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Rose

Going from feeling blissful, to broken to then be where you so long wanted to be to then be under the gaze of your friends disapproval is one big mess of emotion.

Tasha and Eddie still haven't said a word. What I said a few minutes a go was still hanging in the air. It was almost like an echo bouncing off the walls.

I. Kissed. Dimitri.

Kissed.

I closed my eyes as I rested my head against my dresser. I could hear stirring in the room when I heard Tasha clear her throat.

"Tell us what happened Rose"

"I just told you" I said flatly.

"We both know there i more to the story than you just kissed" Tasha voice was firm, "Now tell us"

I sat up running my fingers through my hair. I sniffled drying my nose with the back of my hand. "I had just spoken to Sydney, she was blissful and the evening was going so well, I saw Dimitri was busy talking to my father so I took the moment to sneak outside. I thought some air could clear Dimitri out of my head" I bit the inside of my cheek, "I was sitting outside in the grass by the pond when he suddenly appeared" I took a deep breath closing my eyes. "It's like no matter where I am he will always appear. It's like we're drawn to each other"

I shook my head trying to stay on track, "We spoke and he said we needed to go inside before I get too cold. H helps me up and then suddenly we so painfully close" I stopped remember how good it felt to be so close. "All of a sudden I reach up and I kiss him"

"Just like that?" Eddie asked.

"You would've too if you were there" I grumbled.

"Continue" Tasha said gently. She was sitting on my bed now listening intently.

"All of a sudden he pulls away giving me this look that felt like a slap in the face" I frowned remembering exactly, "I feel like crying so I'm about to leave when he takes me hand, seconds later we're pushed up against a tree kissing the life out of one another"

I bury my face in my hands, "He then pulls away again, he curses under his breath and I feel just how the tears are burning in my eyes. I run towards the stairs and I can hear him coming after me"

Eddie suddenly appears next to me with a glass of water in his hands. I give him a sad smile taking the glass and a sip. I lick my lips before I continue, "I fall on the stairs, but I keep running but he manages to catch up with me and he pulls me into him. We're just standing there, in the middle of the hall, embracing"

I run my fingers through my hair for like the hundred time, "I just keep thinking how messed up everything is. How I can't believe what I've just done and what have just happened. Then all i can think is if this is the first and the last time I'm going to kiss the first man I've ever felt any for I better make the most of it. So I kiss him again"

A sad smile paints Tasha's lips.

"Then I just back away leaving him in the hallway" I finished biting my lip and looking over at my friends.

"And now I feel like I just want to cry" My voice breaks on last word and I bury my face in my hands as the tears pour over. Tasha rushes over and she's kneeling in front of me hugging me tightly.

A knock suddenly taps the door and the door opens. Eddie is quick on his feet to tell who ever it is to leave when Oscar suddenly steps in. "Have you seen R-" he stopps mid sentence. A serious look dresses his face has he takes in me with wet cheeks and bloodshot eyes in Tasha's arms.

He closes the door behind him and steps closer, "What happened?"

I just shake my head and bury my face in Tasha's shoulder. Tasha hushes me as I sob. Oscar looks over towards Eddie who has a pained look on his face.

"She kissed Dimitri" Eddie says.

"You what?" Oscar raises his voice and I can feel his gaze on me. I sit up leaning back in the chair shaking my head still tears in my eyes.

"I already know what you're going to say so just leave it, I think I'm kicking myself enough" I said without meeting Oscars gaze.

I hear him sigh and mumble something. Eddie walks to the door and leaves. Tasha gets up saying she will get me some more water.

Oscar is now kneeling in front of me taking my hands in his, "Are you ok?"

I look down at him, put my lips together and shake my head slowly letting a tear run down my cheek.

His face scrunches up then he reaches up drying away the tear running down my cheek.

"Did he hurt you?" He asked anger flashing in his eyes.

"No!" I said quickly, I sighed deeply and shake my head, "No, not in that way. I-" I exhale, "I just feel awful"

He pulled me in for a tight hug. I rest my head against his shoulder as he slowly strokes my back. We sit like this for a while. Tasha appears again and Oscar nods. "I'm going to go downstairs again, Tasha will tuck you in and we'll talk more in the morning ok?"

I nod.

He turns to leave, "Oscar?"

He looks over his shoulder, "D-don't tell papa" I plead.

"Rose" He sighs as I know he hates keeping things from him. He sees the desperate look on my face, he exhales heavily and he nods. He then turns his back to me and leaves.

Tasha helps me out of my dress and then into bed. She said sleep will do me good which I hope to god she is right about.

I put my head on the pillow and close my eyes. I didn't realised how tired I actually was until I feel a heavy drowsiness shower over me. Within minute I'm asleep.

I blink several times as I'm adjusting to where I am. I still felt tired but I felt so much better. Everything that happened yesterday is still fresh in my mind. I stretch and yawn keeping my head on the pillow.

I feel lighter, I thinking crying last night was exactly what I needed. To relive some pressure. I look up to see if Tasha is here, the room is empty. Something in the corner catches my eye.

Looking over I see a letter on my bedside table that says Rose

I frown as i don't recognise the hand writing. I sit up reaching over grabbing the note, unfolding it I instantly know whom it's from.

Rose,

Firstly I want to apologise for the way i acted last night. I had no right to do what I did.

I hope i didn't hurt you.

I want to say that whatever is between us can never happen. I am engaged and what we have done is inexcusable and wrong on so many levels. This is not right to her and I am not this person I am with you. This can never happen again.

I hope we can still be civilised around one another at upcoming events where we might meet.

Dimitri Belikov

I could feel myself shaking with each word I read. Jumped out of bed I felt like I wanted to scream.

He was sorry for what he did? He didn't fucking do anything, he kissed me! He makes it sound like took my virginity in a public place. And how the fuck is this not right to her? Is it right to do this towards me then?

Grabbing the first glass thing I can see I throw it against the wall making it break in thousands of pieces on the floor. I screamed running my hands through my hair. Looking around for something else, I gran the bowl on one of the tables and violently throw it onto the stone floor.

I walk back and forth in the room shaking with anger. I'm not this person I am when I'm with you? Then who the fuck are you? And be civilised?

"You call this civilised?" I shout at the letter that's still in my hand.

The door flings open, Eddie and Oscar and both out of breath as they have charged through the door. "Rose?" The both frown as they take in the scene in front of them. The broken glass all over the floor and me fuming with anger in the middle of it.

"What happened?" Eddie asked looking at me confused.

"Dimitri fucking happened" I said through my teeth and threw the letter on the floor. I took a deep breath before throwing myself on the bed.

Oscar walks over and picks up the letter. His brows are pulled together as he reads what's on there. "He left you this?"

I sat up holding my knees to my chest, "I found it on my bedside table this morning" I murmured finally calming down.

Oscar handed the letter to Eddie before he walked over and sat down next to me. "You don't have to take this" he said.

I sighed, I was about to defend myself but he cut me off, "Please let me finish. This man keeps flirting with you, he toys with you and he doesn't have the decency to tell you this in person!" He said holding up the letter, "You deserve so much better than this Rose"

I didn't meet his gaze. I didn't want to.

Eddie walked closer, "I know you don't want to hear this but you have to listen to Oscar" he kneeled in front of me, "You deserve so much better than this! You can't let him do this to you and let him get away with it"

"What do you want me to do?" I asked feeling upset again, "Kill him?"

"That could be arranged" Oscar said with venom in his voice, I shot him a glare. Not matter how angry I was with Dimitri I never wanted him dead. Ever!

"What we're trying to say is there is so much better out there for you, all we ask is for you to let him go"

I sighed, "This si not something I can do over night you understand that right?" I asked looking at them both.

They nodded, "All we want is for your to really try to let him go. You don't deserve this" Oscar said holding up the letter, "No one deserves this!"

I nodded in agreement.

"So you'll try?"

I looked Oscar in the eye, "I'll try"

Ibrahim

I could feel myself tense up for every word that I read. My jaw clenched as i finished looking up at Oscar, "What is this and why did she get it?"

He was standing stone faced in front of me, "They kissed last night"

"They did WHAT?" I raised my voice. The paper turned into a ball as I clench up my fist, I hit it hard against the desk.

"Where" I said through my teeth.

"Eddie filled me in and told me outside in the garden during the ball"

I shook my head leaning it back closing my eyes. "Did he force himself on her? Did she try to fight him? Can I kill him? Is he still here?" The questions were shooting out of me like fireworks.

Oscar sighed, "As much as we both kind of want that to be true to give more reason to go after him, we both know that's not what happened"

I exhaled slowly sitting down, burying my face in my hands. "What is she doing?" I don't know if i was asking myself, Oscar or God even. But what is she doing?

"Ibrahim" Oscar said coming closer, "She's in love"

I looked up in him with a glare, I knew as much as he did that it was true but that didn't mean that I have to like it. Groaning I got out of my chair. "So what do we do now?"

"I spoke to her this morning, she is going to try to let this pass and let him go" Oscar said leaning against the desk,

"Try?" I spat.

Oscar shot me a half smile knowing my temper, I cursed under my breath.

"She didn't want me to tell you"

His words surprised me, I spun looking at him, frowning. "Why?"

"I think- I know she feels awful. I think you knowing would only make her feel worse, knowing you would be disappointed"

I closed my eyes and let my head fall to my chest. "My dear, dear girl" I said under my breath.

We were silent for a few minutes, letting the conversation sink in. "So what do you think?" Oscar asked looking studying me.

"I think we keep her busy, there's nothing worse than sitting around when you're broken. Whatever she wants to do we'll do it, as long as it helps"

Oscar nodded along as I spoke.

"It's set, she can come with us to Copenhagen in two weeks for the congress with the King and Queen on Denmark"

"Sounds like a good Idea" Oscar said, "I'll arrange it when we come home"

I nodded as he was about to leave, "Oscar?"

Stopping he turned, facing me "Thank you"

He smiled, "That's what friends are for"

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