WARNING: CHAPTER CONTAINS SEXUAL CONTENT. If you don't wish to read the scene, I have put up in bold letters where it ends and begins. Rating has been changed for this purpose.

Chapter 19~Learn to Be Lonely

"So Lucy, where were you all night?" Rose asked the next morning when Lucy returned.

"I staid with Caspian," she grinned.

"You didn't…"

"Oh no, I told him I want to wait until marriage for that."

"Good girl."

"Were you alright? Valdis didn't try anything did he?"

"He would have, but Edmund and I were up late talking so he didn't."

"Good. What were you talking about for so long?"

"Just the days events, when he thinks we're going to Narnia, things like that."

"I assume he's still oblivious to your feelings about him?"

"Completely, thank Aslan."

"Why is that a good thing?"

"Because I don't want to be rejected, thankyou very much."

"Rose, I know Edmund. I know he'd most likely reject you at first, but come to his senses after a while."

"I doubt it. I doubt he even has feelings for me. Why would he?"

"Because you're different."

"Thanks," Rose said sarcastically.

"That's not how I meant it. Girls who care about dresses and gossip-like Vera, for example, have never flattered Edmund. He's always been attracted to the witty, intelligent women who aren't afraid to argue with a king, or wield a sword."

"Even so, I doubt he thinks of me in the same way I think of him."

"I like to think otherwise." Rose sighed and said,

"I'm going to get some breakfast." She left the room and made her way to the private dining room, where, to her surprise, Edmund already sat. When he saw her, he instantly looked to the floor to hide his red cheeks, and Rose knew.

"How much did you hear?"

"Enough," he sighed, not bothering to lie. "The harder I tried not to listen, the more I heard. It's not my fault the walls are so thin."

"I'm sorry," Rose said meekly. She sank into a chair and Edmund knelt down next to her.

"Don't apologize, you can't help what you feel."

"Can you?"

"No, I can't. But I can stop letting anything come from it."

"I see."

"It has nothing to do with you, love. I made a promise long ago that would be wrong to break."

"Edmund, you know deep in your heart this has nothing to do with promises. You're scared, and that's all it is."

"Excuse me?"

"You heard me! You're frightened of what could happen! You're always so busy worrying about the future and regretting the past that you never have time to live in the present. If you did, you'd see that's all that matters. You'd see that no one can predict the future, and no one can change the past, so it's pointless to think about! But here you are, using both as an excuse to deny your own happiness." A few seconds passes, and Rose covered her mouth with her hand. "Oh Ed, I'm so sorry, I didn't realize what I was saying…I didn't mean it, please—"

"It's ok," Edmund chuckled. 'Aslan she's adorable when she's flustered…no Edmund, don't think like that!'

"I understand if you don't want to be around me anymore."

"I don't want to do anything of the sort as long as you promise not to avoid me."

"I promise."

"Good."

Outside the room, Caspian and Lucy were debating on whether or not they should tell Peter what they had heard.

"He'll chastise us for eavesdropping," Lucy pointed out.

"We weren't eavesdropping…we just happened to hear all they were saying."

"Fine, we'll tell Peter. But we should go eat first, I have a feeling it might cut the tension.

The next month was drastically different from others that had passed in Archenland. Jacinda, as promised, never left her room, so the Narnians were free to talk to Nain and Rama whenever they wished. Vera had a room in the servant corridors, which meant she rarely got the chance to find Edmund. He was not at all disappointed about this, but he was rather forlorn about the situation between him and Rose. She may have promised him she wouldn't avoid him, but she was definitely going back on her word. Most days Rose could be found wandering alone, thinking or humming quietly to herself. Rama, Peter and Caspian often found Valdis trailing her, an action that wasn't a good omen to them. There wasn't much any of them could do, however, for Rose always wanted to be alone. She didn't mind being with Lucy, Caspian, Peter or Rama, but she knew if she was around them, then she would most likely be around Edmund as well.

Lucy wasn't oblivious to Rose's renewed habits, either. She would miss Rose many a night, but Rose always reassured her that she still had her virginity, so Lucy didn't make a big deal of it. It was Rose's life, and so Rose had her own mistakes to make.

Edmund found himself becoming jealous of any man he saw Rose with, whether he was a servant, a guest, or even a Duke at one point. Peter knew the look in Edmund's eyes when he saw these interactions, and so one March night he beckoned Edmund into his room.

"You called?"

"Yes, I wanted to speak with you. It's about Rose."

"What about her?"

"Well, for one thing I know she told you how she feels. And I know how you responded. What I want to know is why you keep pushing her away when you're clearly jealous of any man she is with."

"I'm not jealous."

"You may be well versed in hiding your emotions, Edmund, but you are my brother. I know you well, and I can tell."

"Fine, I'm jealous. But she seems to be happy, so I don't want to interfere."

"Happy? Ed, the poor girl cries for half the day and tries to make herself feel loved the rest of it. It's obvious she doesn't have feelings for any of these men."

"I beg to differ."

"Lucy, Caspian and Rama all agree with me."

"Good for them."

"Ed, I'm worried about you. And Rose."

"Worried? I'm 21; I can take care of myself. And Rose is more independent than Lucy, I'm sure she's fine."

"How long has it been since the two of you have talked?"

"About a week."

"See? This isn't natural. The two of you used to be inseparable."

"Used to be. We aren't anymore, so why are you worried?"

"For one thing Valdis has been following her."

"What?"

"Ah, so you do still care about her."

"Of course I still care about her, I'm just disappointed in her, that's all. Now what's this about Valdis?" As if on cue, Lucy came bursting into the room, panting and looking frightened.

"What's up, Lu?" Peter asked. "You look like you've seen a ghost!"

"Worse—Valdis—angry—muttering Rose's name—wants to…"

"Stay here," Peter ordered. "Let's go, Ed." Lucy collapsed onto Peter's bed and the two brothers split up.

"Please Aslan, don't let him hurt her," Edmund prayed quietly to himself.

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Rose knew she should go back inside as it was nearly midnight, but she couldn't draw herself away from the peaceful night she was standing in. March was her favorite month for this very reason—Rose loved being outside at night with the snow falling gently around her. It was always so silent—more silent than anything she ever heard, and Rose loved the stillness of it.

"Silent night," she sang quietly. "Holy night, all is calm, all is br-mmm!" A large hand placed itself over her mouth.

"Hello angel." Valdis spun Rose around so they were facing each other, and he gripped her arms so tightly she could barely move.

"Get off of me!" Rose said, trying to squirm away from Valdis' grip to no avail.

"Why would I want to do that, angel? I've wanted you for three years now and I'm finally going to have my way. How does that feel?

"No one says no to me, and no one tricks me either. Consider this your payment for fooling me." Rose instantly regretted pretending to like Valdis again as he pinned her to the ground and crashed his mouth against hers.

WARNING: RAPE SCENE

"S-so c-cold," Rose stuttered once Valdis had torn her clothing away from her. Valdis roamed her body with his eyes, a look of pure greed issuing from them.

"Go away," Rose said meekly, and Valdis just grinned wickedly. He shed his own clothes and said,

"Come now, angel, where's that fire that makes you so appealing?"

"You quenched it," she answered through gritted teeth.

"No matter—I have you right where I want you." He pressed his mouth against hers and began to run his hands over her body.

Now, Rose had been with many men, but she had never been naked in front of one before. Her many escapades were strictly kissing, and maybe some hand action. As it was, she did not want her first time to be with Valdis, so once again she began to struggle violently. Valdis slapped her face and said,

"Stop!" Rose did no such thing until Valdis bit hard on one of her breasts. She instantly stopped moving so the pain wouldn't continue. "Like that do you?" Valdis asked mockingly, and he started handling her breasts roughly. They were large, which pleased him because not only were they nice to look at, but he could inflict more pain upon her, which he did. He'd squeeze then hard, or bite them, or lick them—do anything he enjoyed but she did not. Soon he got tired of this, however, and decided it was time for him to have some fun.

"Open your mouth," he commanded. Rose obeyed reluctantly since she knew the consequences if she did not. She felt Valdis' erect penis enter her mouth and she felt him wrap his legs around her.

"Suck," he hissed. Had her mouth not been full, Valdis would have heard a small sob issue from her. Instead, Rose began to do what she was told. She could hear Valdis' moans of pleasure as she ran her tongue along his penis, and after a while she felt a gummy liquid issue from him and into her mouth.

"Swallow." Though Rose dearly wanted to spit his cum back in his face, she forced it down her throat and Valdis smiled wickedly. "Having fun yet?" he asked as he moved back down her body.

"You disgust me," Rose spat.

"You might not want to talk to me like that, angel," Valdis said, and wrapped a few pieces of her pubic hair around his fingers. "I have all the power now." He pulled, and Rose whimpered. Valdis just laughed. He untwined the hair around his three fingers, and after they were free he drove them up her vagina. Valdis didn't miss her silent tears, and so he began twisting his fingers around inside of her.

After what seemed like eternity, Rose felt him withdraw his fingers, but the comfort didn't last.

"I told you I always get what I want." With those words Valdis shoved his penis into her, and Rose cried out in pain. He relished in her misery, and continued to ram himself up her vagina time after time.

ATTENTION: END RAPE SCENE

Finally, when Rose didn't think she could take anymore, Valdis stood up. He dressed himself, and kicked her limp body.

"I hope you've learned your lesson," he sneered, and turned around to walk away. Instead he was met with a fist in his face.

Sorry about the content, but I think it's necessary for later chapters. Hope you all enjoyed it anyway, and please tell me what you think!!