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Tris

I don't know why everyone thinks that I'm brave because I'm not. Many people look at me with pity because of the family situations I'm in. Other people smile and say that I'm dealing perfectly with it. But the truth is that isn't easy for me or my brothers or my mom and clearly wasn't easy for my dad. I have a special memory of my childhood. It was Uriah's birthday so all relatives that lived around the country came to our house. I was playing with my brothers and their friends when I got tired and went to get a glass of water to the kitchen. But before I could get in they were two ladies gossiping. Sadly, they were my mother's cousins.

"That girl doesn't belong here"

"I don't know how she can be part of this family"

"I wouldn't dream of it"

Then my father came and heard them too. He asked them politely to leave. Then he said:

"Don't let anyone tell you that you don't belong here because you do. You will always be a Pedrad"

I miss my dad. I know he would know what to do if he was in the situation I am.

When I open the principal door I don't see anyone. I don't hear anyone. No lights are turned on and for a moment I feel better and I manage to get to the bottom of the stairs. But then the door opens.

"…I never thought she would run away, I believed that she would take it calmly. Natalie feels guilty" My mom says and turns the lights on. She quickly sees me then Uriah and Zeke come in and stare at me with pity. That's when I get angry.

"How long did you know this?" I ask no one in particular.

"Since you were little, after your father died. It was hard for me too." My mom answers and I put my hands in fists.

"We found out after you came back from London." Zeke answers for both of my brothers.

"Did you really think that I would take this calmly? I just found out that my biological family lives across the street, that my biological mom knew about me and didn't mind to show up after sixteen years, that my family left me at the front door of some people 'hoping' that they would take care of me and luckily they did. How do you want me to deal with that?" Tears are running down my cheeks and all the bravery that I felt with Tobias this afternoon is gone. My mom is looking at me with sadness and other thing I can't understand on her eyes.

"I can't believe you think that. Tris, Natalie didn't leave you on the front door of the first house she saw. She had reasons, she wanted the best for you! Like every mom does! She-"

"I thought that the best for a family was to stay together no matter how hard the situation is! I know that you wouldn't have abandoned me…Right?" I'm scared of her answer, she is the family I actually love and I don't want to know that she would have left me with strangers.

She sighs and then answers: "I don't know, Tris you-" I go running to my bedroom. And I thought she loved me! I close the door behind me and throw myself on the bed. I can't cry right now but eventually I do.

I promise myself that never would abandon my family.

After hours of crying my eyes out I realize how selfish I was. Maybe Natalie's life wasn't the best when I was born and maybe she wanted the best for me. Maybe she did the right thing. I'm so ashamed of myself, I won't be able to face my mom.

Someone knocks on my door and it opens. Uriah comes in with the Nutella jar and three spoons. He smiles sadly and sits down next to me on my bed. He hands me one spoon and I dig it on the chocolate.

"Why am I such a bad person?" I think my question got him by surprise. Then Zeke comes in and grabs the third spoon.

"You're not" They say at the same time.

"I am, I mean, I said horrible things to mom and now I realize that I'm selfish"

"You have the right to say horrible things but maybe you said them to the wrong person" Zeke says and I nod.

"It's hard for us to know that you another brother out there" Uri whispers and I turn to look at him. I want to cry now. Again

"Are you kidding? You guys are the only brothers I will ever have. I know you guys are the best in this world. I'm glad I'm your little sis" I tell them and kiss their cheeks that are covered with Nutella.

"Talking about big brothers… Where were you?" Zeke asks and I blush. I thought Tobias told him about us.

"I..was with…Christina?" It sounds like a question. They caught me.

"Really? Because she just posted on Instagram that she is spending all the money she had on some fancy boots" Now Uriah is talking.

"Okay, I was with my boyfriend" I mutter and both of them have their eyes wide open.

"Who is he?!"

"We'll kick his butt!"

"He must be a Pansycake!"

"Do we know him?!"

"He is Four. You aren't kicking anyone's butt! He is not a pansycake, Uriah! Of course you know him!" I'm screaming those answers to their faces.

"Four? My best friend?" Zeke is surprised like Uriah.

"Are you angry?"

"I'm glad that is him and not just a random idiot. I'll kick him if he hurts you though" Uri answers and kisses the top of my head.

"I'll kill him" Zeke says and eats a spoon full of chocolate.

"No one will kill anyone but I'm glad you would do that"

They laugh and end the last bit of chocolate that was in the jar.

"Tris?" Zeke asks.

"Yes?"

"You are a…virgin, right?"

I blush and punch him in the arm. Uriah chuckles and turns on the Tv.

For a moment, I appreciate their company and allow myself to believe that we are a family. I know that we are.