Genres: angst
Warnings/Disclaimers: Very bad language, comic canon
Pairing: SpeedyxAqualad
Rating: pg-13
Summary:Speedy and Aqualad fight overa very dangerous subject.
A/N: This one is depressing. Just so you know. Inspired by 'Home' by Three Days Grace.
I'm never going to be good enough for him. I sit in my bedroom, or on the roof, or hide in the city, but he always finds me. I never used to hide, but then he started talking to me when he was pissed off, and ignoring me the rest of the time. Not a healthy relationship.
He found me today.
"Speedy, what the hell are you doing?"
"What does it look like?"
"Turn off the TV!"
I scowled and looked away from Aqualad, having trouble believing that I once loved this boy. Even wierder, that I still loved him. "Go to hell, gill head."
"Shut up, Harper! I found this in your room, and you better have a damn good explination!" He held up a baggie, and I paled.
"W-what? What were you doing in my room?"
Aqualad snorted and crossed his arms. "No stalling, you lieing son of a bitch! You told us that you were clean!"
I was pissed now. The 'seeing red' sort of pissed. "Fine. You wanna now why I lied? Because of you. You spend every day, every fucking day, screaming at me. And I'm sick of your bullshit! That was the only way I could put up with you!" I was happy to see him wince. It made me happy to see my teammate, my lover, take a step back as the decibel level of my voice grew, and I don't know why.
"R-roy, why didn't you just say something?"
"BECAUSE I COULDN'T! You're so self-rightrous about everything! Just leave me alone!"
We stood, staring at each other. Then he walked away. That day I collected my things and left. I might go back some day; I know Bee's worried about me. But Garth and I...I guess we got into too much too fast. And until I can figure out where we went wrong and how to deal with it, I figure that I'm better off alone.