Right let's clear some bits up firstly. There is going to be a lot of emotion and angsty stuff happening in this story, it's the way it's planned out. If you don't like it I am in no way forcing you to read this, you chose to read it (: I'm not faced by an opinion and I'm all for constructive criticism, all love stories ain't happy. Some of the greatest stories out there have a lot of heavy elements and stories to them. It attracts us because we can relate.

I can say there will be a sequel to this, but if you feel this is too miserable to read or don't like the way I portray Rose, then don't read it :)

This chap especially will be a lot! Just a warning! xxx

Dimitri

I had been watching her all night.

From the moment those doors opened she had my full attention. Ever since the moment i first laid eyes on her she had always had my full attention. Every time she was in the same room, I could always feel her presence.

It was like I was bound.

Forever bound to a woman I could never have. A woman that I would always itch for, a woman I would want to know better than I knew myself. Knowing that I would never get that, pained me in so many ways, it's hard to comprehend.

Her hair was down and she looked regal as she was center of attention. I tried hard to ignore and never meet her gaze through the evening. I knew it wouldn't work. It never did.

Suddenly Meredith and I were right in front of her and the only way to survive was to act like I didn't care. Like I was over it. I was over her.

Seeing Antoni, one of Europes known bachelors have his hands on her made me cringe. His hand rested way too low on her back and it made me want to go over there and rip him apart.

But I couldn't.

Meredith was glued to me, she was always so polite and well mannered. It hurt me even more knowing what I had already done, and in my head still doing to her. There was no stop to this.

Looking passed Meredith I could see Antoni press himself closer to Rose, have his mouth in her ear as they were swaying back and forth. My fists clenched instantly.

I never wanted to see anyones hands on her. I rather see her alone than to see any man ever get the satisfaction of her touch.

Suddenly seeing her move his arms away from her and walking away made me smile. I never wanted her to hurt but I couldn't help but to feel good knowing that she wasn't falling for his bullshit.

I followed her with my eyes as she found herself talking to That Jessie and Romanov guy again. I was shooting them glares.

Meredith caught my attention. Her hands on my waist. I could see Rose was flustered and annoyed. The second she turned and her eyes instantly feel on us. I placed my hands on Merediths cheeks. I looked her straight in the eye as I leaned down to kiss her.

All I wanted was for her to feel what i felt. To know how horrible it really felt. To hurt.

Rose

The whole room fell quiet, even the music stopped. Opening my eyes I could see Meredith turned staring at me in shock.

My heart was pounding with rage, I turned towards Jessie and Antoni, they were looking at me stunned. My hands were shaking with anger, I lifted my dress and started walking towards the door. I felt a hand grab my wrist, without thinking I spun around and slapped who I noticed was Antoni, right across the face.

"Don't touch me!" I growled. I could feel the tears pooling my eyes. Without a response I quickly turned towards the door. I've had enough of this. "Shut the doors" I snapped to a guard as I walked through them. Hearing them shut I looked around seeing several maids were out in the hall. "Leave" I hissed.

My fists were still clench. I have never been this angry in my life. It felt like I wanted to punch and beat the living soul out of whom ever I could get my hands on.

Men had always eyed me and told me that I looked "Delicious" and at this moment it just made me sick.

In my head all I could see was the way Dimitri looking at me while he planted his sickly disgusting lips on Merediths.

Turning I picked up the nearest vase I could see and threw it with incredible force against the wall. Seeing it crash into thousands of pieces helped. A little. Grabbing another one I threw it across the floor and screamed wish it was something more important. I wished that I was throwing whatever Dimitri had close to a heart. I wish that was what was crashing into a million pieces. Just like he just crushed mine while looking directly into my eyes.

Angry tears had run down my cheeks, I felt the anger making me go numb. Making me feel cold and my knees go weak. I let me chin fall down onto my chest, my knees bent and I slid down onto the floor.

I didn't understand, I couldn't understand how this happened, how I let myself get so deeply involved. How ones heart can completely ignore reason and make your life turn into one burning hell hole.

I was doing my best in holding back tears, I was shaking my head, trying to tell myself not to even dare let me waste another tear on Dimitri Belikov. A sob ripped through my chest, rested one hand on the floor while putting the other one between my teeth, trying to hold whatever I had left in.

"Rose?"

His voice made my head snap up. I knew he was behind me, how I didn't hear him I don't know. But I knew the anger that I just thought had faded was back within a millisecond.

I sniffled, my breathing heavy "Go" I said through my teeth.

I didn't want him here. For once I wanted him as far away as fucking possible. I didn't hear any movement. I clenched my fists again, I push myself up in a swift movement turning towards him, "Will you for once just fucking listen to me?" I shouted, "Will you just fucking leave?"

Tears filled my eyes again, "Just go" my voice cracked. I shook my head closing my eyes, I didn't want to cry, never in front o him. I didn't want to give him the satisfaction.

Hearing footsteps I looked up he was taking steps towards me, I shook my head taking steps back. "No" I said.

He had determination written on his face. "No" I said as he got closer, he tried to take my hand but I pulled my hands away but his reflexes were like a snakes as he suddenly has both my wrists in a tight grip.

"No!" I shouted, "You don't get to touch me" I hissed through my teeth trying to pull myself free."You don't get that privilege, you lost it when you kissed me by the docks!" I said venom dripping from my voice.

"Will you stop fighting me?" He said through his teeth. His jaw was tight, body rigid and I could see he was trying hard to control himself.

I stopped fighting looking him straight in the eye, "Why don't you just let me go and go back to your beloved fiancé?" I growled.

He closed his eyes, I could see his jaw working and he exhaled heavily, "She has nothing to do with this" He growled lowly.

"She has everything to do with this!" I spat, I tugged hard at my hands and his grip loosened and I moved away. "Ever since you dance with me all night, flirted with me and made me think that you liked me she has had everything to do with this" I said fiercely, "Ever since i found out from my father, not you, my father, that you were engaged?" I said the word engaged like it was a disease. "Ever since you kissed me in Amsterdam, she has always mattered" I hissed.

He was just staring at me with a grim look on his face, his eyes were dark.

"How could you do this to me?" I was staring at him with disbelief.

"Do what?" He said like I was crazy, "What did I ever do to you?"

"What didn't you do?" I shouted back, "You invited me in, you-you kissed me, you made me fall for you!"

When i said fall for you his face changed. It was like he looked confused and sad at the same time.

"You made me suffer" I continued, You made me-"

"How did I ever make you suffer?" He growled.

"You toy with me like I'm not worth more than a second hand fucking sweater. You tell me I make you do things you wouldn't do. You make me sounds like a fucking whore in a letter that completely crushed me!" I could feel tears fall again.

He reaches forward to touch me but I react quick and push him back, "Don't touch me! You've lost any fucking right to ever come near me again Dimitri Belikov! The way you were looking at me, that way you kissed her and looked me right in the eye" My hands were shaking and angry tears were coming, "How dare you?"

"And you don't think it's hard to see you?" He shouted, "You don't think it's it pains me to see you wear all these dresses that make every male eye in the room stare at you. You don't think it fucking stings to see you with five different guys in one fucking night? You don't think that hurts?"

"I have a right to be with who ever I want because I belong to no one, You made me believe that you wanted me you made me believe that we could go somewhere. You didn't even have the balls to tell me you had a fucking fiancé!" I yelled, "You think I wear this because I want half a room undressing me with their eyes?" I hold up the skirt of my dress.

"I wear this to torture you, I wear this because I want you to hurt at least half as much as you've made me hurt" I said letting tears run down my cheeks, "It's a fucking ever ending circle with you! You kiss me, tell me then you don't want me and then try to take me back again? I don't think so-"

"So you run to as many men as possible, only to get over me, that makes me feel so flattered" he snapped glaring at me.

"Don't even dare to make me feel guilty, Ugh!" I groaned, "It's like you don't even have a heart Dimitri!"

"You know nothing of my heart!" He growled stepping up to me, he was towering over me. "You might think you're so fucking smart and that you have me all figured out but you know nothing"

"Oh please" I huffed, "If you had a heart everything I said by the docks in Copenhagen would've made you hate me, it would've made you scream and shout at me. If ever a little ounce in your body cared about me it would've-"

"ENOUGH!" he roared, "Everything you said on that bridge were your words, not mine. Everything I've ever done is to give in to whatever my body wanted. The worst thing I've ever done is what I've done to Meredith. What we're doing might be hurting us but can you even imagine what this could do to her?"

"I don't fucking care about her!" I shouted, "But that's all you do, all you do is care about everyone else but me, it's like you light the fucking fire and throw me in it" I turn away from him and scream on top of my lungs in frustration. I couldn't believe what he was saying. He was saying she felt more pain than me? He was saying that her feelings were more important than mine? Grabbing a bowl off a table I throw his way with as much force that was in me.

"Do you even know how I feel?" I screamed my voice breaking, "It's like I die every time I see you, every time you kiss me you take another piece of me and crush it to fucking nothing!But seeing you in there ,seeing you with her, seeing you kiss her? It was like you just fucking pierced me with a knife watching me smiling while I turn into nothing!" i screamed, I walked straight up to him, "You're nothing but a selfish, disgusting, arrogant asshole-"

"ROSEMARIE!" My fathers voice boomed through the halls.

Both out bodies flipped around seeing my father standing in the big doorway to the ball room with a fiery anger all over his face. His eyes were straight on me. My cheeks were wet and my throat were soar from screaming.

"Go" He hissed through his teeth pointing towards the stairs.

I feel like he's just taken the opposite side, "B-b-but" I feel tears well up in my eyes. the look he's shooting me shuts me straight up. I shake me head feeling my hands shake.

I rush past Dimitri hurrying to the stairs. I can hear Eddie's voice calling out after me but I hurry down the hall to my room. I fling the door open, shut and lock it as quickly as I can.

It feels like the all air has been knocked straight out of me. I gasp for air as the sobs rip through my chest. I fall to my knees, my hands on the cold floor. Tears are gushing down my cheeks. I scream on top of my lungs releasing whatever strength and anger I have left.

Collapsing on the floor I stare out the big windows. Tears silently fall down towards my temple.

I hear knocks against my door and several different voices saying my name, asking if I'm ok. I shut them all out. With time I fall into a deep dreamless sleep. The first release from my painful life in a very long time.

A small D POV, there shall be more I promise.

Sorry I left you with a cliff hanger, I just looove a good cliffhanger hehe, but I didn't want leave you hanging for too long ;)

Have a good week all xxx