I sat in the dark for 17 hours now holding her. Her body was cold and blue, she was still wet and everything was drenched. Alice kept sounding in her head, "Hold on, just hold on Edward we are coming." But it was just a whisper in my head, for 1 thing that kept buzzing in my head that I could not case out. Before "she" died I really truly heard her in my head.

She said "Edward, I truly love you and that is why I want you to live. Live on this world, and show everyone that you can live without me. I know that you can do it, you did it for over 100 years without me, you can do it again. Please, do it for me, show everyone the kind, smart funny person you showed me. I love you, goodbye my angel, you have no idea what you did for me when you came into my life. I will never forget, and I know you won't. I love you, you can't compare one tear to the entire ocean, forget it."

I just cannot believe that she aloud me in her head before she died. After so long of wanting to be in her head, I wish I had not been there. I laughed to myself for a second, her being this cold is how she would have felt if I had changed her. How stupid could I be! I lost her once and promised to never do it again, I broke that promise and I won't blame her if she never forgave me. I could hear that Alice was driving by the way she was pushing the car and I knew that as soon as they pulled in that it would bottom out.

"Edward!" Esme yelled when she flow in the door. Carlisle came over to "her" and looked at her. Esme pulled my head into her arms. "Eddy, I am so sorry so one should have come with you. Trust me no one wanted this to happen, everyone loved her Eddy I knew how much you will miss Bel……"

"Don't say her name!" I snapped at Esme, it was not on propose but a pain shot through my no longer beating heart. Her face was shocked and hurt but she understood. If there was any other time I wish that I could cry it was now. I let out a dry sob and pulled her close to my body and I laid my head on her throat. Everyone stood around the room holding the one they love. Rose was held by Emmett and Alice and Jasper, Esme back off to Carlisle. We stayed like this for a while.

Back in Forks

I stood in front of the love grave. My hands clinched together so mad at myself. The dog pack came down to her funeral and everyone from town was there. Jacob stood back under the shade of a tree. The rain came down and during the funeral everyone but me stood under an umbrella. I was wet and colder then normal, for some reason I realized that when I had her near me I was warmer then everyone else. She warmed my heart and brought out the best in me but now she is gone. I had Viva La Vida by Coldplay in my head for some reason. I heard someone come towards me.

"I am sorry. After I left for a while I realized that you are here and nothing can change that even if I did kill you." His joke fell flat on the ground. He coughed to hide his laughing. "I came back to apologize and I would never think that I would be saying this. Edward I am so sorry for your lose. I no how it burns inside sometimes and I want to help make things better. I want to make a dent in the treaty, we want you to visit at Lapush and your family is well come anytime. We want to be came allies and most of all friends." He looked at me for a while before I turned to answer him.

"We would like that but that is something to take up with Carlisle not me. But thank you for the thought." I shook his hand and walked away, where I was going I did not know but I had to leave to be alone with my thought. As soon as I hit the edge of the forest I took off running, no one would try to stop me. It was my turn to run away for once.

17 Years Later

That is how I ended up in the dark away from everyone. My life was dead and I had to keep my promise. A while ago I stood in front of the Voltora just looking up at them. Ever time I went to kill myself, I could not do it though ever time I heard her last words in my head. I was at a lost so I went into the dark for the rest of my life.