had happened, break off our other relationships, and be together forever. Option two: we really believe that we could continue our lives as before and forget what happened. The latter seemed easier with less complications.
"When we return home, you want to leave all of this behind?" He asked. Whatever I was going to say next would determine our future. I had to think about all the options.
"I know it's what I said we should do and I believe it's what we should actually do, because there's a small part of me that doubts. What if whatever this is that we're feeling isn't really anything? I don't think we should go off on a whim. There's others involved."
"We love other people right now." He stated.
And he was right. We did love other people right now but that didn't mean that whatever we felt for each other could possible blossom into love. I knew I loved Emmett and we have only been together for a few months, but he was my sunshine. I was addicted to his happiness and how being in his presence made me forget about my Edward problems. Things would change now because Emmett would not be a strong enough shield for me anymore. Edward had changed that the moment he kissed me. I knew Edward loved Bella and they had been together a long while now and apparently they were in love. He had more to lose than I had. Somehow I wanted to protect him from bringing him down with me. I had to pretend I was going to be okay. That we both were going to be okay.
"I think it's best if when we return home we should forget about everything that ever happened here. It's just too much of a fucked up situation." I said. I could see him nod in agreement. Knowing that this was the last time I would ever be intimate with Edward I scooted closer to him and snuggled into his side. He wrapped his arms around and we both sat in silence like that for some time. I was fine being in his arms, but I knew once the moment was over and I was by myself back in Forks, it would tear me apart to not have him like this. I wanted to memorize how his body felt against mine at this exact moment. It would be the last time we would be together like this.
It was late when we finally decided to return back to the hotel. I went straight to my room hoping to get some alone time only to find Alice packing.
"Where have you been?" She asked. I had a feeling she knew exactly where I had been. I would tell her that much.
"I was with Edward. We went for a walk."
"Well I figured that, but it's been like three hours. Where did you go?"
So I was sure Alice had made some assumptions as to why Edward and I kind of left without mentioning where we were going. She was going to interrogate me until she got solid answers. I knew now that I could not tell her everything. She believed me to be good, and she believed in her brother too. I would not tell her that we kissed. She wouldn't understand that we both knew what we were doing wasn't right, in the sense that we were in relationships with other people, but there was a greater feeling bringing us together. She wouldn't understand why we did it, so I couldn't tell her. From now on, I couldn't confide in Alice. I had to tell her what she wanted to hear, hoping that I believed the words I was about to say.
"We just walked along the shore for a few miles. He told me that he didn't feel the same way as I did towards him. It hurt, but now I think I can truly move on and accept our relationship as friends only. We then talked about other things like how we'll miss this vacation. It's been truly wonderful." I watched Alice as she listened to me. I had to tell myself that I believed that that was what only happened too. If I didn't, I would only relive those short moments I spent kissing Edward and how amazing it made me feel, and that would tear me apart.
"Oh, I'm sorry Rosalie." Alice came over to give me a hug. "I know that must have been hard."
"Don't pity me, you know I hate that." I gave a small laugh and she laughed too.
I began to help her pack. We didn't talk for a few minutes and then Alice blurted, "So what would you have done if Edward had said that the feeling was mutual? You know, what if he said that he liked you back?"
Well that's what really happened, but I could not tell her. I had to lie some more. "Well, I think things would have been more awkward if that happened. I mean, me liking him, him liking me, us both in separate relationships. It would make one huge love triangle, or square?"
Alice laughed at that last part. "You're right. Imagine the drama?"
"It would be pretty bad." Because it was all too true. I had imagined the drama and how it would tear everyone apart. But I've made my choice already. I was going to live and move on as if nothing ever happened with Edward. I would tell no one and he would tell no one. I wanted to convince myself that what I feel for him would go away. Time is what I needed. Time and space. If I distanced myself from Edward it would make it easier to forget how wonderful it felt to kiss him and be in his arms. I wanted to believe I was making the right decision, but somehow it felt more like betraying myself.
Now that we were back in Forks, the last week felt like a warm, sunny, romantic dream. Forks was raining upon our arrival. It took April showers literally. Jasper and I said our goodbyes to the Cullens and thanked them for the wonderful vacation. Edward and I hadn't really talked much since our time alone last night. So far, I was okay. Being back in Forks helps a little. It makes it seem like our vacation was in the distance past. There's only so much an environment can offer though. At some point I would need to be alone. I hadn't much any privacy on the trip since I shared a room with Alice. There were tears be cried; I could feel them trying to arise on the plane trip back home, but that was neither the time nor place for crying. They weren't the kind of happy or sad tears either. Sometimes you need to just cry because there's so much going on, and crying is a sort of coping mechanism.
Not even after a few hours after we returned home I received a text from Emmett saying that he missed me and wanted to come see me. I didn't object. After last night, which is hard to believe it was only last night that I made out with Edward I completely forgot to call Emmett. There was just so much going on in my mind that I couldn't even remember to call my own boyfriend like I promised to do every night of the vacation. I awoke this morning to missed calls and texts from Emmett. I had no explanation as to why I didn't call him that would be suitable enough. So I texted him back saying that I was sorry and that I would see him later. I should have specified that when I meant later, I meant like tomorrow not just hours after I finally got home. So now he was on his way and I wasn't ready. I had no idea what to tell him, or how I was going to face him after what I did.
Emmett arrived and greeted me with a tight hug and a long kiss. I expected that much. From his perspective, I was his girlfriend, the girl he loved and missed. For those few seconds wrapped in Emmett's arms I was reminded how he really did make me feel. I felt secure with him and I knew that I loved him. It was why I could never tell him what had happened in Hawaii or about the feelings I had for Edward. I didn't want to be the one to break his heart like that. I refused to think about the future because at some point what Emmett and I had would not last. We would break up but I didn't want it to be because of my actions. I was selfish.
I took Emmett by the hand up to my room. I hadn't yet thought of what I was going to tell him to explain why I didn't call him last night. We took a seat on the side of my bed and I waited for him to begin.
"I don't care that you missed our phone call last night, babe. I don't want to be that needy boyfriend, so don't beat yourself up over it. I'm sure you had a good reason." He rubbed my back as he scooted closer. Here he was trying to comfort me, how ironic.
"No, Emmett you should be mad at me. I messed up." In some strange way I needed him to be mad at me. To yell at me.
"Rose, it was just a phone call. It's not a big deal." He tilted my head so that I was finally looking at him. This whole I time I had been looking away. "I love you," He said like it was some sort of affirmation.
Looking into his eyes and hearing him say those words for the first time had me torn. Sure I heard him say it over the phone but being here with him now, it was a whole different thing. His eyes were big and so trusting. When he said those three words I could tell that he truly meant it. I knew right at the moment I was going to start crying. My eyes were watering and body felt tight trying to hold the tears in.
I needed to distract myself. Emmett was right in front of me waiting for a response. I could have told him that I loved him back, but if I talked I knew that I would have choked and started crying. I leaned forward and kissed him. Emmett did not hesitate to kiss me back. He was gentle, like he always was. It wasn't helping me to be distracted though and I didn't want to cry in front of him. I had to take things further. Emmett and I never went any further than just making out. We never talked about taking things further, but I knew that he wanted to. I pushed Emmett down on the bed and climbed on top of him, straddling his waist. Things were progressing, and I could feel myself slowly forgetting why I even felt like crying. Emmett was all around me and I was caught up in the moment with him. It was starting to feel less like a task and more like a want for him to fulfill me. I sat up so that I could take my shirt off and threw it across the room and then went back to kissing him. Emmett's hands were gently running along my bare back until he reached my bra and undid it. I let the bra slip down my arms and then threw it in the same direction where I threw the shirt. I pressed my bare chest against Emmett's who was still completely dressed. This would not do. I started tugging at his shirt trying to pull it up over his body. Emmett got the hint and gently flipped us over so that he was on top. He took his shirt off and placed it next to us. It kind of bothered me how gently and careful he was being. I wanted him to be rough with me, to toss me around to grab and pull me. I watched Emmett as he took his shirt off and sat it next to us and when he looked back me, he stopped. He was looking at me with confusion. I didn't understand. I was laying beneath him, half naked and he was just leaning over me.
"You're crying," he said as he sat back.
"No I'm not," I said as I wiped my cheeks to check for tears, and sure enough they were wet. "It doesn't matter." I reached up to grab his face to kiss him and continue where we left off. I had tried wiping the tears off my cheeks and eyes, but once I realized that they were there, they kept coming. I had tried so hard for this not to happen and it was happening.
"Babe, what's the matter?" He asked as he gently pushed away from me.
"It's nothing." I pulled him back to me. This time he didn't even let me get close enough to kiss him.
"No. Rosalie what's wrong?" He asked, looking deeply concerned. The weight of his rejection and my own guilt was enough to truly break me. Tears poured out of my eyes so much that I could not keep up with wiping them away. Emmett was waiting for a response that I could not give him. Embarrassed that I was now full blown crying in front of him, I pushed him off me and ran to my bathroom. I could hear Emmett coming after me.
"Babe, come on. Just talk to me."
I slammed the door and locked it so that he couldn't follow me. I paced around the bathroom, looking up at the ceiling trying to stop my tears which was useless. I was still completely half naked, so I grabbed a towel that was hanging on the wall and covered myself. Emmett was still outside the door trying to coax me out. "Just go away Emmett!" I yelled back at him because I couldn't think with him there.
"Come out, let's talk. What did I do wrong?"
I hurt me to think that he did something wrong. It was not his fault at all.
"Nothing! Just leave me the fuck alone." I yelled at him. I knew I was being hurtful, but it was the only way that would get him to leave. It was quiet on the other side and then I heard him leave. Now that I was truly alone, I fell to the ground and began crying without blocking it out. All too much had happened within the last twenty fours and it was taking a toll on my emotional wellbeing. I sat on the bathroom floor for maybe hours. Once I stopped crying, I sat huddled on the floor until I heard a knock at the door.
"It's me." Knowing who it was by their voice, I got up and unlock the door and went back to my spot on the floor. Jasper entered and came and sat down next to me. "Emmett left in a hurry." He said. I only nodded my head. "Do you want to tell me why you locked yourself in a bathroom alone to cry?"
"Not really."
"What ever happened to us telling each other everything? You know, I can sense something is wrong. Ever since last night you've barely said anything. Does this have to do with Edward?"
Why did Jasper have to be so intuitive? "I can't tell you. You're going to judge me and you're going to tell Alice." They were childish excuses, because I already knew that he would do neither.
"You know I'd never judge you and I wouldn't tell Alice if you didn't want me to. We're twins, we're supposed to have secrets just between us." Jasper pushed his shoulder against mine. Just hearing his words, lighten me up.
"So last night I told Alice that nothing happened between Edward and I when we were gone for a few hours," I began. I looked to Jasper to see him patiently listening so I went on, "Well I lied about that. Last night Edward told me that he has feelings for me too. So we kind of kissed and made out. But then we made a promise that we would forget everything that happened there. At the time I thought it would be easy. I would come back to Emmett and remember I loved him. So when Emmett came over I wanted to prove to myself that I could continue and forget what had happened in Hawaii. I tried to have sex with Emmett, which probably was a terrible idea because I ended up crying and yelling at him. And now I feel like I fucked up." I let out a sigh, a little bit relieved that I could finally tell someone.
"I don't think you fucked up. I think you're just confused. Give it time. A lot has happened in a short time and I think you just need time to figure out where your heart lies." He gave me a hug and then helped me up off the floor. I was so grateful to have Jasper as a brother. He always knew what I needed to hear to calm me down. He was right thought, all I needed was time to think things over. So much had happened in just the past twenty hours and I was probably overthinking everything.
Another day passed by, and then it was time to return to school on Monday. Emmett hadn't reached out to mend things and neither did I, so come Monday morning it would be really awkward. I actually hadn't even bothered to leave the house till Monday because it was necessary to go to school. I wish I could stay home for a few more days just to avoid everyone. I hadn't come up with an excuse as to why I cried in front of Emmett, but he loved me so he would trust my decision to not divulge an excuse. I would have to apologize for yelling at him though. I was ready to face Emmett, but the others…mainly one in particular, Edward. I wasn't so keen on seeing his face. I mean, just his presence alone would make my heart race. It would be a hard ordeal to be so near to him and not be able to simply touch him. We, so to speak, "broke the seal" by kissing and now I just yearned to be with him and kiss his lips again. This was the main reason behind my inner turmoil because I also wanted things to work with Emmett. He was the good in my life and Edward was the tempting, seductive, lustful, sexy…well Edward was…I don't really know.
When we finally arrived at school on Monday morning, our group of friends was already waiting for us. It was kind of like the past few months never happened. Like Edward and I never fought, or broke our group of friends ups, or made up and kissed and then act like that never happened either. Things were back to normal I guess. After we parked the car, I walked over to join them and stood next to Emmett. I could tell he looked uneasy. The last time he saw me I was having a break down. I did a quick scan of everyone else. Alice was typical Alice. Edward was avoiding my eye contact. I noticed that he and Bella weren't touching. No hand holding, no arms wrapped around each other. They were always touching, so this was different. Besides that they looked typical. Oddly though, there was no jealously when I looked at Bella. I didn't feel that way about her anymore. I couldn't exactly say what I felt towards her, maybe pity? Yuck.
I needed to talk to Emmett, and make things right between us. Well as right as I could make them without him knowing the real truth. I asked him if we could talk and he nodded his head, so I grabbed his hand and walked a few feet away from the group.
"I want to apologize for the other day." I recited.
"It's okay, do you want to tell me what happened? We were really having a good time and then you cried. What was that about?"
I looked down at the ground to gather a lie. I felt eyes on me though, so I looked up back to the group to find Edward looking at me. Why was he looking at me? The last time I truly looked at him was back in Hawaii. Oh right, that never happened. But he was looking at me now and I got flustered and forgot what I was going to say to Emmett. Emmett followed my gaze when I didn't respond. Once Edward saw Emmett looking, he quickly looked away and I looked back at Emmett. I wasn't sure if Emmett caught the moment we were having but he didn't say anything.
"I don't know what happened. But I'm very sorry I yelled you when you were just trying to help."
This seemed to ease him and he grinned, "Well I think we just survived our first fight." He kissed my cheek, and it really did make me feel so much better. I hugged him and then we headed off into the school building. I was sure I felt Edward staring at us as we walked away.
The rest of day went on like it usually did. During lunch I even apologized to Bella, because the last time I actually talked to her I kind of threw a bowl and made her cry. Although everyone knew the situation had finally dissolved, I at least had to apologize to her. My motives for apologizing weren't solely based on that, but no one had to know. So things were good again.
I walked into Japanese class and unexpectedly found Edward saving me a seat. My strategy of avoiding him wasn't going to work. I thought that maybe if I avoided him, then I could concentrate on other things like my boyfriend, and the fact that I didn't make out with Edward. Avoiding him was unlikely though because our lives were so intertwined. So I went over and sat next to him, trying my hardest to ignoring the butterflies in my stomach. Class hadn't began yet and we had a few minutes till the bell rang. As I sat next to Edward I opened my textbook and pretended to be busy reading it. I could feel Edward's eye on me. Avoiding him was a little childish, so after giving myself a two second pep talk, I looked up from my textbook to turn to him.
"Yes?"
Edward slightly grinned at having grabbed my attention. "What?" He asked innocently.
"You've been watching me, all day," I exaggerated. He chuckled and when he calmed, a look of concern appeared on his face as his brow furrowed.
"In the parking lot this morning, what was going on between you and Emmett?"
"Why do you care?" I quickly spat back. I regretted saying it the moment it came out of my mouth.
Edward seemed hurt, but he leaned in closer to me so that he could whisper, "Rosalie, just because we may have agreed to forget what happened, I still care for you."
He was so close when he whispered those words to me. So close that I could kiss him. His words were soft and sincere and I felt so foolish for insulting him. I was about to tell him that I didn't mean to say that, but the teacher began class. I couldn't concentrate during class because Edward's words were playing on repeat in my head. I still care for you. It made sense that he would still care. Feelings just don't go away because you want them to. But hearing him say it brought me some relief that I was not the only one in this. He just seemed to handle everything so smoothly.
Weeks were going by fast. Prom tickets were going on sale so Emmett had brought us a ticket. It was a given that we would go to prom together. I started purposely arriving to Japanese class as early as I could so that I could talk to Edward. We didn't really talk about anything important, but it was so nice to be able to just spend those short minutes with him. It seemed like each time we would sit closer and closer together so that now our arms brushed against each other. Sitting so close to him made me excited and nervous. I couldn't believe that somehow Edward still made me nervous. It was a good nervous though. Edward and I had also started to text each other. It was the kind of texts that you send right before you go to bed, so you end up talking to each other till one of you fall asleep. But Edward and I would agree to say goodnight at the same time so that neither of us had to cave in to sleep. It was the best part of my day. We talked about everything except the obvious. We had a mutual nonspoken agreement to never talk about Hawaii or the fact that there was obvious feelings between us. I never told him how my relationship with Emmett was crumbling.
The closer Edward and I kept getting, the farther away I grew with Emmett. Emmett and I didn't sneak off to make out or kiss in front of everyone. Actually we didn't really kiss much at all. We didn't spend the weekends together anymore. I was usually busy swimming or shopping with Alice. Bella would occasionally join us. She wasn't so bad since I got over my initial jealously. Bella was very easy going and I enjoyed being able to dress her up on our shopping trips. The few times Emmett and I did spend together, I could feel the growing tension from him. He would still tell me that he loved me and I would tell him the same, but it felt to automated.
Prom was now only a few days away. Emmett had called me after school asking if I wanted to do homework together with him. I agreed to meet him at his place. He would usually ask me this and I would decline, but this time I had to talk to him in private. I finally decided that I needed to break up with Emmett. It wasn't doing any good to drag him out. I really did want things to work with Emmett but they just weren't. Somewhere, maybe on the day that we kissed, I had unconditionally handed my heart over to Edward. Jasper was right, it took time for me to realize this. I was using Emmett to hide those feelings but I couldn't use him anymore. Emmett had fallen for me and he didn't deserve me.
"Where's your stuff?" Emmett asked me as he greeted me into his home. I didn't even bother to bring my books to make it seem like I was only here for the study date.
"We need to talk." I opted with the obligatory breakup starter line. Emmett took us to his living room and sat down with me on the couch. He didn't say anything and I had a feeling he knew what I was going to say. "You know how we haven't really been spending time together anymore..."
He interrupted me, "I know. I think we're just going through a hiccup. Every couple goes through them, but I believe we can work through this." He looked so hopefully for me to agree with him.
"But that's just it. I don't think we are going to be able to work through this. We're at different levels in this relationship. You're up here," I motioned with my hands at high altitude, "and I'm down here. There's no way for me to reach you up there." He looked confused at my analogy, so I would have to just explain it. "I love you, Emmett, but I'm not in love with you and that's not something I or you can fix to make this relationship work."
"So you need to take a break from our relationship. Have some time to yourself to figure out things. I'll wait for you." He was in denial already, still trying to look for a way to somehow keep us together.
"No, not a break from our relationship. I want to end our relationship." It was a lot harder for me to say than I thought. As I said the words I watched Emmett react and it made me feel so bad. He was brave though, he kept his composure but I could tell he was breaking inside. "I love you, and that won't change, but we just aren't right for each other." He nodded his head in understanding. I scooted in closer to hug him and he held me so tight. "I'll still go to prom with you," I said as we were still hugging. He slightly laughed at that and squeezed me tight one last time and pulled away from our hug.
"You break a guy's heart and then still offer to go to prom with him," Emmett smiled. Of course he would find some way to joke about this. I was glad though because that meant that we had a successful breakup and that maybe Emmett and I could remain friends. We agreed that we would not let any of our friends know of our breakup till after prom. It wasn't really their business anyways and we didn't want to make the special night awkward, plus we were still going together.
I shouldn't have felt so relieved to be free from my relationship with Emmett. It hurt to break his heart and still see him want to continue a friendship with me. Strangely I missed that connection that we had. If I had to rely on someone it was him, and now I couldn't. I'm sure he would be there for me if I ever needed him, but we weren't together anymore and no one knew yet. I had wanted to tell Edward on several occasions, but I didn't. I had to keep my last promise to Emmett to tell no one till after prom.
A few days after our breakup prom night arrived. I didn't really care for dances, but I wanted to make an appearance. My mom had insisted on hiring a hair and makeup stylist for the day to come to our house and get me ready. It was relaxing to have someone else do all the work for me, while I just sat there. My dress was a simple floor length gown in a nude shade that also looked peach. The bodice part was full of rhinestones and the gown was long and flowy. My hair was done up in an intricate bun with braids. By the time I was ready to go I looked at myself in the full mirror and felt like some empowered goddess.
Our parents took pictures of Jasper and I while we waited for Emmett to come. He would then take us over to the Cullens so that we could all get a group picture along the steps overlooking their beautiful home. Also I didn't want to be stuck driving my car, because I had snuck some of my parents whiskey into a flask and was planning on taking it with me. When Emmett arrived I tucked the flask into my top of my dress under my armpit. It fit perfectly. We said our goodbye to our parents and hopped in Emmett's Jeep. Now that any parents weren't around I took out the flask and took a sip.
"Aw, come one Rosalie, not tonight," Emmett said as he took the flask out of my hand.
"What? Why not? It's prom, it doesn't matter," I tried grabbing the flask back from him but he held it out of reach. I didn't try to continue to fight him for it because he needed to concentrate on driving.
"It does matter. And I don't want you to get caught. Last year some kids thought the same thing and they got caught and got in so much trouble. You can have it back after the dance."
I felt like he was doing this on purpose, trying to ensure that I didn't have any fun tonight. But I guess he was only looking out for me, really. I could have easily argued with him and made him give the flask back to me but I didn't.
We arrived at the Cullens to take photos. The first thing I noticed was that Bella was not there. Well, I lie. That was the second thing I noticed. The first thing I noticed was how handsome Edward looked in a suit. Handsome really didn't describe him. Edward was utterly perfect. For once, his messy hair was combed down. I thought plain Edward with messy hair in jeans and a t-shirt was sexy, but cleaned up Edward was sexier. I suddenly felt shy around him, which was crazy because this was still the same Edward.
Edward explained to us that Bella came down with a terrible cold last night and she could not go to the dance today, but she insisted that Edward still go without her because he had already paid for the tickets and his new suit. He didn't want to go anyways but Bella was so insisting that he finally, reluctantly agree that he would go for a short while. So since Edward was planning to leave prom early he would drive himself there while the rest of us rode with Emmett.
I spent most of prom standing around with Edward since he didn't have a date and my date was off on the dancefloor. Emmett had asked me several times if I wanted to dance but I declined each time so he just gave up. I wasn't really in the dancing mood. That's what my flask of whiskey was for but he had taken it from me. So I stood next to Edward. We didn't really say anything since the music was so loud. Usually we never really talked to each other in public. We always waited till we were alone which was rarely.
"Want to dance?" Edward broke the silence and asked me. I nodded my head and took his outstretched hand to lead me to the dance floor. A slow song had just began playing and everyone was transitioning from jumping around to swaying back and forth. I was expecting Edward to opt for the 'his hand on my hips, my hands on his shoulders' slow dance, but instead he pulled me in closer to wrap his arm around my hip while still holding his other hand to mine. I felt instantly captured in intimacy with him on the dance floor full of people.
"You look beautiful tonight," He whispered into my ear.
"So do you," I quickly replied. So do you? Really? He smirked at my reply though and it was actually kind of beautiful. His smirk made me smile. We danced for the rest of the song in a comfortable silence.
When the song ended, as we made our off the floor Emmett came over and playful punched Edward on the shoulder. "Man, I've been trying to get her to dance with me all night! How did you do it?" He asked Edward. I got really nervous, suddenly thinking that maybe Emmett had been watching us the whole time. We were just innocently two people dancing.
Edward didn't answer him as they both jokingly laughed.
"So my team is having an after party at someone's house later, did you want to come?" Emmett asked the both of us. Edward politely declined.
"This dance is lame. I can't imagine the after party to be any better. So no thanks," I said. I honestly just wanted to leave. Prom was so overrated.
"Well your brother and Alice are coming. I guess you'll have to ride home with Edward."
"I was just about to leave," Edward said.
"That's fine. I kind of want to leave early anyways. This isn't any fun."
I gave Emmet a hug and said goodbye and he went back to join his other friends on the dance floor. Edward and I went to find Jasper and Alice who were sitting down at a table in the corner, clearly having a private moment. We informed them that we were leaving.
"We'll miss you at the party!" Alice said as she squeezed me tight then let go.
As Edward drove me back to my home, it started to down pour rain. Now that we were finally alone, we still didn't talk. I wanted to reach out and hold his hand that was resting between us. This was the first time we were ever in a car alone together. When we arrived at my home, he turned the engine and turned to face me, "I don't have an umbrella and I don't want you to ruin your dress so we should just wait till the rain clears. It shouldn't be long."
"Why don't you just lend me the jacket of your suit and we just run for it? It's not that far from your car to the door."
"I could. I thought about it, but I also thought about trapping you in the car with me. I called the clouds earlier to make sure that it would rain so that I would have an excuse to keep you in here."
I laughed at his humor. "Alright I'll stay, but if this doesn't clear up then we're running for it."
He was quiet for a while and then he blurted out, "What's going on between you and Emmett? You guys seemed a bit off today?" Of course he wanted to know. Since prom was over for me, I decided that I could finally tell him. Initially after my break up with Emmett he was the first person I wanted to tell.
"We broke up actually a few day ago. We didn't want to tell anyone till after prom." I started with, but he cut me off.
"Who broke up with who?" He asked slowly and deliberately as if it was the most important question.
"I broke up with him."
"Why?"
I wanted to blurt out something defensively, but I stopped myself. I wanted him to know the truth. I had no excuse to keep things from him anymore. "It wasn't as easy as I thought it was going to be to just leave things in Hawaii. That moment when you told me that you had feelings for me, changed everything. I didn't feel like I was in this alone. And then you kissed me and it was the best kiss I've ever experienced. That's not something you can make yourself forget. I realized that I wanted to be with you and I could no longer be with Emmett so I ended things with him."
"You want to be with me?" He flirted. And god, my heart skipped a beat. I playful rolled my eyes at him. "I've been thinking about you, about the same things. In a few weeks school will be over and summer vacation starts. Bella is leaving to Florida to stay with her mom all summer, and I think I should break up with her before she leaves. It will be the hardest thing I've ever done, but I want to be with you too."
I didn't know what to say to his words. He was telling me that he was going to leave Bella for me and it was the most unbelievable thing. Like clockwork the rain finally cleared. "I guess I better go now," I climbed out of the car and headed towards the front door. Edward got out and followed me. When I reached the door he grabbed my hand and spun me around to face him.
"Rose, I'm serious. I want us. I've always wanted us."
I couldn't think of anything better to do than to just kiss him and so I did. I pulled his face towards mine and crashed my lips against and it was the most fulfilling thing I ever felt. God I missed him. Edward pulled me towards him as if we couldn't get any closer. I craved his attention. It was unlike anything I ever experienced with Emmett. This, us, it was magical. All I ever wanted to do was kiss Edward all the time and this summer we would both be out of our relationships, so finally it would never have to end.
A/N: We've finally made it to summer, yay! This story will take place in over 2 years, the best parts are the bits that will happen in the summer, hence the title. Lots of Rosalie/Edward to come now that they will be out of their relationships, which is exciting! Anything can happen now.
Thank you to everyone who is reading along!