Disclaimer: I Don't Own Glee
Not many chapters left guys! This was definitely one of my favourite chapters to write since it was so much fun to write! I hope you like it as much as I enjoyed reading it! I was thinking that I may possibly write a sequal to this story if anyone was interested, otherwise I'll just write an epilogue. Which one would you all prefer? Review with either Sequal or Epilogue so I can see who is interested in what. I just don't think I'm ready to let this story go yet! Anyway enjoy this chapter!
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It was weird being home alone but her parents had gone out to dinner and Santana already had plans since her brother was visiting which only happens once every few months. The only thing she really had to do was her homework which she was attempting at the current moment. Sadie always checked it after it had been marked so she knew where she had gone wrong. She had actually gotten pretty good at her writing even though it still needed improvement. She could call Rachel but with what she was going through with Quinn she didn't tend to answer her phone. It had been three days since the break up and she had only just gotten worse from when it happened. Not that she blamed the girl or anything because if she had been in that situation it would have broken her too. She felt really bad for Rachel considering what she had been through. Santana had been assuring her that everything would turn out okay so, for the time being anyway, she would listen to her girlfriend.
Looking up something caught Brittany's eye from the shelf, causing her to stand up and walk towards it. Taking the object from the shelf she smiled when she was holding the photo frame Quinn had bought her for her birthday with a picture of all her friends inside it. Just looking at the picture made her smile just because she had never had friends before starting the school. Everything always came back to it which made her grateful for the decision she made. One she knew she couldn't regret no matter how hard she tried. The fact was even at school she was doing well too. She was able to talk to teachers, have them help her in class if she needed it as well as answer questions when she felt up for it. As you can imagine everyone was shocked by who she had transformed into but she liked it. Yes she had girls and guys not being shy about checking her out now with this new found confidence she had but she didn't mind. Well, she didn't. Santana on the other hand had a huge problem with it, but once Brittany reminded her who was there when she needed someone the most, it usually calmed her down.
The ring of the doorbell brought her out of her thoughts surprising her. Who could that be when everyone she knew was busy? Still, Brittany walked downstairs unlocking the door to reveal Sam standing there. Well this was a surprise seeing as she doesn't remember showing him where she lived but still.
"Hey Sam." Brittany greeted with a smile. "What's up?"
"So it is true. You have gotten over your fear of talking." Sam said with a smile. "Sorry I've just been off sick the past few days and I only just got a message about the news so I had to come and see you."
Chuckling Brittany nodded opening the door wider to let Sam inside. "Yeah it's true. It's been an experience just using my voice again. I find myself just wanting to stop talking but I push myself through it and rest my voice at night. Well, after years of not using it I guess it doesn't really need resting."
Sam nodded sitting down in the armchair allowing Brittany to close the door behind them before joining him in the living room.
"I bet it's great being able to talk to others again."
"It is! You wouldn't believe how hard it is to communicate by being terrified of the thought of talking so to be able to actually communicate properly with others is great." Brittany explained. "I mean, I'm not perfect since I still suffer with dyslexia but aside from that I feel pretty good. Everyone has something they are ashamed about. No one is perfect."
"Very true. So I assume you have an actual reason for being here."
Sam nodded his head. "Yes actually. Can you help me with my Glee performance? I've heard you're a good dancer and that's what I need help with. I have the song but I'm just no good with the dancing part."
"How'd you know I was good at dancing?" Brittany asked. "Did I tell you?"
Sam shook his head. "Nah Quinn mentioned that you're a good dancer who got told by Santana. So...can you help me?"
Brittany was quite flattered at the thought of being asked since she knew he could have asked someone like Mike who she knew was in Glee Club already. Yes she was a good dancer but she never expected someone to come to her about it. Plus by helping him it may be her way of joining Glee Club. Santana and Rachel were part of the club so maybe it was time she joined too. She knew it would be fun and she could dance as much as she wanted with the added points of getting appreciated for doing it by other people. Not that she needed it or anything, it would just be nice. There was also the fact that she was basically friends with everyone in there already so it would be like having a class with your friends. What better way to spend an hour or two a day?
"Okay sure even though I've never really danced in front of people before." Brittany stated truthfully with a small smile. "When is your performance?"
"Tomorrow. I know it's late notice but I just really want to make it good." Sam said. "And when I heard you were a good dancer I thought I'd ask you. You can even watch me if you want?"
"I'd love to! Okay we have a lot of work to do, so what song have you picked?"
Sam smiled. "Thanks so much! Okay, so I picked Stevie Wonder's 'I Wish'. It's kind of why I need help. I usually just play my guitar but I want to do something different this time. I want to impress everyone."
"That's actually perfect because it's such an upbeat song to dance to. However, I want you to know that I worked hard to get to the point where I am due to the fact that I have dyslexia but the good thing is I know how to teach you to make it easier for you." Brittany explained. "There is a dance studio I like to go to which is down the road from here so how about we go there now and practice? Unless you have other plans of course."
Sam shook his head standing up. "Let's go. I want Glee Club to see me for more than just a guy with a guitar who does awesome impressions."
"Then it's sorted. Let's get a move on."
Brittany and Sam made their way out of the house walking to the studio. If she was being honest with herself, Brittany was nervous. She had never danced in front of anyone, aside from that time Santana saw her, so she didn't know if she was going to impress Sam or show him she was bad. Okay, she was good but he might not think so. She still got nervous and scared when it came to her dancing in case she wasn't good enough. It was one thing she was scared of. Not being as good as she personally thinks she is. Since growing up she hated being around other people she learnt all her moves from just watching videos on the internet and music videos. The fact that everything she knew she taught herself was saying something. One thing she didn't want to do is let Sam down so she would do her best to make it the best damn routine she had ever done. She wanted everyone to be impressed with him and that was what was going to happen. They had until tomorrow so it was best to get started straight away.
Walking inside the studio Brittany got her iPod docking station, which she only kept at the studio since she didn't need it at home, out from the cupboard plugging her iPod in before changing into some suitable clothes for dancing and throwing some at Sam.
"You can't dance like that today." Brittany stated after seeing the confused look on Sam's face. "We are going to be here for a while which means getting sweaty and you don't want your good clothes smelling of sweat."
Sam bit his lip nervously. "You can definitely teach me, right?"
"Just trust me, okay?" Brittany said with a smile. "I taught myself from the age of three and if I can teach myself then I can teach someone else, especially since things usually confuse me easily."
"Okay, let's get started." Sam replied changing his clothes before putting his casual clothes on the floor beside the wall. "I'm ready."
Smiling, Brittany nodded turning the song on moving into the middle of the room to start.
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When Brittany began dancing she started to become invested in it so it was a surprise to her when her phone began ringing. Looking at the time she had noticed that they had been at the studio for longer than six hours, however, Sam was doing very well. The first two hours or so were terrible since Sam had trouble distinguishing his lefts from his rights, which Brittany understood since she was the same, but from around the third hour Sam started to pick up the moves better. He still struggled a little bit but he was getting there.
"Okay take five. You deserve it." Brittany said patting his shoulder before jogging to answer her phone. "Hello?"
"Hey babe! I haven't heard from you so I thought I'd call to check that you're okay."
Brittany couldn't stop a smile creeping up on her face. "Hey baby. I'm good thank you. I've just been dancing. You know how I get."
"I do, yes. Sorry we couldn't hang out today. I've just been catching up with my brother."
Picking up a bottle of water, Brittany drank half a bottle in one go before throwing one to Sam. "Oh no don't apologise. I've been kind of busy myself anyway and I don't think I'll be able to see you tomorrow morning either. But I'll definitely see you at school."
"That's fine I think Julian is taking me anyway. Are you free after school? I mean, I have Glee Club at three for an hour but aside from that I'm free."
"Sure, I'll see you then, babe. Sweet dreams."
"Sweet dreams to you too. Goodnight beautiful."
"Night gorgeous." Brittany ended before hanging up turning back to Sam. "Want to keep going for another hour or do you want to go home and pick up where we left off tomorrow?"
"I want to keep going." Sam said with confidence. "I need to get this right for tomorrow. I know Glee Club isn't until three, but we have lessons most of the day tomorrow. Plus I'm not even sure if we'll have space to practice in private there."
Brittany walked up to Sam putting her hands on his shoulders. "You can do this. When you believe in something enough you can do it. I believe in you and you know I'm going to be there to watch you. You are doing so well."
Sam raised his head slightly. "You think?"
"I know because I've been the one teaching you." Brittany said in response before turning the song back on. "As long as you remember left, right, left, right, turn then you have the whole routine under wraps. It's only the beginning you seem to be struggling with."
"Lefts and rights." Sam chuckled shrugging his shoulders. "They confuse me."
"I'm not judging you. You ready? We have an hour left in here before we're kicked out."
Sam nodded his head. "Let's do this."
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It had been weird walking into school without Santana, however, Sam had messaged her saying he wanted to put extra practice in so they met up early to practice in the choir room. It allowed Brittany to assess how much space he actually had t dance in. Luckily it was a reasonable amount which made the routine fit perfectly. They had gone through the routine a couple of times that morning just so Sam knew what he was going to be doing by himself in front of the Glee Club. She left her parents a message to warn them about being late since she wasn't going to be leaving the school until at least quarter past four at the earliest. She was planning on congratulating Sam whether it went well or bad. Everyone needed to hear that when they had learnt something just so they didn't lose their confidence. Brittany agreed with that theory.
Since the bell went off a couple of minutes ago everyone was making their way to their lessons however since Sadie was sick she didn't have that. Sam had another lesson so he went to that which left Brittany by herself. She was sat in the choir room on one of the back seats looking around the room. It seemed like a safe space actually and it was a reasonable size too. Peaceful was a word she would definitely use too. She remembered the first time she entered this room. She hadn't been at the school long and she had decided to be brave and dance around the room since she didn't think anyone was watching. She took everything in from the piano to the trophies in the cabinets. The whole room was family like. You could feel it when you walked in. Standing up, Brittany walked to one of the cabinets looking at the trophies in there. There were a few first place trophies in there which had to be a good sign as well as a few second place ones too.
Something caught her eye in the corner of the room. There was a plaque on the wall of a woman from what she could see. Walking over, Brittany read what was engraved on it.
"By its very definition, Glee is about opening yourself up to joy." Brittany read aloud to herself. "Huh. Well that kind of makes sense."
"Well I'm glad somebody in this room understands it." A voice from behind her spoke aloud. Brittany turned around to see a teacher stood there. "None of the other kids get it."
Brittany pressed her lips together nodding. "Glee, genuinely, is about happiness in my opinion. You know, like gleeful meaning triumphantly joyful. It's not hard to understand. I read that in a book once."
The teacher looked impressed nodding his head. "That's exactly it. Try explaining that to some of my students in Glee. Sorry, I should really introduce myself. Mr Schuester but everyone calls me Mr Schue. I'm the Glee director for this school."
"Brittany Pierce but everyone generally calls me Britt. I just kind of wandered in here." Brittany responded letting out a small laugh. "I've been helping Sam with his Glee assignment this week."
Mr Schue looked at the blonde impressed. "Really? He said he was doing something different."
"It's definitely different." Brittany said laughing. "But he's worked really hard on it so hopefully you'll all like it."
"I'm sure it will be." Mr Schue said nodding his head. "Have you thought about joining the Glee club, Brittany?"
Shrugging her shoulders, Brittany nodded her head before putting her hands in her pockets. "I have but I just don't think it's my scene. Santana likes it here though and you give her somewhere safe to be and I appreciate that. I just honestly can't see myself being in here."
Well that was a complete lie. Brittany could see herself being in here but right now she didn't want to think about it. Yes she had helped Santana with Glee assignments before, but only by helping pick a song. She couldn't join and do her own thing in here. If there was a group of students that stuck up for one another then that's great. When she first started she wanted to, but at the moment it just wasn't for her. Plus, Mike Chang was already a good dancer and they didn't need more than one. It would be like competition or something.
"She's really good. You should come and watch sometime."
Brittany smiled. "I plan to. I'm watching Sam's performance later so I'll be joining you for, like, five minutes then I have somewhere to be."
"Well it will be a joy to see what you and Sam came up with." Mr Schue said with a smile before the bell rang. "Wow is that the time already? I need to be somewhere so I'll see you later in Glee. It was nice to meet you."
Brittany smiled before turning back to the plaque once Mr Schue left the room. Everyone was leaving their classrooms so she decided to go and find her girlfriend. She was in one of the rooms around here which was why she chose the choir room to stay in for her free period. She turned round to go through the other door when she was met with Santana appearing in the doorway. Smiling, Brittany made her way over wrapping her arms around her in a hug. Pulling back slightly she pecked her on the lips.
"Hey you."
Santana smiled moving her arms around Brittany's neck. "Hey yourself. Had fun?"
Brittany shrugged. "Not really, but it's been okay. Mr Schue got into a conversation with me about Glee and asked me if I thought about joining."
"What did you say?" Santana asked, secretly hoping she said yes. Since Brittany's timetable got altered a few weeks after she got here, they've not been in many lessons together.
"I said not right now. I was all for it when I started but now I really just don't feel like it." Brittany answered. "I'm glad you feel safe here though."
"I do and you could too."
Shaking her head, Brittany didn't agree. Yes she would feel safe but she would never want to perform since she kind of felt that her dancing was personal. It was something she enjoyed doing without everyone watching and even though she had taught Sam to dance, she wasn't performing or anything. She didn't want that kind of pressure on herself. Trying to distract herself from the conversation she looked around and notice the band standing in the corner.
"Do they stay there all the time?" Brittany asked, motioning to the band which caused Santana to glance in their direction too before shrugging her shoulders.
"I've never seen them not here, so maybe."
Brittany had an idea, but it would have to wait until later. This was something she had to plan. "Fair enough. Ready for lunch?"
Taking her hand, Santana nodded. "Lead the way."
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It was three o'clock before she knew it she was sat in the choir room in the corner with all of the other Glee kids. They were all chatting amongst themselves and even though she knew them, she didn't really know them that well. Well, not enough to talk to them freely in conversation. It didn't take her long before she noticed Sam walk in with a nervous look on his face. She knew she had to calm him down somehow or his performance wouldn't go that well. Standing up, she walked over to him putting her hands on his shoulders.
"It will be fine, Sam."
He nodded his head. "I know I'm just not a good of a dancer as you."
Brittany chuckled. "Well that's true but I've been dancing for years. You can't be amazing with eight hours practice. You can do this. I believe in you."
Sam nodded his head and with that Brittany sat back down when she noticed Santana had moved to sit beside her. Chuckling she put her arm around the back of Santana's chair.
"Well, look who it is." Brittany said with a smirk. "Santana Lopez. I've heard lot about you."
Santana looked at her girlfriend before chuckling. "Oh yeah? Like what?"
"Well for one I've heard you're a good kisser." Brittany teased moving closer. "Your girlfriend won't mind me borrowing your lips for two seconds, will she?"
"I'm sure she won't." Santana whispered kissing Brittany back when she felt lips on her own moving her hand up to cup her cheek when they pulled apart. "That was nice."
"Very nice." Brittany grinned, kissing her cheek looking at the front when Mr Schue asked for everyone's attention.
Mr Schue clapped his hands. "Okay guys, today Sam is going to perform something different for us than what he usually does so let's show him our support, okay? That means no laughing Puckerman."
"What's with the hate today?" Puck groaned folding his arms leaning back in his seat.
"Go ahead, Sam." Mr Schue said before sitting down.
Sa cleared his throat whispering to the band what song he wanted playing. He stood in the middle of the room clearing his throat before looking up at everyone. "Okay so I know that usually I just play my guitar but I wanted to show you that wasn't all I could do, so with Brittany's help I was able to come up with this number."
The band began to play and just when his cue came he just stood there in the middle of the room not moving. Brittany leant forward a bit waiting for him to start but he still didn't move. They had practiced this loads of times so why was he just stood there frozen like some kind of statue? Brittany stood up walking up to Sam looking at the bank to stop playing for a second.
"What's going on, Sam?" Brittany whispered. "You can do this."
Sam shook his head. "I can't. I can't do this. What if I mess up?"
"Who cares? Just start dancing and have fun. It's what you wanted, right? To show everyone you can be different." Brittany encouraged.
Sam bit his lip nervously taking a deep breath nodding. "Okay, but can you do it with me? I feel calmer when we're doing it together."
Brittany didn't plan on this happening. She was happy to watch but actually perform in front of other people? She had become good friends with Sam over the past few months, what, with them having Sadie's lesson together and the fact that they both had a learning difficulty made it easy to bond with him. Brittany knew how important this was for him so, without caring how she felt, she nodded her head. Well, it was time for people to judge her dancing. She took a step back looking at the audience once before pointing to the band. Sam let himself smile as the band began to play. Everyone else in the room was confused on what was happening until Brittany began dancing along with Sam. They had practiced the routine enough and now Brittany was up with Sam he remembered the routine better. He was actually getting into it when he began to sing.
Looking back on when I
Was a little nappy headed boy
Then my only worry
Was for Christmas what would be my toy
Even though we sometimes
Would not get a thing
We were happy with the
Joy the day would bring
Sneaking out the back door
To hang out with those hoodlum friends of mine, uh-woah
Greeted at the back door
With "boy thought I told you not to go outside"
Tryin' your best to bring the
Water to your eyes
Thinkin' it might stop her
From woopin' your behind
It was weird thinking this but she was actually enjoying herself. It was quite an energetic atmosphere and everyone had been cheering ever since they started. All the moves they had practiced were coming so naturally now that even performing in front of other people wasn't bothering her. She felt that everything she had missed out on when she hadn't been able to be around people was showing now. The way her body moved to the beat, how each move came so easily to her made her happy. She was moving across the floor, along with Sam of course, without a care in the world. She just wanted to dance and enjoy it. That was what she was doing. Dancing. Performing. Showing everyone what she could do along with how she had taught Sam the same moves. The both of them looked great and when she glanced at Sam whilst they danced she could tell he felt the same way.
I wish those days could come back once more
Why did those days ev-er have to go
I wish those days could come back once more
Why did those days ev-er have to go
Cause I love them so
Brother says he's tellin'
'Bout you playin' doctor with that girl
Just don't tell I'll give you
Anything you want in this whole wide world
Mama gives you money for Sunday school
You trade yours for candy after church is through
You nasty boy!
Brittany winked at her dance partner which made him grin but it didn't stop him from singing. Everyone was actually getting into it too. Dancing in their seats or standing up and moving around. Is this what Glee was? Just enjoying yourself? No pressure? If that was the case then why shouldn't she join? She could get used to this. Just dancing around the room having fun and the plus side? Santana was part of the club. If that wasn't a reason to join then she didn't know what was. Well the dancing part was pretty important but still. Throughout the dance all kinds of moves were being shown. Even a little bit of ballet was shown but one thing was for sure. People were able to tell she was a dancer. How could they not? Sam was doing pretty well doing dancing and singing at the same time too. Oh who was she kidding? They were doing an awesome job. She was kind of glad she could join in.
Teacher sends you to the principal's office down the hall
You grow up and learn that kinda thing ain't right
But while you were doin' it, it sure felt outta sight
I wish those days could come back once more
Why did those days ev-er have to go
I wish those days could come back once more
Why did those days ev-er have to go
Ow! Why did they have to go, yeah
Ooh, yeah, hooo, mhm, uuh
Oh, oh, yeah, hey, uh-woah
Do, do, do, do, do, do, do, do
The song came to an end but the room erupted in cheers. No one had expected that kind of routine clearly. She was proud of Sam for getting through it plus staying in sync with her at the same time. Yes he wasn't a dancer but for a singer he did pretty well. She walked up to Sam high fiving him with a smile before hugging him. Everyone in the room was stood up clapping and cheering. Well, aside from this boy in a wheelchair but that wasn't his fault. Smiling she pulled away from Sam looking in the direction of her girlfriend who was clapping with everyone else sending her a smile. Santana winked back with a smile in return.
"Guys, that was amazing!" Mr Schue exclaimed grinning at them. "Sam, that is what you call different I'm impressed! Brittany, I can't believe you taught him that. How long did it take?"
"Around eight hours, but saying that he did that well in that amount of time is impressive." Brittany stated, smiling in Sam's direction. "You did great. Really."
"Thank you Britt, and thank you Mr Schue."
The both of them sat down with Brittany sitting back next to Santana. The two girls looked at one another smiling.
"You know this confidence about you makes me even more proud of you." Santana said taking her hand. "Plus, it's kind of sexy."
"Kind of?" Brittany asked raising her eyebrow. "Only kind of?"
Santana chuckled. "Okay, it's very sexy. I love it and your dancing just blew me away."
Smiling Brittany kisses Santana's hand leaning back in her seat before wrapping an arm around her girlfriend who leaned against her resting her head on her shoulder. She did have stuff to do, but sticking around wouldn't be the worst thing in the world. As a matter of fact if this was the way the rest of the year was going to go then she felt pretty lucky. The way her life has transformed just from this school was extraordinary. Brittany looked at her girlfriend and couldn't believe how lucky she was. At this rate when it came to next year she would be going to college, which was an entirely different adventure altogether.
Glee Club was almost over by the looks of things which meant she could finally put her idea to good use. Smiling, Brittany whispered in Santana's ear.
"Stay behind with me after. I want to show you something."
Santana nodded sitting up when everyone else started to depart the room allowing herself to get more and more excited about what her girlfriend was going to show her. She loved anything from Brittany so whatever it was she knew she would love it.
Brittany stood up once everyone had left closing both choir room doors before leading Santana to the front row of chairs. She loved the feeling they got when they held each other's hand. Santana's hands were always so soft making them incredible to hold.
"What is this about, Britt?" Santana asked sitting down in the chair. "You literally isolated us in here."
Chuckling, Brittany nodded. "I did but that's because I have something to tell you, but this is the only private place I could think of."
"Okay. Well go ahead, baby." Brittany encouraged motioning for her to talk. "I'm all ears."
Brittany looked at her girlfriend and knew this had to be perfect. She couldn't just say it then have her tell other people she just blurted it out. It had to be a romantic story because that was what Santana deserved. She deserved romance, love, commitment as well as perfection. She might not be perfect but she knew Santana better than anyone. It was going to go well.
"Santana, you have been amazing." Brittany began smiling at her girlfriend. "Since I met you I have had nothing but support from you. When I struggled you were there, when I succeeded you were there and even when I didn't want anyone, you were still there. There is no one on this planet I respect more than you. Well, aside from Rachel, but you get my point. You gave me a chance when no one else did and you put the time in for me that I had only seen Rachel put in. Out of everyone in my life, I have wanted you with me since the day we met. Heck when I first saw you I thought you were the most gorgeous human being on the planet. That is why this is so hard for me to say." Brittany continued with a small chuckle, rubbing the back of her neck nervously.
"Britt, whatever you need to tell me just come out with it. I want to know what's on your mind." Santana said.
Brittany nodded walking over to Santana kneeling in front of her taking her hands in her own. She was so nervous right now since Santana could have a bad reaction, but she had to get out what she wanted to say. If she didn't, she knew she never would. Brittany took a deep breath before nodding and looking up meeting her gaze.
"I couldn't have gotten through the amount of stuff I did without you." Brittany admitted with a smile. "You have been there since day one and without you I wouldn't be who I am today. You are the reason I am talking, touching amongst many other things. My confidence comes from you, baby. I got up and danced for you and now, whenever I even talk, hug someone, shake someone's hand I think of you. I can't stop thinking about you. Your smile, your touch, the way you snore softly when you sleep, the way you look at me when you don't think I notice, even though I do and let's not forget that you text me every single morning, just so I have a message to wake up to from you when you're not with me. You are perfect Santana Lopez and I never want to be away from you. I always want you by my side so I can do all those things for you."
Santana's eyes widened. "Oh god, you're not proposing are you?"
Brittany chuckled shaking her head. "No, I would make your proposal extravagant and it would not be at school in the choir room."
"Then what are you trying to say?" Santana whispered looking into her girlfriend's ocean blue eyes.
Brittany smiled. "Santana Lopez, I am in love with you. I love you so much and I want to be with you for as long as you'll have me. You make my life better and I want to be by your side no matter what life throws at us. I just love you, Santana."
Santana's eyes went wide in shock. That was something she was not expecting to hear.
"Santana?" Brittany asked after a minute of no one saying anything. "Say something at least. Anything."
The two girls looked into each other's eyes with not one person saying a word.