'Pam you're not dying,' Ginger deadpanned out. 'You're having a baby'
The words rung through my ears like alarm bells
'WHAT?' I yelled making sure I had heard her correctly, watching her as she shifted position behind me the mobile device still to her ear.
'You're having a baby' Ginger repeated, (I could hear the disbelief in her tone) 'and by the looks of it. It's coming now'
I hesitated for a few long moments staring at Ginger in the mirror with wide eyes. This was absurd. VAMPIRES COULDN'T REPRODUCE. THEY JUST THEY COULDN'T. I HAD NEVER HEARD OF. CAME ACROSS OR WITNESSED A VAMPIRE PREGNANCY. IT JUST DIDN'T MAKE SENSE. I HAD SO MANY QUESTIONS. WHEN. HOW? (well I knew how) BUT WHY? WHY ME? WHY MEEEE? I HATE CHILDREN. THEY ARE WALKING TEACUPS! I REALLY HATE THEM! WITH THEIR FUCKING CRYING AND RUNNY NOSES. ALWAYS HAD AND ALWAYS FUCKING WOULD WHAT KIND OF FUCKING JOKE WAS GINGER PLAYING ON ME BECAUSE WHATEVER IT WAS. WAS NOT FUNNY. I WAS NOT FUCKING LAUGHING. And. OWWWW!
I wanted to be sick. This was not true. This couldn't have been true. I wasn't pregnant. I would have known, wouldn't I?
'Ginger this isn't fucking funny,' I yelled at her. 'STOP FUCKING AROUND'.
'Look Pam, I know you're in shock' - she said, losing her normally, bubbly, idiotic personality, and turning into a Ginger I had never seen before or met. It was like she was a different person. 'But. You. Are. In. Labour. And whether you like it or not, this baby is coming now'
I gawked at her straight face, feeling my eyes becoming wet 'Ginger' I squeaked pathetically 'It's not. I'm. Not. It can't be… your wrongggggg' - I trailed off straining a laboured breath'
'Pam listen,' - Ginger said sternly, looking me in the eye. 'You are having a baby right now. Now, I've not seen many births in my time, but I delivered my sisters' baby in the back of 'er car and I am telling you, yaw giving birth…' - she said, examining me a second time. 'Now, your four centimetres dilated, and in active Labour. But, don't worry, you've been through the hard part.' Her words smeared out, as I pieced together the puzzle my mind had been trying to solve for months.
The dawn sickness.
The weight gain.
My pink Prada pumps I could not fit into – was due to swollen ankles… and not a prank of Eric's.
The b-negative cravings.
The butterflies.
It all made fucking sense. I had been pregnant and I didn't know. I hadn't known and now I am about to give birth. I was in labour right now.
The liquid from earlier, was my waters breaking.
The pain was contractions.
This baby was coming out now, and it was real. I wasn't dreaming. This was actually happening. Silent tears ran down my face.
'Pam,' I heard the last bit of Ginger's sentence, 'are you listening?' I stared at her once again before nodding mutely. I couldn't do this. I couldn't do this! I can't do this- my mind screamed.
'Ginger,' I shivered, 'I'M SCARED…I DON'T CARE IF WE'RE ARGUING… I WANT ERIC. PLEASE… PLEASE TRY AND GET HIM'- I begged. Ginger nodded, whilst re-dialling his number, and putting the phone back to her ear, desperately continuing to rub my back while I breathed and panted trying to find some ounce of control.
A squeal of relief left Ginger's lips, when she got someone on the other end and I closed my eyes… still panting.
Then I opened them…
Looking down…
And around at the bedsheets…
Then down at my dress.
The fucking blood would never get out of this.
I let out a loud sob, half in mourning because of my Chanel, and half because another contraction shook through my lower frame; I ripped the sheet I had been gripping in my left hand in complete agony. God this was so fucking…human.
'It's okay,' Ginger soothed. 'You're okay…the babies coming out pretty normally and-'
'GINGER…' I groaned interrupting her. 'Shut the fuck up I don't give a fuck about the little monster. THIS BLOOD IS NEVER GONNA COME OUTTA MY DRESS. DON'T YOU GET THAT?' I wailed. Yes, I was crying now.
'IT'S GONNA FUCK RUIN ME. IT'S TAKEN MY BODY. MY FUCKING CHANEL DRESS, AND NOW, IT'S TAKING MY VAGINA! AND I FUCKING HATE IT. I HATE IT. YOU CAN THROW IT TO THE GATORS FOR ALL I CARE. I DON'T FUCK-' I stopped abruptly, feeling nausea claw at me. The taste of bile saturated my taste buds, giving me no choice but to slap a sweaty palm over my mouth as I gagged.
I'm gonna be sick.
I gestured to Ginger in a panic, to pass the vase over from the table by the door. She ran over instantly, running back with the vase; the phone still plastered to her ear. I hadn't even heard what she had been saying to whoever was on the other end of the phone. At that moment though, I didn't care. I snatched the black vase from her, coughing once before throwing up the contents of my stomach in there. When I was done, Ginger took the vase from me, placing it temporally onto the floor before reassuring me I was okay, while continuing to talk on the phone.
'…just get here quickly' I heard her say before hanging up the phone.
'Is he coming?' I moaned- 'is he on his way?' Ginger shook her head no.
'No, but I managed to get through to Alcide. I know you two were close (yeah we were in a relationship for two months) and he's on his way'. I was too far gone in pain to care, and let out a long groan, clinging desperately onto the edge of sanity,
'I've got something left in mah car from when my sister had her baby that can help ease some of the pain,' Ginger said. My head shot up at that, and I caught the reflections of her eyes in the mirror once again.
'Should I go get it?' She queried. I looked at her straight face before her words really sunk in, and nodded my head quickly.
'NO SHIT!' I bleated
She nodded, getting up and then pacing it out of the door and up the stairs. In her absence, the contractions only worsened almost. Almost throwing me over edge. I wanted to rip the little f*** out of me. I didn't care what it cost me. I didn't care if it killed me. I didn't care. I WANTED THE F*** THING OUT THIS INSTANT.
I just needed to be in control, and control was slipping away from me…Fast! It wasn't long before I heard Ginger running back down the stairs. She approached the door, holding something weird-looking in her hands. I stared at the object wide-eyed, before looking at her in silent question.
'This is called gas and air it should help with the-'
'JUST PASS ME THE FUCKING THING GOD DAMN IT!' I yelled. (I didn't care if I was a vampire and didn't need to breathe this seemed like the best option for relief and I was taking it.) Ginger hurried towards me passing over the "Gas and Air". I snatched it greedily off her, fiddling around with it before asking-
'How does it work?'
Ginger knelt down in front of me, placing her hands gently over mine and the object.
'You see this little thing on end right here?' I nodded madly, 'you just gotta breathe… well the best you can, considering your dead, into it okay?' I acknowledged her before placing my mouth over the place she'd shown me, and sucked deep breaths in and out.
The dirty blonde took a seat behind me once again examining me a third time,
'RIGHT PAM' Ginger yelled over my moaning and groaning 'YOUR NOW ALMOST FIVE CENTIMETRES DIALATED. I WANT YOU TO PUSH'
WHAT?!
No no no no no this was not real. This was a nightmare. I was dreaming… that's it Pam… keep telling yourself it's not true… believe the lie and then…
'AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH'
I screamed in a mixture of frustration. Frustration at the fact this was real, and it was happening. I tried blowing desperately in and out of the gas and air.
'I did this. I did this. It's all my fault. It's my fault,' I rambled to Ginger, shaking my head. Ginger looked at me, listening to what I was saying, while continuing to rub my back.
'What's your fault?' she asked, calmly focusing her attention back on my lady parts.
'Eric's with Sookie because of me. He's gonna propose to her because of me and He stopped loving me because of me. He's my best friend I'm useless without him- I let out another yell as another contraction conceded over me making me shake,
'I know Pam…I know but his not important right now. This is and you need to push!' She shouted at me. I was silent for a long moment before nodding and involuntarily boring down into the pit of my womb pushing…I couldn't help it.
I don't know how long I pushed for crying out in agony as I did before ginger suddenly yelled at me to stop. (who the hell did she think she was commanding around)
'I need to examine you again can you lie on your back?' She asked. I didn't answer for a few moments because I didn't know if I could move but when I was sure I could move again I nodded slowly shifting position onto my back leaving the gas and air at the end of the bed and contracting all the way- she had lied about being past the hard part this was getting worse and fucking worse- once I was on my back and prompt up on a pillow more warm liquid gushed around me.
Ginger ran to the end of the bed hoping up onto it so she was position between my legs.
'okay pam your approaching six centimeters and fast. - I made to push again but she stopped me- Don't push' she ordered handing me the gas and air I took it greedily placing it back in my mouth.
'you're not ready yet' she ended
I growled inwardly thinking well you had me pushing twenty minutes ago what had changed? but I remained silent obeying her every word which was odd for me because I hated being commanded around when not by Eric. My mind wondered to the memory of Eric's late vampire sister Nora bossing me around. We had nearly gotten into a fight.
So I waited. And here began hell. The contractions were so frequent and I was tired. So tired. They were so hard to cope with. I was literally falling asleep then waking up with the next wave of pain. It was fucking hell.
'PAM WAKE UP' I heard gingers voice and growled
'Where the fuck is he?' I groaned uncomfortably towards her
Eric pov around half an hour ago…
I pounded into Sookie just reaching a climax when the doorbell went Sookie smiled a cute gappy smile up from her position underneath me when she saw the frustration on my face.
'should we get it or ignore it' she asked still smiling, I buried my head in the croak of her neck smelling her inviting honey blood about to continue (whatever rational thoughts I had about Pam and the doorbell flying out the window)… that was until the bell continued pinging annoyingly. Roaring in irritation I withdrew from her; getting out of the bed before pulling my pants up. I knew full well who it was. It was Alcide. The…Pam's werewolf, but there was something with him I could smell it in his blood…the worry mixed with a need to be somewhere.
Sookie got up gripping the sheets to her naked flesh and peering out of the window,
'Oh' she mussed looking back at me over her shoulder.
'I'll handle it' Sookie said swirling on her heels and then moving towards the door, I heard my phone ping under the bed and grabbed it vamp speed reading the text messages that came up. Ginger.
'Eric your needed back at Fangtasia'
I frowned at the phone and on hearing Alcide's voice at the door,
'Is Eric there?' why had he come for me and not sookie? Something didn't stick right. Before I knew what I was doing or what I planned to say I Had gotten dressed vamp speed; left the room. And flown down the stairs vampire speed to stand behind Sookie, who had the door half way open and was facing the tall muscular. dark heard male known as Alcide. Sookie's ex….and Pam's I growled involuntarily at the thought of Pam being so intimate with someone who wasn't me…Especially who was male she'd sworn off females when she had lost Tara. Alcide was recent competition. But quiet easy to keep up with. He would never be able to fit Pam's needs like I could. He would never be able to keep up with me in the bedroom department and/
'Northman' Alcide acknowledged nodding at Sookie once before his gaze fell on me shaking me from my thoughts.
'Herveaux' I said mirroring his tone of voice 'Can I help you?' I looked to Sookie once who was smiling up at him he looked at her before scowling lightly and looking away. (He couldn't stand her now pam had managed to turn him against her as she'd done with Tara she had that effect on people)
'Yeah Er…I got a call from ginger Earlier and a text asking me to come to Fangtasia she said she couldn't get through to you and that I should come there now I/
'did she say why?' I cut across him Looking at sookie briefly before listening to him continue.
'She said something about Pam but my phone cut off' that caught my attention sharp and I pushed past sookie going out the door and into the cold night. Alcide watched me before following behind.
'Where are you going?' Sookie called from her place in the doorway.
'To Fangtasia' me and Alcide deadpanned in unison Sookie looked at the pair of us before she added
'I'll come with ya'll' before either of us had the chance to object Sookie Had raced down the hallway she was back in two minutes flat, dressed and putting on a trainer while stumbling out of the door.
'Right ya'll well let's go and see what's up' she said confidently walking head held high to the passenger side of the door opening it and getting inside me and the werewolf exchanged looks before Alcide said.
'I'll take the back'
I nodded smirking slightly then got in the driver's seat looking in the rear mirror to make sure everyone was in the car before slamming my door vamp speed and gunning up the engine.
Pam pov present time
'Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck' I burst out demanding gingers hand while I blew into the gas and air. This was getting ridiculous as well as unbearable we had been doing this for almost two hours now quickly approaching three. And still no progress. Just more pain.
Ginger quickly let go of my hand still positioned between my legs and stretched over me carefully to wipe the blood that was running from my Ears and mouth. (the bleeds?) what fucking time was it I looked over at the alarm clock on the table stand (it read 2.30) I groaned in agony my cool eye's summiting to ginger's emerald ones.
'...I can't fucking do this anymore' I huffed pressing my lips together when the pain from a minuet ago seeped me once again.
'I know it's hard sweetheart-ginger buttered me up- but just keep trying to breathe like I told you-
I moaned in discomfort nodding unenthusiastically before breathing into the lifesaving invention ginger had introduced me to around forty minutes ago. The bar maid looked exhausted uncomfortable like she didn't know what else to do and...
WHY THE FUCK WAS THIS MOVING SO SLOWWWWWLLYYY! I wanted to tell her that she could go and rest that i'd be fine (i inew that wasnt true i was far from fine) but that would just be selfish because er. Hello I was fucking dying here I needed her.
'How are you feeling?' ginger asked looking up at me from between my legs. I rose an eyebrow before grimacing in pain.
'Like I'm shitting a watermelon...- I breathed trailing off trying my hardest not to push and gasping as another contraction caught me off guard...
After a few moments I lost my cool.
'...When can I push again?' I whined wriggling in distress. Ginger looked up at me smiling nervously.
'you're seven and a half centimeters dilated you can start pushing again when we reach eight okay? But only push when I tell you to yeah?'
'Uh-huh' I gritted my teeth together then felt my fangs snap down involuntarily on hearing ginger's phone go off 'I cant take that fucking noise'
ginger fished the phone from her pocket with her free hand putting it to her ear a third time.
'Yeah?' She answered. Listened. Then shot me a toothy grin.
'...Okay see you in a few' she said then hanging up.
'His outside the club' I felt more tears well up in my eyes slightly. In relief. PURE RELIEF.
'do you promise?' I asked blowing into the gas and air.
'I promise' ginger said I nodded then continued to heave and pant as she told me. doing this for a few seconds before the pain overwhelmed me and I started to panic but ginger said.
'stay in control. Stay in control' and I grabbed back the rhythm I had of breathing in the gas and air, clinging to the edge of control. (which was hard considering there was still loud music and the sound of the rave booming up above. Someone would have to close up soon)
It wasn't long before I heard multiple footsteps against the concrete stairs and let out a massive cry of relief when I caught sight of Alcide.
'Alcide' Was all I could manage
'Pam?' he burst out stopping dead when he saw the scene in front of him.
'what's happened?' He asked pointly towards ginger I was shaking feeling the worst pains now, thinking about it it felt like exactly what it was, my body contracting to push the little monster out. there was a brief second of silence before he repeated his question and ginger finally cracked.
'Oh for god sake She's having a baby' Ginger yelled multitasking Alcide's eye's fixed on mine instantly.
'What?!' He queried catching my eye I nodded at him quickly taking more out of the gas and air before replying.
'I didn't know. I DIDN'T KNOW I DIDN'T EVEN THINK VAMPIRES COULD...AHHHH' I gasped and panicked It wasn't long before Eric and sookie appeared in the door way stopping behind him I shook my head. NO! No I changed my mind I did not want Eric to see me like this just no no. It felt like my insides were being tightly squeezed then violently shaken and It made me nauseous...fearful.
'what's going on?' Sookie asked towards ginger. Ginger didn't answer instead moving up again and dabbing my now sweating forehead. How the fuck was I sweating?
'Alcide?' Sookie looked to him when ginger wouldn't answer her question Alcide said nothing. Still staring at me I'm guessing in shock. I let out a loud sob sucking in desperate breathes and Eric stepped closer into the room upon seeing my distress.
'Alcide stay where you are' Ginger commanded Alcide remained where he was still staring at me as he had been doing that for ages now 'ALCIDE' she yelled at him snapping him out of his trance.
'DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT IM ASKING YOU TO DO?!' she yelled turning her head to face him he nodded
. 'SOOKIE I NEED YOU TO CLOSE THE CLUB AND GET SOME TOWELS AND HOT WATER...AND SCISSORS- Sookie ran off instantly to do as she was asked- AND ERIC I NEED YOU HERE RIGHT NOW YES?' Eric hesitated his eyes glued to mine before answering.
'ye-yeh?' Eric nodded before coming over to me and taking a seat on the bed next to me we exchanged looks before I looked way sinking into myself from the pain gasping and feeling bloody tears leaving my eyes. I had been told not to push but I couldn't help it, my body was fucking pushing.
'GET HER UP' Ginger ordered to Alcide he acted quickly coming towards me (moving past eric); putting his arms under my arms gently. Telling me to get up and that I was okay. I whimpered and cried out loudly. Placing my hands onto his broad shoulders for balance as he helped me onto my knees. I think he had already figured out what was going on before he had even asked. Alcide had witnessed many births in his thirty years from previous members of his pack. He wasn't stupid and he didn't need ginger to drop the bombshell she had dropped on him a few moments ago. Plus, he was a werewolf he had probably smelt the pregnancy the moment he had stepped into the room.
'You're okay' he said I looked into his brown eyes and they still despite his calm deminour held so so many questions. Confusion and probably every negative emotion in the world. And tried again to stop myself from pushing and realized that I couldn't. It hurt so fucking much, I think I was mooing now. I caught sight of Eric's reflection. He was sat next to ginger behind me getting worried I could sense it I knew when he was panicking I could read him like a book. I knew when Eric Northman was worried. Right now was one those moments yet he still remained completely silent.
And at this point I secretly hated ginger.
'OKAY OKAY PAM YOUR EIGHT CENTIMETRES DIALATED THE BABIES CROWNING I WANT YOU TO PUSH!'
Thank fucking goodness I thought looking over Alcide's shoulder to see sookie running back into the room with the white fluffy towels.
this was so fucked up.
I was a vampire.
Vampires didn't have babies.
They fed and fucked and-
'OWWWWWUUCCHHH!'
I bore down, breathing heavily through my nose. My hole frame tensing up as I cried out in agony digging my nails hard and deep into Alcide's skin. (I was glad he had gotten the message that I was giving birth quicker than Eric because he had acted surprisingly quickly despite the shock of the situation which was what I needed right now)
'IM FUCKING TEARING!" I choked breathing heavily sookie placed the towels onto the bed next to Alcide then ran back out of the door and up the stairs to clear the bar.
'You're not tearing Pam your doing so so well keep going' Ginger reassured me. 'Pam I can see the head' I could practically hear the grin on her face.
I was exhausted my body was exhausted I wanted to quit.
for everything to just stop.
but I knew that wasn't an option.
'IT'S FUCKED UP MY CHANNEL!' I bawled over my pushing, Alcide laughed slightly (and Eric was still silent which scared me I needed to know what he was thinking…I needed to know.
Did he hate me.
Would he leave for good after this?.
Jesus Eric fucking say something.
Do something.)
but whatever the werewolf had been about to say was lost when I groaned over him. stomach churning.
I can't do it ginger- I sobbed loudly- I want it out, please help me!' I whimpered.
'Come on Pam' the werewolf encouraged me ' You know what you have to do. Look at me you know what you have to do don't you? - I nodded heistantly moaning and groaning urging my body to do what it had to. ( I didn't know what to do this was just so abnormal in so many fucking ways)
Pushing the little demon further down the birth canal. everything hurt,
My lungs,
Head,
throat.
EVERYTHING!.
'I thought you'd gone' I groaned sobbing again to alcide probably making little sense but referring to the time he had left for his pack. After the argument we had had. ( I had argued with everyone this past year...literally)
'No. Pam never' Alcide reassured me looking over my shoulder at Eric and ginger I could see the looks Eric was shooting Alcide in the mirror and trust me they weren't good but despite all my discomfort…I secretly liked it.
''uh I'm sorry Alcide - I'm so sorry' I cried boring down again
'No I'm sorry. I'm sorry for leaving pam you were right' he said his vision still fixed with Eric's from what I could see in the mirror.
'you're always right' he added as I continued to push letting out loud groans.
'Look at me. Look at me. You're beautiful. Your brave' I screamed over his praise,
(This wasn't the time)
'DON'T FUCKING PEP TALK ME SHUT UP!' I wailed
( i just wanted Eric! I wanted him to be the one supporting me through this not alcide. I wanted his full attention for once damn it!) hearing another phone going off it was Alcide's. Alcide looked at me and then Eric again.
'Ginger can you'/
'little busy right now' she cut him up 'come on keep pushing pam…Pant with me' and I did as she told me panting with her my eyes catching Eric's in the mirror, I looked at him longingly before focusing back on Alcide.
'Go-go-'I managed continuing with the rhythm pant. Pant. Push. Pant. Pant. Breathe. Pant. Pant. Push. Pant. Pant. Breathe. I FELT LIKE A FUCKING DOG.
'are you kidding? I'm never leaving you again' Alcide stated, another moan of pain. Eric got up off of the bed walking around It to where Alcide was.
'I'll take care of her' He promised the werewolf still staring him in the eyes neither one of them blinking. Alcide held his gaze before looking down at me and then back at Eric, swaying his head in a nod. I reached over for Eric. Grunting and groaning as he took me in his strong comforting hold.
'Eric…' I broke down loudly taking hold of his leather jacket and inhaling more gas and air 'this blood is never gonna come out…and I'm scared, it hurts-
'shhh -Eric soothed wipeing my tears with the pad of his calloused thumb-come on Pam. You know I love you more when your cold and heartless' he said repeating the words he had uttered to me over two/three years ago when he had been about to sacrifice himself to the sun. that did it more tears streamed down my cheeks. as we gazed at each other. There was so much I had to say to him...
'HEADS OUT!' ginger yelled I sighed in blessid relief
'OH THANK GOD'
I cried slumping my head against Eric's rock hard chest in exhaustion. I felt him place a soothing kiss on my sweaty forehead and My hands still tightly crushed his shoulders. "'thank god' I sighed
'don't stop pushing keep going!' ginger called and I did crying out in Pain.
I pushed and pushed and pushed until I was blue in the face. Pushed again and again and again until I heard Ginger call-
'ONE MORE PUSH PAM. BIG ONE!'
And I did the biggest push i could manage. I PUSHED with everything I had in me boreing down into the pit of my womb; screaming while doing so- '
'OHHHHH IT HURTS FUCK GOD IT HURTS SOO BAD!'
And still ridiculously crying rivers.
'OH MY GOD - OH MY GODDDDD, GINGER JUST PLEASE HELP, JUST CUT IT OUT, PLEASSSSEEEE!'
I screeched moving my hands to grip the collar of Eric's shirt and screamed until i could taste blood. The burning was worsening to the extent where I could actually feel the monsters body slipping out of me which to be honest fucking scared me more than anything.
'COME ON PAM PUSHHHH!'
I AM FUCKING PUSHING I thought angrily,
'God no i can't anymore' I groaned in defeat burying my face into the croke of Eric's neck.
'You can Pam push' ginger sang giving me a little nudge.
'Jag jävla driver du självisk tik fitta kommer att fan dränera dig torr när det är över!' I shouted at her in Eric's mother tongue my frustration getting the better of me. I heard Eric's snort of amusement and shut my eyes tightly willing myself through the pain
'Pam suck it up and push this baby out' Ginger said sternly, ( and I did exactly what I was told sucking it up and doing what I had to do)
There was a five second count. Before I bore down one final time feeling like I was having the toughest shit in the world and then felt it slip from me completely. Relief flooded over me.
The pain was gone.
It was fucking over.
THANK FUCK.
The demons wail met my ears and I shut my eyes breathing heavily
'IT'S A BOY!' Ginger choked I could hear the tears in her voice and bit my lip trying to hold back my own this didn't go unnoticed by Eric and I quickly covered it up (no I would not be associated with that. That thing I would not get attached it would not be a weakness)
Sookie suddenly reappeared with hot water and scissors and the werewolf had finished on the phone, Alcide shoved past her running into the room a second time.
'it's a boy' I repeated dryly my small frame shaking my lips juddering from the after shock of the pain just injured as Alcide passed ginger one of the white towels; she took it wrapping up the still bloody and crying infant before cutting its umbilical cord and passing it over to Alcide.
'There you go daddy' she said to the werewolf handing him the squealing child (I saw Eric swallow hard at this. He was angry at me I didn't need a bond to know that. He wouldn't even look me in the eye).
Of course I knew there was no way Alcide could possibly be the father. It had to be Eric. I had been pregnant for nine months yes? And had been with Alcide in that way while I was pregnant. I knew this because I had thought I was hep v and had given it to him.
But I wouldn't say anything to Eric. he fucking deserved to be hurt like he had fucking hurt me. I wanted him to now exactly how I had felt and still felt every time he fucking up and left me weeks at a time.
that time he had joined that authority,
Left with Nora to try and stop the vampire god lillit well billith.
went after sookie, or Nora or Sylvie.
Abandoned me!.
Forget the irrational labored emotions I had felt earlier.
IT WAS MY TURN TO HURT HIM!
AMEN?!
'do you want to hold him?' Alcide asked breaking my thoughts still staring at the whimpering and hiccuping little brat.
'NO' I hissed defensively 'just take it away.' I added trying to catch Eric's eye but the words died in my mouth when I felt a pain similar to the one from two minutes ago I winced on feeling liquid drip down my clumbsy legs my knees shaking and buckling under the pressure. That pressure fron earlier. Ginger frowned then looked back towards my lady parts. Her eyes widening.
'oh my god- she squawked- OH MY GOD! THERE'S ANOTHER ONE!' she yelled 'PAM IT'S TWINS'
NO FUCKING WAY NO! I groaned inwardly
'NO!" I yelled why was god doing this to me. Hadnt he punished me enough. Sookie had finally resurfaced and was now behind Eric. gawking at me. Alcide and then the squalling demon…speechless.
'Okay let's get her onto her back for number two. You must be tired ay Pam?' Ginger tried at some humour,
Damn fucking right I was tired I remained silent feeling that Pain from earlier returning and progressing but worse much worse. Alcide moved off (still carefully holding the child...dark hair, my...it had dark hair Jesus Pam pull yourself together) of the bed and ginger helped me pulling me down so that I was flat on my back. Alcide said something (I don't know what) Before going over to Eric and handing him the baby. Then returned to my side taking my sweating palm in his
.'I-alcide I can't... I'm so tired' I squeaked then let out a long Pain filled groan. My eyes now fixed on Eric who was staring down at the baby his expression unreadable which confused me greatly and made me wonder what he was thinking/
'I'm here pam- look at me your gonna be fine okay? You've done this already; you can do it again' Alcide promised
'Okay. I nodded feeling the contraction claiming me. okay'
...
A few minutes later I was pushing again boreing down, while ginger told me how well I was doing and all that shit from Earlier Sookie and Eric had gone up stairs to the now empty bar to settle the first born demon and the second one was half way out.
I pushed one final time then heard ginger squeal as the second born slipped into her waiting arms. I was shaking all over at the feeling of relief then looking up at a beaming Alcide. Holy shit why was he smiling this wasn't funny.
'IT'S A GIRL' ginger called out smiling but something was different I waited in anticipation expecting to hear the screech as I had heard from baby...demon number one i waitrd and waited but there was no cry. Not a thing.
It was silent a deadly silent.
I looked at Alcide then to ginger.
'Why isn't she crying?' Alcide asked I stared at ginger feeling the last emotion I'd ever expect to feel. Fear. What the fuck. No. No. No. I didn't care what happened to this thing it would be a blessing if it were. No. I couldn't wish that on it. On them. They were...they were -
'Is it alive' I breathed weakly towards ginger shutting the dreadful thought clear from my mind ginger ignored me briefly her working hands cutting the umbilical cord. 'is it dead? is it dead?!' I shouted looking to Alcide. He was silent and waiting now not answering my question. I had so many of them. But why did everyone feel the need to be so quiet!...
'Is she- I tried blinking my own voice sounding off balance and foggy like I was about to fall a sleep or something...
'Is she-
I tried again feeling the remaining blood rush to my head clouding my ear drums, my vision began to blur around the edges, white spots dancing in front of my eyes before her wail meet my ears and then the world turned to a inky black...
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