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I want to apologise for confusing a few of you. Since when I began writing this we didn't know Brittany's mother's name I seemed to choose Susan as her mum, even though when I read back I didn't seem to mention it, but since apparently I did I just want to apologise and I have edited my previous chapter and changed the name to Susan. My apologies to you all. Enjoy!

Lunch was something Brittany had been looking forward to. She had been going through each lesson not being able to stop herself from glancing at the clock. She wanted to see Santana again and hopefully be able to talk to Rachel. She had been going over and over in her head about what was wrong with her and she could only think of one thing, she had forgotten something. That had to be it. What else could it be? Her memory wasn't perfect so Rachel had to understand, right? The bell had gone off already so she gathered her stuff together and made her way to her locker. She was meeting Santana in front of it anyway and she might possibly be able to catch Rachel whilst she was at it.

Once she was there she looked around waiting for Santana but it wasn't long until she came walking around the corner. Smiling, Brittany embraced her as soon as she got to where she was.

"That's a nice surprise." Santana said with a smile pulling away. "Missed me didn't you?"

"I always miss you." Brittany stated blushing looking down not being able to get the feeling of her stomach churning inside her, but in a good way of course, away. "I kept looking at the clock wanting it to be lunch time."

"Well now you don't have to."

Brittany nodded her head when she noticed a figure beside the Latina who she noticed was Rachel. Thank god, she wasn't still angry was she? Her mind was racing at the thought but she blocked them out and decided on talking to her instead. It would stop her worrying and she needed that.

"I'm sorry for whatever I did." Brittany blurted out looking at the brunette moving her hands in a fast motion. "Look, if I forgot something I apologise because sometimes my mind just goes into a haze, like the time Lord Tubbington snuck back in after he did his first all nighter. That day he was not the same."

Rachel chuckled nodding her head. "It's not you Brittany, well, it's not you intentionally."

"I don't get it." Brittany responded with a frown. "Did I do something or not?"

"No, Britt, what she means is that what is going on isn't your fault. As in even though you are hurting her currently, you're not doing it on purpose." Santana explains looking from Brittany back to Rachel. "You said you'd talk to her."

"What? I'm hurting Rachel?" Brittany asked worried. "I didn't mean to hurt you."

"No, honey, you're not hurting me. It's completely my fault. I mean I am hurt but not...you don't know you're hurting me but you're not...hurting me." Rachel rambles looking at the floor. "Okay, that didn't make any sense."

"You're right, it didn't. So how about you explain this to her without the words 'you hurt me'?" Santana suggests annoyed. "She feels bad enough, Rachel."

"Right. Look Brittany, I was jealous. I will stand here and admit that right now. It's been ever since the party we had for you." Rachel began to explain. "You're my best friend and you have been since we were young girls and that takes a lot to keep a friendship going as long as that. It's just, when I saw you touch Santana I got jealous because I thought that out of everyone I would be the first person you touched, not Santana."

Brittany frowned. "What, so, because I touched Santana you don't want to be my friend anymore?"

"No! No, Brittany, that is not what I mean." Rachel said shaking her head trying to figure out a way to explain without hurting Brittany. "Okay, I was hurting because you touched Santana first. I apologise for not speaking to you and acting like a bitch towards you. You didn't deserve that. I just miss touching you Brittany. We were so close and I get that we still are, but I wish we could just hug like we used to. I know physical contact is hard for you so I never say anything, but I miss all of that."

"You don't think I do?" Brittany asks after a small pause. "I miss hugging you too Rachel, but after everything that happened I just find all those things difficult now. I have no idea why after Zack's death I refrained from physical contact, but I thought that out of everyone you would be the one who would be proud of me."

"I am proud of you!" Rachel exclaimed trying to defend herself but Brittany cut her off.

"I don't want to hear it. You know how hard this has been for me. For the first time in, like, forever, I am able to touch another human being and all you care about is the fact that it's not you." Brittany responded getting angry, which was definitely not an emotion she felt very often. "Instead of being jealous, you should be happy that I am able to touch someone again. It may not be you, but it is someone."

"I know that Britt, I do. I'm sorry, please don't be mad at me."

Shaking her head, Brittany held onto her bag strap stepping forward from the locker. "I don't get mad often Rachel, but I just can't believe you right now. I need to go."

Before Rachel could respond, Brittany walked away leaving Santana and Rachel alone. Santana looked at her as though saying 'what did you expect?' but she understood why Rachel acted the way she did and she couldn't fault the girl for that. She was about to follow the blonde down the corridor when she saw her coming back towards her. Brittany stopped in front of the two people she had just left looking at Santana who looked back looking amused.

"I need you to come with me. I can't go in there alone. Too many people."

Santana smiled and nodded moving to stand beside Brittany looking at Rachel. "I said I was having lunch with her, Rachel, so I should go. Catch up later?"

"Sure, see you later." Rachel responded nodding her head. "I have to meet Quinn anyway."

Brittany and Santana turned around making their way towards the cafeteria. Walking in, Santana understood what Brittany meant. It was definitely a lot more crowded than usual. There were a lot more people lining up for hot food and the tables were full. There was definitely no way they were eating here today. Santana looked at Brittany and motioned for them to leave which Brittany agreed to, so they made their way out of the cafeteria and back down the hallway.

"Why is it so crowded?" Brittany asked looking at the Latina beside her. "It seems very busy in there."

"I don't know." Santana responds shrugging her shoulders stopping and turning to the blonde. "Different reasons can make the cafeteria busy Britt, but if you want we can go out of school and to a cafe with Rachel and Quinn."

"I'm mad at her." Brittany said sighing. "I'm not usually."

Santana moved closer moving some hair out of Brittany's face. She kept her hand still when she saw Brittany flinch not wanting to freak her out. After a few minutes she saw her start to relax so she continued, tucking her hair behind her ear with a smile.

"You're allowed to be mad. She's your best friend so you expect her to be happy for you." Santana responded moving her thumb over her cheek slowly. "Don't feel bad about this. But I also think you should give her a chance. She's important to you even when you're mad at her."

Sighing, Brittany nodded her head knowing Santana was right, no matter how much she wished she wasn't. Rachel is her best friend and she hated being mad at her. She thought Rachel would understand but all she was doing was showing jealousy over her progression. Why would someone who is supposed to be on her side care more about who she was having physical contact with over the fact that she was able to have physical contact with someone? She knew she was probably being upset over nothing but she couldn't help it. But Santana did want to meet with Rachel and Quinn and since she would do anything for her, she knew agreeing was what she was going to do.

"Okay, we'll meet Rachel and Quinn." Brittany finally replied nodding her head. "You're right, she is important to me."

Smiling, Santana squeezed her arm in comfort before pulling her hand away. She was about to walk away when Brittany gripped her wrist pulling her back towards her.

Brittany felt her heart racing knowing how nervous she was. She pulled Santana towards her gripping her forearms and couldn't help but smile at the surprised look on her face. Brittany cupped her cheeks stroking her thumbs over Santana's cheeks before leaning in kissing her. As their lips met Brittany realised how much she had missed her lips on her own. She had never been so grateful to her therapist and Santana than now.

Brittany never thought that this would ever happen to her. She had only ever dreamt of being able to stand with someone, with their arms wrapped around her, whilst they kissed or hugged. She had never been so happy that she could do this now. She may not have speech currently, but she knew she would. She would be able to speak at some point because it was something she was determined to happen. She might need the therapist help, but it would happen eventually. Right now though, all she wanted to focus on was Santana.

She felt Santana press her body against her own wrapping her arms around her neck. Smiling into the kiss, Brittany tiled her head slightly moving her lips with hers enjoying the softness of her lips. All she could focus on was the kiss and the way her heart was pounding in her chest. She had never felt like this before and she loved the feeling of it. Brittany knew Santana cared a lot about her and she felt the same towards her. This feeling was exactly what she wanted with someone and to now have that, it was wonderful.

Santana pulled away slowly looking up at the blonde with a smile forming on her face. It was the second kiss they had shared and it felt as nice as the first one, even better in fact. The way Brittany was now getting the confidence to kiss her was knowledge to her of how she was progressing and that meant the world to her. It showed that they were going to be able to move on and hopefully be able to talk to each other eventually which she knew Brittany wanted.

"Brittany, that was just...wonderful."

Brittany blushed and nodded her head. "I wanted that. I know being with me isn't like being with someone who can do all of this with no thought, but this is the best I can do for now. I want to give you a normal relationship Santana, I really do, and I'm trying. I maybe just starting to touch you, but that is a huge progression for me."

"Hey, I know that. I don't expect anything more from you, okay? You are special to me and we do this at your pace. I would do all of this over again if it meant I got to spend time with you. Also there is no such thing as a normal relationship, so don't you worry about that." Santana assured the blonde taking her hands in her own. "All I care about is how we are together and that we are happy. Now, how about we go and find Quinn and Rachel and grab some food?"

Smiling, Brittany nodded her head. "Okay."

The two of them made their way down the hallway looking to see if they could spot Rachel and Quinn. They knew that they would most likely find them in a compromising position but Santana would have great pleasure in interrupting that. Plus, Rachel did want to make it up to Brittany after all so, really, Santana was just doing them a favour by interrupting. Well by them she means Rachel. Quinn was on good terms with Brittany anyway so it would only just annoy her.

The both of them walked out onto the field to see two figured making out under the bleachers. A brunette and blonde to be exact which fit the profiles of Rachel and Quinn. Santana was about to walk over to them when she felt a hand on her wrist. She turned her head to look and noticed that it was Brittany holding her back. She looked at her curiously.

"What is it?" Santana asked curiously. "It's only Quinn and Rachel making out."

"They're having time alone, Santana. We should leave them to it and go to lunch alone." Brittany said explaining the hold back. "We will be just fine without them."

Santana shook her head. "No, you can't just stay mad at Rachel forever, Brittany. We'll go over there and invite them to come to lunch with us. You can't avoid her forever."

Sighing, Brittany nodded her head making her way over to the couple with Santana. She wasn't happy but she would have to get over it. She would have to get over being mad at her best friend at some point so she should probably start now. Well she will start when they are having their lunch at wherever they are going. A cafe Santana said, right? Something like that anyway.

When they both got to the couple Santana cleared her throat loudly to get their attention which seemed to work since they seemed to jump about a foot apart looking at the two girls shocked. Santana chuckled before smirking with her arms folded whilst Brittany just looked at the couple amused. She was just glad it was those two being caught and not the both of them. Not that they would since they were more into kissing privately, not including the hallway kiss earlier on of course.

"Sorry about that." Rachel said apologetically looking down. "We don't usually get found."

"Well we came to find you to invite you to come to lunch with us. It's too crowded in the cafeteria for us to sit down so we were going to a cafe outside school and wanted you to join us."

Rachel raised her eyebrow. "Even Brittany?"

Brittany looked down not wanting to respond since it was Santana that wanted Rachel to come to lunch after all but she knew it was the right thing to do, even if she was having a hard time understanding why Rachel was acting the way she was. She looked up at Rachel nodding her head.

"Even me."

The brunette looked at her before nodding her own head in agreement. She could handle this and by the look on Quinn's face, she was happy to join them too which was something. If her girlfriend was happy, she would try to be, even if her best friend didn't want to be around her.

"Great! We were going to go to a cafe so let's get going."

Brittany walked alongside Santana with Rachel and Quinn walking behind them. She would refrain from arguing since she didn't want to argue with Rachel. All she wanted was to understand why Rachel acted the way she did when she was supposed to be supporting her. Brittany didn't understand, but she knew Rachel had her reasons. She always did.

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The lunch at the cafe was going surprisingly well. Brittany decided to temporarily forget about the way had reacted and enjoy the lunch instead. She didn't like being mad at people, so when she did get mad it upset her even though she was supposed to be mad. It made sense in her head but it probably wouldn't to other people. Brittany was actually quite excited. It was coming up to Easter break which meant no school, of course, but it also meant chocolate. She loved chocolate. Her parents always got her at least one Easter egg, even when she didn't talk to them. She also got one sent to her from her Uncle Jonathan. He wasn't someone she saw on a regular basis, but when she did see him she really enjoyed it. He was without a doubt her favourite Uncle.

When she thought about her family, it was upsetting to think that she hardly got to see anyone but she understood too. Since the death of Zack, the family was torn apart and they hadn't been the same since. Sure, reunions happened but it wasn't like they happened often, and even when they did everyone just seemed so awkward to even mention Zack that they didn't really have anything to talk about. Brittany hated them especially because she wasn't comfortable being so close to anyone and since she didn't talk it made it even more of a struggle.

"How is your support with Sadie going?" Rachel asked turning her head to her best friend with a smile. "You seem to be doing a lot better."

"She helps me a lot. I mean, I still struggle with a lot of things and I get mixed up a lot, but the main thing is that I'm moving forward and that I have someone to help me understand, and if worst comes to worst, Santana is there to help me." Brittany explains sending a smile in Santana's direction, which she was given back. "School isn't as bad as what it used to be and I'm so grateful for that."

"You seem to be a lot happier. Has Santana got something to do with that?" Quinn asks with a smirk plastered on her face. "You hang out a lot."

Santana decides to interrupt at that moment to give Brittany a break. "Yes we hang out a lot, but it's not any of your business. We went on a date last week and things couldn't be better. Right Brittany?"

Brittany nods her head with a smile. "Santana and my therapist are helping me. I've kissed Santana twice now. Once alone and once in the hallway today. I know it's a bit...maybe a bit rushed as it seems, but as long as I feel comfortable that's what matters, right? Plus I don't know if I'll end up relapsing and if I do, I'm back to where I started."

It was actually one of Brittany's fears that she had currently. That she would wake up and not be able to touch anyone again and be back where she was before she started the school. Her therapist had told her that it was possible and she had even had a couple of nightmares too but she wouldn't tell anyone that. More than anything she just wanted to be a normal teenage girl, one that didn't need therapy and who wasn't scared of human contact, but that was who she was now. She had been like this for years but now that she had someone to touch and hold, she didn't want that feeling to go away. She really just wanted the feeling to stick but she had no idea if it would. The dreaded feeling she felt came over her and it made her shiver.

"But she's doing great!" Santana praised taking Brittany's hand under the table entwining their fingers which made both their hearts flutter at the contact. "Like Brittany just said, she's doing great and we are working alongside her therapist. But on another note; Brittany has a Motocross race this Saturday."

"You're racing this weekend?" Rachel asked in surprise, but she was definitely happy about it. "Why didn't you tell me?"

Brittany blushed. "It actually crossed my mind. I've been so excited about it but you should both totally come and watch me. It's just going to be Santana there so she'll need company."

"Actually..." Santana began feeling her face heat up. "I invited your parents too. I thought that they would want to be there at the race t watch you since you've not raced like this before."

The blonde turned to her in surprise. "You invited my parents?"

"I hope that's okay. I knew you wouldn't so I thought that I would. They should be there Brittany." Santana tried explaining in a panic thinking that Brittany would be mad but when she saw a smile form on her face, Santana knew it wasn't a bad type of shock which eased her mind a little.

"Susan and Pierce will be there?" Rachel asked in surprise. "That's great!"

"Am I the only one who is shocked by Pierce having the same first and last name?" Quinn asked after picking up on what Rachel said. "Pierce Pierce?"

Shaking her head, Santana let out a small laugh. "When I spoke to Susan I was shocked too but she said it kind of runs in his family of having children with weird names."

"It's true. He has a cousin called Jackson Jackson, an uncle called Rover, a niece called Snow and my grandfather has the weirdest name being called Knowledge." Brittany explained and when she saw the looks on her friends faces, she knew she had to explain a little more. "I'm serious here. It's on his birth certificate and everything. Grandpa tells me his parents wanted him to be smart and that the only way he was going to be able to do that is by calling him knowledge itself. He's a very smart man though so I guess they got something right."

Santana stared at the blonde beauty before snapping out of it and shaking her head. She would definitely have to meet the man who goes by the name Knowledge and ask him why the heck didn't he change his name when he could. It was awful but if it ran in the family then it wasn't seen as unusual to them. It was a good thing Pierce had Susan to convince him to name their children correctly which, thinking about Brittany and Zack's benefit, was a good thing indeed.

"Well your dad's side of the family will be interesting to meet at some stage."Santana finally said speaking up after being quiet for a while.

Rachel looked between the two girls in front of her on the other side of the table before blurting out. "Are you two dating?"

Santana and Brittany both turned to the brunette both surprised by her outburst. It was definitely not something either of them were expecting her to say but also at the same time they were expecting her to say it eventually with how much they had been hanging out and what not. They were both happy what they were doing and their dynamic may not be exactly normal, well normal didn't exist from what Santana said but it was what Brittany would say, but they didn't care. They liked it and even if they only kissed and touched when Brittany was comfortable, it was what got them by. But dating? They hadn't even spoken about that particular part yet so what was the answer? Well they didn't have one, obviously.

"Well I would say-"

"I mean we are just-"

The two girls looked at each other and blushed when they noticed they had tried explaining at the same time. The both of them just laughed it off shaking their heads in amusement but deep down they both knew what they wanted. But it was a conversation to do in private.

"We haven't spoken about it." Brittany confessed with a shrug of her shoulders as though it wasn't a big concern for her. "We will though, just not right now in front of you both."

Santana nodded her head in agreement. "We know we need to talk about it but right now? No. We'll talk about it later."

Before they could say anything more Rachel and Quinn stood up getting out from the table they were sharing with them. Santana and Brittany looked at them confused. Lunch wasn't even over yet and they were leaving? Odd was a word that came to mind.

"Where are you two off to?" Brittany asked confused as to why they were standing up.

"Oh we are going back to school to let you two talk."

Rachel winked at the both of them before walking out of the cafe with Quinn on her arm. Brittany looked at Santana confused and noticed that Santana was wearing the same expression on her face as she was. Neither of them knew what they were on about but they decided on enjoying their lunch anyway. Why waste food that they had bought already?

"Well that was odd."

Brittany chuckled in agreement nodding her head. "Very but then again it's Rachel so I don't expect anything else."

"So so true. Looking at the time we better get back to school anyway. You done?"

Brittany nodded her head and they both paid and made their way back to school. Santana got up the courage to take Brittany's hand entwining their fingers which Brittany happily accepted after tensing first. They walked in silence but neither girl minded since they were just content on being together.