I lay in the grass, the sun slowly warming my body through as I listened to the quiet hush of the wind through the trees. Everything around me was tranquil and calm, I took a deep sigh and sat up. Behind me stood a unfamiliar house, around me was unfamiliar land, inside me was an unfamiliar change. My mind was swimming with thoughts and choices, swirling around in my head so fast that it almost made me dizzy. There was a choice and I was the only one who could make it.

The change inside me was unsettling, I was unsure of myself, of what I had become. I was unable to control myself, my reactions quicker and my instinct wilder, I was unaware of my next move. So many thoughts were in my head, and they were all moving about that I couldn't concentrate on one, but a familiar yet alien image kept appearing in my head. His warm body pressed against me, his mouth crushed down mine, the hot passion behind the kiss as a hunger broke out inside me I had never felt before... Pure lust.

I snapped back from that thought, I began to cry, I had a choice to make and no one else could make it for me, and it was a life or death situation, no wait ironically it was a death or death situation, my choice was to pick the better of two evil. To die now, never having fulfilled my promise, or to die and become what I hate, knowing that no matter how hard I try chances are I would die again but for good this time. Then I thought back to the fact I was already technically dead, I was in limbo standing at a cross roads between heaven and hell with a simple choice, left or right? Destroy my heart or destroy my soul?

In the end it all came down to the same thing, at some point I would be dead.

Damon came a sat down near me in the grass and a hot blush swept across my cheeks, he smiled a teasing smile, he knew how embraced I was, who could blame me after I had lost control like that earlier. I vowed to myself that I wouldn't lose control again, not when to him it was nothing but hugely comical.

"How come you can walk around in the day?" I said as I picked a blade of grass and twisted it around in my fingers.

Damon, who was laid back and looked as if he were catching some sun for a tan opened his closed eyes and looked over at me.

"The ring" He said holding out right hand for me to inspect "its a nifty little thing,stops me burning to ashes in the sun, kinda like having factor 5000 sunscreen, protection for my flawless delicate skin" He winked at me and I laughed slightly.

I turned my body towards Damon and looked him in the eyes, his eyes were deep filled with masked meaning, there was such sadness seen in the eyes of such a confident and vain person, something had hurt him deep inside and his soul was crying.

"What should I do?" I asked desperately like his answer would clear my head, make my choice and somehow fix the situation and make everything OK. I knew it wouldn't...

He moved his body to a similar position to mine facing me, a smile a cool, coy smile.

"You know what sweetheart, as much as I would love to play teacher and tell you the right answer, I cant, only you can do that, the answer not up here" He said laying his hand gently on the side of my head " but in here" Removing his hand from my head and placing his hand against my heart.

"But what if I make the wrong choice?" I said as another tear ran down my cheek threatening to send showers.

Damon looked at me in the eyes, almost as if he were searching for something and replied "I believe your strong enough to make that choice, your strong, very tough and beautiful , life can be anything you make it, whatever choice you make is the right answer, deep down you already know the answer" He gently caressed my cheek and I nodded slowly in agreement.

A second later our eyes connected and I smiled, against all odds I was right, although Damon couldn't make it everything OK, he could make it better than it already was. For several seconds we just sat silently starring at each other, then Damon's hand moved down to cup the back of my neck and lent his face down towards mine. At first his lip just gently brushed mine, then slowly our lips moved together in a long deep kiss. I pulled away knowing that this kiss was different from the other, were as before it was a wild instinct, this kiss was comfortable and gentle, instead of lust this kiss was something different, something like love.

I was suddenly pulled away from these thought as Damon stood upright and pulled me up with him to face Elena. Elena face looked something caught between annoyance and impatient, although she tried to hide it.

"Have you made up your mind?" her face softened when she looked at the tears running down my cheeks.

I looked from Elena to Damon and back again "I've made my choice".

NOTE FROM WRITER: sorry about the long wait, been overloaded with college work lol :) please comment and tell me what you think x