Chapter 23
Spencer flung the door open before Jamie even had the chance to knock. Jamie smiled her dorkiest smile hoping to distract Spencer from shouting at her.
"Hey bestfriend"
"Try ex-best friend" Spencer snapped.
"Come on Spence I'm sure she'll calm down"
"She won't calm down Jamie, she's a raving homophobe and I had neglected to even tell her you were gay" Spencer was pacing the apartment now while Ashley sat on the sofa trying to avoid eye contact with Kyla.
"I'm sorry hun..I didn't think"
"Yea come on Spence it's not that bad..you never know it may help the situation" Ashley interrupted.
"How?" Spencer was still snapping at everybody.
"Well you will have to tell her that you're gay Spence"
"Why?"
"Erm because otherwise you'll be hiding a huge secret from your family"
"I have nothing to tell them"
Ashley was clearly hurt by this comment because she finally thought that things were going forward between her and Spencer.
"Of course you don't...you should go and convince your mom how straight you are" Ashley threw back at Spencer as she got up and left the room.
"Ash wait" Spencer called but with no conviction.
"You should probably go Spencer..I'll talk to Ashley" Kyla said with a kind smile and a secret look with Jamie. Jamie smiled back and took Spencer by her hand and led her friend out of the apartment.
"That was out of order Spence and you know it" Jamie admitted as Spencer drove them back to her parents house.
"I can't deal with that now Jamie"
Spencer was freaking out and she knew that it had nothing to do with her mom walking in on Jamie and Kyla but because she suddenly realised that if she managed to get things to work with Ashley that she would have to go through dissapointing her mother which she knew would happen. Paula Carlin was not the most accepting person in the world and her only daughter being gay wouldn't be something she would take lightly. She had even stopped talking to Spencer for the whole of the summer a few years ago when she decided to study english instead of training to become a doctor especially when Spencer announced that she was going to study in England. As much as her mother was a judgemental hypocrite Spencer still loved her and hated disappointing her.
"Well you can't just pretend that you and Ashley never happened babe" Jamie held Spencer's hand as she said the last comment as she wanted to let her best friend know that she was having a go at her or trying to upset her.
"I know I just need to clear my head and also calm my mom down"
Spencer pulled into her driveway and took a deep breathe as she exited the car.
"You stay here and I'll be back in a minute" Spencer said with a smile as she closed the car door.
Spencer pushed the door open and searched the house looking for her mom. She found her and her father sat at the dining room table having a chat.
"Hey" Spencer said as she crept around the corner awaiting the full frontal attack of her mother.
"Hey honey" Spencer's dad responded getting up and kissing Spencer on the head.
"Look before you yell at me I just want to say I'm sorry about Jamie and Kyla"
"You mean the two girl's that were canoodling in my kitchen?"
Spencer stifled her laughter at her mother's comment trying not to agitate the situation.
"Yea...they are both really sorry and didn't mean to cause you any offence"
Arthur walked up behind his wife and placed his hand on Paula's shoulder and smiled at Spencer.
"Don't worry honey it's not a big deal it was just a shock for your mother"
Spencer could tell that her father had clearly had words with her mother about the situation which had caused her to calm down.
"Yes Spencer please apologise to your friends I was just shocked and....anyway it doesn't matter" Spencer kissed her mother on her head.
"Thanks Mom...it won't happen again"
"Good...well anyway I need to get to work" Paula grabbed her bag and left the house. Arthur smiled at Spencer and the two started laughing.
"I'm sorry Spence I think your mother may have over reacted slightly"
"You think?" Spencer flopped down on the sofa.
"You ok?"
"Not really I think I've messed up majorly"
"How so?"
"I've met somebody that I really like and I really hurt there feelings"
"What about Holden?"
"We broke up before I came home"
"I'm sorry sweetie what happened and why haven't you told us?"
"He just wasn't right for me and I haven't really had a chance to talk to you guys since I got home..I've been kind of preoccupied"
"With the person that you may have hurt?"
"Yep"
"How you gonna fix it then?"
"I don't think I'm ready to fix it" Spencer dipped her head on to her dads shoulders as she felt her eyes finally stinging from the tears that had been daring the fall for the past few weeks and somewhere deep down she knew that her dad understood exactly what she was talking about but he would never make her tell him until she was ready.
"Well if this person likes you half as much as you like them then I think they'll let you fix it when your ready Spencer"
"You think?"
"Definately and Spencer just so know I love you no matter what"
"Thanks dad"
Spencer left her dad sat on the sofa so that she could tell Jamie that she was safe to set foot in the house again. Spencer so wanted to tell her dad what was going on but knew that he would be there when she was ready but she was sure if Ashley would be.