Matt sighed as he entered his apartment. He couldn't believe it. Kari had died once, but it wasn't a total death. She was practically an angel. Not that on a few occasions he hadn't thought that before. Matt shook his head from the thought. Tai would kill him and he was suppose to kill her.

Matt had been in something like Kari. Only, his wasn't so pleasent and easy. Oh no. He had to go through Hell, and Heaven for that matter. He was to bad for Heaven, and to good for Hell. Matt closed his eyes as he remember what happened.

--Flashback--

"I hate you! I hate you more then anything in the world!" A young Matt cried. Tk was to young to remember and Matt was 7, almost 8.

"Matt! You take that back and appoligize to your father right now!" Matt's mother demanded.

"No!" Matt yelled. He turned and stormed from the room. He slammed every door he passed through until he reached his room. He reached under his bed and pulled out a box. In the box was a razer, shinning. It was brand new, Matt had stole it from his fathers' desk. His father had used it to cut up cardboard boxes. For a kid of Matt's age, he knew a lot about cutting and such. Most from movies and access to the internet. He slid the razer into his pocket and left his room. He stormed into the bathroom and locked the door behind him.

"Matt, sweetie. Come out," Matt heard his mother call from the other side of the door.

"Leave him. He just needs some time alone, to cool off. The bathroom is the only room that locks, so I understand how he chose that one," His father said. Matt heard a sob, and the shuffling of feet. His father was leading his mother away from the bathroom.

'How can you?' Matt thought. 'How can you walk away from me when I hurt?'

Matt looked down at the blade before him. He slowly raised an arm, and with the other hand, brought the razer to his skin. He slid the razer up his arm. The pain was there, but he made no noise. He switched the razer to his other hand and did the same to his other arm. Dropping the razer, he lifted his arms and looked at them. Blood ran down his arm and onto the floor. Matt felt dizzy. He leaned against a wall and slowly slid down it, leaving blood in a trail down the wall. Matt felt sleepy as well. He couldn't keep his eyes open. With one final look at the door, to see if anyone was trying to help, his eyes finally slide closed and his body went limp.

Matt saw nothing. He was surrounded by total darkness. It was freezing cold, but Matt didn't seem to notice or feel it. His mind was still closed off. He was barely aware of anything that was going on. He heard voices, voices that were arguing. They sounded so familiar yet so different. The arguing continued, but after awhile stopped. There was a sudden tug on his right arm, then a tug on his left arm. On side lead to a white light, and the other to a red light. The tugging became harder, like both wanted him but knew neither could have him.

"Stop! Stop it!" Matt finally yelled. The tugging stopped and he fell to the ground.

"Very well," A dark voice said. It sent chills down his spine. "But you are Sin!" The way he said sin, it made Matt think of it as a capital letter. A name...

Matt jolted awake. He was in a hospital bed. The only person in the room was Tk. Matt could see the outline of his parents outside the door, talking to the doctor.

"Matt?" Tk's soft voice asked. Matt said nothing but motioned for Tk to climb up. Tk did so and cuddled next to Matt. Matt put one arm around him.

"I'll be fine Tk. Just wait," Matt whispered to reassure his brother.

--End Flashback--

"I lied to Tk that day. I would never be fine again, not that I was to begin with," Matt sighed.

He walked into the kitchen to see a note on the fridge. "Oh course you'll be late. You always are." Matt sighed again and crumpled the note. He threw it away, and looked around. The place was a mess. Dishes stacked up from who knows when, it needed mopped, and the living room. Well, who knew what was growing there!?

Matt opened the fridge and pulled out a soda. Popping it open, he went into his room. He sat down on his bed and set the soda on his nightstand. He placed his head in his hands as he leaned his elbows on his knees.

"I still don't believe it. Kari is Virtue. Oh please, please, just let me be assuming to much. Please say that what she told me was a dream. That Kari is simply Kari." Another sigh escaped his half parted lips. "What are you going to do Matt? You can't kill her, but you have to. Either she dies, or you do. Now that I know it's her, I've one month. That's it! How can I... I can't. But I must... No..."

'Matt, poor, poor, pitiful Matt. You can't hurt innocent Kari, can you? Why not? Because you envy her. She's always happy, free spirited, while you are not. Your shut, and hurt. But it wouldn't be so hard to hurt poor little innocent Kari, if she stopped being innocent and became you.'

"No. I can't make Kari like me. It's not... Kari. No. Kari's to prefect. So innocent, unaware, smart...beautiful..."

Ah, so you won't hurt her because you love her? She means the world to you? Is that it?'

"No! I don't love Kari! Well, I do, but not in that manner. She's...she wouldn't... doesn't like me like that anyway! She can't! Won't! Doesn't!"

'Then make her. Make her fall head over heels for you. If you are going to die, then at least die with Kari.'

"I can't...Won't! Kari deserves better. She needs Tk, not me..."

'Who are you to choose who she needs? Shouldn't she make that choice?'

"I...I can't. Not to Kari... Not... No..."

'What have you got to lose? Sense you can't kill her, you should at least be with her.'

"I...I can't..."

'Can't what, Matt? Can't love her? Can't be with her? Tai is no threat, not if you get Kari to love you back.'