Paige P.O.V.
I sat next to Spencer, we met up before school. Too early if you ask me. Why did I meet up with her 30 minutes before school? I wish first period was about to start so I can do this later. I never loved silence more than now, how longer the silence, less talking. "You can say it you know. Mona was here before you arrived. She did the easy part, now you just have to repeat it." Surprised I turned around dumping my coffee on the ground in the process. I was boiling now. What is Mona her deal? She really needs to back off."I used to date Toby." I knew there was more to him than she was letting on. "But I fell in love with you." Woah what, love? Oh shit. What happened to flirting because I like you and seeing where this will go? No she said love. And I'm here to tell her that I don't want to see her anymore. Or better said I can't bare to see you. Shit. Things won't be the same starting from today on but is it selfish to wish for friendship to come out of this? My brain fully awake remembered that I told Spencer everything myself. "What did Mona tell you?" She took a deep breath and said "She told me you had feelings for me before Emily put her spell on you." All the hurt and anger are about to boil over. Mona is ruining everything, she made Emily hate me yesterday and Spencer today. "So you finally have chosen someone? You have many people chasing you Paige so tell me how long before you run off again with someone else?" "Spencer! Stop it! You know the real me, you do! You totally hated me for it, well I thought you did. And now you know me even better. I'm not this person. That's what I'm trying to deal here with okay?!" Spencer was laughing sarcastically. "Really Paige? Really? You broke 3 hearts in 2 weeks. It's exactly what it is. " "I never wanted to hurt any of you, please believe me Spence." I begged her to believe me while grabbing her arm.
"Do you still love me?" I asked. "What?" "You must know the answer don't you?" My voice was surprisingly soft. She hesitated a moment before answering with an whispered "Yes. I shouldn't but I do. Why does it matter anyway? You're with Fields, right?" "I'm sorry I messed everything up between us Spence. I really am sorry." It weren't my words, I never told Mona this. Spencer thinks I was in love with her and am dating Emily now. Maybe it's good to hate me. Maybe more truth telling is unnecessary.
Spencer P.O.V.
I wonder how much time I'm going to need. It's exiting to know there's an love interest out there, one you keep thinking about when people talk about love. I've been brave and flirty, inside I haven't been able to keep my cool like that. I fell in love before I was even ready or realized it, now that door has been shut. Not because I'm not good enough, I'm not good enough when compared to someone else. She's the problem here, the other woman. I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I'm surprised how surprisingly calm I feel now, it doesn't make sense. She's still sitting next to me, she didn't runaway. I can tell she's hurting as well, but not worse than me. She has someone else to run to. I should be more furious, but I'm not. Not with her. I'm not. I know, this is not headed to a happy ever after ending so I'm allowed to do anything I want to, it can't get more broken and messed up. Can it? All I can think of is the conversation I had with Mona, I wish she didn't tell me anything. She ruined a lot. And Paige is sitting sadly next to me, fighting inside with words.
If being wrong, if doing wrong feels right why not staying wrong? This, whatever this is, shouldn't have happened in this way. I think we can all agree on that. Everything is good as long I have this beautiful woman next to me. Who cares, everything is already fucked up. "Be careful with Mona, she's manipulative and angry. Bad combination." She said as she stood up, standing awkwardly in front of me. She smiled sadly and grabbed my hand she moved forward to press a gentle kiss on my cheeck. I felt my heart swell. "Please tell me." I whisper in her ear, my arms wrapped around her. I feel her attempts to get away, I feel one of her tears passing my cheeck. I know I'm not being fair, but tell me was anything fair? "If you really loved me, you would still love me now. So you can leave her." My cracking voice gives my tears away. "Make it simple, Paige. It can be simple, I know you don't believe me but it's true." She looks at me with scared eyes. This is it, she's stubborn to let go, no one would blame me for trying right? No way Emily would let her go. The look she's giving me really makes me feel stuipid. She looks away, I want to touch her. I want to love. "Love me" I say in an very silent whisper. The embrace ends just in time for first period. She looks at me just a second and she nods. She leaves first, she walks away from me. I remember she's with Emily. With that another tear makes its way down. I brush it off quickly and ran to the nearest bathroom. I text Aria to meet me here, I need a plan I need advice, I need a friend, I need Team Sparia. I try to process this but I don't understand is all I understand. She nodded, did she hear my very silent whisper? Did she answer to that?
I walked towards Emily who was putting some books in her locker. I walked fast and slammed the locker. All morning I practised lines in my head during class and with Aria. Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale. I can't and won't let my attraction towards Paige go. She still hasn't acknowledged that I'm here, but she ain't walking away neither. Is she trying to come up with the right words to cut through my heart like I'm trying to do to her? She turns around arms crossed, the mood slightly changing in her eyes. "About Paige. Do me a favor." She says as she bites her lip and takes a deep breath. "Hands off she's mine." 4 words to leave her mouth that made my brain snap.
I bite my lip and give her one of my best smiles possible. I give her the best one I could manage right now. I try. It's all too much at once. My attraction kept on growing, I even started daydreaming about her. And I see her body every single night. The possibility that Emily sees the same image while she's in bed makes me furious. I snap out of my thoughts and look her straight in the eye. Her eyebrows rise. She gave me a dirty smile in return and walked away.
Game On.