BPOV: Clear My Head

"AHHHHH!" I jumped up from a deep sleep to see Alice in the doorway to mine and Edward's room screaming. While Alice was screaming, everyone else gathered behind her to see what was wrong. Edward jumped up like me and was watching the scene unfold in front of him. When Alice's screaming fit was okay, she looked weirded out.

"What the HELL! Alice are you on drugs honey. You can tell me, will get you help." I was getting out of bed now, trying to make my way to Alice.

She shook me off when I went to touch her. Instead, she looked between Edward and I. No! She couldn't have found out I didn't say anything...I'm going to kill Edward. Just act cool Bella. Don't say anything. You don't even know if she knows.

"I am certainly not on DRUGS!" She yelled at me, looking very angry.

"Are you sure?" I asked her, which I shouldn't have...she gave me an evil stare down and then not knowing what to do I ran for it. I was practically running like a mad women. I heard Alice screaming behind me and yelling. I ran faster. By now I was out of the house and running to the Volvo. I though I'd give it a try, and thank Cher it was open. I climbed in and locked all the doors. When I was done I looked out the window as Alice was storming over to it. Everyone, including Edward coming up behind her. But giving her space, they were the smart ones not to get on her bad side. She came right up to the backseat window, where I was and put her hands on her hips and lowering herself to look in at me. We stayed like that for a couple of minutes before she knocked on the window and mouthed 'let me in'. Ha, fat chance. I shook my head.

"No." I told her through the window. She didn't look as mad as she did before.

"How long have we been best friends?" I smiled at her, she always knew what to say even if I was scared of her. I unlocked my door and opened it, she stepped back and waited for me.

"Too long. Get in." I left the door open for her to get in and I slid to the other seat. She got in closing the door behind her. She just looked at me, not screaming nothing.

"Go ahead. Yell at me." She started laughing. Why was she laughing.

"Bella, why would I yell at you. I was just mad at you because...you asked me if I was on drugs, and I was still in shock from what I saw." Oops, looks like I over reacted. Again. I'm going to have to stop doing that.

"I ask if your on drugs quite frequently. I thought you were going to rip my head off, and I started running. Which I never do and...wait did you just say you were in shock from what you saw. What did you see?" Was Edward naked and I didn't know or something, she is giving me a heart attack.

"I was coming in to wake you up when I saw...I saw Edward holding you. He had a smile on his face and I was going to go over to him and tell him to get off you. But, I saw you had a smile on your face to. I over reacted, I know I do it a lot. What I don't get is that, when I saw you together. I wanted to go right up to Edward and start screaming. Telling him that he better not hurt you. Your my best friend and he's my brother and I chose to protect you." She was slowly shaking her head as if she thought it was crazy. I was still confused.

"What do you mean try to protect me?" She looked right at me and smiled.

EPOV

I woke up to someone screaming. I opened my eyes to see Bella sitting up in bed, and Alice screaming. Shocker. I sat up and watched as everyone gathered, seeing what was wrong. Bella tried to get up and help Alice. I almost started laughing when Bella asked if Alice was on drugs. Then before I knew what to do Bella left the room, running. I thought she was going to trip on something but she didn't. I watched as Alice started running after her. I got out of bed fast and ran to catch up. I made it to the door with Emmett, Jasper and Rose in time to see Bella climb into my car and lock all the doors. I saw that Emmett, Jasper and Rose were trying to keep straight faces but it wasn't working.

"What are we suppose to do?" I asked from behind them. They all turned around and glared.

"Nothing, unless you want to DIE!" I knew I shouldn't do anything because the person who said this was Rose and you never do anything against Rose...or Alice. But I guess Bella was still asleep when she said what she did. We all stayed were we where and watched the scene play out in front of us.

"My money's on Bella." Emmett said, not turning around.

"Alice." Jasper did the same exact thing.

"Nah, twenty says they both make up with out hitting each other." To my amusement, Rose was in on the deal.

"Does this happen often?" They all nodded.

BPOV

"Meaning that if someone broke your heart I would always protect you. Your like my sister. But I got scarred when I realized that it was my brother that I was protecting you from." She looked sad, and she wanted to cry I could tell.

"So your saying that you don't want me to date your brother?" She nodded. Oh snap.

"I don't want to have to choose between you two. If you ever did go out and he broke your heart. I would kill him. Of course not literally." I wish she wasn't right. But she is, how could I not think that if Edward and I were together it wouldn't affect her. Some best friend I am.

"So that's why you always told me to just tell him. You knew deep down that he didn't want me." She shook her head and started crying.

"No, I knew deep down he did. I just wanted you to tell him so you would be happy. I didn't want you to suffer, but you did. When he left it was like a piece of you broke. I wanted that piece back. You know that Jasper brought Edward to me and told me that Edward thought he was in love with you." She was still crying as she said this and when she finished I was crying with her.

"I told him to take it slow. Not to tell you and jump to conclusions. Maybe I should let him tell you...maybe I should let it happen." Instead of saying anything back, I grabbed her into a hug.

"I know I sound stupid, it's like I want two separate things. I want you to be with Edward to make you happy. But then the other thing I want is for you to stay away from him, because you never know if he might break your heart." She was right. How did I know he wouldn't break my heart.

"You don't sound stupid. You know what you sound like?" She pulled back for a second to look at me.

"What?" She asked puzzled.

"You sound like a best friend. Who doesn't want to see me hurt no matter what. I do the same thing for you. You might not realize it but I watch you and Jasper and I think that if he ever hurt you...I would protect you." It all made sense now, I'm so stupid for not noticing before. I can't be with Edward, as much as I want to. We just can't be.

"Are we having a heart to heart?" She asked still crying in between a couple laughs.

"Ya, I guess we are. Best friends?" We pulled apart, wiping our eyes and smiling. She shook her head.

"What were not best friends?" Was I going crazy.

"Nope...sisters. Were sisters forever and always." I hugged her one last time and we got out of the car. We probably looked like crap, with our red, puffy eyes. But we were still giggling like teenagers. We walked right up to the porch were everyone was waiting, curious. Alice and I looked at each other and smiled, I let go so she can go to Jasper. Without saying anything, I walked past Emmett, Rose and Edward. Up the stairs and straight into the shower. When I put the shower on, I sat on the shower floor and cried. I cried because I was letting go of Edward. I had to. I was in the shower for a long time, because the water started to get cold.

I got out and wrapped a towel around me. I went into my room through on a pair of shorts and an sweater. Then I brushed my hair and laid down, to steady my breathing before I went downstairs. I was only out of the shower ten minutes when I heard a soft knock on my door. I silently prayed it wasn't Edward. I whispered 'come in' hoping the person heard it. Alice opened the door and closed it slowly behind her. She came over to the bed and layed down next to me.

"Hey." She whispered.

"Hi." I whispered back just as she had.

"It's noon, I was thinking of still going to the lake. I asked Rose and she said okay. The boys are going to hang out here and cook some food, play some volleyball." I nodded and she sounded happier.

"You know I thought I would want to tell Jasper what happened between us in the car. Everyone wanted to know, mostly why we were crying. But for some reason I couldn't tell them. All I said was "It's between my sister and I" then I went into the kitchen and has some breakfast." She giggled.

"That's priceless you do know that right. They probably were going crazy. Thinking sister. But no one would bother asking you twice." I giggled along with her.

"Okay come on get up, here's your swimsuit. I'll meet you downstairs in five." She got up, leaving the swimsuit next to me and watched out the door. I changed into it, not even caring what it looked like on. Grabbing my bag and throwing my i-pod in, sunscreen, and my towel. I put on my cover up over my swimsuit and went down stairs. Alice and Rose were waiting by the door for me. Emmett, Jasper and Edward were in the kitchen. I walked right passed them, hoping I wouldn't look at Edward. (I didn't talk about their swimsuits. Or you can say go into detail. But their on my profile if you want to see them!)

"Let's go." I walked passed them and started down the lake path. I heard them follow behind me. We made it to the lake in five minutes it was beautiful. The sun was out, and their were no clouds. I made my way to the dock.

"Do you guys want to go lay on the dock?" The nodded, smiling. I let the go first. We got out on the dock which was pretty far out on the water. We all put our towels down and laid down. I took my cover up off and got my i-pod out off my bag.

"That swimsuit is so retro cute, Bella. You so pull it off." Rose complemented and I told her thank you, before putting my i-pod in my ears and blasting the volume. I closed my eyes. I laid their for a long time thinking about Edward, I was in love with him. But I had to do the right thing by breaking up with him, right. I couldn't ignore Edward for forever but I had to try. I kept thinking about Edward. I hated doing so, because it only made me want him more. I shook off the thoughts and turned my i-pod off. I stood up and went to the edge of the dock. I heard Rose and Alice ask what I was doing. But I didn't reply because that was when I dove into the water. I stayed under neath the water for a while. I thought I heard screams, but I cleared my head and swam. Going to the other side of the lake, which was pretty far. I went under, holding my breath for as long as I could. When I came up, I saw Edward, Emmett and Alice in the water. Swimming to me, was I drowning and I didn't know it. I went under again and I didn't manage to come up for air myself, because I was being pulled.

But I pulled back, only making the person try harder to get me up. I wasn't going to give up until another pair of hands grabbed me and I made my way to the surface. When I hit the air, I took a deep breath. I looked around, and saw Edward, and Emmett still holding me and Alice in front of me looking panicked.

"What was that for?" I asked them all, they looked at me like I was crazy. News flash I'm not the crazy one.

"What do you mean what was that for. What the hell were you doing?" I thought Alice would answer my question but it was Edward, who sounded a mixture of scarred, worried, and angry.

"I was swimming?" After I finished Alice came over and hugged me, I hugged her back. She pulled away and I saw that she was crying. I put a hand on her face.

"Alice, why are you crying?" She was crying harder now.

"Be...Because...y...you...didn't...c...come...up." She was trying to stop, but she just cried harder and I held her while she did. I picked her up, lucky that she was tiny and carried her onto the grass. I did swim pretty far. I still held her when I sat down. I soothed her, while she sat on my lap. I looked over her shoulder to see a frantic Edward and Emmett who looked like someone just got shot. I motioned for them to sit down, and they did. But they never took their eyes off me or Alice.

Alice stopped crying after a couple of minutes. "Why didn't you come up?"

"I did." She shook her head.

"No. You didn't. Rose and I got scarred when you wouldn't answer us. You just got up and walked over to the edge of the dock and dove. You didn't come up for awhile. Then you did and went back down. You were far away by now, I screamed for the guys and jumped in. Why?" She I tell her about Edward and I, that I love him and all I do is think about him.

"I needed to clear my head." She stood up, looking down at me. She looked mad, oh goody.

"You almost kill yourself because you needed to clear your head. I know this is going to sound funny but...ARE YOU ON DRUGS?!" She was right it did sound funny, I laughed. But stopped when no one else did.

"No, I'm not on drugs. I would tell you if I was. Okay. I'm sorry I scarred you, go back to Jasper. He'll be worried about you." She nodded and gave me a hug, she grabbed Emmett to go with her.

"Don't think your off the hook, tonight you, Rose and I. Were having a little chat. Love you." She screamed back to me as she walked away. I sat back down and watched as Alice and Emmett went over to Rose and Jasper. They talked grabbed their things and made their way back to the house. When they were gone behind the trees I laid down on the grass. Looking up at the sky.

"Why would you need to clear your head Bella?" I jumped a little forgetting that Edward was still her with me. He was watching me, never taking his eyes off me.

"It's a long story." I didn't feel like telling him that I didn't want to be with him anymore.

"Tell me. I've got time." He said sternly. I have to do this, don't think about it Bella just do it.

"You wanna know the truth. The truth is I don't love you. I never have. I lied. End of the super long story. I have to go. Just leave me alone." I got up fast enough so that Edward wouldn't have to see the tears I was crying. I walked over to the dock, not looking back. If I looked back I would just end up crying more, if that was even possible. I grabbed my things and made my way to the house. Crying my eyes out.

EPOV

When we heard Alice screaming, I ran faster than I ever did. I knew it had to be Bella. Because if it wasn't Bella would be screaming. I made my way out to were Alice was in the water. Realizing that Bella wasn't on the dock or anywhere I could see. Emmett and I, pulled her up out of water when we reached her. I was scarred, scarred that I lost her. I never wanted to lose her. She talked to Alice who was a ball of nerves. Soon to my shock Bella carried a crying Alice to the grass. They sat there like that for a couple of minutes before Alice got up and yelled at Bella. Soon she was done she pulled Emmett with her. I didn't really even hear a word she was saying, I watched Bella the whole time. She looked beautiful. My mind went crazy though when she said she had to clear her mind.

Was she meaning me. Did she have to think about us. I had to asked her.

"Why would you need to clear your head Bella?" I must have scarred her because she jumped.

"It's a long story." Her sweet voice sounded unsure of something. Like it would bothering her to talk about it.

"Tell me. I've got time." I wanted to know. I had to or it was going to drive me crazy.

"You wanna know the truth. The truth is I don't love you. I never have. I lied. End of the super long story. I have to go. Just leave me alone." Her words burned into be like I was on fire. She didn't mean it, I kept telling myself. She got up and made her way over to get her stuff. She never looked back making her way to the house. I felt something wet on my cheek. I instantly reached up to wipe it away. When I pulled my hand back, I realized I was crying.

AN: I had to do this. I'm sorry. I was almost in tears when I finished EPOV. It will get better though I promise. Remember all the swimsuits and clothing links are on my profile. Review and tell me what you think of my crying chapter. lol. I should have named it that. Enjoy!