Ichigo dropped the change into the receiver on the bus and pulled him and Rukia to the very back, though she had asked where they were going he gave no reply and just told her that it's where he had found the answers to his problems.

Ichigo awoke his beautiful vixen when the bus came to their stop and dragged her off, the half woke, half sleep Shinigami, laid on Ichigo as they began to move off the bus. Rukia looked around and couldn't believe her eyes.

Here they were, the place were they had finally become each others, ( Note: you won't understand this if you didn't read Love & Rukia ) where they had confessed their love, here they were at the beach.

Rukia turned around, and looked up at Ichigo, who seemed to be starring at her neck, 'So he finally noticed' Rukia said to herself as she watched Ichigo lean down and touch the necklace with the tips of his fingers.

"I can't believe," Ichigo stuttered "how long have you been wearing this" he asked looking at the necklace from the day he caught her cheating. "I've been wearing it since the day we broke up" and with that said, Ichigo leaned down and captured her lips, he didn't know what about that fact, infected him so much, but he knew it had something to do with loyalty, it was a way of saying that she was still his, even though they had gone their separate ways.

Rukia wrapped her hands around his neck, pulling him down furthering their kiss, she just couldn't stop kissing him, it was like an drug, an addiction, she had stayed away from for five weeks, until she found that it would be her last time using it, and so she was inhaling ever scent, taking in as much as she can, without passing out from it's excitement, and unlike most people she wasn't afraid to overdose, as a matter of fact she wanted too. It was her personal drug, her paramour.

"Rukia" Ichigo said in-between their kisses "There's something I want to say" Rukia stopped and looked up at Ichigo as she backed away from him and starred at him again. "Where we are, where we stand, means so much to me, that I wanted you to understand my feelings for you." Ichigo said looking away from her as he continued "I know that I can be a jerk sometimes, and on most occasions I'm wrong, You deserve better then me so much better, and I can't help but think that theirs some guy out there that will take you way from me. So I'm sorry for being possessive, and I can't tell you how I feel all the time, that's why I chose to show you as much as I can. I just hope you understand, that I love you with all my heart and if you will have me, if you want me there I will be there even if you don't, because I'm not only your boyfriend but your bestfriend and I want to be there for you, and one day marry you, and I know it sounds scary but, I know I'm ready for this, to finally love you no questions asked, that is If you will have me" Ichigo said turning back to Rukia, who smiled at him and said…

"Though most of that is true" she said giggling "That's what I love about you, how you try to cover up being nice by doing something jerkish, how you don't have to say words to tell me how you feel, how I'm the only one you let hold you, and I take the possessiveness as a compliment, too want me so much that you'd hold me so close to you, that no other guy would dare love me the way that you do, and I will want nothing but to marry you one day, I just hope that when that time comes, you will have me"

"Always and forever" Ichigo said as he leaned down and sealed it with an kiss "Now lets get going, it's getting pretty chilly, and I want my midget, nice and thawed when I show her how much I love her tonight" Rukia was looking forward to Ichigo's comment, because she had the perfect way to get things heated up.

The bus ride home was full of secretive touches and kisses, and even the walk home, wasn't so innocent. Rukia and Ichigo walked straight through the front door knowing Ichigo's family wasn't home, thanks to aunt hiteakae, but before Rukia could say anything, she was thrown up against wall and here began the most sacred night of her life she only had these remaining moments and she was going to cherish them.

Lemon Starts Here

Ichigo pushed Rukia up against the wall, in his living room, and smashed his lips to hers, he began nibbling and biting on her bottom lip, asking for entrance which started an all out battle for dominance. If it was league for the way they were kissing each other, they'd definitely win, Rukia stated to herself, as she let Ichigo take control while she ran her fingers through his hair, tugging on it, trying to bring him closer to her, to deepen the kiss.

Rukia let out a small moan as Ichigo's tongue played cat and mouse with hers, then he stopped when she began whispering something through out the kisses 'I want you' he heard her say and with that, he collided his body with hers, dry humping her against the wall. Rukia gasped at the sensation of their bodies colliding together she could fell his excitement against her already heated core, as he moved his lips to her neck.

Ichigo let out a low growl as Rukia began arching her body up against his, he could feel all of her chest on him and boy did it feel good. Ichigo began putting butterfly kisses on her neck as he moved to her pulse and bit down, he heard Rukia gasp, and tug on his hair, as he began licking and blowing on the newly formed bite mark on her neck, she was going to be so mad tomorrow.

Rukia lifted her neck, giving Ichigo better access to her now very heated body, he was now moving his hands down her sides, she heard him whisper 'wrap your legs around me' in her ear, which she kindly did, while rubbing up and down his now very hard erection, she heard him moan and say 'unless you want me to take you right here and now I suggest you stop'.

Ichigo lifted Rukia's back off the wall and started walking upstairs to his bedroom. He groaned at the friction, between his middle and hers as he dropped them on the bed and stood up unbuttoning his shirt, then taking off his tie. He watched as Rukia stood up and turned around so he could unzippen her dress. He smiled as it feel to the floor, he looked her up and down, as she moved back onto the bed. 'Ichigo' she whispered just loud enough for him to hear inviting him back into bed. Where they began they're fight for domination.

Rukia let Ichigo unbutton her bra. He slid it off slowing, watching her blush as he moved his tounge to her nipple and began to lick and nibble on them, switching from left to right. Her moans inebriating him. He squeezed her breast loving te way she screamed at the smallest touches, that was until, she flipped them over, now so as she was on top, and fumbling with his belt. She began slidding his pants off, until they no longer exiated on his body. She sat on his lap and began rocking back and forth.

Ichigo watched as her small but pleasant breast fell forward and backwards. She heard him moan a bit and grab her hips, moving his body against hers hungrily, like she could disappear at any moment if he didn't. He flipped them back over so she was under him, he kissed her again and smiled, she gasped as she felt him rub her through her underwear, until he removed them, she watched as he moved down to her unmentionable, and began to lick her clit, she gasped, missing the feeling of his tounge down there.

Rukia moaned, god how this was wrong, how she new she'd miss this feeling, but damn did it feel good. Ichigo nibbled on her clit, as he fingered her, she was moaning and screaming like no tomorrow, plus she was extremely wet, her juices wetting his face excessively. He stuck a third finger in her and that did it, she came hard, screaming his name over and over. The neighbors were going to be so mad tomorrow.

Ichigo watched as she calmed down, he pulled down his boxers and threw them off, positioning himself at hole, he flashed her a sexy grin and promised her one last time that he'd be there for her. She nodded and gasped when he thrusted into her, damn it hurt, she hadn't had any in five weeks, but not as much as the first time. Ichigo groaned from the pain in his back from Rukia's nails, he had a bunch of tiny scars on his back from her nails. He stopped and looked at her, she nooded and let him know it was okay to move. HE moved slowly at first until she started pleading with him to move. 'Harder, faster' Rukia stuttered inbetween moans, which Ichigo kindly obliged to.

Rukia's body was on heaven, but her mind was in hell. 'This is wrong, so wrong, stop' she told herself. 'Stop him, tell him you don't love him anymore, that this is all just pleasure, no love, please, don't let him know he has control, please, stop' she kept telling herself but her body didn't respond. She moaned out please, as he thrust into her harder and faster, until they came together. They layed down exhaustion over taking their body's he held her close and said goodnight. As she listen to his breathing slow, she whispered 'so wrong' then to began to sleep.

Lemon Ends Here

I woke up this morning, Looked next to me

You weren't there, Where could you be

Got out of bed, someone told me

That you were gone, I'm all alone

Rukia awoke to the sound of her soul pager going off, it was 9:00 damn she'd be leaving in three hours. She heard Ichigo groan and tighten his hold on her, she looked at her phone, 'Renji why was he calling' she asked herself as she picked up.

"Moshi, Moshi, what is it Idiot?"

"Is that how you greet an friend"

"Good morning Renji" she said in her sweet school girl voice "Now what is it?"

"Geez, I'd hate to have to wake up with you in the morning, where's strawberry anyway?"

"Sleep" she said iritatted

"Oh well just wanted to bug you, oh and we'll be here at ten to pick you up bye" She heard the dial tone after he hung up.

'No' she said to herself, 'no, why now I wanted too, but she was cut off by her conscious 'Perhaps it's better this way' Rukia agred with the voice in her head. She looked at Ichigo tears rolling down her cheeks as she pried her self from him, all her things were already packed at Urahara's, she reached into her book bag and took out the letters she had written last night after their love making. There was one for everybody even Chad and Orihime, everyone had gotten an nice little letter but Ichigo's had been the longest, she took out her dress that Yuzu had given to her a couple weeks ago, then took an shower, it was 9:30 when she got out, she was surprised that he was still sleep. She had cried in the shower and hard, she was leaving everything she wanted and loved, and she didn't know how to cope with that.

Now I'm sitting here, thinking of you and me

What did I do wrong, that you had to leave

That we couldn't talk that we couldn't speak

So Basically, So Basically

She put on her departure clothes and looked over at Ichigo, she leaned in to kiss him lightly on the lips. She watched as he smiled in his sleep and grabbed the pilow that was in replacement to her body tighter. She neared the window, missing exiting this way , knowing it be her last time in a very long time. 'Goodbye Ichigo' She said as she exited the window. Rukia walked slowly to Urahara's, because she knew she needed to cherish every moment, every street had a memory, worth remeberance. She entered the dusty old shop and was greeted by the one and only Hat and clogs.

So Basically, I'm just waiting for you

To come home back to me, so we can be what we couldn't see

And Basically I'm anticipating you

For your return so I can see your face again, Your face again

"Good morning Kuchiki san, where's your orange headed friend" Rukia flinched at this

"He had more important business to attend too"

"Hmm sounds like you still didn't tell him"

"Wait what are you saying?" She asked

"Just don't get mad at me when he comes barging into soul society to find you"

"To find who?" She heard someone ask from behind her she turned around. It was Ich…(Cough excuse me seems the wrong name almost came out.) It was Renji and her brother Byakuya she looked at her watch right on time.

"Are you ready" Byakuya said picking up her bag.

"Yes Nii sama" She said

She watched as Renji and Byakuya began to depart the room. She pulled out the letters and handed them to Urahara.

"Hmm what's this?" he said looking threw the envelopes she gave him.

"Just be sure to get it to them" he looked at her and smiled.

"Sure thing Kuchiki san, just be sure to accept the consequences"

"Hey Rukia it's time to go" Renji called as he opened the gates to soul society and stepped into it, she looked back one last time, though she didn't show it, she was breaking on the inside, she didn't realize just how unstable she was. In her mnd she was going beserk now her conscious was telling her to stay, to run back to Ichigo , but her body didn't move. As the gates closed she swore she felt herself die, and lose light, all in 10 seconds she had become dull.

There's no need of me just sitting here

Why should I care?, Why should I care?

It's your fault somehow and I'll figure out

A way to blame you for my ouch

Ichigo awoke to realize he was hugging an pillow. Where was Rukia, he looked around ther was no sign of her. 'What the hell' he asked himself as he sat up put on his boxers and rushed to the closet. He opened it hoping to be realived but only found more worry, he ran to the bathroom, to his sisters room his dads room, downstairs, in the clinic, but she was no where to be found. He heard his sell phone ring 'maybe it's Rukia' he thought to himself as he ran upstairs to his room to answer it.

He dug into his desk until he found it, damn it was Urahara, 'maybe he knows something' he said to himself as he picked up.

"Hello Mr. Hat and Clogs" but he was cut off

"If you want to know about where Rukia has run off too I suggest you get here now"

Ichigo hung up, threw on his white t and blue ripped at the knee's jeans. He ran all the way there. He busted into the house heaving from exhaustion. He looked around everyone was there, Chad, Orihime, Ishida and even Yoruichi. He looked at Urahara as he began to speak.

"I guess your all wondering what your doing here this fine Saturday morning, well Rukia Kuchiki has departed back to soul society."

My heart is broke I'm just one joke

I don't know what to do

So basically, So basically, So basically,

Everyone looked at Ichigo they could se the anger rising on his, they could tell he was about to scream until Urahara cut him off.

"But before you all say anything, she opted me to give you each an letter" He watched as he passed them out to everyone and was surprised when four came back to him. He looked at who they were too. They were for him and his family.

He began reading his letter, it said…

Ichigo by the time you finish reading this letter I'll all ready be gone,I'm so sorry, I didn't tell you, I just, I couldn't watch you hurtNot over me, not anymore. I know what your thinking, but I had my reasons.I learned five weeks ago that I'd be leaving on a mission today.It hurt so much, not telling you, living everyday, knowing I 'd be leaving you.But I couldn't tell you, you'd want me to stay, and you'd make it so much harderI love you, so much, It scares me thinking about a future without you.I don't know how long I'll be gone. I feel so much for you, you taught me and showed me things no one else could, you held me, showed me love. So please don't be mad, please, when I come back just don't be mad, I, I need you more then anything, hell I love you more then anything, I'll come back and we can be together, I didn't lie when I said I want to be with you I just, I'm so confused, even sitting here writing this letter, I don't want to leave, you just don't know what I'd give to stay with you, to have you by my side. I love you Ichigo. If you can only remember one thing, make sure it's that, I love you.

I will always cherish us, even if you won't.

Love Rukia

Ichigo finished his letter, how could she, he thought, I'm such a fool she never cared, I was just some toy, she used, until it was time to leave. Orihime watched as Ichigo's face changed, as well as his eye's. He looked as though he was hurt, but then , his eye's changed again, though this time they were just full of regret.

Basically, I'm just waiting for you

To come home back to me, so we can be what we couldn't see

And Basically I'm anticipating you

For your return so I can see your face again, Your face again

Everyone looked at Ichigo expecting him to loose it, but they were all surprised when he just crumpled the paper and threw it in the trash can behind him, everyone could tell he was acting as if he didn't care but they could tell he was hurt, hurt beyond measures. Ichigo asked everyone what when he looked up and caught them starring. Urahara made a sound, catching everyone's attention.

"I've already prepared a gate to soul society Ichigo are you ready?"

"For what, she left of her own free will" Everyone was surprised by his answer everyone except Orihime.

"Ichigo?" Ishida asked "What's wrong with you?"

"What do you mean?, all I'm saying is that, I'm not wasting my time to go see her"

"So your saying Ichigo?" Urahara asked "Is that you don't care"

"She's gone, there ain't nothing I can do about, and there's nothing I will do about it"

"Where's my best friend and what have you done with him?" Sado asked

"Look she had five weeks to tell us, she didn't it was her choice, just like it was her choice to leave, hers not soul society's"

"Your hurting inside aren't you kurosaki kun?" Orihime asked

"The world does not revolve around her, now I have to go, so goodbye, see you guys in school"

Then he was gone. Ichigo walked and walked and walked until he came to the beach, the place he visited last night and as the sun set on this day he couldn't help but realize that Love and himself or rather Love and Ichigo just didn't go together.

Basically, I'm just waiting for you

To come home back to me, so we can be what we couldn't see

And Basically I'm anticipating you

For your return so I can see your face again, Your face again

Authors Note: The epilogue is next, there's a time skip, to four years later, The sequel is the last of the Trilogy, I'm taking a break to write some of Animal I have become, and um, the sequel will be up beginning of November, so add me too your alerts, If you want the summary then here it is.

Four years ago she left him, though the mission has been over now for three, she has yet to come back, when she finally does, will he except it, or push her away, what secrets have they held from each other, and has she come back for him or an mission, and Aizen's movement at a time like this doesn't help the situation.