Chapter 11: Gone

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"I love you Britt…and I am so so sorry" Santana said softly as she still couldn't contain her tears.

It'd been a few hours since Brittany had woken up. The doctors had to tell her what was going on and let her adjust before she could have visitors besides her parents. Brittany was awake and talking, but she wasn't one hundred percent there yet.

"Don't be sorry. I love you too Santana" Brittany said as she smiled. "Are you okay?"

"You're asking me if I'm okay? Baby, I'm fine. You have no idea how hard it was for me not to be here with you. I'm so happy you are awake!" Santana said as she smiled sweetly. She had never been so happy in her life. She was so worried she would never get to see the blond again, but here she was.

" This is all so weird. I thought I was okay. I remember running to you and the paramedics showing up, but everything went dark. I really don't like the dark San…" Brittany said. She was still groggy and couldn't quite grasp the situation.

"Aw, i know Britt. I'm here now. We're both here." Santana said. She lifted her girlfriend's hand and placed small kisses all over it.

"I'm glad you're here baby. I feel better already." Brittany said with a sweet smile.

" Me too." Santana said. She wanted so badly to lean forward and kiss her but she knew she couldn't. Her back was killing her just by sitting in the wheelchair. Also, she didn't want to let Brittany see the extent of her injuries. She was going to play it off as if she was just fine for now. The girl noticed Brittany's bright pink cast and on her right arm.

" Seriously though, are you okay? I saw you on the road Santana…. I saw you just laying there and I thought you were gone." Brittany said as she examined the small cut on Santana's forehead. She looked so good for being thrown from the car. Brittany remembered all of the blood and glass and couldn't believe that her girlfriend looked so normal after seeing her mangled body just a few days before.

Santana shifted uncomfortably trying to avoid the question. She finally responded, "Yes, I'm going to be fine. My injuries will heal just like yours will. Your pink cast is super cute by the way."

Brittany just squeezed Santana's hand tightly and gave her a loving look. "Thanks! I love you so much."

Santana smiled as the nurse entered the room and said " Hi, I'm sorry to interrupt but we have to take Brittany for some tests. You are more than welcome to come back a little later and visit though."

Brittany looked at Santana with a pout on her face. She then said " Can't I just go a little later? She just got here."

" No Britt you go. Its okay. I'll be here when you get back." Santana replied.

"San, please don't go." Brittany said as the nurse came and grabbed the back of her girlfriends wheelchair.

Santana felt her heart break a little as she saw the look on Brittany's face. She shifted her body to the edge of the chair and leaned down. She felt the pain shoot up her back but she didn't care. She leaned down and kissed Brittany tenderly then said " It's okay baby. I love you."

Brittany smiled then said. "You better be here as soon as Im done. Love you."

Santana nodded then shifted back in to the chair. Her back was radiating with pain and she tried her best not to show it on her face. She smiled one last time at the blond before the nurse wheeled her out of the room.

back in Santana's room a few hours later

Shit my back hurts so bad. This shit better heal fast otherwise Britt and I are going to have some serious issues getting our sweet lady kisses on 24/7. Im so glad she's okay. God, I love that girl more and more every day. She really is a fighter.

Santana's thoughts were interrupted by Quinn entering the room. "Hey stranger. I heard the good news!" she said as she skipped over to Santana's bed and hugged her.

"Ouch!" Santana yelled as Quinn quickly pulled away.

"Oh dammit, I'm sorry! I forgot!" the blond said as she covered her mouth.

"It's okay Fabray, just don't make a habit of it." Santana said as she sighed.

"So Brittany is awake? How is she?"

"Yep she's awake! And she's good, she isn't completely okay but its amazing how coherent she is."

"Wow, I'm so glad. I was so scared she wasn't going to wake up."

"Tell me about it." Santana said as she smiled. "I'm supposed to go see her once she gets done having those tests but it's been a few hours now."

"Im sure the nurse will come get you when she's back." Quinn replied.

"Ya you're right. I just cant wait to get back to her. I never want to leave her side again." Santana said.

Quinn just smiled back at her. Behind Quinn she heard footsteps. Santana looked over the blonds shoulder to see Brittany's mom. The tall blond woman approached the girls and as she got closer it was clear that she had been crying.

"Mrs. Pierce are you okay?" Quinn said as she turned around.

"I-I am so sorry girls. It's Brittany, she went in for test and had a seizure. They thought she was okay but she crashed again and they could't get her back. She's gone." Mrs. Pierce said.

"What do you mean gone?" Santana said as her hear drop. She felt her body shiver and she started to hyperventilate.

Quinn turned and ran to Santana and put her arms around the girl gently. Santana started to sob.

"She passed away." Mrs. Pierce said as she began to cry hysterically again.

"No, no, no, no…." Santana repeated.

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"Santana, wake up." Quinn said quietly.

"Brittany…" she yelled as she woke up and sat straight up. She screamed out in pain as the pain in her back became unbearable.

"Santana, calm down okay. You were asleep, it was just a nightmare." Quinn said as she gently helped the girl lay back down.

"Where is Brittany?" Santana said as she had tears streaming down her face. The tears were part fear and part pain.

"That's why I woke you up. The nurse said she was ready to see you when you woke up, but you've been passed out for hours. I figured if I had waited any longer, you would have killed me." Quinn replied.

Santana let out a sigh of relief then said,"Thank god. I just had the worst dream ever. I need to see her."

"Okay, I'll go get the nurse." Quinn said as she brushed the hair out of Santana's face then went to go get the woman.

The brunettes back was throbbing in pain and she was still struggling to find a steady breathing pattern. A few seconds later the nurse came in with the wheelchair. She helped Santana into the chair then wheeled her to Brittany's room. Quinn just decided to go back to the waiting room and occupy herself with her phone.

When Brittany saw her girlfriend enter the room she said, " Hiiiiii!" She had a huge grin on her face.

"Hi, beautiful." Santana said back.

The nurse gave Brittany a sweet look then said, " You two are so cute, and you also may be the luckiest girls in the world." The girls both smiled at her then the woman continued," If you want you can get in bed with her. I'll keep it a secret." She gestured to Santana.

"Really? Is that okay Britt?" Santana asked.

"Of course! Thanks nurse, you're the best!" Brittany said with a big smile.

The nurse helped Santana out of the chair and into Brittany's bed. The blond noticed that Santana was really struggling to move. Brittany extended her left arm and Santana cuddled in to it, making sure to lay flat on her back. She turned her head into the curve of Brittany's neck and she kissed her softly on the tender skin. The nurse was gone before either of them could say thank you.

"You're really hurt aren't you Santana?Why didn't you tell me?" Brittany said quietly.

" It's my back. I fractured it in a couple of places but it'll be fine. It's no big deal Britt, I just didn't want to upset you. It's really minor and it'll heal just fine." Santana said.

"I'm sorry you're hurting. I'm glad you're here though. I never want you to leave again." Brittany said.

"I'm not going anywhere Britt. It's you and me 'till the end." Santana replied. She turned her head just enough so she could kiss the other girl.

" I love you San."

"I love you too Britt."