Chapter 16
(Back to Kyla and Jamie)
Jamie and Kyla headed off as Spencer and Ashley wondered down the beach. Jamie wanted the world to swallow her so that she could avoid the conversation that was bound to happen.
"Look I'm sorry about last night...I didn't mean to cause any aggro with your bloke" Jamie finally blurted. Kyla smiled at her and laughed.
"Oh don't worry about it I was drunk but I still knew what I was doing" Kyla replied.
"I know but you have a boyfriend so I'm sorry about that" Jamie thought that Kyla would be a little bit more worried about the whole thing really.
"It doesn't matter he's over it...I'm shocked that he even noticed to be honest" Kyla said with a sigh of sadness.
"So you kissed me to get his attention?" Jamie asked as she walked with her feet in the ocean. She wasn't sure if she really cared if Kyla had just used her to make that giant jealous, in fact Kyla could use her all she wanted.
"Kind of..maybe....I'm not sure" Kyla didn't really know how to answer the question because she had more than likely kissed Jamie to get Aiden's attention or to even keep herself entertained but really she didn't know.
Jamie looked at Kyla skeptically as if she already knew the girl well enough to know she is lying but she chose to let it go because she would rather have a quiet life.
"Sorry that you've been stuck with babysitting duties you can leave if you want?"
"Don't be silly!!You seem really cool and it seems silly for you to spend your summer watching those two fall in love"
"You think they will fall for each other?" Jamie asked with intensity.
"I know they will.I've never seen Ashley like this and I'm happy for her"
"It must be pretty great to be with somebody you love"
"Yea I suppose it would be"
"Well you have the giant guy"
"You mean Aiden?"
"Yea, you two love each other right?"
"Yea totally"
"Once more with feeling?" Jamie joked. Kyla sat down on the sand and Jamie joined her.
"I do love him but I'm not sure if he loves me" Kyla admitted. Jamie really didn't know what to say again as she was only joking but she was finding it interesting and wanted to find out more.
"What makes you think that?" Jamie asked trying not to be too pushy.
"I just...I just know"
"Care to explain?"
"Have you ever wanted somebody to give you their everything but when they look you in the eye it's just not there?" Kyla asked as she looked directly into Jamie's eyes. Jamie could see that Kyla was really hurting and was also completely mesmerised by the intensity in her voice.
"To be honest I find it easy not to get close to anybody and that way you never have to deak with that shit" Jamie replied bluntly and honestly.
"Maybe I should be more like you then?"
"Maybe but wouldn't you miss the closeness?"
"I don't have it at the moment. I did a while ago when me and Aiden got together but that stopped and now I barely see him because he's always running after Ashley"
"Why not end it?"
"Because I love him"
"Wanna know what I think chick?" Jamie asked.
"Go on then"
Jamie sat up straight and positioned herself in front of Kyla on her knees so their eyes were meeting however Kyla's eyes were now on the verge of tears due to their confession session.
"I don't think that you love him and the only reason that you are with him is because you're scared to be alone which I don't think would be a problem for too long because I think you are pretty awesome and I don't even know you" Jamie confessed feeling a little bit stupid for been so honest with some chick that she had just met and would probably never be interested in her.
"I can't be that awesome considering my boyfriend is probably in love with my gay sister"
"You think?" Jamie didn't know what to sayas she didn't know either sister's well enough to judge.
"He always has been and he was devestated when Ashley came out and I was there to comfort him which led to us getting together and then he joined her band" Kyla was getting closer to tears.
"Well in that case just break up with him so that you can get on with your life and find somebody to treat you like you deserve"
"I think you're insane"
"I think you're cute" Jamie let that one slip."How do you feel about ice cream?" Jamie asked standing up so she wasn't tempted to kiss Kyla anymore.
"I prefer vodka" Kyla replied taking Jamie's hand as she stood up.
"Have you ever tried Cider?"
"Do I want to?" Kyla asked with a raised eyebrow
"Too right. Do have an english bar in this shiney place?"
"Erm yea I can drive there"
"We can get a taxi otherwise you can't drink"
"Ok let's ok" Kyla said with a smile for the first time that day. She took Jamie's hand in her own and led her to the road so that could hail a taxi.