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So sorry about the wait guys! I was looking through my stories the other day and I knew out of every one I wanted to finish this one and that's what I'm going to do. I've only for a few chapters left on this one but I'm excited to finally have it completed. Don't be alarmed that this chapter has a lot of stuff in it, and before any of you ask no it wasn't rushed I planned this. Hopefully you'll like it! Much love to you all!
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Santana and Quinn were sat in the park looking over the pond where six or seven ducks were swimming. Santana hadn't said a word to Quinn because she just couldn't believe it. There had to be a reason behind the infidelity or the world just didn't make sense. Santana knew Quinn loved Rachel so what could have possibly happened that could make her best friend do something so idiotic? She had gone through so many scenarios in her head whilst they had made their way here but none of them made sense, and they especially didn't seem logical either. Santana kept her eyes on the ducks swimming in the pond noticing how excited they got when a young girl ran over with some bread to feed them. She was with her father who knelt down helping her so she didn't give the ducks too much at once. Tearing her gaze off of the parent and child Santana finally looked at Quinn who was looking at her hands looking especially guilty, which she should. Cheating was never okay no matter the circumstance.
"Okay so I think you should explain yourself." Santana began as calmly as possible. "I definitely don't condone you hurting Rachel, but I also know you love each other. What possible reason could you have for cheating on her?"
Sighing Quinn looked up. "I was drunk Santana and let's not forget she's cheated on me in the past."
"When that happened you weren't properly a couple and you know it. You have been together for over a year this time and definitely in a relationship. What happened Quinn?" Santana asked putting her hand on Quinn's hand taking it in her own. "I know you better than anyone and this is definitely not you."
"I know it's not me," Quinn began talking quietly before leaning her head on Santana's shoulder, "and I couldn't even tell Rachel the real reason because I'm not ready to get into it."
Running her fingers through Quinn's hair, Santana nodded her head in understanding. She knew there was a reason behind it and Quinn practically just proved to her that there was, even though she didn't know what it was yet. Quinn had been there for her through a lot and now it was her turn. Quinn usually went to Rachel since the brunette was her best friend's rock but this time it was different. This was something Quinn felt like she couldn't tell her girlfriend, well ex girlfriend now. It must be serious.
"Okay, well just tell me then. Rachel isn't here, it's just us."
"I know, it's what makes it easier to tell you." Quinn admitted sitting up looking at her best friend. "My parents are getting separated officially."
Looking at Quinn in shock, Santana leant her arm on the back of the bench. "What? Your parents seemed so solid."
"Exactly, they were always solid which is what made it easier for me to think that Rachel and I would be happy together, but now..."Quinn eased off shaking her head. "Relationships don't last, Santana. Someone always hurts the other person which is why I got drunk and cheated on Rachel. Someone kissed me and I didn't pull away because I knew it was only a matter of time before I hurt her properly."
"Wait. Someone kissed you?" Santana asked for confirmation watching Quinn nod her head. "Oh my god, I thought you went out and cheated on her or something! This is definitely not as bad as I thought, which is a relief."
"I do love her Santana, I'm not an idiot." Quinn responded sighing. "I just now don't believe that someone can love you forever. They give up on you, or get bored. That's why I didn't stop them from kissing me. I knew something bad was bound to happen so why not let it happen now instead of after I had fallen for her even more and could get even more hurt."
Santana looked from Quinn to the pond. "Quinn, why do you think I waited for Brittany to be ready?"
"What?" The blonde asked turning her head to look at her best friend.
"Why do you think I waited for Brittany when I could have gone out and found someone without everything that she had going on?" Santana asked looking back at Quinn. "Why do you think I took the time to help Brittany?"
"Because you began to like her more than a friend."
"There is that, yes, but no." Santana responded giving Quinn a smile. "Brittany isn't just anyone to me, she's more than that. She's everything. When I started to get to know her, I knew that she was worth it. I knew that I would rather make the effort, try and have it hard with her than have it easy with someone else that I would probably like for about a month before getting bored. The best relationships you have in life aren't the easiest ones. They are the ones where you need to make a choice whether to have it easy or make the effort. It just depends which you would rather do."
Looking away from Santana, Quinn looked back down at her lap. "Santana, what are you trying to say exactly?"
"I'm trying to say that sometimes the best relationships require work." Santana explained lifting her best friend's head. "You can't expect a perfect relationship, we're not in a fairytale. If Rachel is worth it to you then work at it. Yes, your parents relationship didn't work out in the end, but I can guarantee they worked at it every day. Wouldn't you rather have that love now than stay single and always wonder what could have happened?"
"I don't want to end up hurting her worse in the future. She deserves everything." Quinn said sighing.
"No, Quinn. What Rachel deserves is you and deep down you know it too."
Quinn nodded her head before the both of them sat in silence together whilst she pondered over what was just said. She knew Santana was right, of course she did, but she was just having a hard time believing it. She knew talking to Rachel would help but she wasn't sure she was ready for that either.
"I know you're right, Santana."
"Of course I'm right, Quinn." Santana said smirking. "I'm always right. But the question you really need to be asking yourself is, what are you going to do about it?"
Nodding her head, Quinn looked at the pond where the ducks were swimming around together before turning her head to look at Santana.
"Well I guess we need to get back to Rachel's house so I can talk to her and explain."
Santana smiled before getting up holding her hand out helping Quinn up. "Then let's get going."
The both of them were about to go before Quinn put her hand on Santana's chest stopping her from walking. Santana fused her eyebrows together in confusion trying to figure out the reason behind them stopping at a halt. She looked around as though the reason was around them but with nothing there she had no idea why they had stopped. Unless Quinn had changed her mind...
"Don't tell me you have changed your mind, Quinn." Santana said with a sigh folding her arms looking at her best friend. "You have to-"
"We aren't stopping because I've changed my mind, Santana. We have a subject we need to address."
Raising her eyebrow, the Latina looked at Quinn in confusion. "And what matter could we possibly need to address at this second?"
"The fact that you are in love with Brittany Pierce."
Santana's eyes widened. How could she possibly know that? Heck, she didn't even know if she loved Brittany or not. Yes, she cared about Brittany deeply but since when did that mean she loved her? Yes, Brittany was funny, kind, caring, a great dancer, had the best personality she had ever met, a great kisser, gave the best hugs in the world and let's not forget that her eyes were such a beautiful ocean blue she could look into them for ages, however, since when did that mean that she was in love with her?
"I am not in love with Brittany." Santana mumbled folding her arms. "I like her, yes, but that doesn't mean I love her."
Quinn smirked. "Who is the first person you think of when you wake up?"
"Brittany."
"Okay, and who is the last person you think of when you go to bed at night?" Quinn asked, even though she knew the answer already. She just wanted Santana to finally admit it.
"Brittany. What are these questions even about?" Santana asked
"Do you think long term?"
Santana sighed in frustration. "Yes, of course I think long term because Brittany is the one thing this year that has made everyday going to school so much easier. Everything is easier because she is right there beside me. I don't get why you are talking about Brittany and I when we have to fix you and Rachel."
Quinn smiled before nodding her head. "Okay, you're right. Let's get back and fix things."
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"You know I've actually really missed this."
Rachel and Brittany were sat watching The L Word eating popcorn together as well as a majority of other drinks and snacks. Since they were young they had always enjoyed their best friend time together and since Rachel was having a terrible time with what happened with Quinn, Brittany wanted to make sure they did everything Rachel loved doing. She had even tried to not bring anything couple related into it but, obviously, there were couples in TV shows so she couldn't eliminate everything.
"I've missed this too, Rachel. I'm glad that even after all we've been through we are still best friends."
Rachel nodded in agreement. "I'm glad we are too. You are a lot better off now than you were when you first moved schools and I am so proud of you."
Brittany smiled looking at her best friend before pulling Rachel in for a hug. She chuckled when she heard Rachel gasp in surprise and she didn't blame her. She was in shock herself but recently it was as though she wasn't as scared anymore. Yes, something bad in the past happened to her brother and she would never forget that, however, life does move on and recently she has only come to terms with it. If Zack was the one who was still alive she would want him to continue living so maybe it was about time she did. Brittany smiled at her accomplishment before pulling away seeing the shocked look on Rachel's face before she was pulled back in for another hug. It was about time she started hugging her best friend again.
"God I have missed this so much, Brittany." Rachel cried before actually bursting into tears; crying into her chest whilst she stroked her hair. Brittany knew Rachel had waited to do this for so long and now Brittany was so happy she could actually comfort her friends again. She wanted to be a better friend so now maybe she could be. Pulling away Brittany wiped Rachel's tears away.
"You will be okay, Rachel." Brittany assured the brunette with a smile. "You are a strong person and even though things are bad now they won't stay bad forever. They will get better."
Nodding her head, Rachel wiped her tears away. "I know I just...why would she do this?"
"You cheated on her though." Brittany reminded her friend who tensed at the mention of it. Crap, she must have forgotten that part. "I'm guessing you forgot that part."
"We weren't even properly together when I did that. I mean we were seeing each other I guess but we weren't dating or anything like that."
"That doesn't make it okay. Quinn is clearly going through something right now." Brittany said.
Rachel looked at her in surprise. "No less than an hour ago you were yelling at her for cheating on me and let's not forget me for defending her. Now here you are defending her actions yourself."
Sighing Brittany nodded in agreement. It was true, she was now defending Quinn's actions but after calming down it allowed her to think logically and there was no way Quinn would cheat on her best friend without a logical reason. Heck, it might not even be that big of a deal since she highly doubted Quinn went out and slept with someone else.
"I know but I've gotten to know Quinn and she really does love you. Something must be going on that made her do something like that."
Rachel sighed in frustration. Brittany was her best friend meaning she was supposed to be on her side of things but there she was defending her ex girlfriend. That definitely couldn't be right. She rolled her eyes looking back at the TV before deciding to stand up from the sofa completely. A drink of water might help her.
"Where are you going?" Brittany sighed to her standing up too.
Turning to face Brittany, Rachel had a look of annoyance upon her face. "You do realise as my best friend it is your job to be on my side, right?"
"Of course I know that, Rachel. I will always be on your side!" Brittany responded defending herself.
"Then be on my side instead of defending her!" Rachel snapped before walking out of the room. Brittany sighed before sitting down again looking at the TV.
"Knowing her is so hard sometimes." Brittany mumbled out loud to herself without realising shaking her head.
Brittany was just about to get up when she felt hands on her shoulders pulling her back against the couch and soft lips against hers. She couldn't help but smile knowing exactly who that was before moving a hand to the back of her girlfriend's neck kissing the girl back.
"Guys get a room at least." Quinn groaned before sitting in the armchair. "Where's Rachel?"
Shrugging Brittany moved kneeling on the couch wrapping her arms around Santana's neck kissing her deeper pulling as close as she could with the couch in the way. She shivered when she felt Santana's fingers go up and down her spine with a feeling she had never felt before. Arousal was it? She had never been turned on by another person before. She smiled into the kiss before pulling away to look at her gorgeous girlfriend. Yeah, she was pretty lucky.
"What?" Santana asked with a shy smile on her face.
Brittany smiled back. "I'm the luckiest person alive to have a girlfriend like you."
Santana's eyes widened as did Quinn's. Brittany looked at the both of them confused not realising, yet again, what she had just done. It was as though all the anxiety she had felt had just disappeared and her voice didn't want to be hidden anymore. Brittany didn't realise she had just spoken for the second time, but it was as though it was natural like it was for anyone else. Was she actually better now? Brittany knew she still had a while to go yet.
"Say that again." Santana requested looking at her with a grin upon her face.
Brittany raised her eyebrow at Santana in confusion. "What? That I'm the luckiest person alive to have you as a girlfriend? Were you not looking at my hands the first time? Because that is kind of rude, baby."
Santana's face lit up again when she heard Brittany's voice. She had never heard it before and even though she had imagined what she sounded like it could never beat the real thing. She had the most angelic voice she had ever heard. It was soft, warm and sexy all at the same time. Did Brittany not realise she was speaking?
"Honey, look at your hands when you speak. This is you. You are actually speaking out loud for the first time in so long!" Santana exclaimed holding Brittany's wrists in excitement.
Shaking her head Brittany decided to test it out. "Okay I guess I can look at my hands as I speak to you, however..." Brittany faded off when she saw her hands weren't in fact moving. Santana was holding them gently in her hands and she had been speaking with her voice. How could she not have realised?
Before Brittany could stop herself she took hold of Santana's jacket pulling her into a passionate kiss. She had never been so thankful to have someone in her life that had helped her as much as Santana had. She could now touch others and her voice had come out of hiding. She felt tears on her face and even though she couldn't tell if they were hers or Santana's, it didn't matter. She moved her lips along with Santana's deepening the kiss sliding her tongue into her girlfriend's mouth moving it with hers. She never wanted to let this girl go; she would definitely make sure this relationship went the distance.
"Guys, you aren't alone in here so pack it in." Rachel said when she saw what was going on in the living room.
Quinn sighed shaking her head. "There's no point, they'll be like that for ages. Brittany just spoke for the first time in years and apparently the only way to celebrate is to make out with one another."
"What?" Rachel asked looking at her ex girlfriend in shock. "Brittany spoke?"
Nodding her head, Quinn smiled. "Yeah, she did. For some reason she didn't realise though. It was as though her voice escaped the cage it had been in for years and it didn't want to be hidden any longer. She really does have a lovely voice."
Folding her arms watching her best friend celebrate with her girlfriend, Rachel smiled. "Santana really has made her better. All this progress in a few months should be impossible, but somehow Brittany managed it."
"Yeah. She really did." Quinn agreed nodding her head. "Well I don't particularly want to sit here watching them make out, so did you wanna go somewhere and talk? I want to explain myself and yes there is an actual reason behind what I did."
Rachel looked down at her girlfriend before nodding her head. "Whatever you say won't change the fact that you cheated but so did I in the past so it counteracts itself anyway. I love you and nothing will change that."
Smiling, Quinn nods her head. "I know but it was still wrong."
"Then let's talk."
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The sun was setting in Ohio; Brittany and Santana had decided to take a walk through the park before it got too dark. It had been an amazing afternoon for the both of them. They had the longest conversation either of them had ever had in their lives just talking about anything. They just wanted to talk for hours without any interruption, so that's what they decided to do. Of course they both had the fear that this talking Brittany was only temporary, however, they said that about her not being able to touch other people and she did that with Rachel earlier on that day so who knew? Did they really want to know? No. They were going to enjoy it whilst it lasted whether it was temporary or permanent.
"You have a beautiful voice." Santana said resting her head against Brittany's arm whilst they walked. "Have I mentioned that?"
Brittany chuckled. "Only about five or six times. It's okay, I like hearing it."
"I just can't believe what kind of day this has been. I've been imagining this day for a long time and now it's here I don't know what to do with myself." Santana responded with a contented sigh.
"Me too." Brittany whispered looking down at her girlfriend before stopping an turning to look at Santana. "If this doesn't last though...you will still want to be with me, right?"
"Well I certainly didn't fall for you because of your voice, Britt." Santana reminded her with a chuckle which made Brittany nod her head in response. "Look, even if this day is only going to happen today, then so be it. I will still want to be with you whether you are mute, blind, deaf, heck I'm pretty sure I'd still want to be with you even if you were insane."
Brittany raised her eyebrow with a smirk on her face. "In a crazy house and everything?"
"With a straitjacket."
The blonde nodded her head, putting her hands in her pockets biting her lip struggling to contain the smile. "I think I'd look pretty good in one of them."
"You would look better than good. You'd look hot." Santana corrected her pulling her girlfriend towards her. "Do you feel better now?"
"I do feel a bit better but a kiss might make me feel a lot better." Brittany said with a small smile.
Santana laughed before kissing her softly. "Don't you want to go and talk to your parents, babe?"
The blonde's body stiffened. "I don't know if I want to go and talk to them just yet. They'll be so happy that I've been talking but what if it doesn't last? They'll stop trying again and it'll go back to the way it was before."
"You don't know that." Santana said trying to sympathise.
"I know I don't but neither do you. I could wake up and have the ability to talk taken just as quickly. Just because I can talk today and feel happy about it doesn't mean it'll happen for the rest of my life."
Santana didn't know what to say. Sure she was happy that her girlfriend was able to talk today but maybe Brittany was right. Maybe this wouldn't last forever and they would go back to signing to each other once again. It wouldn't be the end of the world or anything but still. She liked being able to talk face to face with her girlfriend; sitting and hearing her voice was the best thing she had experienced. If she was being honest, Brittany was her first ever girlfriend. Yes, she had slept with girls before but never dated any. It actually made her nervous even thinking about dating anyone but for some reason Brittany made her feel calm. Content. She made her feel like she could do anything and she had never felt that way about any other person before. Was it scary? Yes. But it just made Santana want to try with Brittany even more.
"I'm going to come with you to tell your parents."
Brittany pulled back and sighed. "Santana, you just aren't hearing me. I said-"
Santana put her hand up to stop the blonde. "I heard what you said and I'm telling you I'm coming with you to tell your parents. If we don't go now, you won't ever tell them because you're too scared that they'll give up trying if this is permanent."
"That is literally what I said but that doesn't have anything to do with-"
"Yes it does." Santana butted in. "You have to tell them because they are your parents and they love you to pieces. I have heard the way your mother talks about you and she adores you, Brittany. You are telling your parents. They deserve to see this miracle as much as me or Rachel. As a matter of fact, they deserve to see this way more than Rachel and I."
Sighing Brittany nodded knowing her girlfriend was right. Santana made good points and she believed them too. Her parents had lived their whole lives trying to help her after Zack died without any thought to themselves and how they would grieve and now since she was talking again she should go and tell her parents about it. She knew they would be extremely happy about it, but she was worried that would be all they were excited about. That she could talk and be 'normal' again. She didn't want to think that way but what other way was she meant to think? Her relationship with her parents hadn't exactly been the best over the years.
"Fine, we'll go and see my parents." Brittany sighed again, giving into her girlfriend's points. "But we aren't staying long."
"That's completely fine by me." Santana spoke grinning before pecking Brittany on the lips happily. "You won't regret it, baby, I swear."
Brittany gave her girlfriend an amused look before folding her arms. "You didn't think that was it, did you? That you got what you wanted and you won? No, that isn't the way it works."
Looking at her girlfriend, Santana knew she had something planned and that kind of scared her a little. "What do you want exactly? Kisses? Dates? Hugs? Make out sessions?"
"I get those as your girlfriend anyway." Brittany responded with a laugh pulling Santana against her. "No, I want to meet your parents."
Whoa okay, that was unexpected. Santana knew this would happen at some point, but right now? No, she did not want them going over and her parents embarrassing her, which they would. They had a million baby pictures of her and a lot of embarrassing stories. She didn't want that happening.
"Maybe we could go another time? Like, you know, in five years time?" Santana suggested with a smile. "Yeah, that sounds perfect because you will know everything about me by that point and I can't get embarrassed because you'll already know everything. A very good plan, if I do say so myself."
Brittany couldn't help but giggle at the way Santana was acting. It was clear that she didn't want to be embarrassed by her parents since she was her girlfriend after all but don't all parents embarrass their kids? It was a fact of life pretty much but it was a lovely sentiment that Santana believed they would be together five years from now. It actually made her whole body warm up.
"I'm your girlfriend so yes, I might be shown some baby pictures and told embarrassing stories about you, but at some point in our lives I will know everything embarrassing about you anyway. We've known each other for months and I've not once met your parents so, as your girlfriend, I want to meet them." Brittany explained brushing hair out of Santana's face before kissing her cheek. "We don't need to be there any longer than an hour."
"Britt...I don't know..."
Brittany wasn't usually a bond person, as a matter of fact she was never a bold person due to her mutism throughout the years, but today was different. Just by talking Brittany had a new found confidence within herself. She liked it very much actually which was why she really hoped this was permanent. She didn't feel scared anymore; she knew her brother was watching over her and would want this for her so why shouldn't she be enjoying the life she had? She had a beautiful girlfriend, great friends and a family that...well that needs improvement obviously, but still. An idea popped into Brittany's head making her smirk. She moved her arms around Santana's waist resting them on her lower back before kissing her a soft kiss. Hard enough for her to feel it but soft enough to make Santana want more. Her lips travelled to her cheek before beginning a trail of kisses towards her ear. She smiled when she felt Santana shiver against her. Opening her eyes she saw a woman looking at the both of them but all it did was make her smirk before stopping at Santana's ear to whisper into it.
"Earlier when you came to Rachel's with Quinn and we kissed you turned me on so much."
She felt Santana's grip on her arms tighten. "It did?"
"Oh yeah the more we kissed the wetter I got." Brittany continued tracing her lips over Santana's ear hearing the change in Santana's breathing. "I can continue and then pull away once you're all worked up or you can just say yes to going to your parents and I'll stop."
"Okay! Okay, we can go." Santana breathed pulling back from Brittany hitting her in the chest. "That was an awful way to convince me."
Brittany laughed kissing Santana's cheek. " I knew you would say yes."
"Where did that come from?" Santana asked running her fingers through her hair. "I have never once even seen you interested in dirty talk."
Shrugging, Brittany didn't have a clue. She didn't even mean to talk dirty, it just came out. To be fair as a mute you don't have a lot of opportunity to talk dirty but since being with Santana, she had looked up dirty talk in hope that one day she could use it. Clearly she had done well with what she had read.
"I haven't spoken in years, baby. I haven't had the chance to use it until today. It gives me ideas for the future though." Brittany teased winking at the Latina. "So, my house then yours?"
Santana laughed before nodding her head. "What other choice do I have?"
"Well you have as many choices as you want. We could go back to mine, cuddle in bed for a bit until my parents get home, then tell them before going round to yours." Brittany suggested taking Santana's hand whilst they began walking again. "Or we can go straight to your house, talk to your parents for a bit then go to mine. Or we could even go back to mine to hang out and wait until tomorrow to deal with our parents. Maybe we could even-"
Santana threw her hand over Brittany's mouth, laughing. "Okay, I get it sweetie. I have a lot of choices. I say we go back to yours to hang out before your parents come home."
"Then go to your parents."
Sighing Santana nodded removing her hand from Brittany's mouth. "Then we go to my parents, yes."
So it's sorted. We can go make out in my room." Brittany teased winking before making their way towards her house.
Santana chuckled before nodding her head. "Yeah, why not? We can even stick a movie on in the background so if your parents hear us they'll think we're just watching a movie."
"I'm dating a genius!"
Shaking her head, Santana smiled leaning her head against Brittany's shoulder. "No. I'm the one dating a genius."
Brittany beamed without realising whilst they continued to walk. Santana sure did know how to make a girl feel better about herself. She was definitely a lucky girl to be the girlfriend of Santana Lopez.