NOTES:
Okay, turns out I need a little more faith in myself. Here's another (SHORT) chapter for you - it's not meant to be angsty, but doubtlessly it will be.
Lyrics from "real Emotion" from Final Fantasy X-2. I don't like the game too much - but, c'mon. It's a good track. (It needed MUCH BETTER acoustics, though. The sound is muffled as as hell.) This stage is gonna flip between Present and Future, so keep up :)
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The sun shone above Inaba, sparkling and jumping off the river bank on the fine sunday (winter) morning. The wind chill was strong, but so was the sun, the heat and cold balancing eachother out. Their hair was ruffling slightly in the wind as they sat by the riverbank, looking out on the river, laughing at the sky, it's clarity, and it's purity.
What can I do for you?
They sat there, together, talking about the team, about their other friends.
"And have you noticed how much happier Kou's been lately?"
"What do you want me to say? He's... finally getting over what happened. You know, with his family."
"...Yeah... I remember you telling me about that."
"You breathed a word?"
"Not to a soul."
What can I do for you? (What am I?)
What can I do for you? (What am I doing?)
What can I do for you? (Isn't that what I wanted?)
I can't hear you (And why am I still thinking about it?)
"I'm glad. I know I can trust you, Yosuke."
"I know I can trust you too, partner."
They sat there, in the wind, under just burning skies, fading to blue. Souji had invited Yosuke down to the riverbank to chill out. Social links meant little, now, and all he had to do was enjoy the burning embers of the year, spending it with the people he liked the most.
"Hey, how's Naoto?"
"Still shy. She's still not admitting that she likes him directly. But she's starting to get more confident. Kanji?"
"Getting confortable, actually. Heck, I don't even mind the jokey flirting anymore."
Far beyond the crazy borders of my heart, (Where I never imagined, never thought, never saw...)
I could see a place, that's something like this (A place where I could be happy, where I could have peace...)
Every now and then I don't know what to do (How do I get there, How do I survive?)
Still I know that I can never go back (Because everythings falling apart)
(...and it's my fault. Again.)
Souji looked at Yosuke curiously, the throughts churning in his mind.
"You... don't mind it?"
Yosuke sat there, pondering. "Well, I'm not sure I minded it in the first place. I mean, it was like... connection."
"Connection?"
"My Shadow was the part of me that I didn't want to accept and no one else wanted to know about... as was Yukiko and Kanji..."
Souji's eyebrows raised in enlightenment. "So you thought Kanji's Shadow was what was unnacceptable about him."
"I know. Dumb logic, right?"
"No, no, it makes sense. What made you change your mind?"
"...Naoto's Shadow."
"...Naoto?"
"It was then I realised that... Shadows, or ours at least... they're almost... cries for help, in a way. They're screams of what we really want, who we really want to be..."
"What you really want to say?"
"...Well, yeah."
"...Well... if Shadows are the things that we really want to say..."
But the things I've seen (What I want? Or what I need?)
In those hazy dreams (Who I am? Who I'm not?)
Can't compare to what I'm seeing now (What I hate? Or not hate?)
Everything's so different (My life has changed, my soul has changed)
That it brings me to my knees (My legs feel like dead weight, and I... and I...)
"Partner?" Yosuke turned to face him.
"I... I have something I've been meaning to say for a while now."
They both shifted unconfortably.
"Well, the... er... the thing is... ah... will you go out with me?"
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And though I know (Becuase it feels so real, the air, the voice)
The world of real Emotion has surrounded me (What will they think?)
I won't give in to it (I want to but I can't)
Now I know that forward is the only way my heart can go (There's no way back, but no way forward)
I hear your voice reaching out to me (Reach harder, partner...)
You'll never be alone
Souji's voice entered the white noise of his feelings, not quite breaking through, Yosuke feeling the breaths draw in and out of him, in and out in and out in and out
The energy building, building, not exploding because he can't let it out but he has to, wants to, he's buring with it...
(What can I do for you?)
He hears Souji's apologies, sees his hurt smile, but feels trapped, can't escape, can't do anything but offer a friendly smile, and he's breaking, he can hear Souji asking if they're still friends, and he nods even though they're more except they're not-
(What can I do for you?)
He wants to shout, he wants to scream, hearing the voices shout over and around eachother- "yes""no""yes""no""yes""no""yes"
(What can I do for you?)
And he shouts, "I love you!"
And no-one hears.
(I can't hear you...)