Chosen~ chapter 3; What matters?
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The quite muscular soldier ran up to me. I try to defend myself but merely failed .I lay pinned on the ground. The man was quite heavy and I gasped for air. I could smell his cheap aftershave and squeaked but my dad just watched from distance.
Did I tell him about the latest events between me and lockdown? Definitely not!
My pulse raced as I caught my breath "Okay okay! Get off me!".
The man smirked and let go of me as he stood straight again. He was taller than me but still not tall as lockdown. He wore a long leather mantle and a pair of sunglasses.
"That was nothing kid, you should be more defensive." He snared as my father nodded.
"Savoy is right princess, lockdown is very strong." My father replied and walked up to us. The training room was white and on the wooden floor laid a big green mattress. To be honest the mattress wasn't comfy at all. Being pinned on just the bare ground would be probably even more comfortable.
"Are you listening Jovis?!" My father frowned and held me by my shoulders as I just nod. Lockdown would never do anything to me. We are 'soulbounded' well, I guess he won't.
And in that moment I realized that I knew like nothing about him, them, the aliens. What if my dad was right? What if he slap me or worse? What if he looses control and rape me?! I am to young for that.
I bit my lip to fight the tears a. I sighed "I understand that but I can't fight an alien". And with that statement I threw the white towel over my shoulder and walked out and took a shower.
That night I couldn't sleep. Haunted by terrible imaginations and possible situations. My eyes were focused on the ceiling as I sigh and closed them. Calm down Jovis, calm down.
I suddenly saw myself on a beautiful flower field, everywhere red flowers mixed with some purple .Maybe poppy, I wasn't sure.I sat there and read a book. In that moment I changed the side I saw that a big shadow towered over me. I wide my eyes and tried to speak but I couldn't.
"Jovis Attinger, it's been a while kid." Said the deep voice sun was so bright that I coulnd't see the face of the stranger.
"Lockdown?" I stuttered confused but an unfamiliar laugh killed that thought.
"No, not at all, I am Unicron." The man sat down on his knees to me and I saw a his pale face with those green eyes. They remind me of my sparkmate.
"You may ask who exactly I am. To be honest, there are a few definitions of me. Some call me eater of worlds or some even compare me to your devil"
Unicron wore no shirt and was really god like muscular but I didn't care. He had black hair,in a small bun. Unicron smirked.
"I chose you!The moment you were born I decided that you are the one who will cross the fate of Lockdown. My brother can do much more things, the good guy stuff but you my 'angel' will create, chaos"
I shook my head "No! Go away!" I snapped as he grabbed my arm and held my chin roughly so I looked into a mirror. I saw a beautiful blonde girl. She was maybe 19 or 20. The combination of her golden hair and blue eyes made her look angelic. Suddenly I saw how the holoform of lockdown hugged her from behind. Had both hands around her waist as he kissed her neck .I was so jealous of her smile. I felt a small pain inside of my chest.
"Oh, who, who is that?" I frown and whisper in trance.
"It's you Jovis," he whispered and chuckled "You at the 20, I saw it in the moment you were born, and knew that you were the right one"
I was stunned and stood up as I walk towards the mirror and touched it "That, that is me?"
Unicron sat back and nods again "You can't fight your fate, or I will destroy humanity."
My eyes widen " What, what do you want from me?"
H sighed and played with flower. He removed with each word a leaf "I don't want anything, you have to keep playing that role, and when I give you instructions. You have to follow them, without questions."
I looked back at him "Is that all?"
"The day will come when you have to kill your father." He whispered and burns the flower in his hand. I was shocked and didn't knew how to react, no!
"No!" I sniff. He was everything what was left for me plus I was taught never do a contract with the devil like 'Faust'.
"Ohh dear, Faust had the decision, you don't. You are born for this fate." He laughed evilly as I suddenly jumped on him and slapped him but he just lifted me off by my throat so I couldn't breath and growled "You listen to me!"
I gasped and fought but it was useless. After all he was a god.
I breathed heavily as I woke up and felt a cold hand on my forehead as I saw him. Lockdown. He looked worried at me and held the hand on my cheek "Jovis, what is wrong?"Now I remembered, he could read my thoughts. I shook my head and tried to find words as he pulled me closed and hugged me, as I just cried my soul out.
-minutes later
He was laying on my bed an I was cuddling to his chest. My eyes still so red because of the crying and with a runny nose. I looked up at him and saw him starring to the ceiling. I remembered how often I was doing the same. Especially when I was confused. With one hand he made circles on my back and to be honest, it felt so good...
"What are you thinking about?" I asked confused as he looked down at me with his green eyes.
"What I will do with you, taking you with me or staying on earth, it has no future, this planet of dirt and water!" He mumbled and sniffed a bit. I turned around and was on my belly now as I stared at him.
"Taking me where?" I asked as he looked around the room. But I guess it was more of he was analyzing the room.
" Around the universe. I am a bounty hunter and that means I have duties out in space." He sighed. I saw in his gaze that he was still confused with this life situation. Maybe he was more the womanizer guy before me, one night stands and never see those females again. Maybe- ' I am just a number'-
"Stop that Jovis, you aren't just a number!" He lifted my chin even more "I just never expected this, but you are my everything and I will learn to get used to it. Come with me. Please." My mouth almost dropped open. Did he just said, please? I chuckled and sat on his belly as I hugged him, he wrapped his arms around my back and shook his head "You think this is funny right?" I just grinned.
"Lockdown, I can't, I can't go now I am still in school for more than 3 years and after that I plan to go on a college... I can't." I looked up at him "I can't be with you close, or sleep with you! I can't go with you away and, I just can't go with you into an official relationship.-.." I whispered as he rolled his eyes and pinned me down "You didn't say I can't do this." He whispered on my lips and leaned in as he kissed my lips tenderly.
I felt how heat waves rushed through my body, I never learned how to kiss really back so I decided to do nothing. But he wasn't pleased with that as he held my face with both hands and kissed me deeply "Kiss me back." He smiled.
With a soft blush on my pale cheeks as I moved my lips on his slowly and kissed him back. It felt surprisingly good, even when his lips were so cold and lifeless. After a while he pulled back and laid down next to me as he looked at me tenderly. It was strange because this gimic doesn't match his attitude at all.
I chuckle "Don't look at me like that"
He groaned as he put both arms behind his head "You females are never satisfied huh? To rough, to soft, you never look at me, to look to much at me."
Well poor lockdown, but I grab his face and kissed him again. "Calm down, don't complain to much." I whispered.
He kissed me softly back "I am not complaining, I will wait for you. Believe me, it will be worth it."
That made me blush like crazy as I fell asleep in his embrace and had no nightmares or anything. I didn't even cry because of the death of my mother. I was just, happy.
1 week later…
I didn't heard from him in days, I didn't fell his presence and it made me feel uncomfortable. With each day it felt like my heart was growing more and more, I wanted to be around him. Kissing his lips or maybe just stay in his arms forever. It was so confusing.
Suddenly I heard a knock on the door as I rushed downstairs and opened the door before my father was even able to get off the couch. " Lockdown." I gasped as his holoform shoved me out of the way and walked towards my father angry.
"He got away! With the Autobots!" He shouted as my father started a heated discussion with him.
I thought about it more and more. I can't shoot my father! I will just not do it! Unicron can go and search himself other humans. Suddenly I realized that both started to whisper as my dad nods to me "Go upstairs Jovis." I didn't answer and walked up the glass stairs. I can't allow myself to do more rebellious things for now, not shortly before I tell him about Lockdown and I. Smiling I sat back on my bed and remembered that night. Why can't it be always like that?
After a while I hear footsteps on the stairs and my door opened as I faced Lockdown. Did he just used the stairs? Is he insane?!
I run up to him and closed the door behind his back as I hugged him around his chest "You can't walk into my room like this!" I mumbled as he didn't hugged me back. I looked up "I missed you handsome."
His emotionless expression stayed as he nodded "Jovis, we need to talk."
Everywhere is still
everything is restless in my heart
I hate the way this feels
suddenly I'm scared to be apart.
I took a step backwards. I watched enough movies, read enough books to know, that is no good statement.
"What is wrong? You didn't miss me as well?" I wide my eyes and he just answered with a sniff. I felt how my heart stopped for a second as I looked down "Did I do something wrong?"
The days are dark when you're not around
the air is getting hard to breathe.
I wish that you would just put me down
I wish that I could go to sleep.
"That rhe only thing you humans are good in is ruining things" He whispered and walked around me. Looking at me from every side intensive.
"If you are taking about the mission with my dad, I am sorry for that it failed again." I whispered and stared at my feet. I compared the pain in my chest to burning alive. When the flames eat every inch of your skin and you die by breathing the smoke. A terrible imagination but, his words were hurting that way.
Loving you is suicide
I Don't know should I go or should I stay?
I'm tryna to keep myself alive
knowing there's a chance it's all too late.
But I heard you say you loved me.
That's the part I can't forget
and I wish that you'd come save me
cause' I'm standing over the edge.
He stops right behind me and took a deep breath "Uou humans are so stupid, so fragile, so pathetic with your stupid excuses."
The pain went deeper and I gasp for air but I wasn't able to speak,what is he doing? "To think I am so weak and fall for you."
I turned around and faced him. I had enough. "Lockdown, don't! Stop it"
I should let you go
tell myself the things I need to hear
but my brain is wired wrong.
That's why i'm loving you when you're not here.
Feels like I drown in your every word
and every breath that's in between.
Somehow you got me where it really hurts
And it's killing every part of me.
He smirked "I won't wait a year, not even a day for you dumb whore." He pressed me to the wall and had his lips so close to mine "I don't want you anymore, you are nothing with your childish body, I don't care. I found a way to break this bound. And if I am some on earth, we will never see again."
My heart was racing in fear, not that I was afraid of him. I was afraid of loosing him. You know that feeling in your throat when you are crying and try to speak? Yes, I was feeling that. Like I was getting no air.
Just a small sentence left my lips "Stop it lockdown. I love you!" And the moment he stopped to move and to talk I was closing my eyes "I know I am not perfect. I am 14 and can give nothing to you."
He cut me off "Yes exactly what you could give to me? What?!" He growled but than chuckled "Nothing. You aren't worthy to be with me, you little piece of organic trash." He let go of me as I fell with my back to the wall down. Laying my head on my knees crying
"You are lying. You told me last week, you will wait, that I matter something to you."
loving you is suicide
and my world's about to break
And I... had as much as I can take
and love is a long way down.
"My crew matters, my ship matter, money as you call it matters. You don't matter anything to me Jovis Attinger. I just hoped for a little fun on earth but like you said, you were to young. I have work to do, have a great life, Jovis."
I didn't remember how long I was sitting in that corner, how often I repeated his words in my head but it hurt so much, that I stared to press my nails into my flesh until it bleed.
My heart broke apart more and more as I were drowning in my ?Don't go…Don't go …don't leave me…
Lockdown
I walked downstairs and held my breath not to…how humans called that again? – not to cry! The Idiot Attinger stood there with crossed arms " you did it?". I sniffed as I nod " yes…I…I did it". I am sorry Jovis…
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Song – suicide from Rihanna
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