Tris:

I sit there frozen. Tobias looks at me with a deep sigh picking up the phone. He picked my phone up off the floor looking at the tweet sighing deeply. He looks at me like I was defeated. Like I wasn't strong. Like I haven't beat peter once before and this is nothing.

I smile as I stand up with the gang to compare the make-up that we had done to the boys. I still read the comments and they has gone made with comments attacking peter. People must have seen the tweet and taken to the chat.

"Hey its okay. Guys it's just one person and look if I can smile and ignore him then we all can do that." I say smiling brightly. Chris wraps her arm around me nodding.

We say our good byes turning it off. Slowly everyone leave my room. Leaving me alone for some time to think. I look around my room walking. I turn on some music, and look at the pictures on the wall of friends. I have ones from primary school all they up to Summer in the city this year. I see I ripped photo so you can see only Chris and I. It was when peter first hit me. With us it was like fire meeting gasoline for the first time. So much anger but there was a beauty at first not knowing the reaction. I don't regret us at all. I just regret how I had to end so publicly. I had to make the video telling people the story.

I take a closer look at the picture and giggle, I had plume colour hair at the time. I miss having such mad hair colours but I'm happy being normal. There's a picture of my brother, Caleb, and I in the pool. He is really smart and also works on YouTube but does his channel specialising on revision science maths and that crap.

I pick one up which has been recently added to the collection that covers almost a full wall. Its from Sitcity. It has Chris and the dauntless gang…and me. This shows what life could be like. Being close friends with them because believe me these people are so nice and I feel like im so close to them already. I look closer and laugh noticing Zeke kissing Shauna to Piss lynn off.

"knock knock?" I hear Tobias say walking into the room standing beside me. I hold the picture of the group from SITCITY. I point and Uriah and giggle. Hes looking at Marlene while she smiles at the camera. "I want someone to look at me the way he looks at her. They-"

Four cuts me off by taking the picture out of my hand "you do but you're never looking at the person when they are doing it." He told me pointing at himself in the picture. I blush not noticing it before that moment. A take the picture back from him and pop it place.

"Can I know the real story one day? You and peter…Ive seen the video but I feel like it was more than what you make out."

((Abuse and that stuff so if you find it triggering skip t author note where I've left a bullet point of what happened.))

I sigh knowing that I would have to do it in the end. I sit on my bed cross legged and tapped the spot in front of me. He sits in front of me as I lean down under my bed pulling out an orange Nike shoes box.

"How I cope with bad times in my life is to write it out and put it in the box with all the physical objects that is to do with them times. I don't normally go through them because it like a coffin that I can't part with. Not gonna burn it because it was a part of my life that helped make me." I explained to him putting the box in between us. He nods listening to my every word.

"I met him at a birthday party of a mutual friend. We both got very drunk that night, we were both staying over that house and once thing lead to another and we had sex. It was meant to be a one night stand you see…but I thought I was pregnant about a month later so we started talking again and when we found it was a falls alarm we just because friends. Asked me on dates and kinda just fell in love. I didn't mean for us to fall in love but we did and it was amazing. There's a line I always use for us. Fire meeting gasoline. Dangerous but beautiful. "

I stop to look at Tobias and away from my hands. Her look right into my eyes and take my hands for comfort.

"it was playlist…when it all turned to grey. He wasn't invited as a creator and I was. He couldn't afford tickets so he didn't want me to go with Chris. Then he thought I was leaving because I was sleeping with Will…and he broke my nose. I still went to playlist. I moved out our flat and moved in with chris. One of the days while I was packing he…tried to touch me and make me stay and kinda ripped my jeans trying to get into them…anyways hit him over the head with a Lamp and got out.

Few weeks later I started getting Dms telling me but him cheating on me with underage girls while we were together. Some wanted it others didn't. we all got together and shamed him online. Twitter YouTube. Reported him and now I have a box of all the good bad."

I pushed him the box and he opened it carefully. He looked through photos silently. He sighed shutting the box. He still didn't talk to me as he put the box on the floor. I tap my fingers together anxiously, what if he thinks I'm wrong. Dirty…a slut.

"I'm going to have t tell you about me when I ready…" he said and hugged me tightly. "I can also promise that I'm not a crazy psycho and we should get some sleep."