When I realized Will had tried - maybe even succeeded – to rape Annabel, I laid down on my bedroom floor and cried.
It was the first time I'd cried for years. That night, I completely broke down. I spent hours in my room crying, looking first at pictures of me and Will, then of me and Annabel.
Still, I blamed Annabel. I abandoned her.
But when I found out he did it to Emily, it was different. It hurt, but instead of being ashamed of myself and him, I was just pissed off. And I finally did something about it.