Mona P.O.V.

I've been quiet and depressed for a long time, I live in a small town where not many people want to know my name. I am scared to let my secret out, it might make me mean but I can't fight in the open. Yes I like girls. First Hanna now Paige, she didn't walk over me like Hanna did. And now Hanna's friend wants Paige just like my debate opponent Spencer Hastings. They don't know but my eyes have been everywhere, I want in on Game Paige. I want to be loved, that's all I ask. I can't eat, I can't sleep, I shouldn't love her but I do. All I have to do is act all better and show up every now and than to stay on her brain. I wrote her letters and small notes just like I'm doing right now. I see everything, I hear everything, I know everything.

I know that you can handle 2 women, but 3 is too much? What do I have to do to get in Paige? Do you think I'm a loser just like everyone else?

I can't help but get angry, I will never forget friday night it was awful. In person I won't do anything I'm harmless, just very smart. I know she will like me when she gives me a chance, and I know just how to do that. I went shopping yesterday, this school day is the perfect time to try it on. The clothes were simple, slightly tomboyish. I wear cargo pants and a sweatshirt with stylish sneakers. If this doesn't scream Emily Fields than I don't know what will.

I slipped the note in her jacket during first period. She took place in front of me, we shared an awkward smile in the beginning of our class. I didn't put a signature I was too scared for that. I told you I'm harmless. The bell rang snapping me out of my thoughts, I made sure to get out of the classroom before her, she has to notice me. "Can you just leave me the fuck alone?" It was Spencer, she was shouting at a guy named Toby if I remember that correctly. It was what I saw yesterday, Paige to the rescue she looked with scary eyes at Toby and he was gone. I wish someone would care to protect me. I secretly watched their hugging. "Are you okay?" She asked with concern on her face. "You have tears in your eyes." I wasn't dreaming she was talking to me, she noticed me and stood right in front of me with the unfriendly face of Spencer. "I'm sorry" I said. She looked at me very confused. "What?" I was to happy with this moment to ruin it and scare her off but I already said to much. "The note, in your pocket." I was embarrassed and unprepared, I was a total mess. There was silence when she reached in her pocket and pulled the note out. She jumped back in schock, creating more space between us. Spencer was shooting daggers at me. I did what I do best, hide. I went to the nearest bathroom. She was fast. She had my wrist before I could even close the door. "It's ok." She stumbled. "But it's not what you think. I'm not handling 2 women. Not at all. Mona, I'm sorry I think I'm messing this up for everyone." She loosend her grip on my wrist, I can go now if I want. Since she's still holding my wrist I stay. She looks really puzzled, I wish I could read this facial expression. "Can't believe you think I could never like you, I always thought I was unlikeable. We have more in common than you think Mona. People think of me in a way I think I'll never understand, I don't do anything special. I shouldn't be popular. I should go to the next class. I see you around. And oh you look very good today, but dress like yourself I barely reconigzed you." With that I was the most confused crying zombie mess to walk on the planet.

"Hey Emily you okay?" I sat down at the only empty spot which happened to be next to her. She looked at me strangely when I remembered I copied her clothing style. Bad move Mona. Maybe it's the best when the truth comes out. "So what do you think of Paige and Spencer? To me they are just the strangest couple." She gasped and kept her gaze on me. "What do you mean?" Oh poor innocent Emily. She will know the deal.

Paige P.O.V.

During lunch period I received a text to meet her at her house. So here I am standing on the Fields porch. I was happy to get out of school. The door was ajar so I walked in straight to her bedroom. Emily was standing at her desk looking through her window.

Her eyes were everywhere but on me, she stands there with folded arms. She glances for a second in my direction when she asked "Spencer?" It's obvious what Emily is talking about. I close my eyes for a moment, knowing I am about to hurt Emily is killing me. "Em ..." I try to change her mind, to let her drop this but she ain't having it. "We can't be half honest. I saw the way you two looked at each other." I was stunned, when? What moment is she talking about? What does she know? If she knew about the kiss she would've said so right? What look when?

"She's just a girl"

I try to test the waters here, I could've said friend it might sound better but is she? Is Spencer just a friend? I looked at her wide-eyed and open mouthed, still standing at the door. I watch Emily carefully, she's trying to not get angry. Carefully I go closer. Emily is looking down not sure if she wants to believe what I'm saying. "What do you mean with Spencer? What do I have to tell you?" "I don't know, what is there to tell? Does something cross your mind or do I have to get Mona on speed dial?" I was surprised with the sharp tone, not knowing what she could possibly be referring to, until she spoke the last words. It all clicked, everything. Maybe not the truth but an exaggerated version but still everything. Maybe even the things that haven't clicked in my mind yet. "I'm gonna kill Mona" I mumbled. I felt betrayed by poor Mona.

"Emily look I don't know what Mona told you but if you're asking me if I'm dating Spencer, no I'm not." I felt guilty for saying that although I'm speaking the truth, I still feel something towards Spencer. Attraction. But it's not the same with Em. It's a connection that we share, all or nothing feeling. Sometimes you meet a certain person and you just know, I can't be just friends with this person. Emily is like that to me. "Just a girl?" She said as she chuckled sarcastically. I groaned in frustration and closed my eyes. "You seem not to be the person I thought you were." My eyes wided when I heard her say that. "What did you say?" "Forget it." She said and turned her back on me. "No." I said softly. "Say it Emily." "She remained silent. "I can be whoever you want me to be Em. I know I'm a confused mess but I will not stop working on myself. I will continue to try to be the best version of myself every single day to make you happy. I want to see you smile. And I want to find out how it feels when you smile back at me, and I can't do that if I let you go now." I sighed. Nothing is helping. I debated in my head what my next move should be. "If you want me to go, I'll go. But I rather stay. Here with you. I am attracted to Spencer yes, and Mona is playing mind games, Emily. I let Spencer kiss me once. I was thinking about you when I was with her." I said quickly, shocked with my own words. "Can't believe I just said that, that's what a boy says when he cheats. I don't think I was doing that. Right?" I was more talking to myself now. I hesitated to move. She didn't move neither. Defeated I headed back to her door. "Maybe I'm wrong to make a deal out of this, but after the locker room the second time that we kissed..." She sighed and finally turned to face me as she continued. "I don't know about you, but it was a feelings changer. In a good way, well that's what I thought." Her eyes were back at the ground.

"I agree, I agree. I'm not sure what Mona told you but it was just one kiss. And I think I'm much wiser now, that's what the kiss was for. You said you saw how we were looking at each other? What did you see?" "I saw you two at the Brew, smiling with your eyes. Which makes Mona pretty believable." "Please don't throw me away, just yet." I walked away with a plan in mind.

Getting to the end, maybe one or two chapters after this. Thank you for reading :)

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