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Chapter Twelve

Was this a joke? She was shocked at what Santana had just said. Did she really have the confidence to tell her something like that? Of course she had a crush on her but how exactly was she supposed to tell her? That she had liked her ever since she saw her? That sometimes she dreamt about kissing her and touching her? That all she wanted to do was hold her and touch her but knew she wouldn't be able to just yet? What exactly could she tell her? She looked at Santana who was waiting for an answer. Was she being serious or was she joking? She wanted more than anything to just tell her she liked her but it wasn't as easy as that. She was glad that she didn't talk or she was sure she would have embarrassed herself by now. She saw Santana begin to laugh so she knew it must have been a joke. Now she could breathe.

"Breathe Britt," Santana laughed looking at her, "I was only kidding."

Brittany nodded and smiled looking at her fingers then started moving her hands. "So...can we go?"

Santana smiled and nodded. "Yeah lets go."

The both of them decided that they'd go home and change before meeting each other so they wasn't sitting in there, sweating or smelling. Brittany walked to her house walking inside. She walked upstairs stripping her clothes off getting into the shower. She wanted to smell and look nice when she met Santana. She just wanted to impress her. She turned the shower on and got in. Funnily enough it was true what people said about doing your thinking in the shower. It was exactly what she did. Whenever she needed to think about something she just got in the shower. If it was a problem she had or just to get away from everyone and think. It was very useful. And warm. She had to keep an eye on the time so she washed herself and her hair then got out walking to her room to get ready with the towel wrapped around her. She looked through her clothed ending up throwing a lot of them onto the floor. She didn't get why she was acting like this as it wasn't a date or anything, but she needed to look perfect. It was Santana and she always looked good. Okay she could do this. Maybe if she dried herself up she would spot something to wear. Brittany decided that was a better idea then walked away going to dry her hair.

After around half an hour she finally decided what to wear and was able to get ready and leave the house. Brittany decided on wearing a pair of skinny jeans, one of her favorite tops and a leather jacket. She looked pretty good in her opinion. She even decided to straighten her hair and actually try. When she finally gets a date with the brunette she would really have to up her game. Well...if she gets a date with the girl is what she meant to say. It's not like Santana likes her or anything. Brittany locked her house and made her way towards McDonalds. They had decided that it was best just to meet there so no one was rushing around to try and get to the others house quickly. It was only down the road anyway. Brittany put her earphones in her ears plugging them into her iPod. She flicked through her songs trying to find one she wants to listen to. The thing with the music she liked listening to was that not many people had heard of the bands or singers she did listen to. They weren't as popular as the artists you hear on the radio, so many people didn't know who they were. It was exactly how she felt sometimes. She wasn't part of the popular crowd and many people didn't know who she was. Brittany finally found a song to listen to clicking on it then putting her iPod in her pocket after locking the screen. She smiled listening to the lyrics.

And if all the flowers faded away
And if all the storm clouds decided to stay
Then you would find me
Each hour the same
Cause she is tomorrow
And I am today

Cause if right is leaving
I'd rather be wrong
Cause she is the sunlight
The sun is gone

Brittany listened to the lyrics carefully. She liked the tune in a song but she always paid extra attention to the lyrics as she loved figuring out what the song meant or what message the song was trying to put across. In this song, she thought that the singer might have been singing about his girlfriend or about someone he liked. She liked songs like this because it was easy relatable. If anything, she could relate it to Santana. Santana was exactly what the song said. Sunlight. She was the sunlight in her life. She made it better for her and even though before she had a reason to get up every day, now she had even more reason. She got to see her.

And if loving her is
Is heartache for me
And if holding her means
That I have to bleed
Then I am the martyr
Love is to blame
Cause she is the healing
And I am the pain

She lives in a daydream
(She lives in a daydream)
Where I don't belong
Cause she is the sunlight
And the sun is gone

Whoever was singing the song, she never did look that up, must have loved this person a lot. The lyrics were quite deep and about how the singer would do anything to be with her. It was sweet to think about. Whilst Brittany was walking she didn't know she was so close to McDonalds as she always got lost into her music. She liked it though. It allowed her to escape to a world she can control. One where anything is possible and how she can do anything she wants. She even imagines talking and singing in them. She continued walking listening to the song. It was one of her favorites and she knows her iPod must be getting quite annoyed with her for playing it so much. Well it would have to get over it really.

And it will take this life of regret
For my heart to learn to forget
Tomorrow will be as it always has been
And I will fall to her again
For I know I have come too close

Cause if right is leaving
I'd rather be wrong
Cause she is the sunlight
And the sun is gone

She is the sunlight
And the sun is gone

Brittany smiled as the song finished. Such a beautiful song and it had such a beautiful message. To her, the meaning of the song is about how a guy, or girl in her opinion, loves a girl but she doesn't love them as more than a friend. It is very sad when that happens. But this person loves this woman and even though it is 'right' as it says in the song to just give up, they would rather stay 'wrong' and stay by her side even though he will be going through heartache doing so. To the man, or woman, the woman brings sunlight into their life which is why he wants to stay. It is beautiful to her and she hopes that one day she can find a woman like that. Who just lights up the room when they walk in and brings sunlight into her life like the woman in the song does.

Brittany walks into McDonalds and sees Santana sat down waiting for her. She smiles as she does. She knows that Santana is that sun to her. The person who lights up her life. She walks up to her and sits down opposite her. Santana looked up and saw the blonde. Okay, she looked so beautiful right now.

"Hey," Brittany said in greeting smiling at her, "I hope I'm not too late. I wanted a shower."

Santana shook her head as she looked at the blonde. She look so...perfect. Her hair was straight with a little make-up on her face, but it was barely noticeable. She was wearing a black leather jacket with a red top underneath showing off her figure. She couldn't see below the waist but still. She was stunning. Brittany was looking at her smirking. She was now checking her out. Santana shook her head to stop her from staring looking at Brittany smiling.

"It's okay don't worry about it. You look amazing." Santana complimented pushing a drink in front of her. "I got you a small coke if that's okay."

Brittany nodded taking a sip of it through the straw. "Thank you. So are you getting anything?" Brittany asked noticing nothing was in front of her.

"Well I've never eaten here so...what do you suggest?" Santana asked trusting the blonde's judgement. She'd probably been here a lot more than she has so she would know more about what there was.

Brittany grinned and motioned for her to get up going to the counter. She knew what they could have. They should probably share though since she didn't want to push Santana too much. "Okay how about you get a chicken burger?" Suggested Brittany to the Latina when she finally got to where she was. She usually had chicken nuggets but they could get a chicken burger meal between them. She didn't mind sharing.

"Umm...what do you usually have?" Santana asked shyly. "We can have what you usually have and share."

Brittany nodded in agreement. "I usually get a chicken nugget medium meal with a strawberry milkshake."

Santana smiled getting her purse out. "Okay I'll order it and then you can sit down." Santana told her but Brittany shook her head. She wanted to stay with her. Santana smiled and waited in line with her. She was glad Brittany wanted to get her out of her comfort zone. She had no idea how her parents would react but she didn't care. When were they home anyway? It was a shock when they were home to be honest so she never expected anything. Once she was at the counter she ordered their food what Brittany had told her then waited whilst they served it. She always kind of wanted to come in here but she was a little worried about her parents. She didn't know why she didn't care now but that wasn't an issue for her now. She was old enough to make her own decisions after all.

"So are you excited for your first McDonalds?" Brittany asked happily grinning at her. How could she say no to that face? Santana nodded smiling.

"I am Britt-Britt," Santana replied as the cashier got their food ready, "I hope it is as good as you say."

"It's going to be even better!" Brittany said walking to get the straw and tomato sauce. She walked back putting it on their tray seeing their food was done. She took the tray walking back to their seat putting it in the middle of the table. She watched as Santana sat across from her. She took a fry and put it in front of Santana's mouth. She was determined to break her healthy eating habit. Yes, it was important to eat healthy but there had to be a balance. She raised her eyebrow to Santana who opened her mouth and took a bite. She smiled and let go of it letting Santana hold it herself. She took a fry and dipped it in the tomato ketchup eating it. She watched for Santana's reaction not sure about how she would react.

"So how is it?" Brittany asked curiously.

Santana nodded and smiled. "It's nice Britt. It's really nice actually. Can't believe my parents kept me from this for so long!"

Brittany grinned and ate another chip then reached for the drink having some of it. She always forgot how cold it was until she was drinking it. Like now. Damn it was cold! She was happy though as Santana was relaxing a little more and she even got to go to the bonfire tonight and have fun with her there. She had no idea was what happening but she was just glad she was going to be able to celebrate with her. She was special, different and unique and that was what she loved about her. She wasn't someone who was just in the background. She let herself be heard when she was talking with her friends. Maybe when she was in class too as she had seen the Latina on many occasions going against the teacher when she knew she was right. It was a good quality to have though. But one thing she couldn't picture was how her parents were. Santana never seemed to talk about them and the only time she really heard about them was when she told her about how they didn't like her eating junk food. She didn't want to pry as it was her life and it wasn't like she talked about her home life a lot either. Only because she hated her home life. She just wanted to know the girl in front of her. But she should probably let her do that at her own pace. Not just because she wanted to know about her. Brittany watched as Santana ate the food with her. She actually seemed happy about it.

"You're not going to drink all of that, are you?" Santana teased remembering what happened at Rachel's house. Brittany blushed and gave it to her letting her have some. Yeah, she forgot that she was sharing everything with Santana.

Santana chuckled taking the drink from the blonde. She was actually enjoying this meal and she had even forgotten how unhealthy it was since it tasted so good. She looked at the blonde smiling.

"What?" Brittany asked eating one of the nuggets that had yet to be touched.

"How do you do it?" Santana asked putting the drink down on the table.

"Do what?" Brittany asked curiously.

"You just go through life not caring about what people think of you," Santana answered looking at her, "I don't understand how you do it."

Brittany smiled. "That's not true. I care more than what I let on."

"But you just don't let things get to you. Like when Karofsky touched you, all you said was that you were happy before that since it was your first party. I don't get you." Santana explained seating another one of the fries.

Brittany smiled. "That is part of the mystery. So you'll want to know more." Brittany winked smirking.

"I will always want to know more." Santana whispered. Brittany couldn't help but smile. She was glad that Santana was interested in her and wanted to get to know her. It meant that they were on the same page which was always a good thing.

"I want to get to know you too Santana." Brittany admitted smiling.

Santana smiled and ate some more of the food that was in front of them. The both of them sat and ate quietly not needing anything else to be said. It was a comfortable silence and all the both of them could think was how perfect it was.

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Brittany and Santana arrived at the bonfire with Quinn and Rachel. After they had their meal at McDonalds earlier they spent some time at Santana's house before they had to go and pick Rachel up. It was a hassle because when they got there Rachel wasn't even ready then they had to wait for Quinn. Seriously, you would think they could at least be on time to something she invited them to, but no. So they ended up leaving half a hour later than they should have. They got out of the car and walked onto the beach. Everyone was chatting with one another and looked like they were having a good time. She remembered Mercedes saying something about her uncle having his friends too which made sense seeing as there were older women and men here. As they walked on Mercedes came up to them to greet them.

"Hey guys! Glad you could all make it." Mercedes greeted smiling. "Oh and Britt I told everyone about your no touching and no talking and everyone was cool with it. Hope that was okay."

Brittany nodded smiling. Thank god she wouldn't have to go around with people trying to speak to her. That was the last thing she needed.

"It's okay. Sorry we are late Rachel and Quinn took ages to get ready so we left half an hour late." Brittany signed forgetting that Mercedes probably didn't know sign language. She saw Mercedes smile sadly. Yeah, she didn't know it.

"Sorry Britt I don't know sign language," Mercedes said feeling bad that they couldn't talk.

"Don't worry about it. Britt said that it's okay and that she's sorry we're late." Santana said helping Brittany out at what she was trying to say. "Rachel and Quinn took ages to get ready so we left half an hour late. So blame them. I added that at the end because it is totally their fault."

"Hey!" Rachel protested crossing her arms. "Next time call us when you are coming to pick us up!"

"Britt text you so you had no excuse." Santana argued smirking.

Mercedes laughed. "Alright well have fun. Booze is over there at the bar and I'm sure you'll know pretty much everyone here."

Brittany nodded and walked off onto the beach. She had never been here at night before and it looked beautiful. She had never been to the beach at night so it was awesome to see. Brittany decided to walk closer to the sea looking over it. She knew that she wouldn't be able to talk to many people because not many people knew sign language. It was difficult for her to have a social life with the way that she was. It was lucky that she could talk to Santana and Rachel in all honesty. Well, Rachel took sign language class with her but for Quinn and Sam to know what she is saying is different. She was surprised that they could but it made her smile. They had put the effort in so they could understand her. When people did that they had no idea what it meant to her. It made her feel good about herself because it was another person who understood her. Not even her own parents did that and they lived with her. It was difficult with parents like that and she knew that if it was her brother, he would have put the effort in. Zack was like that and that's why they got along so well. She always wondered what he would look like now. They would have looked similar with them being twins but she imagined him being tall with muscles and gelled up blonde hair. Brittany looked up at the sky and smiled. A part of her had always been missing but that was only because they were twins so she didn't expect any different. His room was still the way it was when they were kids and no one ever went in there. She couldn't even go in there and it had been 10 years now. It remained untouched but that was how the family coped. No one outside the family was to go into that room either. But everyone knew that.

Brittany was so caught up in her thought she had no idea Rachel had come up to her. She went up to Brittany and stood beside her watching her look up at the sky. She knew who she was thinking about so she left her to it without interrupting. She knew she needed moments like this to think about him. She didn't wait very long before Brittany lowered her head looking at her.

"Zack would have understood," Brittany began looking at her, "he would never let anyone bully me or pick on me when we were in preschool. He was always there to protect me. I know that if I stopped speaking when he was alive he would have learnt sign language just so we could speak. Why won't my parents do the same?"

Rachel didn't have an answer for that. She couldn't give an answer that Brittany would like as it was true. She had no idea why they wouldn't do the same for her. Were they still hurting? Did they blame Brittany? She had no idea but whatever they were doing they were hurting Brittany in the process. Rachel shook her head and went for the honest answer. "I don't know, honey."

Brittany nodded looking over the ocean. She sighed knowing that Rachel was telling the truth. No one had any idea why her parents acted the way they did. "I don't know either, Rach. I wish they would just try."

Rachel nodded in sympathy. She wished Brittany's parents would care more about their daughter. She needed the help and she needed them. It was Brittany's birthday in a week and she wanted to give her a birthday party as she never usually has one. She knows that Brittany never had any friends at her old school but she had plenty here. Maybe she could talk to everyone whilst she walked around. Brittany was private so she probably never even told anyone it was her birthday next week since she didn't think it was a big deal. She knew her friend hated it due to it being Zack's birthday too. They had always had a joint party but now they couldn't do that, Brittany spent the day mourning over the death of Zack. She wanted to get her out of that habit though. She deserved a good birthday this year.

"Britt?" Rachel asked cautiously. She knew she had to be careful bringing this up because if it came out wrong, Brittany would be upset for the rest of the night.

"Yeah?" Brittany replied looking at her.

"Well it's your birthday next week and I know you usually spend it alone due to it being Zack's birthday too but I was wondering if you would think about having a party this year." Rachel suggested looking at her. That sounded alright thankfully.

"Who would come exactly?" Brittany asked sighing. "I'm not exactly popular, Rachel."

"Of course they would. You're amazing." Rachel reassured not wanting her friend to be down over this. Many people did in fact like her and she could tell. "We can invite Quinn, Puck, Sam, Mercedes, Mike, Finn and I have a couple of other friends that I want to introduce you to tonight. Plus, there is Santana who would love to spend your birthday with you."

Brittany's face lit up. She had never had so many people like her before so she was definitely happy over it. Plus, hearing that Santana would want to spend her birthday with her made her happy. She didn't even think about telling her since she didn't think she'd care. She told Liz in the past and she just shrugged not caring. She didn't like telling people things anyway. The one thing she didn't tell people about was Zack. She hadn't even told Rachel about what happened to him. But since she has been at McKinley she has had a lot more friends. She knew it's what Zack would want.

"Well...I guess we could." Brittany agreed nodding. "But you organize it as I can't do that. And no surprises!"

Rachel squealed happily and nodded. "Yes! Thanks Britt. And I swear there will be no surprises. I know you don't like them much. I'll go tell everyone. I'll come by later okay?"

Brittany laughed and ushered her away watching her run off. She smiled and looked up at the sky. She closes her eyes and took a deep breath. She sat down in the sand. It wasn't like the bonfire wasn't fun, but she just liked sitting by herself at stuff like this. She was enjoying herself though which was why you come to these parties. She felt someone come sit beside her. She turned her head and saw Santana there holding a drink in her hand. She smiled taking it. "Thank you."

"You're welcome," Santana said in reply, "any reason why you're sat here by yourself looking at the sky?"

"Yes, but I don't want to talk about it," Brittany replied taking a sip of her drink once she had finished then putting it on the sand between her legs. "It's private."

"I understand. Are you okay?"

"Yeah I'm good."

"I'm glad, Britt. So...Rachel told me it's your birthday next week." Santana said with a smile on her face.

Brittany groaned in response. How had she told her so fast? "That girl can talk to people so fast it is unbelievable. Yes, it is my birthday next week. Sorry I didn't tell you."

Santana laughed nodding in agreement, Rachel was fast at talking to people when she had found something out or she was talking to people about something she was planning. She had seen that for herself.

"Oh believe me I know how fast she can talk to people. Witnessed it myself. And don't worry about it. But now I only have a week to find the perfect gift for you, so you will have to make do with what I find now." Santana stated smirking looking at her joking around. Of course she could find the perfect gift in a week, but she liked joking around with her.

"I will be happy with just seeing you so I'm sure I'll cope," Brittany replied smiling.

"Don't worry I'll be there."

Brittany smiled. She was glad she'd have her there as that's the one person she wanted to see. Santana. She had shown how good of a friend she can be, but there was also the fact that they did flirt. She had noticed this as well. She flirted with her when they were texting at night and it made more butterflies come alive in her stomach. She liked it but she didn't know how long it would take before she breaks and tells her how she feels. She wanted to tell her earlier that she liked her, but she couldn't. She wasn't going to do things too fast.

"How about we go mingle with this crowd of people? " Santana suggested standing up. "I'm sure they're all dying to see you."

Brittany laughed standing up. "Okay, but I'm sure they're not dying to see me."

"One day they will be when you become this famous Motocross racer."

"Nah because they'll get free passes to come see me. I'll make sure of it." She says smiling. "Well, the ones I want to see me anyway."

Santana laughed in response and nodded. "Okay, you have an answer for everything. Let's just go find some people to talk to so you don't seem like a loner."

Brittany smirked. "I think you just want to make yourself seem not so lonely."

"As if Pierce!"

Brittany winked at her. "If you say so. You're secret is safe with me" Brittany then walked off into the distance looking for people to talk to. She heard Santana call her name and race after her. It was funny when she thinks about it. This girl was totally whipped and they weren't even dating. This was going to be a fun night.

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The song used was She Is The Sunlight By Trading Yesterday. Very good song if you want to look it up

Since I know the focus is mainly on Brittany, do you guys want to know more about a certain character that I haven't got into a lot yet? Let me know :)