Chapter 17
Spencer and Ashley were just climbing into the car as they dodged the never ending rain. Both girl's climbed into the back seat so they could attempt to get dressed as they were still just in bikinis.
"Here" Ashley said as she passed Spencer a towel.
"That was insane" Spencer laughed as she wiped her face and grabbed her jeans from the front seat.
"I forgot that it could rain like this in L.A" Ashley replied as she tried to shimmy into her jeans which was a lot more difficult than she remembered although it had been a very long time since she had had anybody in the back seat of her car.
Spencer was immediately distracted by Ashley fidgeting around trying to get into her jeans. She was enthralled by how tense and perfectly constructed Ashley's abs were, by how the rain and sea water dripped down her caramel skin. Spencer couldn't tear her eyes away from Ashley and this didn't go unnoticed by Ashley and she took the opportunity to really tease Spencer. She purposefully wriggled around and contorted her body while adding tiny little sound effects that were having the desired affect on Spencer. Ashley smirked at Spencer's face, the girl looked as if she didn't know where to look or what to and she also looked as if she might explode any second. Ashley upped her games and moved over to Spencer until she was hovering over her, she was looking Spencer directly in the eyes as she was asking permission to kiss her but instead Spencer kissed her which shocked Ashley but she definately was'nt complaining. Ashley took the opportunity to explore Spencer's body with her hands running them across her stomach and stroking her hips. Ashley needed to have Spencer now but knew that she didn't want to rush this and also wanted to make sure Spencer was ok with everythingmso she slowly pulled away but stayed with her body on top of Spencer's because she was addicted to the proximity that the two girls shared. Spencer looked at Ashley with confused, blue eyes.
"What's the matter?" Spencer finally asked after catching her breath.
"Nothing" Ashley replied as she sat up and put her top on. Spencer responded to this action by grabbing her hoodie and throwing it on.
"There must be something" Spencer snapped as she ungracefully ut on her jeans. She was feeling rather embarrased and exposed and all she knew was that she needed to get out of there. Ashley wanted to stop Spencer from getting the wrong idea but the words wouldn't come no matter how much she tried. It was like somebody had stolen every word she had ever mastered in her life and replaced them with stupid. Spencer finally climbed out the car after she found her purse and headed towards her car.
"Shit...Spence wait" Ashley jumped out of the car and back into the rain which reminded her that she hadn't put her shirt on and was still in her bikini top. She managed to reach Spencer before she got into her car.
"Look Ashley just let me go" Spencer said as she felt the tears sting her eyes.
"No,look please just let me explain?" Ashley pleaded.
"Explain what? That you regret kissing me?that you don't find me attractive?that I have no idea what I'm doing?...forget it Ashley ever since I've met all we've done is argue" Spencer shouted above the rain battering her car which caused a few passers by to look at them. Ashley was so shocked that Spencer would ever think that and it really annoyed her that Spencer had such a low opinion of her.
"You're right I should just forget it because clearly you don't have a clue about me"
"Clearly" Spencer snapped back again as she got into her car and drove off.
Ashley stood in the rain as Spencer drove off. Ashley was actually quite hurt that Spencer would think that she was that shallow and fickle. Ashley was also annoyed at herself for not explaining to Spencer why she really stopped kissing her and she considered going after her but then she thought that they were already arguing and they hardly knew each other and that every time they have seen each other they have ended up arguing and Ashley couldn't be bothered with another relationship like that.
Spencer was so annoyed with herself for getting sucked in by Ashley's 'niceness' again. Why had the girl even bothered with Spencer if she wasn't interested or even if it wasn't for that reason why couldn't she just be mature enough to tell Spencer. In the middle of Spencer's head ranting back and forth she suddenly remembered that she had abandoned Jamie in L.A and probably should find her so picked up her mobile and dialled Jamie's number.
"Alllriittttee" Jamie shouted down the phone. Spencer knew she had been drinking.
"Are you drunk?"
"No.....(bursts with laughter)..ok maybe a ickle bit"
Spencer couldn't help but laugh at her friend.
"Where are you?"
"England" Jamie replied with a giggle.
"Ok I doubt that"
"I'm at some english bar with Kyla...it's cool they have strongbow"
"Where abouts?" Spencer could hear Jamie ask Kyla and she repeated this to Spencer so she said that she would be there in 5 mins and dropped her phone on the passenger seat.
Ashley walked straight into her bedroom to get changed because she was still soaked. She scanned around the apartment to see if Kyla or Aiden were about and neither were there so she called Kyla to make sure she wasn't misbehaving with Spencer's friend.
"Hellllooo"
"Hey drunk girl where are you?" Ashley asked as she started the shower.
"I'm at a bar with Jamie and Spencer"
"Spencer's there?"
"Yea what did you do to her?" Kyla asked trying to whisper probably because Spencer was near by Ashley thought.
"Nothing I was...nevermind. Why are you still there?"
"Because I'm having fun"
"Do you not think that you spend some time with Aiden after what happened yesterday?"
"That's a good question Ashley but he hasn't contacted me all day so why should I bother...plus he's probably sat around waiting for you to tell him something to do"
"I'm gonna let that slide because you're drunk and I'm coming to get you"
"I don't wanna leave Ashley" Kyla replied as she hung up the phone. Ashley was getting really annoyed and didn't know what to do. She knew that she was only getting mad at Kyla so she didn't get mad at herself or Spencer. Just before Ashley was about to get in the shower she got a text from Spencer.
SPENCER: Don't worry about Kyla she can stay at mine
Ashley noticed the distinct lack of emotion in the text and this made her realise just how upset she was about falling out with Spencer. She had tried to fight it because she hardly knew the girl and didn't want to make an idiot of herself by falling for somebody that she had only known realistically a few days. The annoying thing was that she wanted Spencer to know everything about her and she wanted to know everything about Spencer but once again she had fucked things up. Spencer was right though they had spent most of their time together arguing over something that was nearly always Ashley's fault. Ashley thought that she should probably text Spencer back and decided to kee it just as cold and emotionless as Spencer's text.
ASHLEY: Thanks
"Spencer she really likes you but she can be an ass" Kyla slurred as she drank more cider. Spencer had decided to park her car and spend the night drinking with Kyla and Jamie. She had explained the whole situation to them even though she had to have it pryed out of her.
"Then why would she pull away from me?" Spencer moaned as she also drank more and read the text from Ashley over and over.
"Ok as the only professional lesbian here I can probably explain" Jamie piped up.
"Professional lesbian?" Spencer scoffed.
"Well last time I checked you Carlin have only just barely poked your head out of the closet and Kyla here is extremely straight so therefore I probably know a lot more about the gays than you two combined" Jamie smirked at Kyla when she mad the remark as she was daring her to be gay even if it was just for tonight.
"Please continue"
"Ok I don't know about Ashley but as a long term lesbian it can be really tricky when you with or attempting to be with a girl that has only just come out or may not even be out yet. So she may have been pulling back for you, not because she doesn't want you or anything like that"
Spencer looked deep in thought as she considered Jamie's theory and suddenly felt some serious pangs of guilt.
"Fuck you're so right...shit shit shit. No wonder she got so mad at me...I am such a selfish bitch" Spencer ranted.
"You're not selfish Spencer. You're just scared by the whole thing. Trust me when I say that Ashley likes you and that she is probably sat at home reading that text over and over again hoping to find some hidden apology or meaning. Just ring her" Kyla advised stroking Spencer's arm.
"I can't ring her...I need to see her" Spencer stated as she stood up.
"What?Now?" Jamie asked.
"Yes now..I need to get a cab to Ashley and tell her that I'm an idiot"
"Ok well we're coming with you" Kyla said as she grabbed her bag and downed the last bit of her pint.
"Let's go Carlin"
The three girl's stubbled out of the bar and towards a taxi rank. Spencer tried to talk herself out of it by trying to convince herself that she would regret this or that Ashley probably didnd't even care but she remembered that they had been through so much in such a tiny space of time that she should just take the chance and tell Ashley how she feels.